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BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER. ........................................................................................................1
MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN." ..................................................................................................6
THE INEVITABLE TRIAL..................................................................................................................30
CINDERS FROM THE ASHES. ...........................................................................................................45
THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.............................................................................................................53
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BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER.
MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN."
THE INEVITABLE TRIAL
CINDERS FROM THE ASHES.
THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.
BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER.
(September, 1861.)
This is the new version of the Panem et Circenses of the Roman populace. It is our ultimatum, as that was
theirs. They must have something to eat, and the circusshows to look at. We must have something to eat,
and the papers to read.
Everything else we can give up. If we are rich, we can lay down our carriages, stay away from Newport or
Saratoga, and adjourn the trip to Europe sine die. If we live in a small way, there are at least new dresses and
bonnets and everyday luxuries which we can dispense with. If the young Zouave of the family looks smart
in his new uniform, its respectable head is content, though he himself grow seedy as a carawayumbel late in
the season. He will cheerfully calm the perturbed nap of his old beaver by patient brushing in place of buying
a new one, if only the Lieutenant's jaunty cap is what it should be. We all take a pride in sharing the epidemic
economy of the time. Only bread and the newspaper we must have, whatever else we do without.
How this war is simplifying our mode of being! We live on our emotions, as the sick man is said in the
common speech to be nourished by his fever. Our ordinary mental food has become distasteful, and what
would have been intellectual luxuries at other times, are now absolutely repulsive.
All this change in our manner of existence implies that we have experienced some very profound impression,
which will sooner or later betray itself in permanent effects on the minds and bodies of many among us. We
cannot forget Corvisart's observation of the frequency with which diseases of the heart were noticed as the
consequence of the terrible emotions produced by the scenes of the great French Revolution. Laennec tells
the story of a convent, of which he was the medical director, where all the nuns were subjected to the severest
penances and schooled in the most painful doctrines. They all became consumptive soon after their entrance,
so that, in the course of his ten years' attendance, all the inmates died out two or three times, and were
replaced by new ones. He does not hesitate to attribute the disease from which they suffered to those
depressing moral influences to which they were subjected.
So far we have noticed little more than disturbances of the nervous system as a consequence of the war
excitement in noncombatants. Take the first trifling example which comes to our recollection. A sad disaster
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to the Federal army was told the other day in the presence of two gentlemen and a lady. Both the gentlemen
complained of a sudden feeling at the epigastrium, or, less learnedly, the pit of the stomach, changed color,
and confessed to a slight tremor about the knees. The lady had a "grande revolution," as French patients say,
went home, and kept her bed for the rest of the day. Perhaps the reader may smile at the mention of such
trivial indispositions, but in more sensitive natures death itself follows in some cases from no more serious
cause. An old, gentleman fell senseless in fatal apoplexy, on hearing of Napoleon's return from Elba. One of
our early friends, who recently died of the same complaint, was thought to have had his attack mainly in
consequence of the excitements of the time.
We all know what the war fever is in our young men,what a devouring passion it becomes in those whom
it assails. Patriotism is the fire of it, no doubt, but this is fed with fuel of all sorts. The love of adventure, the
contagion of example, the fear of losing the chance of participating in the great events of the time, the desire
of personal distinction, all help to produce those singular transformations which we often witness, turning the
most peaceful of our youth into the most ardent of our soldiers. But something of the same fever in a different
form reaches a good many noncombatants, who have no thought of losing a drop of precious blood
belonging to themselves or their families. Some of the symptoms we shall mention are almost universal; they
are as plain in the people we meet everywhere as the marks of an influenza, when that is prevailing.
The first is a nervous restlessness of a very peculiar character. Men cannot think, or write, or attend to their
ordinary business. They stroll up and down the streets, or saunter out upon the public places. We confessed to
an illustrious author that we laid down the volume of his work which we were reading when the war broke
out. It was as interesting as a romance, but the romance of the past grew pale before the red light of the
terrible present. Meeting the same author not long afterwards, he confessed that he had laid down his pen at
the same time that we had closed his book. He could not write about the sixteenth century any more than we
could read about it, while the nineteenth was in the very agony and bloody sweat of its great sacrifice.
Another most eminent scholar told us in all simplicity that he had fallen into such a state that he would read
the same telegraphic dispatches over and over again in different papers, as if they were new, until he felt as if
he were an idiot. Who did not do just the same thing, and does not often do it still, now that the first flush of
the fever is over? Another person always goes through the side streets on his way for the noon extra,he is
so afraid somebody will meet him and tell the news he wishes to read, first on the bulletin board, and then in
the great capitals and leaded type of the newspaper.
When any startling piece of warnews comes, it keeps repeating itself in our minds in spite of all we can do.
The same trains of thought go tramping round in circle through the brain, like the supernumeraries that make
up the grand army of a stageshow. Now, if a thought goes round through the brain a thousand times in a
day, it will have worn as deep a track as one which has passed through it once a week for twenty years. This
accounts for the ages we seem to have lived since the twelfth of April last, and, to state it more generally, for
that ex post facto operation of a great calamity, or any very powerful impression, which we once illustrated
by the image of a stain spreading backwards from the leaf of life open before as through all those which we
have already turned.
Blessed are those who can sleep quietly in times like these! Yet, not wholly blessed, either; for what is more
painful than the awaking from peaceful unconsciousness to a sense that there is something wrong, we cannot
at first think what,and then groping our way about through the twilight of our thoughts until we come full
upon the misery, which, like some evil bird, seemed to have flown away, but which sits waiting for us on its
perch by our pillow in the gray of the morning?
The converse of this is perhaps still more painful. Many have the feeling in their waking hours that the
trouble they are aching with is, after all, only a dream,if they will rub their eyes briskly enough and shake
themselves, they will awake out of it, and find all their supposed grief is unreal. This attempt to cajole
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ourselves out of an ugly fact always reminds us of those unhappy flies who have been indulging in the
dangerous sweets of the paper prepared for their especial use.
Watch one of them. He does not feel quite well,at least, he suspects himself of indisposition. Nothing
serious,let us just rub our forefeet together, as the enormous creature who provides for us rubs his hands,
and all will be right. He rubs them with that peculiar twisting movement of his, and pauses for the effect. No!
all is not quite right yet. Ah! it is our head that is not set on just as it ought to be. Let us settle that where it
should be, and then we shall certainly be in good trim again. So he pulls his head about as an old lady adjusts
her cap, and passes his forepaw over it like a kitten washing herself. Poor fellow! It is not a fancy, but a fact,
that he has to deal with. If he could read the letters at the head of the sheet, he would see they were
FlyPaper. So with us, when, in our waking misery, we try to think we dream! Perhaps very young
persons may not understand this; as we grow older, our waking and dreaming life run more and more into
each other.
Another symptom of our excited condition is seen in the breaking up of old habits. The newspaper is as
imperious as a Russian Ukase; it will be had, and it will be read. To this all else must give place. If we must
go out at unusual hours to get it, we shall go, in spite of afterdinner nap or evening somnolence. If it finds us
in company, it will not stand on ceremony, but cuts short the compliment and the story by the divine right of
its telegraphic dispatches.
War is a very old story, but it is a new one to this generation of Americans. Our own nearest relation in the
ascending line remembers the Revolution well. How should she forget it? Did she not lose her doll, which
was left behind, when she was carried out of Boston, about that time growing uncomfortable by reason of
cannonballs dropping in from the neighboring heights at all hours,in token of which see the tower of
Brattle Street Church at this very day? War in her memory means '76. As for the brush of 1812, "we did not
think much about that"; and everybody knows that the Mexican business did not concern us much, except in
its political relations. No! war is a new thing to all of us who are not in the last quarter of their century. We
are learning many strange matters from our fresh experience. And besides, there are new conditions of
existence which make war as it is with us very different from war as it has been.
The first and obvious difference consists in the fact that the whole nation is now penetrated by the
ramifications of a network of iron nerves which flash sensation and volition backward and forward to and
from towns and provinces as if they were organs and limbs of a single living body. The second is the vast
system of iron muscles which, as it were, move the limbs of the mighty organism one upon another. What
was the railroadforce which put the Sixth Regiment in Baltimore on the 19th of April but a contraction and
extension of the arm of Massachusetts with a clenched fist full of bayonets at the end of it?
This perpetual intercommunication, joined to the power of instantaneous action, keeps us always alive with
excitement. It is not a breathless courier who comes back with the report from an army we have lost sight of
for a month, nor a single bulletin which tells us all we are to know for a week of some great engagement, but
almost hourly paragraphs, laden with truth or falsehood as the case may be, making us restless always for the
last fact or rumor they are telling. And so of the movements of our armies. Tonight the stout lumbermen of
Maine are encamped under their own fragrant pines. In a score or two of hours they are among the
tobaccofields and the slavepens of Virginia. The war passion burned like scattered coals of fire in the
households of Revolutionary times; now it rushes all through the land like a flame over the prairie. And this
instant diffusion of every fact and feeling produces another singular effect in the equalizing and steadying of
public opinion. We may not be able to see a month ahead of us; but as to what has passed a week afterwards
it is as thoroughly talked out and judged as it would have been in a whole season before our national nervous
system was organized.
"As the wild tempest wakes the slumbering sea,
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Thou only teachest all that man can be!"
We indulged in the above apostrophe to War in a Phi Beta Kappa poem of long ago, which we liked better
before we read Mr. Cutler's beautiful prolonged lyric delivered at the recent anniversary of that Society.
Oftentimes, in paroxysms of peace and goodwill towards all mankind, we have felt twinges of conscience
about the passage,especially when one of our orators showed us that a ship of war costs as much to build
and keep as a college, and that every porthole we could stop would give us a new professor. Now we begin
to think that there was some meaning in our poor couplet. War has taught us, as nothing else could, what we
can be and are. It has exalted our manhood and our womanhood, and driven us all back upon our substantial
human qualities, for a long time more or less kept out of sight by the spirit of commerce, the love of art,
science, or literature, or other qualities not belonging to all of us as men and women.
It is at this very moment doing more to melt away the petty social distinctions which keep generous souls
apart from each other, than the preaching of the Beloved Disciple himself would do. We are finding out that
not only "patriotism is eloquence," but that heroism is gentility. All ranks are wonderfully equalized under
the fire of a masked battery. The plain artisan or the rough fireman, who faces the lead and iron like a man, is
the truest representative we can show of the heroes of Crecy and Agincourt. And if one of our fine gentlemen
puts off his strawcolored kids and stands by the other, shoulder to shoulder, or leads him on to the attack, he
is as honorable in our eyes and in theirs as if he were illdressed and his hands were soiled with labor.
Even our poor "Brahmins,"whom a critic in groundglass spectacles (the same who grasps his statistics by
the blade and strikes at his supposed antagonist with the handle) oddly confounds with the, "bloated
aristocracy;" whereas they are very commonly pallid, undervitalized, shy, sensitive creatures, whose only
birthright is an aptitude for learning,even these poor New England Brahmins of ours, subvirates of an
organizable base as they often are, count as full men, if their courage is big enough for the uniform which
hangs so loosely about their slender figures.
A young man was drowned not very long ago in the river running under our windows. A few days afterwards
a field piece was dragged to the water's edge, and fired many times over the river. We asked a bystander, who
looked like a fisherman, what that was for. It was to "break the gall," he said, and so bring the drowned
person to the surface. A strange physiological fancy and a very odd non sequitur; but that is not our present
point. A good many extraordinary objects do really come to the surface when the great guns of war shake the
waters, as when they roared over Charleston harbor.
Treason came up, hideous, fit only to be huddled into its dishonorable grave. But the wrecks of precious
virtues, which had been covered with the waves of prosperity, came up also. And all sorts of unexpected and
unheardof things, which had lain unseen during our national life of fourscore years, came up and are coming
up daily, shaken from their bed by the concussions of the artillery bellowing around us.
It is a shame to own it, but there were persons otherwise respectable not unwilling to say that they believed
the old valor of Revolutionary times had died out from among us. They talked about our own Northern
people as the English in the last centuries used to talk about the French,Goldsmith's old soldier, it may be
remembered, called one Englishman good for five of them. As Napoleon spoke of the English, again, as a
nation of shopkeepers, so these persons affected to consider the multitude of their countrymen as unwarlike
artisans,forgetting that Paul Revere taught himself the value of liberty in working upon gold, and
Nathaniel Greene fitted himself to shape armies in the labor of forging iron. These persons have learned
better now. The bravery of our free workingpeople was overlaid, but not smothered; sunken, but not
drowned. The hands which had been busy conquering the elements had only to change their weapons and
their adversaries, and they were as ready to conquer the masses of living force opposed to them as they had
been to build towns, to dam rivers, to hunt whales, to harvest ice, to hammer brute matter into every shape
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civilization can ask for.
Another great fact came to the surface, and is coming up every day in new shapes,that we are one people.
It is easy to say that a man is a man in Maine or Minnesota, but not so easy to feel it, all through our bones
and marrow. The camp is deprovincializing us very fast. Brave Winthrop, marching with the city elegants,
seems to have been a little startled to find how wonderfully human were the hardhanded men of the Eighth
Massachusetts. It takes all the nonsense out of everybody, or ought to do it, to see how fairly the real
manhood of a country is distributed over its surface. And then, just as we are beginning to think our own soil
has a monopoly of heroes as well as of cotton, up turns a regiment of gallant Irishmen, like the Sixty ninth,
to show us that continental provincialism is as bad as that of Coos County, New Hampshire, or of Broadway,
New York.
Here, too, side by side in the same great camp, are half a dozen chaplains, representing half a dozen modes of
religious belief. When the masked battery opens, does the "Baptist" Lieutenant believe in his heart that God
takes better care of him than of his "Congregationalist" Colonel? Does any man really suppose, that, of a
score of noble young fellows who have just laid down their lives for their country, the Homoousians are
received to the mansions of bliss, and the Homoousians translated from the battlefield to the abodes of
everlasting woe? War not only teaches what man can be, but it teaches also what he must not be. He must not
be a bigot and a fool in the presence of that day of judgment proclaimed by the trumpet which calls to battle,
and where a man should have but two thoughts: to do his duty, and trust his Maker. Let our brave dead come
back from the fields where they have fallen for law and liberty, and if you will follow them to their graves,
you will find out what the Broad Church means; the narrow church is sparing of its exclusive formulae over
the coffins wrapped in the flag which the fallen heroes had defended! Very little comparatively do we hear at
such times of the dogmas on which men differ; very much of the faith and trust in which all sincere
Christians can agree. It is a noble lesson, and nothing less noisy than the voice of cannon can teach it so that
it shall be heard over all the angry cries of theological disputants.
Now, too, we have a chance to test the sagacity of our friends, and to get at their principles of judgment.
Perhaps most, of us, will agree that our faith in domestic prophets has been diminished by the experience of
the last six months. We had the notable predictions attributed to the Secretary of State, which so unpleasantly
refused to fulfil themselves. We were infested at one time with a set of ominouslooking seers, who shook
their heads and muttered obscurely about some mighty preparations that were making to substitute the rule of
the minority for that of the majority. Organizations were darkly hinted at; some thought our armories would
be seized; and there are not wanting ancient women in the neighboring University town who consider that the
country was saved by the intrepid band of students who stood guard, night after night, over the G. R. cannon
and the pile of balls in the Cambridge Arsenal.
As a general rule, it is safe to say that the best prophecies are those which the sages remember after the event
prophesied of has come to pass, and remind us that they have made long ago. Those who, are rash enough to
predict publicly beforehand commonly give us what they hope, or what they fear, or some conclusion from an
abstraction of their own, or some guess founded on private information not half so good as what everybody
gets who reads the papers,never by any possibility a word that we can depend on, simply because there are
cobwebs of contingency between every today and tomorrow that no fieldglass can penetrate when fifty of
them lie woven one over another. Prophesy as much as you like, but always hedge. Say that you think the
rebels are weaker than is commonly supposed, but, on the other hand, that they may prove to be even stronger
than is anticipated. Say what you like,only don't be too peremptory and dogmatic; we know that wiser men
than you have been notoriously deceived in their predictions in this very matter.
Ibis et redibis nunquam in bello peribis.
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Let that be your model; and remember, on peril of your reputation as a prophet, not to put a stop before or
after the nunquam.
There are two or three facts connected with time, besides that already referred to, which strike us very
forcibly in their relation to the great events passing around us. We spoke of the long period seeming to have
elapsed since this war began. The buds were then swelling which held the leaves that are still green. It seems
as old as Time himself. We cannot fail to observe how the mind brings together the scenes of today and
those of the old Revolution. We shut up eighty years into each other like the joints of a pocket telescope.
When the young men from Middlesex dropped in Baltimore the other day, it seemed to bring Lexington and
the other Nineteenth of April close to us. War has always been the mint in which the world's history has been
coined, and now every day or week or month has a new medal for us. It was Warren that the first impression
bore in the last great coinage; if it is Ellsworth now, the new face hardly seems fresher than the old. All
battlefields are alike in their main features. The young fellows who fell in our earlier struggle seemed like
old men to us until within these few months; now we remember they were like these fiery youth we are
cheering as they go to the fight; it seems as if the grass of our bloody hillside was crimsoned but yesterday,
and the cannonball imbedded in the church tower would feel warm, if we laid our hand upon it.
Nay, in this our quickened life we feel that all the battles from earliest time to our own day, where Right and
Wrong have grappled, are but one great battle, varied with brief pauses or hasty bivouacs upon the field of
conflict. The issues seem to vary, but it is always a right against a claim, and, however the struggle of the
hour may go, a movement onward of the campaign, which uses defeat as well as victory to serve its mighty
ends. The very implements of our warfare change less than we think. Our bullets and cannonballs have
lengthened into bolts like those which whistled out of old arbalests. Our soldiers fight with weapons, such as
are pictured on the walls of Theban tombs, wearing a newly invented headgear as old as the days of the
Pyramids.
Whatever miseries this war brings upon us, it is making us wiser, and, we trust, better. Wiser, for we are
learning our weakness, our narrowness, our selfishness, our ignorance, in lessons of sorrow and shame.
Better, because all that is noble in men and women is demanded by the time, and our people are rising to the
standard the time calls for. For this is the question the hour is putting to each of us: Are you ready, if need be,
to sacrifice all that you have and hope for in this world, that the generations to follow you may inherit a
whole country whose natural condition shall be peace, and not a broken province which must live under the
perpetual threat, if not in the constant presence, of war and all that war brings with it? If we are all ready for
this sacrifice, battles may be lost, but the campaign and its grand object must be won.
Heaven is very kind in its way of putting questions to mortals. We are not abruptly asked to give up all that
we most care for, in view of the momentous issues before us. Perhaps we shall never be asked to give up all,
but we have already been called upon to part with much that is dear to us, and should be ready to yield the
rest as it is called for. The time may come when even the cheap public print shall be a burden our means
cannot support, and we can only listen in the square that was once the marketplace to the voices of those who
proclaim defeat or victory. Then there will be only our daily food left. When we have nothing to read and
nothing to eat, it will be a favorable moment to offer a compromise. At present we have all that nature
absolutely demands,we can live on bread and the newspaper.
MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN."
In the dead of the night which closed upon the bloody field of Antietam, my household was startled from its
slumbers by the loud summons of a telegraphic messenger. The air had been heavy all day with rumors of
battle, and thousands and tens of thousands had walked the streets with throbbing hearts, in dread anticipation
of the tidings any hour might bring.
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We rose hastily, and presently the messenger was admitted. I took the envelope from his hand, opened it, and
read:
HAGERSTOWN 17th
To__________ H ______
Capt H______ wounded shot through the neck thought not mortal at
Keedysville
WILLIAM G. LEDUC
Through the neck,no bullet left in wound. Windpipe, foodpipe, carotid, jugular, half a dozen smaller, but
still formidable vessels, a great braid of nerves, each as big as a lampwick, spinal cord, ought to kill at
once, if at all. Thought not mortal, or not thought mortal,which was it? The first; that is better than the
second would be. "Keedysville, a postoffice, Washington Co., Maryland." Leduc? Leduc? Don't remember
that name. The boy is waiting for his money. A dollar and thirteen cents. Has nobody got thirteen cents?
Don't keep that boy waiting,how do we know what messages he has got to carry?
The boy had another message to carry. It was to the father of LieutenantColonel Wilder Dwight, informing
him that his son was grievously wounded in the same battle, and was lying at Boonsborough, a town a few
miles this side of Keedysville. This I learned the next morning from the civil and attentive officials at the
Central Telegraph Office.
Calling upon this gentleman, I found that he meant to leave in the quarter past two o'clock train, taking with
him Dr. George H. Gay, an accomplished and energetic surgeon, equal to any difficult question or pressing
emergency. I agreed to accompany them, and we met in the cars. I felt myself peculiarly fortunate in having
companions whose society would be a pleasure, whose feelings would harmonize with my own, and whose
assistance I might, in case of need, be glad to claim.
