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THE MORTAL IMMORTAL ...........................................................................................................................1

July 16, 1833. This is a memorable anniversary for me; on it I complete my three hundred and

The Wandering Jew? certainly not. More than eighteen centuries have passed over his head. In

Am I, then, immortal? This is a question which I have asked myself, by day and night, for now three hundred

and three years, and yet cannot answer it. I detected a grey hair amidst my brown locks this very day that

surely signifies decay. Yet it may have remained concealed there for three hundred years for some persons

I will tell my story, and my reader shall judge for me. I will tell my story, and so contrive to pass some few

hours of a long eternity, become so wearisome to me. For ever! Can it be? to live for ever! I have heard of

enchantments, in which the victims were plunged into a deep sleep, to wake, after a hundred years, as fresh as

ever: I have heard of the Seven Sleepers thus to be immortal would not be so burthensome: but, oh! the

weight of neverending time the tedious passage of the stillsucceeding hours! How happy was the fabled

All the world has heard of Cornelius Agrippa. His memory is as immortal as his arts have made me. All the

world has also heard of his scholar, who, unawares, raised the foul fiend during his master's absence, and was

destroyed by him. The report, true or false, of this accident, was attended with many inconveniences to the

renowned philosopher. All his scholars at once deserted him his servants disappeared. He had no one near

him to put coals on his everburning fires while he slept, or to attend to the changeful colours of his

medicines while he studied. Experiment after experiment failed, because one pair of hands was insufficient to

complete them: the dark spirits laughed at him for not being able to retain a single mortal in his service.

I was then very young very poor and very much in love. I had been for about a year the pupil of

Cornelius, though I was absent when this accident took place. On my return, my friends implored me not to

return to the alchymist's abode. I trembled as I listened to the dire tale they told; I required no second

warning; and when Cornelius came and offered me a purse of gold if I would remain under his roof, I felt as

if Satan himself tempted me. My teeth chattered my hair stood on end; I ran off as fast as my

My failing steps were directed whither for two years they had every evening been attracted, a gently

bubbling spring of pure living water, beside which lingered a darkhaired girl, whose beaming eyes were

fixed on the path I was accustomed each night to tread. I cannot remember the hour when I did not love

Bertha; we had been neighbours and playmates from infancy, her parents, like mine were of humble life,

yet respectable, our attachment had been a source of pleasure to them. In an evil hour, a malignant fever

carried off both her father and mother, and Bertha became an orphan. She would have found a home beneath

my paternal roof, but, unfortunately, the old lady of the near castle, rich, childless, and solitary, declared her

intention to adopt her. Henceforth Bertha was clad in silk inhabited a marble palace and was looked on

as being highly favoured by fortune. But in her new situation among her new associates, Bertha remained true

to the friend of her humbler days; she often visited the cottage of my father, and when forbidden to go thither,

she would stray towards the neighbouring wood, and meet me beside its shady fountain.

She often declared that she owed no duty to her new protectress equal in sanctity to that which bound us. Yet

still I was too poor to marry, and she grew weary of being tormented on my account. She had a haughty but

an impatient spirit, and grew angry at the obstacle that prevented our union. We met now after an absence,

and she had been sorely beset while I was away; she complained bitterly, and almost reproached me for being

This exclamation produced a thousand questions. I feared to shock her by owning the truth, but she drew it

I protested that I had only dreaded to offend her; while she dwelt on the magnitude of the reward that I

should receive. Thus encouraged shamed by her led on by love and hope, laughing at my later fears,

with quick steps and a light heart, I returned to accept the offers of the alchymist, and was instantly installed