It is of the journey which we began together, and which I finished apart, that I mean to give my "Atlantic"
readers an account. They must let me tell my story in my own way, speaking of many little matters that
interested or amused me, and which a certain leisurely class of elderly persons, who sit at their firesides and
never travel, will, I hope, follow with a kind of interest. For, besides the main object of my excursion, I could
not help being excited by the incidental sights and occurrences of a trip which to a commercial traveller or a
newspaperreporter would seem quite commonplace and undeserving of record. There are periods in which
all places and people seem to be in a conspiracy to impress us with their individuality, in which every
ordinary locality seems to assume a special significance and to claim a particular notice, in which every
person we meet is either an old acquaintance or a character; days in which the strangest coincidences are
continually happening, so that they get to be the rule, and not the exception. Some might naturally think that
anxiety and the weariness of a prolonged search after a near relative would have prevented my taking any
interest in or paying any regard to the little matters around me. Perhaps it had just the contrary effect, and
acted like a diffused stimulus upon the attention. When all the faculties are wideawake in pursuit of a single
object, or fixed in the spasm of an absorbing emotion, they are oftentimes clairvoyant in a marvellous degree
in respect to many collateral things, as Wordsworth has so forcibly illustrated in his sonnet on the Boy of
Windermere, and as Hawthorne has developed with such metaphysical accuracy in that chapter of his
wondrous story where Hester walks forth to meet her punishment.
Be that as it may,though I set out with a full and heavy heart, though many times my blood chilled with
what were perhaps needless and unwise fears, though I broke through all my habits without thinking about
them, which is almost as hard in certain circumstances as for one of our young fellows to leave his sweetheart
and go into a Peninsular campaign, though I did not always know when I was hungry nor discover that I was
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thirsting, though I had a worrying ache and inward tremor underlying all the outward play of the senses and
the mind, yet it is the simple truth that I did look out of the car windows with an eye for all that passed, that
I did take cognizance of strange sights and singular people, that I did act much as persons act from the
ordinary promptings of curiosity, and from time to time even laugh very much as others do who are attacked
with a convulsive sense of the ridiculous, the epilepsy of the diaphragm.
By a mutual compact, we talked little in the cars. A communicative friend is the greatest nuisance to have at
one's side during a railroad journey, especially if his conversation is stimulating and in itself agreeable. "A
fast train and a 'slow' neighbor," is my motto. Many times, when I have got upon the cars, expecting to be
magnetized into an hour or two of blissful reverie, my thoughts shaken up by the vibrations into all sorts of
new and pleasing patterns, arranging themselves in curves and nodal points, like the grains of sand in
Chladni's famous experiment,fresh ideas coming up to the surface, as the kernels do when a measure of
corn is jolted in a farmer's wagon,all this without volition, the mechanical impulse alone keeping the
thoughts in motion, as the mere act of carrying certain watches in the pocket keeps them wound up,many
times, I say, just as my brain was beginning to creep and hum with this delicious locomotive intoxication,
some dear detestable friend, cordial, intelligent, social, radiant, has come up and sat down by me and opened
a conversation which has broken my daydream, unharnessed the flying horses that were whirling along my
fancies and hitched on the old weary omnibusteam of everyday associations, fatigued my hearing and
attention, exhausted my voice, and milked the breasts of my thought dry during the hour when they should
have been filling themselves full of fresh juices. My friends spared me this trial.
So, then, I sat by the window and enjoyed the slight tipsiness produced by short, limited, rapid oscillations,
which I take to be the exhilarating stage of that condition which reaches hopeless inebriety in what we know
as seasickness. Where the horizon opened widely, it pleased me to watch the curious effect of the rapid
movement of near objects contrasted with the slow motion of distant ones. Looking from a righthand
window, for instance, the fences close by glide swiftly backward, or to the right, while the distant hills not
only do not appear to move backward, but look by contrast with the fences near at hand as if they were
moving forward, or to the left; and thus the whole landscape becomes a mighty wheel revolving about an
imaginary axis somewhere in the middledistance.
My companions proposed to stay at one of the bestknown and longest established of the NewYork
caravansaries, and I accompanied them. We were particularly well lodged, and not uncivilly treated. The
traveller who supposes that he is to repeat the melancholy experience of Shenstone, and have to sigh over the
reflection that he has found "his warmest welcome at an inn," has something to learn at the offices of the
great city hotels. The unheralded guest who is honored by mere indifference may think himself blessed with
singular goodfortune. If the despot of the PatentAnnunciator is only mildly contemptuous in his manner,
let the victim look upon it as a personal favor. The coldest welcome that a threadbare curate ever got at the
door of a bishop's palace, the most icy reception that a country cousin ever received at the city mansion of a
mushroom millionaire, is agreeably tepid, compared to that which the Rhadamanthus who dooms you to the
more or less elevated circle of his inverted Inferno vouchsafes, as you step up to enter your name on his
dog'seared register. I have less hesitation in unburdening myself of this uncomfortable statement, as on this
particular trip I met with more than one exception to the rule. Officials become brutalized, I suppose, as a
matter of course. One cannot expect an office clerk to embrace tenderly every stranger who comes in with a
carpetbag, or a telegraph operator to burst into tears over every unpleasant message he receives for
transmission. Still, humanity is not always totally extinguished in these persons. I discovered a youth in a
telegraph office of the Continental Hotel, in Philadelphia, who was as pleasant in conversation, and as
graciously responsive to inoffensive questions, as if I had been his childless opulent uncle and my will not
made.
On the road again the next morning, over the ferry, into the cars with sliding panels and fixed windows, so
that in summer the whole side of the car maybe made transparent. New Jersey is, to the apprehension of a
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traveller, a doubleheaded suburb rather than a State. Its dull red dust looks like the dried and powdered mud
of a battlefield. Peachtrees are common, and champagneorchards. Canalboats, drawn by mules, swim
by, feeling their way along like blind men led by dogs. I had a mighty passion come over me to be the captain
of one,to glide back and forward upon a sea never roughened by storms,to float where I could not
sink,to navigate where there is no shipwreck,to lie languidly on the deck and govern the huge craft by a
word or the movement of a finger: there was something of railroad intoxication in the fancy: but who has not
often envied a cobbler in his stall?
The boys cry the "N'York Heddle," instead of "Herald "; I remember that years ago in Philadelphia; we must
be getting near the farther end of the dumbbell suburb. A bridge has been swept away by a rise of the
waters, so we must approach Philadelphia by the river. Her physiognomy is not distinguished; nez camus, as
a Frenchman would say; no illustrious steeple, no imposing tower; the wateredge of the town looking
bedraggled, like the flounce of a vulgar rich woman's dress that trails on the sidewalk. The New Ironsides lies
at one of the wharves, elephantine in bulk and color, her sides narrowing as they rise, like the walls of a
hockglass.
I went straight to the house in Walnut Street where the Captain would be heard of, if anywhere in this region.
His lieutenantcolonel was there, gravely wounded; his collegefriend and comrade in arms, a son of the
house, was there, injured in a similar way; another soldier, brother of the last, was there, prostrate with fever.
A fourth bed was waiting ready for the Captain, but not one word had been heard of him, though inquiries
had been made in the towns from and through which the father had brought his two sons and the
lieutenantcolonel. And so my search is, like a "Ledger" story, to be continued.
I rejoined my companions in time to take the noontrain for Baltimore. Our company was gaining in number
as it moved onwards. We had found upon the train from New York a lovely, lonely lady, the wife of one of
our most spirited Massachusetts officers, the brave Colonel of the __th Regiment, going to seek her wounded
husband at Middletown, a place lying directly in our track. She was the light of our party while we were
together on our pilgrimage, a fair, gracious woman, gentle, but courageous,
"ful plesant and amiable of port,
estatelich of manere,
And to ben holden digne of reverence."
On the road from Philadelphia, I found in the same car with our party Dr. William Hunt of Philadelphia, who
had most kindly and faithfully attended the Captain, then the Lieutenant, after a wound received at Ball's
Bluff, which came very near being mortal. He was going upon an errand of mercy to the wounded, and found
he had in his memorandumbook the name of our lady's husband, the Colonel, who had been commended to
his particular attention.
Not long after leaving Philadelphia, we passed a solitary sentry keeping guard over a short railroad bridge. It
was the first evidence that we were approaching the perilous borders, the marches where the North and the
South mingle their angry hosts, where the extremes of our socalled civilization meet in conflict, and the
fierce slavedriver of the Lower Mississippi stares into the stern eyes of the forestfeller from the banks of
the Aroostook. All the way along, the bridges were guarded more or less strongly. In a vast country like ours,
communications play a far more complex part than in Europe, where the whole territory available for
strategic purposes is so comparatively limited. Belgium, for instance, has long been the bowlingalley where
kings roll cannonballs at each other's armies; but here we are playing the game of live ninepins without any
alley.
We were obliged to stay in Baltimore over night, as we were too late for the train to Frederick. At the Eutaw
House, where we found both comfort and courtesy, we met a number of friends, who beguiled the evening
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hours for us in the most agreeable manner. We devoted some time to procuring surgical and other articles,
such as might be useful to our friends, or to others, if our friends should not need them. In the morning, I
found myself seated at the breakfasttable next to General Wool. It did not surprise me to find the General
very far from expansive. With Fort McHenry on his shoulders and Baltimore in his breechespocket, and the
weight of a military department loading down his social safetyvalves, I thought it a great deal for an officer
in his trying position to select so very obliging and affable an aid as the gentleman who relieved him of the
burden of attending to strangers.
We left the Eutaw House, to take the cars for Frederick. As we stood waiting on the platform, a telegraphic
message was handed in silence to my companion. Sad news: the lifeless body of the son he was hastening to
see was even now on its way to him in Baltimore. It was no time for empty words of consolation: I knew
what he had lost, and that now was not the time to intrude upon a grief borne as men bear it, felt as women
feel it.
Colonel Wilder Dwight was first made known to me as the friend of a beloved relative of my own, who was
with him during a severe illness in Switzerland; and for whom while living, and for whose memory when
dead, he retained the warmest affection. Since that the story of his noble deeds of daring, of his capture and
escape, and a brief visit home before he was able to rejoin his regiment, had made his name familiar to many
among us, myself among the number. His memory has been honored by those who had the largest
opportunity of knowing his rare promise, as a man of talents and energy of nature. His abounding vitality
must have produced its impression on all who met him; there was a still fire about him which any one could
see would blaze up to melt all difficulties and recast obstacles into implements in the mould of an heroic will.
These elements of his character many had the chance of knowing; but I shall always associate him with the
memory of that pure and noble friendship which made me feel that I knew him before I looked upon his face,
and added a personal tenderness to the sense of loss which I share with the whole community.
Here, then, I parted, sorrowfully, from the companions with whom I set out on my journey.
In one of the cars, at the same station, we met General Shriver of Frederick, a most loyal Unionist, whose
name is synonymous with a hearty welcome to all whom he can aid by his counsel and his hospitality. He
took great pains to give us all the information we needed, and expressed the hope, which was afterwards
fulfilled, to the great gratification of some of us, that we should meet again when he should return to his
home.
There was nothing worthy of special note in the trip to Frederick, except our passing a squad of Rebel
prisoners, whom I missed seeing, as they flashed by, but who were said to be a most forlornlooking crowd
of scarecrows. Arrived at the Monocacy River, about three miles this side of Frederick, we came to a halt, for
the railroad bridge had been blown up by the Rebels, and its iron pillars and arches were lying in the bed of
the river. The unfortunate wretch who fired the train was killed by the explosion, and lay buried hard by, his
hands sticking out of the shallow grave into which he had been huddled. This was the story they told us, but
whether true or not I must leave to the correspondents of "Notes and Queries " to settle.
There was a great confusion of carriages and wagons at the stopping place of the train, so that it was a long
time before I could get anything that would carry us. At last I was lucky enough to light on a sturdy wagon,
drawn by a pair of serviceable bays, and driven by James Grayden, with whom I was destined to have a
somewhat continued acquaintance. We took up a little girl who had been in Baltimore during the late Rebel
inroad. It made me think of the time when my own mother, at that time six years old, was hurried off from
Boston, then occupied by the British soldiers, to Newburyport, and heard the people saying that "the redcoats
were coming, killing and murdering everybody as they went along." Frederick looked cheerful for a place
that had so recently been in an enemy's hands. Here and there a house or shop was shut up, but the national
colors were waving in all directions, and the general aspect was peaceful and contented. I saw no
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bulletmarks or other sign of the fighting which had gone on in the streets. The Colonel's lady was taken in
charge by a daughter of that hospitable family to which we had been commended by its head, and I proceeded
to inquire for wounded officers at the various temporary hospitals.
At the United States Hotel, where many were lying, I heard mention of an officer in an upper chamber, and,
going there, found Lieutenant Abbott, of the Twentieth Massachusetts Volunteers, lying ill with what looked
like typhoid fever. While there, who should come in but the almost ubiquitous Lieutenant Wilkins, of the
same Twentieth, whom I had met repeatedly before on errands of kindness or duty, and who was just from
the battleground. He was going to Boston in charge of the body of the lamented Dr. Revere, the Assistant
Surgeon of the regiment, killed on the field. From his lips I learned something of the mishaps of the regiment.
My Captain's wound he spoke of as less grave than at first thought; but he mentioned incidentally having
heard a story recently that he was killed,a fiction, doubtless,a mistake,a palpable absurdity,not to
be remembered or made any account of. Oh no! but what dull ache is this in that obscurely sensitive region,
somewhere below the heart, where the nervous centre called the semilunar ganglion lies unconscious of itself
until a great grief or a mastering anxiety reaches it through all the non conductors which isolate it from
ordinary impressions? I talked awhile with Lieutenant Abbott, who lay prostrate, feeble, but soldierlike and
uncomplaining, carefully waited upon by a most excellent lady, a captain's wife, New England born, loyal as
the Liberty on a golden tendollar piece, and of lofty bearing enough to have sat for that goddess's portrait.
She had stayed in Frederick through the Rebel inroad, and kept the starspangled banner where it would be
safe, to unroll it as the last Rebel hoofs clattered off from the pavement of the town.
Near by Lieutenant Abbott was an unhappy gentleman, occupying a small chamber, and filling it with his
troubles. When he gets well and plump, I know he will forgive me if I confess that I could not help smiling in
the midst of my sympathy for him. He had been a well favored man, he said, sweeping his hand in a
semicircle, which implied that his acuteangled countenance had once filled the goodly curve he described.
He was now a perfect Don Quixote to look upon. Weakness had made him querulous, as it does all of us, and
he piped his grievances to me in a thin voice, with that finish of detail which chronic invalidism alone can
command. He was starving,he could not get what he wanted to eat. He was in need of stimulants, and he
held up a pitiful twoounce phial containing three thimblefulsof brandy,his whole stock of that
encouraging article. Him I consoled to the best of my ability, and afterwards, in some slight measure,
supplied his wants. Feed this poor gentleman up, as these good people soon will, and I should not know him,
nor he himself. We are all egotists in sickness and debility. An animal has been defined as "a stomach
ministered to by organs;" and the greatest man comes very near this simple formula after a month or two of
fever and starvation.
James Grayden and his team pleased me well enough, and so I made a bargain with him to take us, the lady
and myself, on our further journey as far as Middletown. As we were about starting from the front of the
United States Hotel, two gentlemen presented themselves and expressed a wish to be allowed to share our
conveyance. I looked at them and convinced myself that they were neither Rebels in disguise, nor deserters,
nor campfollowers, nor miscreants, but plain, honest men on a proper errand. The first of them I will pass
over briefly. He was a young man of mild and modest demeanor, chaplain to a Pennsylvania regiment, which
he was going to rejoin. He belonged to the Moravian Church, of which I had the misfortune to know little
more than what I had learned from Southey's "Life of Wesley." and from the exquisite hymns we have
borrowed from its rhapsodists. The other stranger was a New Englander of respectable appearance, with a
grave, hard, honest, haybearded face, who had come to serve the sick and wounded on the battlefield and
in its immediate neighborhood. There is no reason why I should not mention his name, but I shall content
myself with calling him the Philanthropist.
So we set forth, the sturdy wagon, the serviceable bays, with James Grayden their driver, the gentle lady,
whose serene patience bore up through all delays and discomforts, the Chaplain, the Philanthropist, and
myself, the teller of this story.
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And now, as we emerged from Frederick, we struck at once upon the trail from the great battlefield. The
road was filled with straggling and wounded soldiers. All who could travel on foot, multitudes with slight
wounds of the upper limbs, the head, or face, were told to take up their beds,alight burden or none at
all, and walk. Just as the battlefield sucks everything into its red vortex for the conflict, so does it drive
everything off in long, diverging rays after the fierce centripetal forces have met and neutralized each other.
For more than a week there had been sharp fighting all along this road. Through the streets of Frederick,
through Crampton's Gap, over South Mountain, sweeping at last the hills and the woods that skirt the
windings of the Antietam, the long battle had travelled, like one of those tornadoes which tear their path
through our fields and villages. The slain of higher condition, "embalmed" and ironcased, were sliding off
on the railways to their far homes; the dead of the rank and file were being gathered up and committed hastily
to the earth; the gravely wounded were cared for hard by the scene of conflict, or pushed a little way along to
the neighboring villages; while those who could walk were meeting us, as I have said, at every step in the
road. It was a pitiable sight, truly pitiable, yet so vast, so far beyond the possibility of relief, that many single
sorrows of small dimensions have wrought upon my feelings more than the sight of this great caravan of
maimed pilgrims. The companionship of so many seemed to make a jointstock of their suffering; it was next
to impossible to individualize it, and so bring it home, as one can do with a single broken limb or aching
wound. Then they were all of the male sex, and in the freshness or the prime of their strength. Though they
tramped so wearily along, yet there was rest and kind nursing in store for them. These wounds they bore
would be the medals they would show their children and grandchildren by and by. Who would not rather
wear his decorations beneath his uniform than on it?
Yet among them were figures which arrested our attention and sympathy. Delicate boys, with more spirit than
strength, flushed with fever or pale with exhaustion or haggard with suffering, dragged their weary limbs
along as if each step would exhaust their slender store o£ strength. At the roadside sat or lay others, quite
spent with their journey. Here and there was a house at which the wayfarers would stop, in the hope, I fear
often vain, of getting refreshment; and in one place was a clear, cool spring, where the little bands of the long
procession halted for a few moments, as the trains that traverse the desert rest by its fountains. My
companions had brought a few peaches along with them, which the Philanthropist bestowed upon the tired
and thirsty soldiers with a satisfaction which we all shared. I had with me a small flask of strong waters, to be
used as a medicine in case of inward grief. From this, also, he dispensed relief, without hesitation, to a poor
fellow who looked as if he needed it. I rather admired the simplicity with which he applied my limited means
of solace to the firstcomer who wanted it more than I; a genuine benevolent impulse does not stand on
ceremony, and had I perished of colic for want of a stimulus that night, I should not have reproached my
friend the Philanthropist, any more than I grudged my other ardent friend the two dollars and more which it
cost me to send the charitable message he left in my hands.
It was a lovely country through which we were riding. The hillsides rolled away into the distance, slanting up
fair and broad to the sun, as one sees them in the open parts of the Berkshire Valley, at Lanesborough, for
instance, or in the manyhued mountain chalice at the bottom of which the Shaker houses of Lebanon have
shaped themselves like a sediment of cubical crystals. The wheat was all garnered, and the land ploughed for
a new crop. There was Indian corn standing, but I saw no pumpkins warming their yellow carapaces in the
sunshine like so many turtles; only in a single instance did I notice some wretched little miniature specimens
in form and hue not unlike those colossal oranges of our cornfields. The rail fences were somewhat disturbed,
and the cinders of extinguished fires showed the use to which they had been applied. The houses along the
road were not for the most part neatly kept; the garden fences were poorly built of laths or long slats, and
very rarely of trim aspect. The men of this region seemed to ride in the saddle very generally, rather than
drive. They looked sober and stern, less curious and lively than Yankees, and I fancied that a type of features
familiar to us in the countenance of the late John Tyler, our accidental President, was frequently met with.
The women were still more distinguishable from our New England pattern. Soft, sallow, succulent, delicately
finished about the mouth and firmly shaped about the chin, darkeyed, fullthroated, they looked as if they
had been grown in a land of olives. There was a little toss in their movement, full of muliebrity. I fancied
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there was something more of the duck and less of the chicken about them, as compared with the daughters of
our leaner soil; but these are mere impressions caught from stray glances, and if there is any offence in them,
my fair readers may consider them all retracted.
At intervals, a dead horse lay by the roadside, or in the fields, unburied, not grateful to gods or men. I saw no
bird of prey, no illomened fowl, on my way to the carnival of death, or at the place where it had been held.
The vulture of story, the crow of Talavera, the "twa corbies" of the ghastly ballad, are all from Nature,
doubtless; but no black wing was spread over these animal ruins, and no call to the banquet pierced through
the heavyladen and sickening air.
Full in the middle of the road, caring little for whom or what they met, came long strings of army wagons,
returning empty from the front after supplies. James Grayden stated it as his conviction that they had a little
rather run into a fellow than not. I liked the looks of these equipages and their drivers; they meant business.
Drawn by mules mostly, six, I think, to a wagon, powdered well with dust, wagon, beast, and driver, they
came jogging along the road, turning neither to right nor left,some driven by bearded, solemn white men,
some by careless, saucylooking negroes, of a blackness like that of anthracite or obsidian. There seemed to
be nothing about them, dead or alive, that was not serviceable. Sometimes a mule would give out on the road;
then he was left where he lay, until by and by he would think better of it, and get up, when the first public
wagon that came along would hitch him on, and restore him to the sphere of duty.
It was evening when we got to Middletown. The gentle lady who had graced our homely conveyance with her
company here left us. She found her husband, the gallant Colonel, in very comfortable quarters, well cared
for, very weak from the effects of the fearful operation he had been compelled to undergo, but showing calm
courage to endure as he had shown manly energy to act. It was a meeting full of heroism and tenderness, of
which I heard more than there is need to tell. Health to the brave soldier, and peace to the household over
which so fair a spirit presides!
Dr. Thompson, the very active and intelligent surgical director of the hospitals of the place, took me in
charge. He carried me to the house of a worthy and benevolent clergyman of the German Reformed Church,
where I was to take tea and pass the night. What became of the Moravian chaplain I did not know; but my
friend the Philanthropist had evidently made up his mind to adhere to my fortunes. He followed me,
therefore, to the house of the "Dominie." as a newspaper correspondent calls my kind host, and partook of the
fare there furnished me. He withdrew with me to the apartment assigned for my slumbers, and slept sweetly
on the same pillow where I waked and tossed. Nay, I do affirm that he did, unconsciously, I believe, encroach
on that moiety of the couch which I had flattered myself was to be my own through the watches of the night,
and that I was in serious doubt at one time whether I should not be gradually, but irresistibly, expelled from
the bed which I had supposed destined for my sole possession. As Ruth clave unto Naomi, so my friend the
Philanthropist clave unto me. "Whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge." A really
kind, good man, full of zeal, determined to help somebody, and absorbed in his one thought, he doubted
nobody's willingness to serve him, going, as he was, on a purely benevolent errand. When he reads this, as I
hope he will, let him be assured of my esteem and respect; and if he gained any accommodation from being
in my company, let me tell him that I learned a lesson from his active benevolence. I could, however, have
wished to hear him laugh once before we parted, perhaps forever. He did not, to the best of my recollection,
even smile during the whole period that we were in company. I am afraid that a lightsome disposition and a
relish for humor are not so common in those whose benevolence takes an active turn as in people of
sentiment, who are always ready with their tears and abounding in passionate expressions of sympathy.
Working philanthropy is a practical specialty, requiring not a mere impulse, but a talent, with its peculiar
sagacity for finding its objects, a tact for selecting its agencies, an organizing and art ranging faculty, a steady
set of nerves, and a constitution such as Sallust describes in Catiline, patient of cold, of hunger, and of
watching. Philanthropists are commonly grave, occasionally grim, and not very rarely morose. Their
expansive social force is imprisoned as a working power, to show itself only through its legitimate pistons
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and cranks. The tighter the boiler, the less it whistles and sings at its work. When Dr. Waterhouse, in 1780,
travelled with Howard, on his tour among the Dutch prisons and hospitals, he found his temper and manners
very different from what would have been expected.
My benevolent companion having already made a preliminary exploration of the hospitals of the place,
before sharing my bed with him, as above mentioned, I joined him in a second tour through them. The
authorities of Middletown are evidently leagued with the surgeons of that place, for such a breakneck
succession of pitfalls and chasms I have never seen in the streets of a civilized town. It was getting late in the
evening when we began our rounds. The principal collections of the wounded were in the churches. Boards
were laid over the tops of the pews, on these some straw was spread, and on this the wounded lay, with little
or no covering other than such scanty clothes as they had on. There were wounds of all degrees of severity,
but I heard no groans or murmurs. Most of the sufferers were hurt in the limbs, some had undergone
amputation, and all had, I presume, received such attention as was required. Still, it was but a rough and
dreary kind of comfort that the extemporized hospitals suggested. I could not help thinking the patients must
be cold; but they were used to camp life, and did not complain. The men who watched were not of the
softhanded variety of the race. One of them was smoking his pipe as he went from bed to bed. I saw one
poor fellow who had been shot through the breast; his breathing was labored, and he was tossing, anxious and
restless. The men were debating about the opiate he was to take, and I was thankful that I happened there at
the right moment to see that he was well narcotized for the night. Was it possible that my Captain could be
lying on the straw in one of these places? Certainly possible, but not probable; but as the lantern was held
over each bed, it was with a kind of thrill that I looked upon the features it illuminated. Many times as I went
from hospital to hospital in my wanderings, I started as some faint resemblance,the shade of a young man's
hair, the outline of his halfturned face,recalled the presence I was in search of. The face would turn
towards me, and the momentary illusion would pass away, but still the fancy clung to me. There was no
figure huddled up on its rude couch, none stretched at the roadside, none toiling languidly along the dusty
pike, none passing in car or in ambulance, that I did not scrutinize, as if it might be that for which I was
making my pilgrimage to the battlefield.
"There are two wounded Secesh," said my companion. I walked to the bedside of the first, who was an
officer, a lieutenant, if I remember right, from North Carolina. He was of good family, son of a judge in one
of the higher courts of his State, educated, pleasant, gentle, intelligent. One moment's intercourse with such
an enemy, lying helpless and wounded among strangers, takes away all personal bitterness towards those with
whom we or our children have been but a few hours before in deadly strife. The basest lie which the
murderous contrivers of this Rebellion have told is that which tries to make out a difference of race in the
men of the North and South. It would be worth a year of battles to abolish this delusion, though the great
sponge of war that wiped it out were moistened with the best blood of the land. My Rebel was of slight,
scholastic habit, and spoke as one accustomed to tread carefully among the parts of speech. It made my heart
ache to see him, a man finished in the humanities and Christian culture, whom the sin of his forefathers and
the crime of his rulers had set in barbarous conflict against others of like training with his own,a man who,
but for the curse which our generation is called on to expiate, would have taken his part in the beneficent task
of shaping the intelligence and lifting the moral standard of a peaceful and united people.
On Sunday morning, the twentyfirst, having engaged James Grayden and his team, I set out with the
Chaplain and the Philanthropist for Keedysville. Our track lay through the South Mountain Gap, and led us
first to the town of Boonsborough, where, it will be remembered, Colonel Dwight had been brought after the
battle. We saw the positions occupied in the battle of South Mountain, and many traces of the conflict. In one
situation a group of young trees was marked with shot, hardly one having escaped. As we walked by the side
of the wagon, the Philanthropist left us for a while and climbed a hill, where, along the line of a fence, he
found traces of the most desperate fighting. A ride of some three hours brought us to Boonsborough, where I
roused the unfortunate army surgeon who had charge of the hospitals, and who was trying to get a little sleep
after his fatigues and watchings. He bore this cross very creditably, and helped me to explore all places where
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my soldier might be lying among the crowds of wounded. After the useless search, I resumed my journey,
fortified with a note of introduction to Dr. Letterman; also with a bale of oakum which I was to carry to that
gentleman, this substance being employed as a substitute for lint. We were obliged also to procure a pass to
Keedysville from the Provost Marshal of Boonsborough. As we came near the place, we learned that General
McClellan's head quarters had been removed from this village some miles farther to the front.
On entering the small settlement of Keedysville, a familiar face and figure blocked the way, like one of
Bunyan's giants. The tall form and benevolent countenance, set off by long, flowing hair, belonged to the
excellent Mayor Frank B. Fay of Chelsea, who, like my Philanthropist, only still more promptly, had come to
succor the wounded of the great battle. It was wonderful to see how his single personality pervaded this
torpid little village; he seemed to be the centre of all its activities. All my questions he answered clearly and
decisively, as one who knew everything that was going on in the place. But the one question I had come five
hundred miles to ask, Where is Captain H.?he could not answer. There were some thousands of
wounded in the place, he told me, scattered about everywhere. It would be a long job to hunt up my Captain;
the only way would be to go to every house and ask for him. Just then a medical officer came up.
"Do you know anything of Captain H. of the Massachusetts Twentieth?"
"Oh yes; he is staying in that house. I saw him there, doing very well."
A chorus of hallelujahs arose in my soul, but I kept them to myself. Now, then, for our twicewounded
volunteer, our young centurion whose doublebarred shoulderstraps we have never yet looked upon. Let us
observe the proprieties, however; no swelling upward of the mother, no hysterica passio, we do not like
scenes. A calm salutation, then swallow and hold hard. That is about the programme.
A cottage of squared logs, filled in with plaster, and whitewashed. A little yard before it, with a gate
swinging. The door of the cottage ajar,no one visible as yet. I push open the door and enter. An old
woman, Margaret Kitzmuller her name proves to be, is the first person I see.
"Captain H. here? "
"Oh no, sir,left yesterday morning for Hagerstown,in a milk cart."
The Kitzmuller is a beadyeyed, cheerylooking ancient woman, answers questions with a rising inflection,
and gives a good account of the Captain, who got into the vehicle without assistance, and was in excellent
spirits. Of course he had struck for Hagerstown as the terminus of the Cumberland Valley Railroad, and was
on his way to Philadelphia, via Chambersburg and Harrisburg, if he were not already in the hospitable home
of Walnut Street, where his friends were expecting him.
I might follow on his track or return upon my own; the distance was the same to Philadelphia through
Harrisburg as through Baltimore. But it was very difficult, Mr. Fay told me, to procure any kind of
conveyance to Hagerstown; and, on the other hand, I had James Grayden and his wagon to carry me back to
Frederick. It was not likely that I should overtake the object of my pursuit with nearly thirtysix hours start,
even if I could procure a conveyance that day. In the mean time James was getting impatient to be on his
return, according to the direction of his employers. So I decided to go back with him.
But there was the great battlefield only about three miles from Keedysville, and it was impossible to go
without seeing that. James Grayden's directions were peremptory, but it was a case for the higher law. I must
make a good offer for an extra couple of hours, such as would satisfy the owners of the wagon, and enforce it
by a personal motive. I did this handsomely, and succeeded without difficulty. To add brilliancy to my
enterprise, I invited the Chaplain and the Philanthropist to take a free passage with me.
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We followed the road through the village for a space, then turned off to the right, and wandered somewhat
vaguely, for want of precise directions, over the hills. Inquiring as we went, we forded a wide creek in which
soldiers were washing their clothes, the name of which we did not then know, but which must have been the
Antietam. At one point we met a party, women among them, bringing off various trophies they had picked up
on the battlefield. Still wandering along, we were at last pointed to a hill in the distance, a part of the summit
of which was covered with Indian corn. There, we were told, some of the fiercest fighting of the day had been
done. The fences were taken down so as to make a passage across the fields, and the tracks worn within the
last few days looked like old roads. We passed a fresh grave under a tree near the road. A board was nailed to
the tree, bearing the name, as well as I could make it out, of Gardiner, of a New Hampshire regiment.
On coming near the brow of the hill, we met a party carrying picks and spades. "How many? "Only one." The
dead were nearly all buried, then, in this region of the field of strife. We stopped the wagon, and, getting out,
began to look around us. Hard by was a large pile of muskets, scores, if not hundreds, which had been picked
up, and were guarded for the Government. A long ridge of fresh gravel rose before us. A board stuck up in
front of it bore this inscription, the first part of which was, I believe, not correct: "The Rebel General
Anderson and 80 Rebels are buried in this hole." Other smaller ridges were marked with the number of dead
lying under them. The whole ground was strewed with fragments of clothing, haversacks, canteens,
capboxes, bullets, cartridgeboxes, cartridges, scraps of paper, portions of bread and meat. I saw two
soldiers' caps that looked as though their owners had been shot through the head. In several places I noticed
dark red patches where a pool of blood had curdled and caked, as some poor fellow poured his life out on the
sod. I then wandered about in the cornfield. It surprised me to notice, that, though there was every mark of
hard fighting having taken place here, the Indian corn was not generally trodden down. One of our cornfields
is a kind of forest, and even when fighting, men avoid the tall stalks as if they were trees. At the edge of this
cornfield lay a gray horse, said to have belonged to a Rebel colonel, who was killed near the same place. Not
far off were two dead artillery horses in their harness. Another had been attended to by a buryingparty, who
had thrown some earth over him but his last bed clothes were too short, and his legs stuck out stark and stiff
from beneath the gravel coverlet. It was a great pity that we had no intelligent guide to explain to us the
position of that portion of the two armies which fought over this ground. There was a shallow trench before
we came to the cornfield, too narrow for a road, as I should think, too elevated for a watercourse, and which
seemed to have been used as a riflepit. At any rate, there had been hard fighting in and about it. This and the
cornfield may serve to identify the part of the ground we visited, if any who fought there should ever look
over this paper. The opposing tides of battle must have blended their waves at this point, for portions of gray
uniform were mingled with the "garments rolled in blood" torn from our own dead and wounded soldiers. I
picked up a Rebel canteen, and one of our own,but there was something repulsive about the trodden and
stained relics of the stale battlefield. It was like the table of some hideous orgy left uncleared, and one
turned away disgusted from its broken fragments and muddy heeltaps. A bullet or two, a button, a brass plate
from a soldier's belt, served well enough for mementos of my visit, with a letter which I picked up, directed
to Richmond, Virginia, its seal unbroken. "N. C. Cleveland County. E. Wright to J. Wright." On the other
side, "A few lines from W. L. Vaughn." who has just been writing for the wife to her husband, and continues
on his own account. The postscript, "tell John that nancy's folks are all well and has a verry good Little Crop
of corn a growing." I wonder, if, by one of those strange chances of which I have seen so many, this number
or leaf of the "Atlantic" will not sooner or later find its way to Cleveland County, North Carolina, and E.
Wright, widow of James Wright, and Nancy's folks, get from these sentences the last glimpse of husband and
friend as he threw up his arms and fell in the bloody cornfield of Antietam? I will keep this stained letter for
them until peace comes back, if it comes in my time, and my pleasant North Carolina Rebel of the
Middletown Hospital will, perhaps look these poor people up, and tell them where to send for it.
On the battlefield I parted with my two companions, the Chaplain and the Philanthropist. They were going
to the front, the one to find his regiment, the other to look for those who needed his assistance. We exchanged
cards and farewells, I mounted the wagon, the horses' heads were turned homewards, my two companions
went their way, and I saw them no more. On my way back, I fell into talk with James Grayden. Born in
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England, Lancashire; in this country since be was four years old. Had nothing to care for but an old mother;
didn't know what he should do if he lost her. Though so long in this country, he had all the simplicity and
childlike lightheartedness which belong to the Old World's people. He laughed at the smallest pleasantry, and
showed his great white English teeth; he took a joke without retorting by an impertinence; he had a very
limited curiosity about all that was going on; he had small store of information; he lived chiefly in his horses,
it seemed to me. His quiet animal nature acted as a pleasing anodyne to my recurring fits of anxiety, and I
liked his frequent "'Deed I don't know, sir." better than I have sometimes relished the large discourse of
professors and other very wise men.
I have not much to say of the road which we were travelling for the second time. Reaching Middletown, my
first call was on the wounded Colonel and his lady. She gave me a most touching account of all the suffering
he had gone through with his shattered limb before he succeeded in finding a shelter; showing the terrible
want of proper means of transportation of the wounded after the battle. It occurred to me, while at this house,
that I was more or less famished, and for the first time in my life I begged for a meal, which the kind family
with whom the Colonel was staying most graciously furnished me.
After tea, there came in a stout army surgeon, a Highlander by birth, educated in Edinburgh, with whom I had
pleasant, not unstimulating talk. He had been brought very close to that immane and nefandous
BurkeandHare business which made the blood of civilization run cold in the year 1828, and told me, in a
very calm way, with an occasional pinch from the mull, to refresh his memory, some of the details of those
frightful murders, never rivalled in horror until the wretch Dumollard, who kept a private cemetery for his
victims, was dragged into the light of day. He had a good deal to say, too, about the Royal College of
Surgeons in Edinburgh, and the famous preparations, mercurial and the rest, which I remember well having
seen there,the "sudabit multum." and others,also of our New York Professor Carnochan's handiwork, a
specimen of which I once admired at the New York College. But the doctor was not in a happy frame of
mind, and seemed willing to forget the present in the past: things went wrong, somehow, and the time was
out of joint with him.
Dr. Thompson, kind, cheerful, companionable, offered me half his own wide bed, in the house of Dr. Baer,
for my second night in Middletown. Here I lay awake again another night. Close to the house stood an
ambulance in which was a wounded Rebel officer, attended by one of their own surgeons. He was calling out
in a loud voice, all night long, as it seemed to me, "Doctor! Doctor! Driver! Water!" in loud, complaining
tones, I have no doubt of real suffering, but in strange contrast with the silent patience which was the almost
universal rule.
The courteous Dr. Thompson will let me tell here an odd coincidence, trivial, but having its interest as one of
a series. The Doctor and myself lay in the bed, and a lieutenant, a friend of his, slept on the sofa, At night, I
placed my matchbox, a Scotch one, of the Macphersonplaid pattern, which I bought years ago, on the
bureau, just where I could put my hand upon it. I was the last of the three to rise in the morning, and on
looking for my pretty matchbox, I found it was gone. This was rather awkward,not on account of the loss,
but of the unavoidable fact that one of my fellowlodgers must have taken it. I must try to find out what it
meant.
"By the way, Doctor, have you seen anything of a little plaidpattern matchbox?"
The Doctor put his hand to his pocket, and, to his own huge surprise and my great gratification, pulled out
two matchboxes exactly alike, both printed with the Macpherson plaid. One was his, the other mine, which
he had seen lying round, and naturally took for his own, thrusting it into his pocket, where it found its
twinbrother from the same workshop. In memory of which event, we exchanged boxes, like two Homeric
heroes.
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This curious coincidence illustrates well enough some supposed cases of plagiarism of which I will mention
one where my name figured. When a little poem called "The Two Streams " was first printed, a writer in the
New York "Evening Post" virtually accused the author of it of borrowing the thought from a baccalaureate
sermon of President Hopkins of Williamstown, and printed a quotation from that discourse, which, as I
thought, a thief or catchpoll might well consider as establishing a fair presumption that it was so borrowed. I
was at the same time wholly unconscious of ever having met with the discourse or the sentence which the
verses were most like, nor do I believe I ever had seen or heard either. Some time after this, happening to
meet my eloquent cousin, Wendell Phillips, I mentioned the fact to him, and he told me that he had once used
the special image said to be borrowed, in a discourse delivered at Williamstown. On relating this to my friend
Mr. Buchanan Read, he informed me that he too, had used the image,perhaps referring to his poem called
"The Twins." He thought Tennyson had used it also. The parting of the streams on the Alps is poetically
elaborated in a passage attributed to "M. Loisne," printed in the "Boston Evening Transcript" for October 23,
1859. Captain, afterwards Sir Francis Head, speaks of the showers parting on the Cordilleras, one portion
going to the Atlantic, one to the Pacific. I found the image running loose in my mind, without a halter. It
suggested itself as an illustration of the will, and I worked the poem out by the aid of Mitchell's School Atlas.
The spores of a great many ideas are floating about in the atmosphere. We no more know where all the
growths of our mind came from, than where the lichens which eat the names off from the gravestones
borrowed the germs that gave them birth. The two match boxes were just alike, but neither was a
plagiarism.
In the morning I took to the same wagon once more, but, instead of James Grayden, I was to have for my
driver a young man who spelt his name "Phillip Ottenheimer" and whose features at once showed him to be
an Israelite. I found him agreeable enough, and disposed to talk. So I asked him many questions about his
religion, and got some answers that sound strangely in Christian ears. He was from Wittenberg, and had been
educated in strict Jewish fashion. From his childhood he had read Hebrew, but was not much of a scholar
otherwise. A young person of his race lost caste utterly by marrying a Christian. The Founder of our religion
was considered by the Israelites to have been "a right smart man and a great doctor." But the horror with
which the reading of the New Testament by any young person of their faith would be regarded was as great, I
judged by his language, as that of one of our straitest sectaries would be, if he found his son or daughter
perusing the "Age of Reason."
In approaching Frederick, the singular beauty of its clustered spires struck me very much, so that I was not
surprised to find "FairView" laid down about this point on a railroad map. I wish some wandering
photographer would take a picture of the place, a stereoscopic one, if possible, to show how gracefully, how
charmingly, its group of steeples nestles among the Maryland hills. The town had a poetical look from a
distance, as if seers and dreamers might dwell there. The first sign I read, on entering its long street, might
perhaps be considered as confirming my remote impression. It bore these words: "Miss Ogle, Past, Present,
and Future." On arriving, I visited Lieutenant Abbott, and the attenuated unhappy gentleman, his neighbor,
sharing between them as my parting gift what I had left of the balsam known to the Pharmacopoeia as
Spiritus Vini Gallici. I took advantage of General Shriver's always open door to write a letter home, but had
not time to partake of his offered hospitality. The railroad bridge over the Monocacy had been rebuilt since I
passed through Frederick, and we trundled along over the track toward Baltimore.