A year passed away. I became possessed of no insignificant sum of money. Custom had banished my fears. In

spite of the most painful vigilance, I had never detected the trace of a cloven foot; nor was the studious

silence of our abode ever disturbed by demoniac howls. I still continued my stolen interviews with Bertha,

and Hope dawned on me Hope but not perfect joy: for Bertha fancied that love and security were

enemies, and her pleasure was to divide them in my bosom. Though true of heart, she was something of a

coquette in manner; I was jealous as a Turk. She slighted me in a thousand ways, yet would never

acknowledge herself to be in the wrong. She would drive me mad with anger, and then force me to beg her

pardon. Sometimes she fancied that I was not sufficiently submissive, and then she had some story of a rival,

favoured by her protectress. She was surrounded by silkclad youths the rich and gay. What chance had

On one occasion, the philosopher made such large demands upon my time, that I was unable to meet her as I

was wont. He was engaged in some mighty work, and I was forced to remain, day and night, feeding his

furnaces and watching his chemical preparations. Bertha waited for me in vain at the fountain. Her haughty

spirit fired at this neglect; and when at last I stole out during a few short minutes allotted to me for slumber,

and hoped to be consoled by her, she received me with disdain, dismissed me in scorn, and vowed that any

man should possess her hand rather than he who could not be in two places at once for her sake. She would

be revenged! And truly she was. In my dingy retreat I heard that she had been hunting, attended by Albert

Hoffer. Albert Hoffer was favoured by her protectress, and the three passed in cavalcade before my smoky

window. Methought that they mentioned my name; it was followed by a laugh of derision, as her dark eyes

Jealousy, with all its venom and all its misery, entered my breast. Now I shed a torrent of tears, to think that I

should never call her mine; and, anon, I imprecated a thousand curses on her inconstancy. Yet, still I must stir

the fires of the alchymist, still attend on the changes of his unintelligible medicines.

Cornelius had watched for three days and nights, nor closed his eyes. The progress of his alembics was

slower than he expected: in spite of his anxiety, sleep weighted upon his eyelids. Again and again he threw

off drowsiness with more than human energy; again and again it stole away his senses. He eyed his crucibles

wistfully. "Not ready yet," he murmured; "will another night pass before the work is accomplished? Winzy,

you are vigilant you are faithful you have slept, my boy you slept last night. Look at that glass

vessel. The liquid it contains is of a soft rosecolour: the moment it begins to change hue, awaken me till

then I may close my eyes. First, it will turn white, and then emit golden flashes; but wait not till then; when

the rosecolour fades, rouse me." I scarcely heard the last words, muttered, as they were, in sleep. Even then

he did not quite yield to nature. "Winzy, my boy," he again said, "do not touch the vessel do not put it to

your lips; it is a philtre a philtre to cure love; you would not cease to love your Bertha beware to

And he slept. His venerable head sunk on his breast, and I scarce heard his regular breathing. For a few

minutes I watched the vessel the rosy hue of the liquid remained unchanged. Then my thoughts wandered

they visited the fountain, and dwelt on a thousand charming scenes never to be renewed never!

Serpents and adders were in my heart as the word "Never!" half formed itself on my lips. False girl! false

and cruel! Never more would she smile on me as that evening she smiled on Albert. Worthless, detested

woman! I would not remain unrevenged she should see Albert expire at her feet she should die beneath

my vengeance. She had smiled in disdain and triumph she knew my wretchedness and her power. Yet

what power had she? the power of exciting my hate my utter scorn my oh, all but indifference!

Could I attain that could I regard her with careless eyes, transferring my rejected love to one fairer and

A bright flash darted before my eyes. I had forgotten the medicine of the adept; I gazed on it with wonder:

flashes of admirable beauty, more bright than those which the diamond emits when the sun's rays are on it,

glanced from the surface of the liquid; and odour the most fragrant and grateful stole over my sense; the

vessel seemed one globe of living radiance, lovely to the eye, and most inviting to the taste. The first thought,

instinctively inspired by the grosser sense, was, I will I must drink. I raised the vessel to my lips. "It will

cure me of love of torture!" Already I had quaffed half of the most delicious liquor ever tasted by the

palate of man, when the philosopher stirred. I started I dropped the glass the fluid flamed and glanced

along the floor, while I felt Cornelius's gripe at my throat, as he shrieked aloud, "Wretch! you have destroyed

The philosopher was totally unaware that I had drunk any portion of his drug. His idea was, and I gave a tacit

assent to it, that I had raised the vessel from curiosity, and that, frightened at its brightness, and the flashes of

intense light it gave forth, I had let it fall. I never undeceived him. The fire of the medicine was quenched

the fragrance died away he grew calm, as a philosopher should under the heaviest trials, and dismissed me

I will not attempt to describe the sleep of glory and bliss which bathed my soul in paradise during the

remaining hours of that memorable night. Words would be faint and shallow types of my enjoyment, or of the

gladness that possessed my bosom when I woke. I trod air my thoughts were in heaven. Earth appeared

heaven, and my inheritance upon it was to be one trance of delight. "This it is to be cured of love," I thought;

"I will see Bertha this day, and she will find her lover cold and regardless; too happy to be disdainful, yet

The hours danced away. The philosopher, secure that he had once succeeded, and believing that he might

again, began to concoct the same medicine once more. He was shut up with his books and drugs, and I had a

holiday. I dressed myself with care; I looked in an old but polished shield which served me for a mirror;

methoughts my good looks had wonderfully improved. I hurried beyond the precincts of the town, joy in my

soul, the beauty of heaven and earth around me. I turned my steps toward the castle I could look on its

lofty turrets with lightness of heart, for I was cured of love. My Bertha saw me afar off, as I came up the

avenue. I know not what sudden impulse animated her bosom, but at the sight, she sprung with a light

fawnlike bound down the marble steps, and was hastening towards me. But I had been perceived by another

person. The old highborn hag, who called herself her protectress, and was her tyrant, had seen me also; she

hobbled, panting, up the terrace; a page, as ugly as herself, held up her train, and fanned her as she hurried

along, and stopped my fair girl with a "How, now, my bold mistress? whither so fast? Back to your cage

Bertha clasped her hands her eyes were still bent on my approaching figure. I saw the contest. How I

abhorred the old crone who checked the kind impulses of my Bertha's softening heart. Hitherto, respect for

her rank had caused me to avoid the lady of the castle; now I disdained such trivial considerations. I was

cured of love, and lifted above all human fears; I hastened forwards, and soon reached the terrace. How

lovely Bertha looked! her eyes flashing fire, her cheeks glowing with impatience and anger, she was a

thousand times more graceful and charming than ever. I no longer loved oh no! I adored worshipped

She had that morning been persecuted, with more than usual vehemence, to consent to an immediate marriage

with my rival. She was reproached with the encouragement that she had shown him she was threatened

with being turned out of doors with disgrace and shame. Her proud spirit rose in arms at the threat; but when

she remembered the scorn that she had heaped upon me, and how, perhaps, she had thus lost one whom she

now regarded as her only friend, she wept with remorse and rage. At that moment I appeared. "Oh, Winzy!"

she exclaimed, "take me to your mother's cot; swiftly let me leave the detested luxuries and wretchedness of

I clasped her in my arms with transport. The old dame was speechless with fury, and broke forth into

invective only when we were far on the road to my natal cottage. My mother received the fair fugitive,

escaped from a gilt cage to nature and liberty, with tenderness and joy; my father, who loved her, welcomed

her heartily; it was a day of rejoicing, which did not need the addition of the celestial potion of the alchymist

Soon after this eventful day, I became the husband of Bertha. I ceased to be the scholar of Cornelius, but I

continued his friend. I always felt grateful to him for having, unaware, procured me that delicious draught of

a divine elixir, which, instead of curing me of love (sad cure! solitary and joyless remedy for evils which

seem blessings to the memory), had inspired me with courage and resolution, thus winning for me an

I often called to mind that period of trancelike inebriation with wonder. The drink of Cornelius had not

fulfilled the task for which he affirmed that it had been prepared, but its effects were more potent and blissful

than words can express. They had faded by degrees, yet they lingered long and painted life in hues of

splendour. Bertha often wondered at my lightness of heart and unaccustomed gaiety; for, before, I had been

rather serious, or even sad, in my disposition. She loved me the better for my cheerful temper, and our days

Five years afterwards I was suddenly summoned to the bedside of the dying Cornelius. He had sent for me in

haste, conjuring my instant presence. I found him stretched on his pallet, enfeebled even to death; all of life

that yet remained animated his piercing eyes, and they were fixed on a glass vessel, full of roseate liquid.