It was a disappointment, on reaching the Eutaw House, where I had ordered all communications to be
addressed, to find no telegraphic message from Philadelphia or Boston, stating that Captain H. had arrived at
the former place, "wound doing well in good spirits expects to leave soon for Boston." After all, it was no
great matter; the Captain was, no doubt, snugly lodged before this in the house called Beautiful, at * * * *
Walnut Street, where that "grave and beautiful damsel named Discretion" had already welcomed him,
smiling, though "the water stood in her eyes," and had "called out Prudence, Piety, and Charity, who, after a
little more discourse with him, had him into the family."
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The friends I had met at the Eutaw House had all gone but one, the lady of an officer from Boston, who was
most amiable and agreeable, and whose benevolence, as I afterwards learned, soon reached the invalids I had
left suffering at Frederick. General Wool still walked the corridors, inexpansive, with Fort McHenry on his
shoulders, and Baltimore in his breechespocket, and his courteous aid again pressed upon me his kind
offices. About the doors of the hotel the newsboys cried the papers in plaintive, wailing tones, as different
from the sharp accents of their Boston counterparts as a sigh from the southwest is from a northeastern
breeze. To understand what they said was, of course, impossible to any but an educated ear, and if I made out
"Starr" and "Clipp'rr," it was because I knew beforehand what must be the burden of their advertising
coranach.
I set out for Philadelphia on the morrow, Tuesday the twentythird, there beyond question to meet my
Captain, once more united to his brave wounded companions under that roof which covers a household of as
noble hearts as ever throbbed with human sympathies. Back River, Bush River, Gunpowder Creek,lives
there the man with soul so dead that his memory has cerements to wrap up these senseless names in the same
envelopes with their meaningless localities? But the Susquehanna,the broad, the beautiful, the historical,
the poetical Susquehanna,the river of Wyoming and of Gertrude, dividing the shores where
"Aye those sunny mountains halfway down
Would echo flageolet from some romantic town,"
did not my heart renew its allegiance to the poet who has made it lovely to the imagination as well as to the
eye, and so identified his fame with the noble stream that it "rolls mingling with his fame forever?" The
prosaic traveller perhaps remembers it better from the fact that a great seamonster, in the shape of a
steamboat, takes him, sitting in the car, on its back, and swims across with him like Arion's dolphin,also
that mercenary men on board offer him canvas backs in the season, and ducks of lower degree at other
periods.
At Philadelphia again at last! Drive fast, O colored man and brother, to the house called Beautiful, where my
Captain lies sore wounded, waiting for the sound of the chariot wheels which bring to his bedside the face
and the voice nearer than any save one to his heart in this his hour of pain and weakness! Up a long street
with white shutters and white steps to all the houses. Off at right angles into another long street with white
shutters and white steps to all the houses. Off again at another right angle into still another long street with
white shutters and white steps to all the houses. The natives of this city pretend to know one street from
another by some individual differences of aspect; but the best way for a stranger to distinguish the streets he
has been in from others is to make a cross or other mark on the white shutters.
This cornerhouse is the one. Ring softly,for the Lieutenant Colonel lies there with a dreadfully wounded
arm, and two sons of the family, one wounded like the Colonel, one fighting with death in the fog of a
typhoid fever, will start with fresh pangs at the least sound you can make. I entered the house, but no cheerful
smile met me. The sufferers were each of them thought to be in a critical condition. The fourth bed, waiting
its tenant day after day, was still empty. Not a word from my Captain.
Then, foolish, fond body that I was, my heart sank within me. Had he been taken ill on the road, perhaps been
attacked with those formidable symptoms which sometimes come on suddenly after wounds that seemed to
be doing well enough, and was his life ebbing away in some lonely cottage, nay, in some cold barn or shed,
or at the wayside, unknown, uncared for? Somewhere between Philadelphia and Hagerstown, if not at the
latter town, he must be, at any rate. I must sweep the hundred and eighty miles between these places as one
would sweep a chamber where a precious pearl had been dropped. I must have a companion in my search,
partly to help me look about, and partly because I was getting nervous and felt lonely. Charley said he would
go with me,Charley, my Captain's beloved friend, gentle, but full of spirit and liveliness, cultivated, social,
affectionate, a good talker, a most agreeable letterwriter, observing, with large relish of life, and keen sense
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of humor. He was not well enough to go, some of the timid ones said; but he answered by packing his
carpetbag, and in an hour or two we were on the Pennsylvania Central Railroad in full blast for Harrisburg.
I should have been a forlorn creature but for the presence of my companion. In his delightful company I half
forgot my anxieties, which, exaggerated as they may seem now, were not unnatural after what I had seen of
the confusion and distress that had followed the great battle, nay, which seem almost justified by the recent
statement that "high officers" were buried after that battle whose names were never ascertained. I noticed
little matters, as usual. The road was filled in between the rails with cracked stones, such as are used for
macadamizing streets. They keep the dust down, I suppose, for I could not think of any other use for them.
By and by the glorious valley which stretches along through Chester and Lancaster Counties opened upon us.
Much as I had heard of the fertile regions of Pennsylvania, the vast scale and the uniform luxuriance of this
region astonished me. The grazing pastures were so green, the fields were under such perfect culture, the
cattle looked so sleek, the houses were so comfortable, the barns so ample, the fences so well kept, that I did
not wonder, when I was told that this region was called the England of Pennsylvania. The people whom we
saw were, like the cattle, well nourished; the young women looked round and wholesome.
"Grass makes girls." I said to my companion, and left him to work out my Orphic saying, thinking to myself,
that as guano makes grass, it was a legitimate conclusion that Ichaboe must be a nursery of female loveliness.
As the train stopped at the different stations, I inquired at each if they had any wounded officers. None as yet;
the red rays of the battlefield had not streamed off so far as this. Evening found us in the cars; they lighted
candles in springcandlesticks; odd enough I thought it in the land of oilwells and unmeasured floods of
kerosene. Some fellows turned up the back of a seat so as to make it horizontal, and began gambling, or
pretending to gamble; it looked as if they were trying to pluck a young countryman; but appearances are
deceptive, and no deeper stake than "drinks for the crowd" seemed at last to be involved. But remembering
that murder has tried of late years to establish itself as an institution in the cars, I was less tolerant of the
doings of these "sportsmen " who tried to turn our public conveyance into a travelling Frascati. They acted as
if they were used to it, and nobody seemed to pay much attention to their manoeuvres.
We arrived at Harrisburg in the course of the evening, and attempted to find our way to the Jones House, to
which we had been commended. By some mistake, intentional on the part of somebody, as it may have been,
or purely accidental, we went to the Herr House instead. I entered my name in the book, with that of my
companion. A plain, middleaged man stepped up, read it to himself in low tones, and coupled to it a literary
title by which I have been sometimes known. He proved to be a graduate of Brown University, and had heard
a certain Phi Beta Kappa poem delivered there a good many years ago. I remembered it, too; Professor
Goddard, whose sudden and singular death left such lasting regret, was the Orator. I recollect that while I was
speaking a drum went by the church, and how I was disgusted to see all the heads near the windows thrust out
of them, as if the building were on fire. Cedat armis toga. The clerk in the office, a mild, pensive, unassuming
young man, was very polite in his manners, and did all he could to make us comfortable. He was of a literary
turn, and knew one of his guests in his character of author. At tea, a mild old gentleman, with white hair and
beard, sat next us. He, too, had come hunting after his son, a lieutenant in a Pennsylvania regiment. Of these,
father and son, more presently.
After tea we went to look up Dr. Wilson, chief medical officer of the hospitals in the place, who was staying
at the Brady House. A magnificent old toddymixer, Bardolphian in hue, and stern of aspect, as all
grogdispensers must be, accustomed as they are to dive through the features of men to the bottom of their
souls and pockets to see whether they are solvent to the amount of sixpence, answered my question by a wave
of one hand, the other being engaged in carrying a dram to his lips. His superb indifference gratified my
artistic feeling more than it wounded my personal sensibilities. Anything really superior in its line claims my
homage, and this man was the ideal bartender, above all vulgar passions, untouched by commonplace
sympathies, himself a lover of the liquid happiness he dispenses, and filled with a fine scorn of all those
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lesser felicities conferred by love or fame or wealth or any of the roundabout agencies for which his fiery
elixir is the cheap, all powerful substitute.
Dr. Wilson was in bed, though it was early in the evening, not having slept for I don't know how many nights.
"Take my card up to him, if you please." This way, sir."
A man who has not slept for a fortnight or so is not expected to be as affable, when attacked in his bed, as a
French Princess of old time at her morning receptions. Dr. Wilson turned toward me, as I entered, without
effusion, but without rudeness. His thick, dark moustache was chopped off square at the lower edge of the
upper lip, which implied a decisive, if not a peremptory, style of character.
I am Dr. SoandSo of Hubtown, looking after my wounded son. (I gave my name and said Boston, of
course, in reality.)
Dr. Wilson leaned on his elbow and looked up in my face, his features growing cordial. Then he put out his
hand, and goodhumoredly excused his reception of me. The day before, as he told me, he had dismissed
from the service a medical man hailing from ******, Pennsylvania, bearing my last name, preceded by the
same two initials; and he supposed, when my card came up, it was this individual who was disturbing his
slumbers. The coincidence was so unlikely a priori, unless some forlorn parent without antecedents had
named, a child after me, that I could not help crossquestioning the Doctor, who assured me deliberately that
the fact was just as he had said, even to the somewhat unusual initials. Dr. Wilson very kindly furnished me
all the information in his power, gave me directions for telegraphing to Chambersburg, and showed every
disposition to serve me.
On returning to the Herr House, we found the mild, whitehaired old gentleman in a very happy state. He had
just discovered his son, in a comfortable condition, at the United States Hotel. He thought that he could
probably give us some information which would prove interesting. To the United States Hotel we repaired,
then, in company with our kindhearted old friend, who evidently wanted to see me as happy as himself. He
went upstairs to his son's chamber, and presently came down to conduct us there.
Lieutenant P________ , of the Pennsylvania __th, was a very fresh, brightlooking young man, lying in bed
from the effects of a recent injury received in action. A grapeshot, after passing through a post and a board,
had struck him in the hip, bruising, but not penetrating or breaking. He had good news for me.
That very afternoon, a party of wounded officers had passed through Harrisburg, going East. He had
conversed in the barroom of this hotel with one of them, who was wounded about the shoulder (it might be
the lower part of the neck), and had his arm in a sling. He belonged to the Twentieth Massachusetts; the
Lieutenant saw that be was a Captain, by the two bars on his shoulderstrap. His name was my familyname;
he was tall and youthful, like my Captain. At four o'clock he left in the train for Philadelphia. Closely
questioned, the Lieutenant's evidence was as round, complete, and lucid as a Japanese sphere of rockcrystal.
TE DEUM LAUDAMUS! The Lord's name be praised! The dead pain in the semilunar ganglion (which I
must remind my reader is a kind of stupid, unreasoning brain, beneath the pit of the stomach, common to man
and beast, which aches in the supreme moments of life, as when the dam loses her young ones, or the wild
horse is lassoed) stopped short. There was a feeling as if I had slipped off a tight boot, or cut a strangling
garter,only it was all over my system. What more could I ask to assure me of the Captain's safety? As soon
as the telegraph office opens tomorrow morning we will send a message to our friends in Philadelphia, and
get a reply, doubtless, which will settle the whole matter.
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The hopeful morrow dawned at last, and the message was sent accordingly. In due time, the following reply
was received: "Phil Sept 24 I think the report you have heard that W [the Captain] has gone East must be an
error we have not seen or heard of him here M L H"
DE PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI! He could not have passed through Philadelphia without visiting the house
called Beautiful, where he had been so tenderly cared for after his wound at Ball's Bluff, and where those
whom he loved were lying in grave peril of life or limb. Yet he did pass through Harrisburg, going East,
going to Philadelphia, on his way home. Ah, this is it! He must have taken the late nighttrain from
Philadelphia for New York, in his impatience to reach home. There is such a train, not down in the
guidebook, but we were assured of the fact at the Harrisburg depot. By and by came the reply from Dr.
Wilson's telegraphic message: nothing had been heard of the Captain at Chambersburg. Still later, another
message came from our Philadelphia friend, saying that he was seen on Friday last at the house of Mrs.
K________, a wellknown Union lady in Hagerstown. Now this could not be true, for he did not leave
Keedysville until Saturday; but the name of the lady furnished a clew by which we could probably track him.
A telegram was at once sent to Mrs. K_______, asking information. It was transmitted immediately, but
when the answer would be received was uncertain, as the Government almost monopolized the line. I was, on
the whole, so well satisfied that the Captain had gone East, that, unless something were heard to the contrary,
I proposed following him in the late train leaving a little after midnight for Philadelphia.
This same morning we visited several of the temporary hospitals, churches and schoolhouses, where the
wounded were lying. In one of these, after looking round as usual, I asked aloud, "Any Massachusetts men
here?" Two bright faces lifted themselves from their pillows and welcomed me by name. The one nearest me
was private John B. Noyes of Company B, Massachusetts Thirteenth, son of my old college classtutor, now
the reverend and learned Professor of Hebrew, etc., in Harvard University. His neighbor was Corporal
Armstrong of the same Company. Both were slightly wounded, doing well. I learned then and since from Mr.
Noyes that they and their comrades were completely overwhelmed by the attentions of the good people of
Harrisburg,that the ladies brought them fruits and flowers, and smiles, better than either,and that the
little boys of the place were almost fighting for the privilege of doing their errands. I am afraid there will be a
good many hearts pierced in this war that will have no bulletmark to show.
There were some heavy hours to get rid of, and we thought a visit to Camp Curtin might lighten some of
them. A rickety wagon carried us to the camp, in company with a young woman from Troy, who had a basket
of good things with her for a sick brother. "Poor boy! he will be sure to die," she said. The rustic sentries
uncrossed their muskets and let us in. The camp was on a fair plain, girdled with hills, spacious, well kept
apparently, but did not present any peculiar attraction for us. The visit would have been a dull one, had we
not happened to get sight of a singularlooking set of human beings in the distance. They were clad in stuff
of different hues, gray and brown being the leading shades, but both subdued by a neutral tint, such as is wont
to harmonize the variegated apparel of travelstained vagabonds. They looked slouchy, listless, torpid,an
illconditioned crew, at first sight, made up of such fellows as an old woman would drive away from her
henroost with a broomstick. Yet these were estrays from the fiery army which has given our generals so
much trouble,"Secesh prisoners," as a bystander told us. A talk with them might be profitable and
entertaining. But they were tabooed to the common visitor, and it was necessary to get inside of the line
which separated us from them.
A solid, square captain was standing near by, to whom we were referred. Look a man calmly through the very
centre of his pupils and ask him for anything with a tone implying entire conviction that he will grant it, and
he will very commonly consent to the thing asked, were it to commit harikari. The Captain acceded to my
postulate, and accepted my friend as a corollary. As one string of my own ancestors was of Batavian origin, I
may be permitted to say that my new friend was of the Dutch type, like the Amsterdam galiots, broad in the
beam, capacious in the hold, and calculated to carry a heavy cargo rather than to make fast time. He must
have been in politics at some time or other, for he made orations to all the "Secesh," in which he explained to
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them that the United States considered and treated them like children, and enforced upon them the ridiculous
impossibility of the Rebels attempting to do anything against such a power as that of the National
Government.
Much as his discourse edified them and enlightened me, it interfered somewhat with my little plans of
entering into frank and friendly talk with some of these poor fellows, for whom I could not help feeling a
kind of human sympathy, though I am as venomous a hater of the Rebellion as one is like to find under the
stars and stripes. It is fair to take a man prisoner. It is fair to make speeches to a man. But to take a man
prisoner and then make speeches to him while in durance is not fair.
I began a few pleasant conversations, which would have come to something but for the reason assigned.
One old fellow had a long beard, a drooping eyelid, and a black clay pipe in his mouth. He was a Scotchman
from Ayr, dour enough, and little disposed to be communicative, though I tried him with the "Twa Briggs,"
and, like all Scotchmen, he was a reader of "Burrns." He professed to feel no interest in the cause for which
he was fighting, and was in the army, I judged, only from compulsion. There was a wildhaired, unsoaped
boy, with pretty, foolish features enough, who looked as if he might be about seventeen, as he said he was. I
give my questions and his answers literally.
"What State do you come from?"
"Georgy."
"What part of Georgia?"
"Midway."
[How odd that is! My father was settled for seven years as pastor over the church at Midway, Georgia, and
this youth is very probably a grandson or great grandson of one of his parishioners.]
"Where did you go to church when you were at home?"
"Never went inside 'f a church b't once in m' life."
"What did you do before you became a soldier?"
"Nothin'."
"What do you mean to do when you get back?"
"Nothin'."
Who could have any other feeling than pity for this poor human weed, this dwarfed and etiolated soul,
doomed by neglect to an existence but one degree above that of the idiot?
With the group was a lieutenant, buttoned close in his gray coat, one button gone, perhaps to make a
breastpin for some fair traitorous bosom. A short, stocky man, undistinguishable from one of the "subject
race" by any obvious meanderings of the sangre azul on his exposed surfaces. He did not say much, possibly
because he was convinced by the statements and arguments of the Dutch captain. He had on strong,
ironheeled shoes, of English make, which he said cost him seventeen dollars in Richmond.
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I put the question, in a quiet, friendly way, to several of the prisoners, what they were fighting for. One
answered, "For our homes." Two or three others said they did not know, and manifested great indifference to
the whole matter, at which another of their number, a sturdy fellow, took offence, and muttered opinions
strongly derogatory to those who would not stand up for the cause they had been fighting for. A feeble;
attenuated old man, who wore the Rebel uniform, if such it could be called, stood by without showing any
sign of intelligence. It was cutting very close to the bone to carve such a shred of humanity from the body
politic to make a soldier of.
We were just leaving, when a face attracted me, and I stopped the party. "That is the true Southern type," I
said to my companion. A young fellow, a little over twenty, rather tall, slight, with a perfectly smooth, boyish
cheek, delicate, somewhat high features, and a fine, almost feminine mouth, stood at the opening of his tent,
and as we turned towards him fidgeted a little nervously with one hand at the loose canvas, while he seemed
at the same time not unwilling to talk. He was from Mississippi, he said, had been at Georgetown College,
and was so far imbued with letters that even the name of the literary humility before him was not new to his
ears. Of course I found it easy to come into magnetic relation with him, and to ask him without incivility
what he was fighting for. "Because I like the excitement of it," he answered. I know those fighters with
women's mouths and boys' cheeks. One such from the circle of my own friends, sixteen years old, slipped
away from his nursery, and dashed in under, an assumed name among the redlegged Zouaves, in whose
company he got an ornamental bulletmark in one of the earliest conflicts of the war.
"Did you ever see a genuine Yankee?" said my Philadelphia friend to the young Mississippian.
"I have shot at a good many of them," he replied, modestly, his woman's mouth stirring a little, with a
pleasant, dangerous smile.
The Dutch captain here put his foot into the conversation, as his ancestors used to put theirs into the scale,
when they were buying furs of the Indians by weight,so much for the weight of a hand, so much for the
weight of a foot. It deranged the balance of our intercourse; there was no use in throwing a fly where a
pavingstone had just splashed into the water, and I nodded a goodby to the boy fighter, thinking how
much pleasanter it was for my friend the Captain to address him with unanswerable arguments and crushing
statements in his own tent than it would be to meet him upon some remote picket station and offer his fair
proportions to the quick eye of a youngster who would draw a bead on him before he had time to say dunder
and blixum.
We drove back to the town. No message. After dinner still no message. Dr. Cuyler, Chief Army Hospital
Inspector, is in town, they say. Let us hunt him up,perhaps he can help us.
We found him at the Jones House. A gentleman of large proportions, but of lively temperament, his frame
knit in the North, I think, but ripened in Georgia, incisive, prompt but goodhumored, wearing his
broadbrimmed, steeplecrowned felt hat with the least possible tilt on one side,a sure sign of exuberant
vitality in a mature and dignified person like him, businesslike in his ways, and not to be interrupted while
occupied with another, but giving himself up heartily to the claimant who held him for the time. He was so
genial, so cordial, so encouraging, that it seemed as if the clouds, which had been thick all the morning, broke
away as we came into his presence, and the sunshine of his large nature filled the air all around us. He took
the matter in hand at once, as if it were his own private affair. In ten minutes he had a second telegraphic
message on its way to Mrs. K at Hagerstown, sent through the Government channel from the State
Capitol,one so direct and urgent that I should be sure of an answer to it, whatever became of the one I had
sent in the morning.
While this was going on, we hired a dilapidated barouche, driven by an odd young native, neither boy nor
man, "as a codling when 't is almost an apple," who said wery for very, simple and sincere, who smiled
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faintly at our pleasantries, always with a certain reserve of suspicion, and a gleam of the shrewdness that all
men get who live in the atmosphere of horses. He drove us round by the Capitol grounds, white with tents,
which were disgraced in my eyes by unsoldierly scrawls in huge letters, thus: THE SEVEN BLOOMSBURY
BROTHERS, DEVIL'S HOLE, and similar inscriptions. Then to the Beacon Street of Harrisburg, which
looks upon the Susquehanna instead of the Common, and shows a long front of handsome houses with fair
gardens. The river is pretty nearly a mile across here, but very shallow now. The codling told us that a Rebel
spy had been caught trying its fords a little while ago, and was now at Camp Curtin with a heavy ball chained
to his leg,a popular story, but a lie, Dr. Wilson said. A little farther along we came to the barkless stump of
the tree to which Mr. Harris, the Cecrops of the city named after him, was tied by the Indians for some
unpleasant operation of scalping or roasting, when he was rescued by friendly savages, who paddled across
the stream to save him. Our youngling pointed out a very respectable looking stone house as having been
"built by the Indians" about those times. Guides have queer notions occasionally.
I was at Niagara just when Dr. Rae arrived there with his companions and dogs and things from his Arctic
search after the lost navigator.
"Who are those?" I said to my conductor.
"Them?" he answered. "Them's the men that's been out West, out to Michig'n, aft' Sir Ben Franklin."
Of the other sights of Harrisburg the Brant House or Hotel, or whatever it is called, seems most worth notice.
Its facade is imposing, with a row of stately columns, high above which a broad sign impends, like a crag
over the brow of a lofty precipice. The lower floor only appeared to be open to the public. Its tessellated
pavement and ample courts suggested the idea of a temple where great multitudes might kneel uncrowded at
their devotions; but from appearances about the place where the altar should be, I judged, that, if one asked
the officiating priest for the cup which cheers and likewise inebriates, his prayer would not be unanswered.
The edifice recalled to me a similar phenomenon I had once looked upon, the famous Caffe Pedrocchi at
Padua. It was the same thing in Italy and America: a rich man builds himself a mausoleum, and calls it a
place of entertainment. The fragrance of innumerable libations and the smoke of incensebreathing cigars
and pipes shall ascend day and night through the arches of his funereal monument. What are the poor dips
which flare and flicker on the crowns of spikes that stand at the corners of St. Genevieve's filigreecased
sarcophagus to this perpetual offering of sacrifice?
Ten o'clock in the evening was approaching. The telegraph office would presently close, and as yet there
were no tidings from Hagerstown. Let us step over and see for ourselves. A message! A message!
"Captain H. still here leaves seven tomorrow for Harrisburg Penna Is doing well Mrs HK."
A note from Dr. Cuyler to the same effect came soon afterwards to the hotel.
We shall sleep well tonight; but let us sit awhile with nubiferous, or, if we may coin a word, nepheligenous
accompaniment, such as shall gently narcotize the overwearied brain and fold its convolutions for slumber
like the leaves of a lily at nightfall. For now the over tense nerves are all unstraining themselves, and a buzz,
like that which comes over one who stops after being long jolted upon an uneasy pavement, makes the whole
frame alive with a luxurious languid sense of all its inmost fibres. Our cheerfulness ran over, and the mild,
pensive clerk was so magnetized by it that he came and sat down with us. He presently confided to me, with
infinite naivete and ingenuousness, that, judging from my personal appearance, he should not have thought
me the writer that he in his generosity reckoned me to be. His conception, so far as I could reach it, involved
a huge, uplifted forehead, embossed with protuberant organs of the intellectual faculties, such as all writers
are supposed to possess in abounding measure. While I fell short of his ideal in this respect, he was pleased to
say that he found me by no means the remote and inaccessible personage he had imagined, and that I had
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nothing of the dandy about me, which last compliment I had a modest consciousness of most abundantly
deserving.
Sweet slumbers brought us to the morning of Thursday. The train from Hagerstown was due at 11.15 A. M:
We took another ride behind the codling, who showed us the sights of yesterday over again. Being in a
gracious mood of mind, I enlarged on the varying aspects of the townpumps and other striking objects
which we had once inspected, as seen by the different lights of evening and morning. After this, we visited
the schoolhouse hospital. A fine young fellow, whose arm had been shattered, was just falling into the
spasms of lockjaw. The beads of sweat stood large and round on his flushed and contracted features. He was
under the effect of opiates,why not (if his case was desperate, as it seemed to be considered) stop his
sufferings with chloroform? It was suggested that it might shorten life. "What then?" I said. "Are a dozen
additional spasms worth living for?"
The time approached for the train to arrive from Hagerstown, and we went to the station. I was struck, while
waiting there, with what seemed to me a great want of care for the safety of the people standing round. Just
after my companion and myself had stepped off the track, I noticed a car coming quietly along at a walk, as
one may say, without engine, without visible conductor, without any person heralding its approach, so
silently, so insidiously, that I could not help thinking how very near it came to flattening out me and my
matchbox worse than the Ravel pantomimist and his snuffbox were flattened out in the play. The train was
late,fifteen minutes, half an hour late, and I began to get nervous, lest something had happened. While I
was looking for it, out started a freighttrain, as if on purpose to meet the cars I was expecting, for a grand
smash up. I shivered at the thought, and asked an employee of the road, with whom I had formed an
acquaintance a few minutes old, why there should not be a collision of the expected train with this which was
just going out. He smiled an official smile, and answered that they arranged to prevent that, or words to that
effect.
Twentyfour hours had not passed from that moment when a collision did occur, just out of the city, where I
feared it, by which at least eleven persons were killed, and from forty to sixty more were maimed and
crippled!
Today there was the delay spoken of, but nothing worse. The expected train came in so quietly that I was
almost startled to see it on the track. Let us walk calmly through the cars, and look around us.
In the first car, on the fourth seat to the right, I saw my Captain; there saw I him, even my firstborn, whom I
had sought through many cities.
"How are you, Boy?"
"How are you, Dad?"
Such are the proprieties of life, as they are observed among us AngloSaxons of the nineteenth century,
decently disguising those natural impulses that made Joseph, the Prime Minister of Egypt, weep aloud so that
the Egyptians and the house of Pharaoh heard, nay, which had once overcome his shaggy old uncle Esau so
entirely that he fell on his brother's neck and cried like a baby in the presence of all the women. But the
hidden cisterns of the soul may be filling fast with sweet tears, while the windows through which it looks are
undimmed by a drop or a film of moisture.
These are times in which we cannot live solely for selfish joys or griefs. I had not let fall the hand I held,
when a sad, calm voice addressed me by name. I fear that at the moment I was too much absorbed in my own
feelings; for certainly at any other time. I should have yielded myself without stint to the sympathy which this
meeting might well call forth.
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"You remember my son, Cortland Saunders, whom I brought to see you once in Boston?"
"I do remember him well."
"He was killed on Monday, at Shepherdstown. I am carrying his body back with me on this train. He was my
only child. If you could come to my house,I can hardly call it my home now,it would be a pleasure to
me."
This young man, belonging in Philadelphia, was the author of a "New System of Latin Paradigms," a work
showing extraordinary scholarship and capacity. It was this book which first made me acquainted with him,
and I kept him in my memory, for there was genius in the youth. Some time afterwards he came to me with a
modest request to be introduced to President Felton, and one or two others, who would aid him in a course of
independent study he was proposing to himself. I was most happy to smooth the way for him, and he came
repeatedly after this to see me and express his satisfaction in the opportunities for study he enjoyed at
Cambridge. He was a dark, still, slender person, always with a trancelike remoteness, a mystic dreaminess
of manner, such as I never saw in any other youth. Whether he heard with difficulty, or whether his mind
reacted slowly on an alien thought, I could not say; but his answer would often be behind time, and then a
vague, sweet smile, or a few words spoken under his breath, as if he had been trained in sick men's chambers.
For such a young man, seemingly destined for the inner life of contemplation, to be a soldier seemed almost
unnatural. Yet he spoke to me of his intention to offer himself to his country, and his blood must now be
reckoned among the precious sacrifices which will make her soil sacred forever. Had he lived, I doubt not
that he would have redeemed the rare promise of his earlier years. He has done better, for he has died that
unborn generations may attain the hopes held out to our nation and to mankind.
So, then, I had been within ten miles of the place where my wounded soldier was lying, and then calmly
turned my back upon him to come once more round by a journey of three or four hundred miles to the same
region I had left! No mysterious attraction warned me that the heart warm with the same blood as mine was
throbbing so near my own. I thought of that lovely, tender passage where Gabriel glides unconsciously by
Evangeline upon the great river. Ah, me! if that railroad crash had been a few hours earlier, we two should
never have met again, after coming so close to each other!
The source of my repeated disappointments was soon made clear enough. The Captain had gone to
Hagerstown, intending to take the cars at once for Philadelphia, as his three friends actually did, and as I took
it for granted he certainly would. But as he walked languidly along, some ladies saw him across the street,
and seeing, were moved with pity, and pitying, spoke such soft words that he was tempted to accept their
invitation and rest awhile beneath their hospitable roof. The mansion was old, as the dwellings of gentlefolks
should be; the ladies were some of them young, and all were full of kindness; there were gentle cares, and
unasked luxuries, and pleasant talk, and musicsprinklings from the piano, with a sweet voice to keep them
company,and all this after the swamps of the Chickahominy, the mud and flies of Harrison's Landing, the
dragging marches, the desperate battles, the fretting wound, the jolting ambulance, the loghouse, and the
rickety milkcart! Thanks, uncounted thanks to the angelic ladies whose charming attentions detained him
from Saturday to Thursday, to his great advantage and my infinite bewilderment! As for his wound, how
could it do otherwise than well under such hands? The bullet had gone smoothly through, dodging everything
but a few nervous branches, which would come right in time and leave him as well as ever.
At ten that evening we were in Philadelphia, the Captain at the house of the friends so often referred to, and I
the guest of Charley, my kind companion. The Quaker element gives an irresistible attraction to these
benignant Philadelphia households. Many things reminded me that I was no longer in the land of the
Pilgrims. On the table were Kool Slaa and Schmeer Kase, but the good grandmother who dispensed with such
quiet, simple grace these and more familiar delicacies was literally ignorant of Baked Beans, and asked if it
was the Lima bean which was employed in that marvellous dish of animalized leguminous farina!
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Charley was pleased with my comparing the face of the small Ethiop known to his household as "Tines" to a
huckleberry with features. He also approved my parallel between a certain German blonde young maiden
whom we passed in the street and the "Morris White" peach. But he was so goodhumored at times, that, if
one scratched a lucifer, he accepted it as an illumination.
A day in Philadelphia left a very agreeable impression of the outside of that great city, which has endeared
itself so much of late to all the country by its most noble and generous care of our soldiers. Measured by its
sovereign hotel, the Continental, it would stand at the head of our economic civilization. It provides for the
comforts and conveniences, and many of the elegances of life, more satisfactorily than any American city,
perhaps than any other city anywhere. Many of its characteristics are accounted for to some extent by its
geographical position. It is the great neutral centre of the Continent, where the fiery enthusiasms of the South
and the keen fanaticisms of the North meet at their outer limits, and result in a compound which neither turns
litmus red nor turmeric brown. It lives largely on its traditions, of which, leaving out Franklin and
Independence Hall, the most imposing must be considered its famous waterworks. In my younger days I
visited Fairmount, and it was with a pious reverence that I renewed my pilgrimage to that perennial fountain.
Its watery ventricles were throbbing with the same systole and diastole as when, the blood of twenty years
bounding in my own heart, I looked upon their giant mechanism. But in the place of "Pratt's Garden" was an
open park, and the old house where Robert Morris held his court in a former generation was changing to a
public restaurant. A suspension bridge cobwebbed itself across the Schuylkill where that audacious arch used
to leap the river at a single bound,an arch of greater span, as they loved to tell us, than was ever before
constructed. The Upper Ferry Bridge was to the Schuylkill what the Colossus was to the harbor of Rhodes. It
had an air of dash about it which went far towards redeeming the dead level of respectable average which
flattens the physiognomy of the rectangular city. Philadelphia will never be herself again until another Robert
Mills and another Lewis Wernwag have shaped her a new palladium. She must leap the Schuylkill again, or
old men will sadly shake their heads, like the Jews at the sight of the second temple, remembering the glories
of that which it replaced.
There are times when Ethiopian minstrelsy can amuse, if it does not charm, a weary soul, and such a vacant
hour there was on this same Friday evening. The "operahouse" was spacious and admirably ventilated. As I
was listening to the merriment of the sooty buffoons, I happened to cast my eyes up to the ceiling, and
through an open semicircular window a bright solitary star looked me calmly in the eyes. It was a strange
intrusion of the vast eternities beckoning from the infinite spaces. I called the attention of one of my
neighbors to it, but "Bones" was irresistibly droll, and Arcturus, or Aldebaran, or whatever the blazing
luminary may have been, with all his revolving worlds, sailed uncaredfor down the firmament.
On Saturday morning we took up our line of march for New York. Mr. Felton, President of the Philadelphia,
Wilmington and Baltimore Railroad, had already called upon me, with a benevolent and sagacious look on
his face which implied that he knew how to do me a service and meant to do it. Sure enough, when we got to
the depot, we found a couch spread for the Captain, and both of us were passed on to New York with no
visits, but those of civility, from the conductor. The best thing I saw on the route was a rustic fence, near
Elizabethtown, I think, but I am not quite sure. There was more genius in it than in any structure of the kind I
have ever seen,each length being of a special pattern, ramified, reticulated, contorted, as the limbs of the
trees had grown. I trust some friend will photograph or stereograph this fence for me, to go with the view of
the spires of Frederick, already referred to, as mementos of my journey.
I had come to feeling that I knew most of the respectably dressed people whom I met in the cars, and had
been in contact with them at some time or other. Three or four ladies and gentlemen were near us, forming a
group by themselves. Presently one addressed me by name, and, on inquiry, I found him to be the gentleman
who was with me in the pulpit as Orator on the occasion of another Phi Beta Kappa poem, one delivered at
New Haven. The party were very courteous and friendly, and contributed in various ways to our comfort.
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It sometimes seems to me as if there were only about a thousand people in the world, who keep going round
and round behind the scenes and then before them, like the "army" in a beggarly stageshow. Suppose that I
should really wish; some time or other, to get away from this everlasting circle of revolving supernumeraries,
where should I buy a ticket the like of which was not in some of their pockets, or find a seat to which some
one of them was not a neighbor.
A little less than a year before, after the Ball's Bluff accident, the Captain, then the Lieutenant, and myself
had reposed for a night on our homeward journey at the Fifth Avenue Hotel, where we were lodged on the
groundfloor, and fared sumptuously. We were not so peculiarly fortunate this time, the house being really
very full. Farther from the flowers and nearer to the stars,to reach the neighborhood of which last the per
ardua of three or four flights of stairs was formidable for any mortal, wounded or well.
The "vertical railway" settled that for us, however. It is a giant corkscrew forever pulling a mammoth cork,
which, by some divine judgment, is no sooner drawn than it is replaced in its position. This ascending and
descending stopper is hollow, carpeted, with cushioned seats, and is watched over by two condemned souls,
called conductors, one of whom is said to be named Igion, and the other Sisyphus.
I love New York, because, as in Paris, everybody that lives in it feels that it is his property,at least, as
much as it is anybody's. My Broadway, in particular, I love almost as I used to love my Boulevards. I went,
therefore, with peculiar interest, on the day that we rested at our grand hotel, to visit some new
pleasuregrounds the citizens had been arranging for us, and which I had not yet seen. The Central Park is an
expanse of wild country, well crumpled so as to form ridges which will give views and hollows that will hold
water. The hips and elbows and other bones of Nature stick out here and there in the shape of rocks which
give character to the scenery, and an unchangeable, unpurchasable look to a landscape that without them
would have been in danger of being fattened by art and money out of all its native features. The roads were
fine, the sheets of water beautiful, the bridges handsome, the swans elegant in their deportment, the grass
green and as short as a fast horse's winter coat. I could not learn whether it was kept so by clipping or
singeing. I was delighted with my new property,but it cost me four dollars to get there, so far was it
beyond the Pillars of Hercules of the fashionable quarter. What it will be by and by depends on
circumstances; but at present it is as much central to New York as Brookline is central to Boston.
The question is not between Mr. Olmsted's admirably arranged, but remote pleasureground and our
Common, with its batrachian pool, but between his Excentric Park and our finest suburban scenery, between
its artificial reservoirs and the broad natural sheet of Jamaica Pond. I say this not invidiously, but in justice to
the beauties which surround our own metropolis. To compare the situations of any dwellings in either of the
great cities with those which look upon the Common, the Public Garden, the waters of the Back Bay, would
be to take an unfair advantage of Fifth Avenue and Walnut Street. St. Botolph's daughter dresses in plainer
clothes than her more stately sisters, but she wears an emerald on her right hand and a diamond on her left
that Cybele herself need not be ashamed of.
On Monday morning, the twentyninth of September, we took the cars for home. Vacant lots, with Irish and
pigs; vegetablegardens; straggling houses; the high bridge; villages, not enchanting; then Stamford : then
NORWALK. Here, on the sixth of May, 1853, I passed close on the heels of the great disaster. But that my
lids were heavy on that morning, my readers would probably have had no further trouble with me. Two of my
friends saw the car in which they rode break in the middle and leave them hanging over the abyss. From
Norwalk to Boston, that day's journey of two hundred miles was a long funeral procession.
Bridgeport, waiting for Iranistan to rise from its ashes with all its phoenixegg domes,bubbles of wealth
that broke, ready to be blown again; iridescent as ever, which is pleasant, for the world likes cheerful Mr.
Barnum's success; New Haven, girt with flat marshes that look like monstrous billiardtables, with
haycocks lying about for balls,romantic with West Rock and its legends,cursed with a detestable
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depot, whose niggardly arrangements crowd the track so murderously close to the wall that the peine forte et
dare must be the frequent penalty of an innocent walk on its platform,with its neat carriages, metropolitan
hotels, precious old college dormitories, its vistas of elms and its dishevelled weepingwillows; Hartford,
substantial, wellbridged, manysteepled city,every conical spire an extinguisher of some
nineteenthcentury heresy; so onward, by and across the broad, shallow Connecticut,dull red road and
dark river woven in like warp and woof by the shuttle of the darting engine; then Springfield, the
widemeadowed, wellfeeding, horseloving, hotsummered, gianttreed town,city among villages,
village among cities; Worcester, with its Daedalian labyrinth of crossing railroadbars, where the snorting
Minotaurs, breathing fire and smoke and hot vapors, are stabled in their dens; Framingham, fair cupbearer,
leafcinctured Hebe of the deepbosomed Queen sitting by the seaside on the throne of the Six Nations. And
now I begin to know the road, not by towns, but by single dwellings; not by miles, but by rods. The poles of
the great magnet that draws in all the iron tracks through the grooves of all the mountains must be near at
hand, for here are crossings, and sudden stops, and screams of alarmed engines heard all around. The tall
granite obelisk comes into view far away on the left, its bevelled capstone sharp against the sky; the lofty
chimneys of Charlestown and East Cambridge flaunt their smoky banners up in the thin air; and now one fair
bosom of the threepilled city, with its domecrowned summit, reveals itself, as when manybreasted
Ephesian Artemis appeared with halfopen chlamys before her worshippers.
Fling open the windowblinds of the chamber that looks out on the waters and towards the western sun! Let
the joyous light shine in upon the pictures that hang upon its walls and the shelves thickset with the names
of poets and philosophers and sacred teachers, in whose pages our boys learn that life is noble only when it is
held cheap by the side of honor and of duty. Lay him in his own bed, and let him sleep off his aches and
weariness. So comes down another night over this household, unbroken by any messenger of evil tidings,a
night of peaceful rest and grateful thoughts; for this our son and brother was dead and is alive again, and was
lost and is found.
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[An Oration delivered before the City Authorities of Boston, on the 4th of July, 1863.]
It is our first impulse, upon this returning day of our nation's birth, to recall whatever is happiest and noblest
in our past history, and to join our voices in celebrating the statesmen and the heroes, the men of thought and
the men of action, to whom that history owes its existence. In other years this pleasing office may have been
all that was required of the holiday speaker. But today, when the very life of the nation is threatened, when
clouds are thick about us, and men's hearts are throbbing with passion, or failing with fear, it is the living
question of the hour, and not the dead story of the past, which forces itself into all minds, and will find
unrebuked debate in all assemblies.
In periods of disturbance like the present, many persons who sincerely love their country and mean to do their
duty to her disappoint the hopes and expectations of those who are actively working in her cause. They seem
to have lost whatever moral force they may have once possessed, and to go drifting about from one profitless
discontent to another, at a time when every citizen is called upon for cheerful, ready service. It is because
their minds are bewildered, and they are no longer truly themselves. Show them the path of duty, inspire them
with hope for the future, lead them upwards from the turbid stream of events to the bright, translucent springs
of eternal principles, strengthen their trust in humanity and their faith in God, and you may yet restore them
to their manhood and their country.
At all times, and especially on this anniversary of glorious recollections and kindly enthusiasms, we should
try to judge the weak and wavering souls of our brothers fairly and generously. The conditions in which our
vast community of peaceloving citizens find themselves are new and unprovided for. Our quiet burghers
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and farmers are in the position of riverboats blown from their moorings out upon a vast ocean, where such a
typhoon is raging as no mariner who sails its waters ever before looked upon. If their beliefs change with the
veering of the blast, if their trust in their fellow men, and in the course of Divine Providence, seems
wellnigh shipwrecked, we must remember that they were taken unawares, and without the preparation
which could fit them to struggle with these tempestuous elements. In times like these the faith is the man; and
they to whom it is given in larger measure owe a special duty to those who for want of it are faint at heart,
uncertain in speech, feeble in effort, and purposeless in aim.