"Behold," he said, in a broken and inward voice, "the vanity of human wishes! a second time my hopes are

about to be crowned, a second time they are destroyed. Look at that liquor you may remember five years

ago I had prepared the same, with the same success; then, as now, my thirsting lips expected to taste the

A faint smile gleamed across his face as I listened earnestly to his scarcely intelligible answer.

"A cure for love and for all things the Elixir of Immortality. Ah! if now I might drink, I should live for

As he spoke, a golden flash gleamed from the fluid; a wellremembered fragrance stole over the air; he

raised himself, all weak as he was strength seemed miraculously to reenter his frame he stretched

forth his hand a loud explosion startled me a ray of fire shot up from the elixir, and the glass vessel

which contained it was shivered to atoms! I turned my eyes towards the philosopher; he had fallen back

But I lived, and was to live for ever! So said the unfortunate alchymist, and for a few days I believed his

words. I remembered the glorious intoxication that had followed my stolen draught. I reflected on the change

I had felt in my frame in my soul. The bounding elasticity of the one the buoyant lightness of the

other. I surveyed myself in a mirror, and could perceive no change in my features during the space of the five

years which had elapsed. I remembered the radiant hues and grateful scent of that delicious beverage

A few days after I laughed at my credulity. The old proverb, that "a prophet is least regarded in his own

country," was true with respect to me and my defunct master. I loved him as a man I respected him as a

sage but I derided the notion that he could command the powers of darkness, and laughed at the

superstitious fears with which he was regarded by the vulgar. He was a wise philosopher, but had no

acquaintance with any spirits but those clad in flesh and blood. His science was simply human; and human

science, I soon persuaded myself, could never conquer nature's laws so far as to imprison the soul for ever

within its carnal habitation. Cornelius had brewed a soulrefreshing drink more inebriating than wine

sweeter and more fragrant than any fruit: it possessed probably strong medicinal powers, imparting gladness

to the heart and vigour to the limbs; but its effects would wear out; already they were diminished in my

frame. I was a lucky fellow to have quaffed health and joyous spirits, and perhaps a long life, at my master's

hands; but my good fortune ended there: longevity was far different from immortality.

I continued to entertain this belief for many years. Sometimes a thought stole across me Was the

alchymist indeed deceived? But my habitual credence was, that I should meet the fate of all the children of

Adam at my appointed time a little late, but still at a natural age. Yet it was certain that I retained a

wonderfully youthful look. I was laughed at for my vanity in consulting the mirror so often, but I consulted it

in vain my brow was untrenched my cheeks my eyes my whole person continued as untarnished

I was troubled. I looked at the faded beauty of Bertha I seemed more like her son. By degrees our

neighbors began to make similar observations, and I found at last that I went by the name of the Scholar

bewitched. Bertha herself grew uneasy. She became jealous and peevish, and at length she began to question

me. We had no children; we were all in all to each other; and though, as she grew older, her vivacious spirit

became a little allied to illtemper, and her beauty sadly diminished, I cherished her in my heart as the

At last our situation became intolerable: Bertha was fifty I twenty years of age. I had, in very shame, in

some measure adopted the habits of advanced age; I no longer mingled in the dance among the young and

gay, but my heart bounded along with them while I restrained my feet; and a sorry figure I cut among the

Nestors of our village. But before the time I mention, things were altered we were universally shunned;

we were at least, I was reported to have kept up an iniquitous acquaintance with some of my former

master's supposed friends. Poor Bertha was pitied, but deserted. I was regarded with horror and detestation.