Assuming without argument a few simple propositions,that self government is the natural condition of an
adult society, as distinguished from the immature state, in which the temporary arrangements of monarchy
and oligarchy are tolerated as conveniences; that the end of all social compacts is, or ought to be, to give
every child born into the world the fairest chance to make the most and the best of itself that laws can give it;
that Liberty, the one of the two claimants who swears that her babe shall not be split in halves and divided
between them, is the true mother of this blessed Union; that the contest in which we are engaged is one of
principles overlaid by circumstances; that the longer we fight, and the more we study the movements of
events and ideas, the more clearly we find the moral nature of the cause at issue emerging in the field and in
the study; that all honest persons with average natural sensibility, with respectable understanding, educated in
the school of northern teaching, will have eventually to range themselves in the armed or unarmed host which
fights or pleads for freedom, as against every form of tyranny; if not in the front rank now, then in the rear
rank by and by;assuming these propositions, as many, perhaps most of us, are ready to do, and believing
that the more they are debated before the public the more they will gain converts, we owe it to the timid and
the doubting to keep the great questions of the time in unceasing and untiring agitation. They must be
discussed, in all ways consistent with the public welfare, by different classes of thinkers; by priests and
laymen; by statesmen and simple voters; by moralists and lawyers; by men of science and uneducated
handlaborers; by men of facts and figures, and by men of theories and aspirations; in the abstract and in the
concrete; discussed and rediscussed every month, every week, every day, and almost every hour, as the
telegraph tells us of some new upheaval or subsidence of the rocky base of our political order.
Such discussions may not be necessary to strengthen the convictions of the great body of loyal citizens. They
may do nothing toward changing the views of those, if such there be, as some profess to believe, who follow
politics as a trade. They may have no hold upon that class of persons who are defective in moral sensibility,
just as other persons are wanting in an ear for music. But for the honest, vacillating minds, the tender
consciences supported by the tremulous knees of an infirm intelligence, the timid compromisers who are
always trying to curve the straight lines and round the sharp angles of eternal law, the continual debate of
these living questions is the one offered means of grace and hope of earthly redemption. And thus a true,
unhesitating patriot may be willing to listen with patience to arguments which he does not need, to appeals
which have no special significance for him, in the hope that some less clear in mind or less courageous in
temper may profit by them.
As we look at the condition in which we find ourselves on this fourth day of July, 1863, at the beginning of
the Eightyeighth Year of American Independence, we may well ask ourselves what right we have to indulge
in public rejoicings. If the war in which we are engaged is an accidental one, which might have been avoided
but for our fault; if it is for any ambitious or unworthy purpose on our part; if it is hopeless, and we are madly
persisting in it; if it is our duty and in our power to make a safe and honorable peace, and we refuse to do it; if
our free institutions are in danger of becoming subverted, and giving place to an irresponsible tyranny; if we
are moving in the narrow circles which are to ingulf us in national ruin,then we had better sing a dirge, and
leave this idle assemblage, and hush the noisy cannon which are reverberating through the air, and tear down
the scaffolds which are soon to blaze with fiery symbols; for it is mourning and not joy that should cover the
land; there should be silence, and not the echo of noisy gladness, in our streets; and the emblems with which
we tell our nation's story and prefigure its future should be traced, not in fire, but in ashes.
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If, on the other hand, this war is no accident, but an inevitable result of long incubating causes; inevitable as
the cataclysms that swept away the monstrous births of primeval nature; if it is for no mean, unworthy end,
but for national life, for liberty everywhere, for humanity, for the kingdom of God on earth; if it is not
hopeless, but only growing to such dimensions that the world shall remember the final triumph of right
throughout all time; if there is no safe and honorable peace for us but a peace proclaimed from the capital of
every revolted province in the name of the sacred, inviolable Union; if the fear of tyranny is a phantasm,
conjured up by the imagination of the weak, acted on by the craft of the cunning; if so far from circling
inward to the gulf of our perdition, the movement of past years is reversed, and every revolution carries us
farther and farther from the centre of the vortex, until, by God's blessing, we shall soon find ourselves freed
from the outermost coil of the accursed spiral; if all these things are true; if we may hope to make them seem
true, or even probable, to the doubting soul, in an hour's discourse, then we may join without madness in the
day's exultant festivities; the bells may ring, the cannon may roar, the incense of our harmless saltpetre fill the
air, and the children who are to inherit the fruit of these toiling, agonizing years, go about unblamed, making
day and night vocal with their jubilant patriotism.
The struggle in which we are engaged was inevitable; it might have come a little sooner, or a little later, but it
must have come. The disease of the nation was organic, and not functional, and the rough chirurgery of war
was its only remedy.
In opposition to this view, there are many languid thinkers who lapse into a forlorn belief that if this or that
man had never lived, or if this or that other man had not ceased to live, the country might have gone on in
peace and prosperity, until its felicity merged in the glories of the millennium. If Mr. Calhoun had never
proclaimed his heresies; if Mr. Garrison had never published his paper; if Mr. Phillips, the Cassandra in
masculine shape of our long prosperous Ilium, had never uttered his melodious prophecies; if the silver tones
of Mr. Clay had still sounded in the senatechamber to smooth the billows of contention; if the Olympian
brow of Daniel Webster had been lifted from the dust to fix its awful frown on the darkening scowl of
rebellion,we might have been spared this dread season of convulsion. All this is but simple Martha's faith,
without the reason she could have given: "If Thou hadst been here, my brother had not died."
They little know the tidal movements of national thought and feeling, who believe that they depend for
existence on a few swimmers who ride their waves. It is not Leviathan that leads the ocean from continent to
continent, but the ocean which bears his mighty bulk as it wafts its own bubbles. If this is true of all the
narrower manifestations of human progress, how much more must it be true of those broad movements in the
intellectual and spiritual domain which interest all mankind? But in the more limited ranges referred to, no
fact is more familiar than that there is a simultaneous impulse acting on many individual minds at once, so
that genius comes in clusters, and shines rarely as a single star. You may trace a common motive and force in
the pyramidbuilders of the earliest recorded antiquity, in the evolution of Greek architecture, and in the
sudden springing up of those wondrous cathedrals of the twelfth and following centuries, growing out of the
soil with stem and bud and blossom, like flowers of stone whose seeds might well have been the flaming
aerolites cast over the battlements of heaven. You may see the same law showing itself in the brief periods of
glory which make the names of Pericles and Augustus illustrious with reflected splendors; in the painters, the
sculptors, the scholars of "Leo's golden days"; in the authors of the Elizabethan time; in the poets of the first
part of this century following that dreary period, suffering alike from the silence of Cowper and the song of
Hayley. You may accept the fact as natural, that Zwingli and Luther, without knowing each other, preached
the same reformed gospel; that Newton, and Hooke, and Halley, and Wren arrived independently of each
other at the great law of the diminution of gravity with the square of the distance; that Leverrier and Adams
felt their hands meeting, as it were, as they stretched them into the outer darkness beyond the orbit of Uranus,
in search of the dim, unseen Planet; that Fulton and Bell, that Wheatstone and Morse, that Daguerre and
Niepce, were moving almost simultaneously in parallel paths to the same end. You see why Patrick Henry, in
Richmond, and Samuel Adams, in Boston, were startling the crown officials with the same accents of liberty,
and why the Mecklenburg Resolutions had the very ring of the Protest of the Province of Massachusetts. This
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law of simultaneous intellectual movement, recognized by all thinkers, expatiated upon by Lord Macaulay
and by Mr. Herbert Spencer among recent writers, is eminently applicable to that change of thought and
feeling which necessarily led to the present conflict.
The antagonism of the two sections of the Union was not the work of this or that enthusiast or fanatic. It was
the consequence of a movement in mass of two different forms of civilization in different directions, and the
men to whom it was attributed were only those who represented it most completely, or who talked longest
and loudest about it. Long before the accents of those famous statesmen referred to ever resounded in the
halls of the Capitol, long before the "Liberator" opened its batteries, the controversy now working itself out
by trial of battle was foreseen and predicted. Washington warned his countrymen of the danger of sectional
divisions, well knowing the line of cleavage that ran through the seemingly solid fabric. Jefferson
foreshadowed the judgment to fall upon the land for its sins against a just God. Andrew Jackson announced a
quarter of a century beforehand that the next pretext of revolution would be slavery. De Tocqueville
recognized with that penetrating insight which analyzed our institutions and conditions so keenly, that the
Union was to be endangered by slavery, not through its interests, but through the change of character it was
bringing about in the people of the two sections, the same fatal change which George Mason, more than half
a century before, had declared to be the most pernicious effect of the system, adding the solemn warning,
now fearfully justifying itself in the sight of his descendants, that "by an inevitable chain of causes and
effects, Providence punishes national sins by national calamities." The Virginian romancer pictured the
faroff scenes of the conflict which he saw approaching as the prophets of Israel painted the coming woes of
Jerusalem, and the strong iconoclast of Boston announced the very year when the curtain should rise on the
yet unopened drama.
The wise men of the past, and the shrewd men of our own time, who warned us of the calamities in store for
our nation, never doubted what was the cause which was to produce first alienation and finally rupture. The
descendants of the men "daily exercised in tyranny," the "petty tyrants" as their own leading statesmen called
them long ago, came at length to love the institution which their fathers had condemned while they tolerated.
It is the fearful realization of that vision of the poet where the lost angels snuff up with eager nostrils the
sulphurous emanations of the bottomless abyss,so have their natures become changed by long breathing
the atmosphere of the realm of darkness.
At last, in the fulness of time, the fruits of sin ripened in a sudden harvest of crime. Violence stalked into the
senatechamber, theft and perjury wound their way into the cabinet, and, finally, openly organized
conspiracy, with force and arms, made burglarious entrance into a chief stronghold of the Union. That the
principle which underlay these acts of fraud and violence should be irrevocably recorded with every needed
sanction, it pleased God to select a chief ruler of the false government to be its Messiah to the listening world.
As with Pharaoh, the Lord hardened his heart, while he opened his mouth, as of old he opened that of the
unwise animal ridden by cursing Balaam. Then spake Mr. "VicePresident" Stephens those memorable
words which fixed forever the theory of the new social order. He first lifted a degraded barbarism to the
dignity of a philosophic system. He first proclaimed the gospel of eternal tyranny as the new revelation which
Providence had reserved for the western Palestine. Hear, O heavens! and give ear, O earth! The cornerstone
of the newborn dispensation is the recognized inequality of races; not that the strong may protect the weak,
as men protect women and children, but that the strong may claim the authority of Nature and of God to buy,
to sell, to scourge, to hunt, to cheat out of the reward of his labor, to keep in perpetual ignorance, to blast with
hereditary curses throughout all time, the bronzed foundling of the New World, upon whose darkness has
dawned the star of the occidental Bethlehem!
After two years of war have consolidated the opinion of the Slave States, we read in the "Richmond
Examiner": "The establishment of the Confederacy is verily a distinct reaction against the whole course of the
mistaken civilization of the age. For 'Liberty, Equality, Fraternity,' we have deliberately substituted Slavery,
Subordination, and Government."
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A simple diagram, within the reach of all, shows how idle it is to look for any other cause than slavery as
having any material agency in dividing the country. Match the two broken pieces of the Union, and you will
find the fissure that separates them zigzagging itself half across the continent like an isothermal line, shooting
its splintery projections, and opening its reentering angles, not merely according to the limitations of
particular States, but as a county or other limited section of ground belongs to freedom or to slavery. Add to
this the official statement made in 1862, that "there is not one regiment or battalion, or even company of men,
which was organized in or derived from the Free States or Territories, anywhere, against the Union"; throw in
gratuitously Mr. Stephens's explicit declaration in the speech referred to, and we will consider the evidence
closed for the present on this count of the indictment.
In the face of these predictions, these declarations, this line of fracture, this precise statement, testimony from
so many sources, extending through several generations, as to the necessary effect of slavery, a priori, and its
actual influence as shown by the facts, few will suppose that anything we could have done would have stayed
its course or prevented it from working out its legitimate effects on the white subjects of its corrupting
dominion. Northern acquiescence or even sympathy may have sometimes helped to make it sit more easily on
the consciences of its supporters. Many profess to think that Northern fanaticism, as they call it, acted like a
mordant in fixing the black dye of slavery in regions which would but for that have washed themselves free
of its stain in tears of penitence. It is a delusion and a snare to trust in any such false and flimsy reasons
where there is enough and more than enough in the institution itself to account for its growth. Slavery
gratifies at once the love of power, the love of money, and the love of ease; it finds a victim for anger who
cannot smite back his oppressor; and it offers to all, without measure, the seductive privileges which the
Mormon gospel reserves for the true believers on earth, and the Bible of Mahomet only dares promise to the
saints in heaven.
Still it is common, common even to vulgarism, to hear the remark that the same gallowstree ought to bear as
its fruit the archtraitor and the leading champion of aggressive liberty. The mob of Jerusalem was not
satisfied with its two crucified thieves; it must have a cross also for the reforming Galilean, who interfered so
rudely with its conservative traditions! It is asserted that the fault was quite as much on our side as on the
other; that our agitators and abolishers kindled the flame for which the combustibles were all ready on the
other side of the border. If these men could have been silenced, our brothers had not died.
Who are the persons that use this argument? They are the very ones who are at the present moment most
zealous in maintaining the right of free discussion. At a time when every power the nation can summon is
needed to ward off the blows aimed at its life, and turn their force upon its foes,when a false traitor at
home may lose us a battle by a word, and a lying newspaper may demoralize an army by its daily or weekly
stillicidium of poison, they insist with loud acclaim upon the liberty of speech and of the press; liberty, nay
license, to deal with government, with leaders, with every measure, however urgent, in any terms they
choose, to traduce the officer before his own soldiers, and assail the only men who have any claim at all to
rule over the country, as the very ones who are least worthy to be obeyed. If these opposition members of
society are to have their way now, they cannot find fault with those persons who spoke their minds freely in
the past on that great question which, as we have agreed, underlies all our present dissensions.
It is easy to understand the bitterness which is often shown towards reformers. They are never general
favorites. They are apt to interfere with vested rights and timehallowed interests. They often wear an
unlovely, forbidding aspect. Their office corresponds to that of Nature's sanitary commission for the removal
of material nuisances. It is not the butterfly, but the beetle, which she employs for this duty. It is not the bird
of paradise and the nightingale, but the fowl of dark plumage and unmelodious voice, to which is entrusted
the sacred duty of eliminating the substances that infect the air. And the force of obvious analogy teaches us
not to expect all the qualities which please the general taste in those whose instincts lead them to attack the
moral nuisances which poison the atmosphere of society. But whether they please us in all their aspects or
not, is not the question. Like them or not, they must and will perform their office, and we cannot stop them.
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They may be unwise, violent, abusive, extravagant, impracticable, but they are alive, at any rate, and it is
their business to remove abuses as soon as they are dead, and often to help them to die. To quarrel with them
because they are beetles, and not butterflies, is natural, but far from profitable. They grow none the less
vigorously for being trodden upon, like those tough weeds that love to nestle between the stones of
courtyard pavements. If you strike at one of their heads with the bludgeon of the law, or of violence, it flies
open like the seedcapsule of a snapweed, and fills the whole region with seminal thoughts which will spring
up in a crop just like the original martyr. They chased one of these enthusiasts, who attacked slavery, from St.
Louis, and shot him at Alton in 1837; and on the 23d of June just passed, the Governor of Missouri, chairman
of the Committee on Emancipation, introduced to the Convention an Ordinance for the final extinction of
Slavery! They hunted another through the streets of a great Northern city in 1835; and within a few weeks a
regiment of colored soldiers, many of them bearing the marks of the slave driver's whip on their backs,
marched out before a vast multitude tremulous with newlystirred sympathies, through the streets of the same
city, to fight our battles in the name of God and Liberty!
The same persons who abuse the reformers, and lay all our troubles at their door, are apt to be severe also on
what they contemptuously emphasize as "sentiments" considered as motives of action. It is charitable to
believe that they do not seriously contemplate or truly understand the meaning of the words they use, but
rather play with them, as certain socalled "learned" quadrupeds play with the printed characters set before
them. In all questions involving duty, we act from sentiments. Religion springs from them, the family order
rests upon them, and in every community each act involving a relation between any two of its members
implies the recognition or the denial of a sentiment. It is true that men often forget them or act against their
bidding in the keen competition of business and politics. But God has not left the hard intellect of man to
work out its devices without the constant presence of beings with gentler and purer instincts. The breast of
woman is the everrocking cradle of the pure and holy sentiments which will sooner or later steal their way
into the mind of her sterner companion; which will by and by emerge in the thoughts of the world's teachers,
and at last thunder forth in the edicts of its lawgivers and masters. Woman herself borrows half her
tenderness from the sweet influences of maternity; and childhood, that weeps at the story of suffering, that
shudders at the picture of wrong, brings down its inspiration "from God, who is our home." To quarrel, then,
with the class of minds that instinctively attack abuses, is not only profitless but senseless; to sneer at the
sentiments which are the springs of all just and virtuous actions, is merely a display of unthinking levity, or
of want of the natural sensibilities.
With the hereditary character of the Southern people moving in one direction, and the awakened conscience
of the North stirring in the other, the open conflict of opinion was inevitable, and equally inevitable its
appearance in the field of national politics. For what is meant by selfgovernment is, that a man shall make
his convictions of what is right and expedient regulate the community so far as his fractional share of the
government extends. If one has come to the conclusion, be it right or wrong, that any particular institution or
statute is a violation of the sovereign law of God, it is to be expected that he will choose to be represented by
those who share his belief, and who will in their wider sphere do all they legitimately can to get rid of the
wrong in which they find themselves and their constituents involved. To prevent opinion from organizing
itself under political forms may be very desirable, but it is not according to the theory or practice of
selfgovernment. And if at last organized opinions become arrayed in hostile shape against each other, we
shall find that a just war is only the last inevitable link in a chain of closely connected impulses of which the
original source is in Him who gave to tender and humble and uncorrupted souls the sense of right and wrong,
which, after passing through various forms, has found its final expression in the use of material force. Behind
the bayonet is the lawgiver's statute, behind the statute the thinker's argument, behind the argument is the
tender conscientiousness of woman, woman, the wife, the mother,who looks upon the face of God himself
reflected in the unsullied soul of infancy. "Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained
strength, because of thine enemies."
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The simplest course for the malcontent is to find fault with the order of Nature and the Being who established
it. Unless the law of moral progress were changed, or the Governor of the Universe were dethroned, it would
be impossible to prevent a great uprising of the human conscience against a system, the legislation relating to
which, in the words of so calm an observer as De Tocqueville, the Montesquieu of our laws, presents "such
unparalleled atrocities as to show that the laws of humanity have been totally perverted." Until the infinite
selfishness of the powers that hate and fear the principles of free government swallowed up their convenient
virtues, that system was hissed at by all the oldworld civilization. While in one section of our land the
attempt has been going on to lift it out of the category of tolerated wrongs into the sphere of the world's
beneficent agencies, it was to be expected that the protest of Northern manhood and womanhood would grow
louder and stronger until the conflict of principles led to the conflict of forces. The moral uprising of the
North came with the logical precision of destiny; the rage of the "petty tyrants" was inevitable; the plot to
erect a slave empire followed with fated certainty; and the only question left for us of the North was, whether
we should suffer the cause of the Nation to go by default, or maintain its existence by the argument of cannon
and musket, of bayonet and sabre.
The war in which we are engaged is for no meanly ambitious or unworthy purpose. It was primarily, and is to
this moment, for the preservation of our national existence. The first direct movement towards it was a civil
request on the part of certain Southern persons, that the Nation would commit suicide, without making any
unnecessary trouble about it. It was answered, with sentiments of the highest consideration, that there were
constitutional and other objections to the Nation's laying violent hands upon itself. It was then requested, in a
somewhat peremptory tone, that the Nation would be so obliging as to abstain from food until the natural
consequences of that proceeding should manifest themselves. All this was done as between a single State and
an isolated fortress; but it was not South Carolina and Fort Sumter that were talking; it was a vast conspiracy
uttering its menace to a mighty nation; the whole menagerie of treason was pacing its cages, ready to spring
as soon as the doors were opened; and all that the tigers of rebellion wanted to kindle their wild natures to
frenzy, was the sight of flowing blood.
As if to show how coldly and calmly all this had been calculated beforehand by the conspirators, to make
sure that no absence of malice aforethought should degrade the grand malignity of settled purpose into the
trivial effervescence of transient passion, the torch which was literally to launch the first missile, figuratively,
to "fire the southern heart" and light the flame of civil war, was given into the trembling hand of an old
whiteheaded man, the wretched incendiary whom history will handcuff in eternal infamy with the
templeburner of ancient Ephesus. The first gun that spat its iron insult at Fort Sumter, smote every loyal
American full in the face. As when the foul witch used to torture her miniature image, the person it
represented suffered all that she inflicted on his waxen counterpart, so every buffet that fell on the smoking
fortress was felt by the sovereign nation of which that was the representative. Robbery could go no farther,
for every loyal man of the North was despoiled in that single act as much as if a footpad had laid hands upon
him to take from him his father's staff and his mother's Bible. Insult could go no farther, for over those
battered walls waved the precious symbol of all we most value in the past and most hope for in the
future,the banner under which we became a nation, and which, next to the cross of the Redeemer, is the
dearest object of love and honor to all who toil or march or sail beneath its waving folds of glory.
Let us pause for a moment to consider what might have been the course of events if under the influence of
fear, or of what some would name humanity, or of conscientious scruples to enter upon what a few please
themselves and their rebel friends by calling a "wicked war"; if under any or all these influences we had taken
the insult and the violence of South Carolina without accepting it as the first blow of a mortal combat, in
which we must either die or give the last and finishing stroke.
By the same title which South Carolina asserted to Fort Sumter, Florida would have challenged as her own
the Gibraltar of the Gulf, and Virginia the Ehrenbreitstein of the Chesapeake. Half our navy would have
anchored under the guns of these suddenly alienated fortresses, with the flag of the rebellion flying at their
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peaks. "Old Ironsides" herself would have perhaps sailed out of Annapolis harbor to have a wooden Jefferson
Davis shaped for her figurehead at Norfolk,for Andrew Jackson was a hater of secession, and his was no
fitting effigy for the battleship of the redhanded conspiracy. With all the great fortresses, with half the
ships and warlike material, in addition to all that was already stolen, in the traitors' hands, what chance would
the loyal men in the Border States have stood against the rush of the desperate fanatics of the now triumphant
faction? Where would Maryland, Kentucky, Missouri, Tennessee,saved, or looking to be saved, even as it
is, as by fire,have been in the day of trial? Into whose hands would the Capital, the archives, the glory, the
name, the very life of the nation as a nation, have fallen, endangered as all of them were, in spite of the
volcanic outburst of the startled North which answered the roar of the first gun at Sumter? Worse than all, are
we permitted to doubt that in the very bosom of the North itself there was a serpent, coiled but not sleeping,
which only listened for the first word that made it safe to strike, to bury its fangs in the heart of Freedom, and
blend its golden scales in close embrace with the deadly reptile of the cottonfields. Who would not wish that
he were wrong in such a suspicion? yet who can forget the mysterious warnings that the allies of the rebels
were to be found far north of the fatal boundary line; and that it was in their own streets, against their own
brothers, that the champions of liberty were to defend her sacred heritage?
Not to have fought, then, after the supreme indignity and outrage we had suffered, would have been to
provoke every further wrong, and to furnish the means for its commission. It would have been to placard
ourselves on the walls of the shattered fort, as the spiritless race the proud laborthieves called us. It would
have been to die as a nation of freemen, and to have given all we had left of our rights into the hands of alien
tyrants in league with homebred traitors.
Not to have fought would have been to be false to liberty everywhere, and to humanity. You have only to see
who are our friends and who are our enemies in this struggle, to decide for what principles we are combating.
We know too well that the British aristocracy is not with us. We know what the West End of London wishes
may be result of this controversy. The two halves of this Union are the two blades of the shears, threatening
as those of Atropos herself, which will sooner or later cut into shreds the old charters of tyranny. How they
would exult if they could but break the rivet that makes of the two blades one resistless weapon! The man
who of all living Americans had the best opportunity of knowing how the fact stood, wrote these words in
March, 1862: "That Great Britain did, in the most terrible moment of our domestic trial in struggling with a
monstrous social evil she had earnestly professed to abhor, coldly and at once assume our inability to master
it, and then become the only foreign nation steadily contributing in every indirect way possible to verify its
prejudgment, will probably be the verdict made up against her by posterity, on a calm comparison of the
evidence."
So speaks the wise, tranquil statesman who represents the nation at the Court of St. James, in the midst of
embarrassments perhaps not less than those which vexed his illustrious grandfather, when he occupied the
same position as the Envoy of the hated, newborn Republic.
"It cannot be denied,"says another observer, placed on one of our national watchtowers in a foreign
capital,"it cannot be denied that the tendency of European public opinion, as delivered from high places, is
more and more unfriendly to our cause"; "but the people," he adds, "everywhere sympathize with us, for they
know that our cause is that of free institutions,that our struggle is that of the people against an oligarchy."
These are the words of the Minister to Austria, whose generous sympathies with popular liberty no homage
paid to his genius by the class whose admiring welcome is most seductive to scholars has ever spoiled; our
fellowcitizen, the historian of a great Republic which infused a portion of its life into our own,John
Lothrop Motley.
It is a bitter commentary on the effects of European, and especially of British institutions, that such men
should have to speak in such terms of the manner in which our struggle has been regarded. We had, no doubt,
very generally reckoned on the sympathy of England, at least, in a strife which, whatever pretexts were
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alleged as its cause, arrayed upon one side the supporters of an institution she was supposed to hate in
earnest, and on the other its assailants. We had forgotten what her own poet, one of the truest and purest of
her children, had said of his countrymen, in words which might well have been spoken by the British Premier
to the American Ambassador asking for some evidence of kind feeling on the part of his government:
"Alas I expect it not. We found no bait
To tempt us in thy country. Doing good,
Disinterested good, is not our trade."
We know full well by this time what truth there is in these honest lines. We have found out, too, who our
European enemies are, and why they are our enemies. Three bending statues bear up that gilded seat, which,
in spite of the timehallowed usurpations and consecrated wrongs so long associated with its history, is still
venerated as the throne. One of these supports is the pensioned church; the second is the purchased army; the
third is the long suffering people. Whenever the third caryatid comes to life and walks from beneath its
burden, the capitals of Europe will be filled with the broken furniture of palaces. No wonder that our
ministers find the privileged orders willing to see the ominous republic split into two antagonistic forces,
each paralyzing the other, and standing in their mighty impotence a spectacle to courts and kings; to be
pointed at as helots who drank themselves blind and giddy out of that broken chalice which held the
poisonous draught of liberty!
We know our enemies, and they are the enemies of popular rights. We know our friends, and they are the
foremost champions of political and social progress. The eloquent voice and the busy pen of John Bright have
both been ours, heartily, nobly, from the first; the man of the people has been true to the cause of the people.
That deep and generous thinker, who, more than any of her philosophical writers, represents the higher
thought of England, John Stuart Mill, has spoken for us in tones to which none but her sordid hucksters and
her selfish landgraspers can refuse to listen. Count Gasparin and Laboulaye have sent us back the echo from
liberal France; France, the country of ideas, whose earlier inspirations embodied themselves for us in the
person of the youthful Lafayette. Italy,would you know on which side the rights of the people and the
hopes of the future are to be found in this momentous conflict, what surer test, what ampler demonstration
can you askthan the eager sympathy of the Italian patriot whose name is the hope of the toiling many, and
the dread of their oppressors, wherever it is spoken, the heroic Garibaldi?
But even when it is granted that the war was inevitable; when it is granted that it is for no base end, but first
for the life of the nation, and more and more, as the quarrel deepens, for the welfare of mankind, for
knowledge as against enforced ignorance, for justice as against oppression, for that kingdom of God on earth
which neither the unrighteous man nor the extortioner can hope to inherit, it may still be that the strife is
hopeless, and must therefore be abandoned. Is it too much to say that whether the war is hopeless or not for
the North depends chiefly on the answer to the question, whether the North has virtue and manhood enough
to persevere in the contest so long as its resources hold out? But how much virtue and manhood it has can
never be told until they are tried, and those who are first to doubt the prevailing existence of these qualities
are not commonly themselves patterns of either. We have a right to trust that this people is virtuous and brave
enough not to give up a just and necessary contest before its end is attained, or shown to be unattainable for
want of material agencies. What was the end to be attained by accepting the gage of battle? It was to get the
better of our assailants, and, having done so, to take exactly those steps which we should then consider
necessary to our present and future safety. The more obstinate the resistance, the more completely must it be
subdued. It may not even have been desirable, as Mr. Mill suggested long since, that the victory over the
rebellion should have been easily and speedily won, and so have failed to develop the true meaning of the
conflict, to bring out the full strength of the revolted section, and to exhaust the means which would have
served it for a still more desperate future effort. We cannot complain that our task has proved too easy. We
give our Southern army,for we must remember that it is our army, after all, only in a state of mutiny,we
give our Southern army credit for excellent spirit and perseverance in the face of many disadvantages. But we
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have a few plain facts which show the probable course of events; the gradual but sure operation of the
blockade; the steady pushing back of the boundary of rebellion, in spite of resistance at many points, or even
of such aggressive inroads as that which our armies are now meeting with their long lines of bayonets,may
God grant them victory!the progress of our arms down the Mississippi; the relative value of gold and
currency at Richmond and Washington. If the indexhands of force and credit continue to move in the ratio
of the past two years, where will the Confederacy be in twice or thrice that time?
Either all our statements of the relative numbers, power, and wealth of the two sections of the country signify
nothing, or the resources of our opponents in men and means must be much nearer exhaustion than our own.
The running sand of the hourglass gives no warning, but runs as freely as ever when its last grains are about
to fall. The merchant wears as bold a face the day before he is proclaimed a bankrupt, as he wore at the height
of his fortunes. If Colonel Grierson found the Confederacy "a mere shell," so far as his equestrian excursion
carried him, how can we say how soon the shell will collapse? It seems impossible that our own dissensions
can produce anything more than local disturbances, like the Morristown revolt, which Washington put down
at once by the aid of his faithful Massachusetts soldiers. But in a rebellious state dissension is ruin, and the
violence of an explosion in a strict ratio to the pressure on every inch of the containing surface. Now we
know the tremendous force which has compelled the "unanimity" of the Southern people. There are men in
the ranks of the Southern army, if we can trust the evidence which reaches us, who have been recruited with
packs of bloodhounds, and drilled, as it were, with halters around their necks. We know what is the
bitterness of those who have escaped this bloody harvest of the remorseless conspirators; and from that we
can judge of the elements of destruction incorporated with many of the seemingly solid portions of the fabric
of the rebellion. The facts are necessarily few, but we can reason from the laws of human nature as to what
must be the feelings of the people of the South to their Northern neighbors. It is impossible that the love of
the life which they have had in common, their glorious recollections, their blended histories, their sympathies
as Americans, their mingled blood, their birthright as born under the same flag and protected by it the world
over, their worship of the same God, under the same outward form, at least, and in the folds of the same
ecclesiastical organizations, should all be forgotten, and leave nothing but hatred and eternal alienation. Men
do not change in this way, and we may be quite sure that the pretended unanimity of the South will some day
or other prove to have been a part of the machinery of deception which the plotters have managed with such
consummate skill. It is hardly to be doubted that in every part of the South, as in New Orleans, in Charleston,
in Richmond, there are multitudes who wait for the day of deliverance, and for whom the coming of "our
good friends, the enemies," as Beranger has it, will be like the advent of the angels to the prisoncells of Paul
and Silas. But there is no need of depending on the aid of our white Southern friends, be they many or be they
few; there is material power enough in the North, if there be the will to use it, to overrun and by degrees to
recolonize the South, and it is far from impossible that some such process may be a part of the mechanism of
its new birth, spreading from various centres of organization, on the plan which Nature follows when she
would fill a halffinished tissue with bloodvessels or change a temporary cartilage into bone.
Suppose, however, that the prospects of the war were, we need not say absolutely hopeless,because that is
the unfounded hypothesis of those whose wish is father to their thought,but full of discouragement. Can
we make a safe and honorable peace as the quarrel now stands? As honor comes before safety, let us look at
that first. We have undertaken to resent a supreme insult, and have had to bear new insults and aggressions,
even to the direct menace of our national capital. The blood which our best and bravest have shed will never
sink into the ground until our wrongs are righted, or the power to right them is shown to be insufficient. If we
stop now, all the loss of life has been butchery; if we carry out the intention with which we first resented the
outrage, the earth drinks up the blood of our martyrs, and the rose of honor blooms forever where it was shed.
To accept less than indemnity for the past, so far as the wretched kingdom of the conspirators can afford it,
and security for the future, would discredit us in our own eyes and in the eyes of those who hate and long to
be able to despise us. But to reward the insults and the robberies we have suffered, by the surrender of our
fortresses along the coast, in the national gulf, and on the banks of the national river,and this and much
more would surely be demanded of us,would place the United Fraction of America on a level with the
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Peruvian guanoislands, whose ignoble but coveted soil is open to be plundered by all comers!
If we could make a peace without dishonor, could we make one that would be safe and lasting? We could
have an armistice, no doubt, long enough for the flesh of our wounded men to heal and their broken bones to
knit together. But could we expect a solid, substantial, enduring peace, in which the grass would have time to
grow in the warpaths, and the bruised arms to rust, as the old G. R. cannon rusted in our State arsenal,
sleeping with their tompions in their mouths, like so many sucking lambs? It is not the question whether the
same set of soldiers would be again summoned to the field. Let us take it for granted that we have seen
enough of the miseries of warfare to last us for a while, and keep us contented with militia musters and
shamfights. The question is whether we could leave our children and our children's children with any secure
trust that they would not have to go through the very trials we are enduring, probably on a more extended
scale and in a more aggravated form.
It may be well to look at the prospects before us, if a peace is established on the basis of Southern
independence, the only peace possible, unless we choose to add ourselves to the four millions who already
call the Southern whites their masters. We know what the prevailingwe do not mean universalspirit and
temper of those people have been for generations, and what they are like to be after a long and bitter warfare.
We know what their tone is to the people of the North; if we do not, De Bow and Governor Hammond are
schoolmasters who will teach us to our heart's content. We see how easily their social organization adapts
itself to a state of warfare. They breed a superior order of men for leaders, an ignorant commonalty ready to
follow them as the vassals of feudal times followed their lords; and a race of bondsmen, who, unless this war
changes them from chattels to human beings, will continue to add vastly to their military strength in raising
their food, in building their fortifications, in all the mechanical work of war, in fact, except, it may be, the
handling of weapons. The institution proclaimed as the cornerstone of their government does violence not
merely to the precepts of religion, but to many of the best human instincts, yet their fanaticism for it is as
sincere as any tribe of the desert ever manifested for the faith of the Prophet of Allah. They call themselves
by the same name as the Christians of the North, yet there is as much difference between their Christianity
and that of Wesley or of Channing, as between creeds that in past times have vowed mutual extermination.
Still we must not call them barbarians because they cherish an institution hostile to civilization. Their highest
culture stands out all the more brilliantly from the dark background of ignorance against which it is seen; but
it would be injustice to deny that they have always shone in political science, or that their military capacity
makes them most formidable antagonists, and that, however inferior they may be to their Northern
fellowcountrymen in most branches of literature and science, the social elegances and personal graces lend
their outward show to the best circles among their dominant class.
Whom have we then for our neighbors, in case of separation,our neighbors along a splintered line of
fracture extending for thousands of miles,but the Saracens of the Nineteenth Century; a fierce, intolerant,
fanatical people, the males of which will be a perpetual standing army; hating us worse than the Southern
Hamilcar taught his swarthy boy to hate the Romans; a people whose existence as a hostile nation on our
frontier is incompatible with our peaceful development? Their wealth, the proceeds of enforced labor,
multiplied by the breaking up of new cottonfields, and in due time by the reopening of the slavetrade, will
go to purchase arms, to construct fortresses, to fit out navies. The old Saracens, fanatics for a religion which
professed to grow by conquest, were a nation of predatory and migrating warriors. The Southern people,
fanatics for a system essentially aggressive, conquering, wasting, which cannot remain stationary, but must
grow by alternate appropriations of labor and of land, will come to resemble their earlier prototypes. Already,
even, the insolence of their language to the people of the North is a close imitation of the style which those
proud and arrogant Asiatics affected toward all the nations of Europe. What the "Christian dogs" were to the
followers of Mahomet, the "accursed Yankees," the "Northern mudsills" are to the followers of the Southern
Moloch. The accomplishments which we find in their choicer circles were prefigured in the court of the
chivalric Saladin, and the long train of Painim knights who rode forth to conquest under the Crescent. In all
branches of culture, their heathen predecessors went far beyond them. The schools of mediaeval learning
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were filled with Arabian teachers. The heavens declare the glory of the Oriental astronomers, as Algorab and
Aldebaran repeat their Arabic names to the students of the starry firmament. The sumptuous edifice erected
by the Art of the nineteenth century, to hold the treasures of its Industry, could show nothing fairer than the
court which copies the Moorish palace that crowns the summit of Granada. Yet this was the power which
Charles the Hammer, striking for Christianity and civilization, had to break like a potter's vessel; these were
the people whom Spain had to utterly extirpate from the land where they had ruled for centuries
Prepare, then, if you unseal the vase which holds this dangerous Afrit of Southern nationality, for a power on
your borders that will be to you what the Saracens were to Europe before the son of Pepin shattered their
armies, and flung the shards and shivers of their broken strength upon the refuse heap of extinguished
barbarisms. Prepare for the possible fate of Christian Spain; for a slavemarket in Philadelphia; for the
Alhambra of a Southern caliph on the grounds consecrated by the domestic virtues of a long line of
Presidents and their exemplary families. Remember the ages of border warfare between England and
Scotland, closed at last by the union of the two kingdoms. Recollect the hunting of the deer on the Cheviot
hills, and all that it led to; then think of the game which the dogs will follow openmouthed across our
Southern border, and all that is like to follow which the child may rue that is unborn; think of these
possibilities, or probabilities, if you will, and say whether you are ready to make a peace which will give you
such a neighbor; which may betray your civilization as that of half the Peninsula was given up to the Moors;
which may leave your fair border provinces to be crushed under the heel of a tyrant, as Holland was left to be
trodden down by the Duke of Alva!
No! no! fellowcitizens! We must fight in this quarrel until one side or the other is exhausted. Rather than
suffer all that we have poured out of our blood, all that we have lavished of our substance, to have been
expended in vain, and to bequeath an unsettled question, an unfinished conflict, an unavenged insult, an
unrighted wrong, a stained escutcheon, a tarnished shield, a dishonored flag, an unheroic memory to the
descendants of those who have always claimed that their fathers were heroes; rather than do all this, it were
hardly an American exaggeration to say, better that the last man and the last dollar should be followed by the
last woman and the last dime, the last child and the last copper!
There are those who profess to fear that our government is becoming a mere irresponsible tyranny. If there
are any who really believe that our present Chief Magistrate means to found a dynasty for himself and family,
that a coup d'etat is in preparation by which he is to become ABRAHAM, DEI GRATIA REX,they cannot
have duly pondered his letter of June 12th, in which he unbosoms himself with the simplicity of a rustic lover
called upon by an anxious parent to explain his intentions. The force of his argument is not at all injured by
the homeliness of his illustrations. The American people are not much afraid that their liberties will be
usurped. An army of legislators is not very likely to throw away its political privileges, and the idea of a
despotism resting on an open ballotbox, is like that of Bunker Hill Monument built on the waves of Boston
Harbor. We know pretty well how much of sincerity there is in the fears so clamorously expressed, and how
far they are found in company with uncompromising hostility to the armed enemies of the nation. We have
learned to put a true value on the services of the watchdog who bays the moon, but does not bite the thief!
The men who are so busy holystoning the quarterdeck, while all hands are wanted to keep the ship afloat,
can no doubt show spots upon it that would be very unsightly in fair weather. No thoroughly loyal man,
however, need suffer from any arbitrary exercise of power, such as emergencies always give rise to. If any
halfloyal man forgets his code of halfdecencies and halfduties so far as to become obnoxious to the
peremptory justice which takes the place of slower forms in all centres of conflagration, there is no sympathy
for him among the soldiers who are risking their lives for us; perhaps there is even more satisfaction than
when an avowed traitor is caught and punished. For of all men who are loathed by generous natures, such as
fill the ranks of the armies of the Union, none are so thoroughly loathed as the men who contrive to keep just
within the limits of the law, while their whole conduct provokes others to break it; whose patriotism consists
in stopping an inch short of treason, and whose political morality has for its safeguard a just respect for the
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jailer and the hangman! The simple preventive against all possible injustice a citizen is like to suffer at the
hands of a government which in its need and haste must of course commit many errors, is to take care to do
nothing that will directly or indirectly help the enemy, or hinder the government in carrying on the war.
When the clamor against usurpation and tyranny comes from citizens who can claim this negative merit, it
may be listened to. When it comes from those who have done what they could to serve their country, it will
receive the attention it deserves. Doubtless there may prove to be wrongs which demand righting, but the
pretence of any plan for changing the essential principle of our selfgoverning system is a figment which its
contrivers laugh over among themselves. Do the citizens of Harrisburg or of Philadelphia quarrel today
about the strict legality of an executive act meant in good faith for their protection against the invader? We
are all citizens of Harrisburg, all citizens of Philadelphia, in this hour of their peril, and with the enemy at
work in our own harbors, we begin to understand the difference between a good and bad citizen; the man that
helps and the man that hinders; the man who, while the pirate is in sight, complains that our anchor is
dragging in his mud, and the man who violates the proprieties, like our brave Portland brothers, when they
jumped on board the first steamer they could reach, cut her cable, and bore down on the corsair, with a habeas
corpus act that lodged twenty buccaneers in Fort Preble before sunset!