What was to be done? we sat by our winter fire poverty had made itself felt, for none would buy the

produce of my farm; and often I had been forced to journey twenty miles to some place where I was not

known, to dispose of our property. It is true, we had saved something for an evil day that day was come.

We sat by our lone fireside the oldhearted youth and his antiquated wife. Again Bertha insisted on

knowing the truth; she recapitulated all she had ever heard said about me, and added her own observations.

She conjured me to cast off the spell; she described how much more comely grey hairs were than my chestnut

locks; she descanted on the reverence and respect due to age how preferable to the slight regard paid to

mere children: could I imagine that the despicable gifts of youth and good looks outweighed disgrace, hatred

and scorn? Nay, in the end I should be burnt as a dealer in the black art, while she, to whom I had not deigned

to communicate any portion of my good fortune, might be stoned as my accomplice. At length she insinuated

that I must share my secret with her, and bestow on her like benefits to those I myself enjoyed, or she would

Thus beset, methought it was the best way to tell the truth. I reveled it as tenderly as I could, and spoke only

of a very long life, not of immortality which representation, indeed, coincided best with my own ideas.

"And now, my Bertha, will you denounce the lover of your youth? You will not, I know. But it is too

hard, my poor wife, that you should suffer for my illluck and the accursed arts of Cornelius. I will leave you

you have wealth enough, and friends will return in my absence. I will go; young as I seem and strong as I

am, I can work and gain my bread among strangers, unsuspected and unknown. I loved you in youth; God is

my witness that I would not desert you in age, but that your safety and happiness require it."

I took my cap and moved toward the door; in a moment Bertha's arms were round my neck, and her lips were

pressed to mine. "No, my husband, my Winzy," she said, "you shall not go alone take me with you; we

will remove from this place, and, as you say, among strangers we shall be unsuspected and safe. I am not so

old as quite to shame you, my Winzy; and I daresay the charm will soon wear off, and, with the blessing of

God, you will become more elderlylooking, as is fitting; you shall not leave me."

I returned the good soul's embrace heartily. "I will not, my Bertha; but for your sake I had not thought of such

a thing. I will be your true, faithful husband while you are spared to me, and do my duty by you to the last."

The next day we prepared secretly for our emigration. We were obliged to make great pecuniary sacrifices

it could not be helped. We realized a sum sufficient, at least, to maintain us while Bertha lived; and, without

saying adieu to any one, quitted our native country to take refuge in a remote part of western France.

It was a cruel thing to transport poor Bertha from her native village, and the friends of her youth, to a new

country, new language, new customs. The strange secret of my destiny rendered this removal immaterial to

me; but I compassionated her deeply, and was glad to perceive that she found compensation for her

misfortunes in a variety of little ridiculous circumstances. Away from all telltale chroniclers, she sought to

decrease the apparent disparity of our ages by a thousand feminine arts rouge, youthful dress, and

assumed juvenility of manner. I could not be angry. Did I not myself wear a mask? Why quarrel with hers,

because it was less successful? I grieved deeply when I remembered that this was my Bertha, whom I had

loved so fondly and won with such transport the darkeyed, darkhaired girl, with smiles of enchanting

archness and a step like a fawn this mincing, simpering, jealous old woman. I should have revered her

grey locks and withered cheeks; but thus! It was my work, I knew; but I did not the less deplore this type

Her jealously never slept. Her chief occupation was to discover that, in spite of outward appearances, I was

myself growing old. I verily believe that the poor soul loved me truly in her heart, but never had woman so

tormenting a mode of displaying fondness. She would discern wrinkles in my face and decrepitude in my

walk, while I bounded along in youthful vigour, the youngest looking of twenty youths. I never dared address

another woman. On one occasion, fancying that the belle of the village regarded me with favouring eyes, she

brought me a grey wig. Her constant discourse among her acquaintances was, that though I looked so young,

there was ruin at work within my frame; and she affirmed that the worst symptom about me was my apparent

health. My youth was a disease, she said, and I ought at all times to prepare, if not for a sudden and awful

death, at least to awake some morning whiteheaded and bowed down with all the marks of advanced years. I

let her talk I often joined in her conjectures. Her warnings chimed in with my neverceasing speculations

concerning my state, and I took an earnest, though painful, interest in listening to all that her quick wit and

Why dwell on these minute circumstances? We lived on for many long years. Bertha became bedrid and

paralytic; I nursed her as a mother might a child. She grew peevish, and still harped upon one string of

how long I should survive her. It has ever been a source of consolation to me, that I performed my duty

scrupulously towards her. She had been mine in youth, she was mine in age; and at last, when I heaped the

sod over her corpse, I wept to feel that I had lost all that really bound me to humanity.

Since then how many have been my cares and woes, how few and empty my enjoyments! I pause here in my

history I will pursue it no further. A sailor without rudder or compass, tossed on a stormy sea a

traveller lost on a widespread heath, without landmark or stone to guide him such I have been: more lost,

more hopeless than either. A nearing ship, a gleam from some far cot, may save them; but I have no beacon

Death! mysterious, illvisaged friend of weak humanity! Why alone of all mortals have you cast me from

your sheltering fold? Oh, for the peace of the grave! the deep silence of the ironbound tomb! that thought

would cease to work in my brain, and my heart beat no more with emotions varied only by new forms of

Am I immortal? I return to my first question. In the first place, is it not more probably that the beverage of the

alchymist was fraught rather with longevity than eternal life? Such is my hope. And then be it remembered,

that I only drank half of the potion prepared by him. Was not the whole necessary to complete the charm? To

have drained half the Elixir of Immortality is but to be halfimmortal my Forever is thus truncated and

But again, who shall number the years of the half of eternity? I often try to imagine by what rule the infinite

may be divided. Sometimes I fancy age advancing upon me. One grey hair I have found. Fool! do I lament?

Yes, the fear of age and death often creeps coldly into my heart; and the more I live, the more I dread death,

even while I abhor life. Such an enigma is man born to perish when he wars, as I do, against the

But for this anomaly of feeling surely I might die: the medicine of the alchymist would not be proof against

fire sword and the strangling waters. I have gazed upon the blue depths of many a placid lake, and the

tumultuous rushing of many a mighty river, and have said, peace inhabits those waters; yet I have turned my

steps away, to live yet another day. I have asked myself, whether suicide would be a crime in one to whom

thus only the portals of the other world could be opened. I have done all, except presenting myself as a

soldier or duelist, an objection of destruction to my no, not my fellow mortals, and therefore I have shrunk

away. They are not my fellows. The inextinguishable power of life in my frame, and their ephemeral

existence, places us wide as the poles asunder. I could not raise a hand against the meanest or the most

Thus have I lived on for many a year alone, and weary of myself desirous of death, yet never dying

a mortal immortal. Neither ambition nor avarice can enter my mind, and the ardent love that gnaws at my

heart, never to be returned never to find an equal on which to expend itself lives there only to torment

This very day I conceived a design by which I may end all without selfslaughter, without making

another man a Cain an expedition, which mortal frame can never survive, even endued with the youth and

strength that inhabits mine. Thus I shall put my immortality to the test, and rest for ever or return, the

Before I go, a miserable vanity has caused me to pen these pages. I would not die, and leave no name behind.

Three centuries have passed since I quaffed the fatal beverage; another year shall not elapse before,

encountering gigantic dangers warring with the powers of frost in their home beset by famine, toil, and

tempest I yield this body, too tenacious a cage for a soul which thirsts for freedom, to the destructive

elements of air and water; or, if I survive, my name shall be recorded as one of the most famous among the

sons of men; and, my task achieved, I shall adopt more resolute means, and, by scattering and annihilating the

atoms that compose my frame, set at liberty the life imprisoned within, and so cruelly prevented from soaring