We cannot, then, we cannot be circling inward to be swallowed up in the whirlpool of national destruction. If
our borders are invaded, it is only as the spur that is driven into the courser's flank to rouse his slumbering
mettle. If our property is taxed, it is only to teach us that liberty is worth paying for as well as fighting for.
We are pouring out the most generous blood of our youth and manhood; alas! this is always the price that
must be paid for the redemption of a people. What have we to complain of, whose granaries are choking with
plenty, whose streets are gay with shining robes and glittering equipages, whose industry is abundant enough
to reap all its overflowing harvest, yet sure of employment and of its just reward, the soil of whose mighty
valleys is an inexhaustible mine of fertility, whose mountains cover up such stores of heat and power,
imprisoned in their coal measures, as would warm all the inhabitants and work all the machinery of our planet
for unnumbered ages, whose rocks pour out rivers of oil, whose streams run yellow over beds of golden
sand,what have we to complain of?
Have we degenerated from our English fathers, so that we cannot do and bear for our national salvation what
they have done and borne over and over again for their form of government? Could England, in her wars with
Napoleon, bear an incometax of ten per cent., and must we faint under the burden of an incometax of three
per cent.? Was she content to negotiate a loan at fiftythree for the hundred, and that paid in depreciated
paper, and can we talk about financial ruin with our national stocks ranging from one to eight or nine above
par, and the "fivetwenty" war loan eagerly taken by our own people to the amount of nearly two hundred
millions, without any check to the flow of the current pressing inwards against the doors of the Treasury?
Except in those portions of the country which are the immediate seat of war, or liable to be made so, and
which, having the greatest interest not to become the border states of hostile nations, can best afford to suffer
now, the state of prosperity and comfort is such as to astonish those who visit us from other countries. What
are war taxes to a nation which, as we are assured on good authority, has more men worth a million now than
it had worth ten thousand dollars at the close of the Revolution,whose whole property is a hundred times,
and whose commerce, inland and foreign, is five hundred times, what it was then? But we need not study Mr.
Still's pamphlet and "Thompson's BankNote Reporter" to show us what we know well enough, that, so far
from having occasion to tremble in fear of our impending ruin, we must rather blush for our material
prosperity. For the multitudes who are unfortunate enough to be taxed for a million or more, of course we
must feel deeply, at the same time suggesting that the more largely they report their incomes to the
taxgatherer, the more consolation they will find in the feeling that they have served their country. But,let
us say it plainly,it will not hurt our people to be taught that there are other things to be cared for besides
moneymaking and moneyspending; that the time has come when manhood must assert itself by brave
deeds and noble thoughts; when womanhood must assume its most sacred office, "to warn, to comfort," and,
if need be, "to command," those whose services their country calls for. This Northern section of the land has
become a great variety shop, of which the Atlantic cities are the longextended counter. We have grown rich
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for what? To put gilt bands on coachmen's hats? To sweep the foul sidewalks with the heaviest silks which
the toiling artisans of France can send us? To look through plateglass windows, and pity the brown
soldiers,or sneer at the black ones? to reduce the speed of trotting horses a second or two below its old
minimum? to color meerschaums? to flaunt in laces, and sparkle in diamonds? to dredge our maidens' hair
with golddust? to float through life, the passive shuttlecocks of fashion, from the avenues to the beaches,
and back again from the beaches to the avenues? Was it for this that the broad domain of the Western
hemisphere was kept so long unvisited by civilization?for this, that Time, the father of empires, unbound
the virgin zone of this youngest of his daughters, and gave her, beautiful in the long veil of her forests, to the
rude embrace of the adventurous Colonist? All this is what we see around us, now, now while we are actually
fighting this great battle, and supporting this great load of indebtedness. Wait till the diamonds go back to the
Jews of Amsterdam; till the plateglass window bears the fatal announcement, For Sale or to Let; till the
voice of our Miriam is obeyed, as she sings,
"Weave no more silks, ye Lyons looms!"
till the golddust is combed from the golden locks, and hoarded to buy bread; till the fastdriving youth
smokes his claypipe on the platform of the horsecars; till the musicgrinders cease because none will pay
them; till there are no peaches in the windows at twentyfour dollars a dozen, and no heaps of bananas and
pineapples selling at the streetcorners; till the tenflounced dress has but three flounces, and it is felony to
drink champagne; wait till these changes show themselves, the signs of deeper wants, the preludes of
exhaustion and bankruptcy; then let us talk of the Maelstrom;but till then, let us not be cowards with our
purses, while brave men are emptying their hearts upon the earth for us; let us not whine over our imaginary
ruin, while the reversed current of circling events is carrying us farther and farther, every hour, out of the
influence of the great failing which was born of our wealth, and of the deadly sin which was our fatal
inheritance!
Let us take a brief general glance at the wide field of discussion we are just leaving.
On Friday, the twelfth day of the month of April, in the year of our Lord eighteen hundred and sixtyone, at
halfpast four of the clock in the morning, a cannon was aimed and fired by the authority of South Carolina
at the wall of a fortress belonging to the United States. Its ball carried with it the hatreds, the rages of thirty
years, shaped and cooled in the mould of malignant deliberation. Its wad was the charter of our national
existence. Its muzzle was pointed at the stone which bore the symbol of our national sovereignty. As the
echoes of its thunder died away, the telegraph clicked one word through every office of the land. That word
was WAR!
War is a child that devours its nurses one after another, until it is claimed by its true parents. This war has
eaten its way backward through all the technicalities of lawyers learned in the infinitesimals of ordinances
and statutes; through all the casuistries of divines, experts in the differential calculus of conscience and duty;
until it stands revealed to all men as the natural and inevitable conflict of two incompatible forms of
civilization, one or the other of which must dominate the central zone of the continent, and eventually claim
the hemisphere for its development.
We have reached the region of those broad principles and large axioms which the wise Romans, the world's
lawgivers, always recognized as above all special enactments. We have come to that solid substratum
acknowledged by Grotius in his great Treatise: "Necessity itself which reduces things to the mere right of
Nature." The old rules which were enough for our guidance in quiet times, have become as meaningless "as
moonlight on the dial of the day." We have followed precedents as long as they could guide us; now we must
make precedents for the ages which are to succeed us.
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If we are frightened from our object by the money we have spent, the current prices of United States stocks
show that we value our nationality at only a small fraction of our wealth. If we feel that we are paying too
dearly for it in the blood of our people, let us recall those grand words of Samuel Adams:
"I should advise persisting in our struggle for liberty, though it were revealed from heaven that nine hundred
and ninetynine were to perish, and only one of a thousand were to survive and retain his liberty!"
What we want now is a strong purpose; the purpose of Luther, when he said, in repeating his Pater Noster,
fiat voluntas MEA,let my will be done; though he considerately added, quia Tua,because my will is
Thine. We want the virile energy of determination which made the oath of Andrew Jackson sound so like the
devotion of an ardent saint that the recording angel might have entered it unquestioned among the prayers of
the faithful.
War is a grim business. Two years ago our women's fingers were busy making "Havelocks." It seemed to us
then as if the Havelock made half the soldier; and now we smile to think of those days of inexperience and
illusion. We know now what War means, and we cannot look its dull, dead ghastliness in the face unless we
feel that there is some great and noble principle behind it. It makes little difference what we thought we were
fighting for at first; we know what we are fighting for now, and what we are fighting against.
We are fighting for our existence. We say to those who would take back their several contributions to that
undivided unity which we call the Nation; the bronze is cast; the statue is on its pedestal; you cannot reclaim
the brass you flung into the crucible! There are rights, possessions, privileges, policies, relations, duties,
acquired, retained, called into existence in virtue of the principle of absolute solidarity,belonging to the
United States as an organic whole, which cannot be divided, which none of its constituent parties can claim
as its own, which perish out of its living frame when the wild forces of rebellion tear it limb from limb, and
which it must defend, or confess selfgovernment itself a failure.
We are fighting for that Constitution upon which our national existence reposes, now subjected by those who
fired the scroll on which it was written from the cannon at Fort Sumter, to all those chances which the
necessities of war entail upon every human arrangement, but still the venerable charter of our wide Republic.
We cannot fight for these objects without attacking the one mother cause of all the progeny of lesser
antagonisms. Whether we know it or not, whether we mean it or not, we cannot help fighting against the
system that has proved the source of all those miseries which the author of the Declaration of Independence
trembled to anticipate. And this ought to make us willing to do and to suffer cheerfully. There were Holy
Wars of old, in which it was glory enough to die, wars in which the one aim was to rescue the sepulchre of
Christ from the hands of infidels. The sepulchre of Christ is not in Palestine! He rose from that burialplace
more than eighteen hundred years ago. He is crucified wherever his brothers are slain without cause; he lies
buried wherever man, made in his Maker's image, is entombed in ignorance lest he should learn the rights
which his Divine Master gave him! This is our Holy War, and we must fight it against that great General who
will bring to it all the powers with which he fought against the Almighty before he was cast down from
heaven. He has retained many a cunning advocate to recruit for him; he has bribed many a smoothtongued
preacher to be his chaplain; he has engaged the sordid by their avarice, the timid by their fears, the profligate
by their love of adventure, and thousands of nobler natures by motives which we can all understand; whose
delusion we pity as we ought always to pity the error of those who know not what they do. Against him or for
him we are all called upon to declare ourselves. There is no neutrality for any single trueborn American. If
any seek such a position, the stony finger of Dante's awful muse points them to their place in the antechamber
of the Halls of Despair,
With that ill band
Of angels mixed, who nor rebellious proved,
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Nor yet were true to God, but for themselves
Were only."
Fame of them the world hath none
Nor suffers; mercy and justice scorn them both.
Speak not of them, but look, and pass them by."
We must use all the means which God has put into our hands to serve him against the enemies of civilization.
We must make and keep the great river free, whatever it costs us; it is strapping up the forefoot of the wild,
untamable rebellion. We must not be too nice in the choice of our agents. Non eget Mauri jaculis,no
African bayonets wanted,was well enough while we did not yet know the might of that desperate giant we
had to deal with; but Tros, Tyriusve, white or black,is the safer motto now; for a good soldier, like a
good horse, cannot be of a bad color. The ironskins, as well as the ironclads, have already done us noble
service, and many a mother will clasp the returning boy, many a wife will welcome back the war worn
husband, whose smile would never again have gladdened his home, but that, cold in the shallow trench of the
battlefield, lies the halfburied form of the unchained bondsman whose dusky bosom sheathes the bullet
which would else have claimed that darling as his country's sacrifice
We shall have success if we truly will success, not otherwise. It may be long in coming,Heaven only
knows through what trials and humblings we may have to pass before the full strength of the nation is duly
arrayed and led to victory. We must be patient, as our fathers were patient; even in our worst calamities, we
must remember that defeat itself may be a gain where it costs our enemy more in relation to his strength than
it costs ourselves. But if, in the inscrutable providence of the Almighty, this generation is disappointed in its
lofty aspirations for the race, if we have not virtue enough to ennoble our whole people, and make it a nation
of sovereigns, we shall at least hold in undying honor those who vindicated the insulted majesty of the
Republic, and struck at her assailants so long as a drumbeat summoned them to the field of duty.
Citizens of Boston, sons and daughters of New England, men and women of the North, brothers and sisters in
the bond of the American Union, you have among you the scarred and wasted soldiers who have shed their
blood for your temporal salvation. They bore your nation's emblems bravely through the fire and smoke of
the battlefield; nay, their own bodies are starred with bulletwounds and striped with sabrecuts, as if to
mark them as belonging to their country until their dust becomes a portion of the soil which they defended. In
every Northern graveyard slumber the victims of this destroying struggle. Many whom you remember
playing as children amidst the cloverblossoms of our Northern fields, sleep under nameless mounds with
strange Southern wildflowers blooming over them. By those wounds of living heroes, by those graves of
fallen martyrs, by the hopes of your children, and the claims of your children's children yet unborn, in the
name of outraged honor, in the interest of violated sovereignty, for the life of an imperilled nation, for the
sake of men everywhere and of our common humanity, for the glory of God and the advancement of his
kingdom on earth, your country calls upon you to stand by her through good report and through evil report, in
triumph and in defeat, until she emerges from the great war of Western civilization, Queen of the broad
continent, Arbitress in the councils of earth's emancipated peoples; until the flag that fell from the wall of
Fort Sumter floats again inviolate, supreme, over all her ancient inheritance, every fortress, every capital,
every ship, and this warring land is once more a, United Nation!
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The personal revelations contained in my report of certain breakfast table conversations were so charitably
listened to and so good naturedly interpreted, that I may be in danger of becoming over communicative.
Still, I should never have ventured to tell the trivial experiences here thrown together, were it not that my
brief story is illuminated here and there by a glimpse of some shining figure that trod the same path with me
for a time, or crossed it, leaving a momentary or lasting brightness in its track. I remember that, in furnishing
a chamber some years ago, I was struck with its dull aspect as I looked round on the blackwalnut chairs and
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bedstead and bureau. "Make me a large and handsomely wrought gilded handle to the key of that dark chest
of drawers," I said to the furnisher. It was done, and that one luminous point redeemed the sombre apartment
as the evening star glorifies the dusky firmament. So, my loving reader,and to none other can such
tabletalk as this be addressed, I hope there will be lustre enough in one or other of the names with which I
shall gild my page to redeem the dulness of all that is merely personal in my recollections.
After leaving the school of Dame Prentiss, best remembered by infantine loves, those pretty preludes of more
serious passions; by the great forfeitbasket, filled with its miscellaneous waifs and deodauds, and by the
long willow stick by the aid of which the good old body, now stricken in years and unwieldy in person could
stimulate the sluggish faculties or check the mischievous sallies of the child most distant from his ample
chair,a school where I think my most noted schoolmate was the present Bishop of Delaware, became the
pupil of Master William Biglow. This generation is not familiar with his title to renown, although he fills
three columns and a half in Mr. Duyckinck's "Cyclopaedia of American Literature." He was a humorist
hardly robust enough for more than a brief local immortality. I am afraid we were an undistinguished set, for
I do not remember anybody near a bishop in dignity graduating from our benches.
At about ten years of age I began going to what we always called the "Port School," because it was kept at
Cambridgeport, a mile from the College. This suburb was at that time thinly inhabited, and, being much of it
marshy and imperfectly reclaimed, had a dreary look as compared with the thriving College settlement. The
tenants of the many beautiful mansions that have sprung up along Main Street, Harvard Street, and Broadway
can hardly recall the time when, except the "Dana House" and the "Opposition House" and the "Clark
House," these roads were almost all the way bordered by pastures until we reached the "stores" of Main
Street, or were abreast of that forlorn "First Row" of Harvard Street. We called the boys of that locality
"Portchucks." They called us "Cambridgechucks," but we got along very well together in the main.
Among my schoolmates at the Port School was a young girl of singular loveliness. I once before referred to
her as "the golden blonde," but did not trust myself to describe her charms. The day of her appearance in the
school was almost as much a revelation to us boys as the appearance of Miranda was to Caliban. Her
abounding natural curls were so full of sunshine, her skin was so delicately white, her smile and her voice
were so allsubduing, that half our heads were turned. Her fascinations were everywhere confessed a few
years afterwards; and when I last met her, though she said she was a grandmother, I questioned her statement,
for her winning looks and ways would still have made her admired in any company.
Not far from the golden blonde were two small boys, one of them very small, perhaps the youngest boy in
school, both ruddy, sturdy, quiet, reserved, sticking loyally by each other, the oldest, however, beginning to
enter into social relations with us of somewhat maturer years. One of these two boys was destined to be
widely known, first in literature, as author of one of the most popular books of its time and which is freighted
for a long voyage; then as an eminent lawyer; a man who, if his countrymen are wise, will yet be prominent
in the national councils. Richard Henry Dana, Junior, is the name he bore and bears; he found it famous, and
will bequeath it a fresh renown.
Sitting on the girls' benches, conspicuous among the schoolgirls of unlettered origin by that look which
rarely fails to betray hereditary and congenital culture, was a young person very nearly of my own age. She
came with the reputation of being "smart," as we should have called it, clever as we say nowadays. This was
Margaret Fuller, the only one among us who, like "Jean Paul," like "The Duke," like "Bettina," has slipped
the cable of the more distinctive name to which she was anchored, and floats on the waves of speech as
"Margaret." Her air to her schoolmates was marked by a certain stateliness and distance, as if she had other
thoughts than theirs and was not of them. She was a great student and a great reader of what she used to call
"nawvels." I remember her so well as she appeared at school and later, that I regret that she had not been
faithfully given to canvas or marble in the day of her best looks. None know her aspect who have not seen her
living. Margaret, as I remember her at school and afterwards, was tall, fair complexioned, with a watery,
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aquamarine lustre in her light eyes, which she used to make small, as one does who looks at the sunshine. A
remarkable point about her was that long, flexile neck, arching and undulating in strange sinuous movements,
which one who loved her would compare to those of a swan, and one who loved her not to those of the
ophidian who tempted our common mother. Her talk was affluent, magisterial, de haut en bas, some would
say euphuistic, but surpassing the talk of women in breadth and audacity. Her face kindled and reddened and
dilated in every feature as she spoke, and, as I once saw her in a fine storm of indignation at the supposed ill
treatment of a relative, showed itself capable of something resembling what Milton calls the viraginian
aspect.
Little incidents bear telling when they recall anything of such a celebrity as Margaret. I remember being
greatly awed once, in our schooldays, with the maturity of one of her expressions. Some themes were
brought home from the school for examination by my father, among them one of hers. I took it up with a
certain emulous interest (for I fancied at that day that I too had drawn a prize, say a fivedollar one, at least,
in the great intellectual lifelottery) and read the first words.
"It is a trite remark," she began.
I stopped. Alas! I did not know what trite meant. How could I ever judge Margaret fairly after such a
crushing discovery of her superiority? I doubt if I ever did; yet oh, how pleasant it would have been, at about
the age, say, of threescore and ten, to rake over these ashes for cinders with her,she in a snowy cap, and I
in a decent peruke!
After being five years at the Port School, the time drew near when I was to enter college. It seemed advisable
to give me a year of higher training, and for that end some public school was thought to offer advantages.
Phillips Academy at Andover was well known to us. We had been up there, my father and myself, at
anniversaries. Some Boston boys of wellknown and distinguished parentage had been scholars there very
lately, Master Edmund Quincy, Master Samuel Hurd Walley, Master Nathaniel Parker Willis,all promising
youth, who fulfilled their promise.
I do not believe there was any thought of getting a little respite of quiet by my temporary absence, but I have
wondered that there was not. Exceptional boys of fourteen or fifteen make home a heaven, it is true; but I
have suspected, late in life, that I was not one of the exceptional kind. I had tendencies in the direction of
flageolets and octave flutes. I had a pistol and a gun, and popped at everything that stirred, pretty nearly,
except the housecat. Worse than this, I would buy a cigar and smoke it by instalments, putting it meantime
in the barrel of my pistol, by a stroke of ingenuity which it gives me a grim pleasure to recall; for no maternal
or other female eyes would explore the cavity of that dread implement in search of contraband commodities.
It was settled, then, that I should go to Phillips Academy, and preparations were made that I might join the
school at the beginning of the autumn.
In due time I took my departure in the old carriage, a little modernized from the pattern of my Lady
Bountiful's, and we jogged soberly along,kind parents and slightly nostalgic boy,towards the seat of
learning, some twenty miles away. Up the old West Cambridge road, now North Avenue; past Davenport's
tavern, with its sheltering tree and swinging sign; past the old powderhouse, looking like a colossal conical
ball set on end; past the old Tidd House, one of the finest of the anteRevolutionary mansions; past Miss
Swan's great square boardingschool, where the music of girlish laughter was ringing through the windy
corridors; so on to Stoneham, town of the bright lake, then darkened with the recent memory of the barbarous
murder done by its lonely shore; through pleasant Reading, with its oddly named village centres, "Trapelo,"
"Read'nwoodeend," as rustic speech had it, and the rest; through Wilmington, then renowned for its hops; so
at last into the hallowed borders of the academic town.
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It was a shallow, twostory white house before which we stopped, just at the entrance of the central village,
the residence of a very worthy professor in the theological seminary,learned, amiable, exemplary, but
thought by certain experts to be a little questionable in the matter of homoousianism, or some such doctrine.
There was a great rock that showed its round back in the narrow front yard. It looked cold and hard; but it
hinted firmness and indifference to the sentiments fast struggling to get uppermost in my youthful bosom; for
I was not too old for homesickness,who is: The carriage and my fond companions had to leave me at last.
I saw it go down the declivity that sloped southward, then climb the next ascent, then sink gradually until the
window in the back of it disappeared like an eye that shuts, and leaves the world dark to some widowed heart.
Seasickness and homesickness are hard to deal with by any remedy but time. Mine was not a bad case, but
it excited sympathy. There was an ancient, faded old lady in the house, very kindly, but very deaf, rustling
about in dark autumnal foliage of silk or other murmurous fabric, somewhat given to snuff, but a very worthy
gentlewoman of the poorrelation variety. She comforted me, I well remember, but not with apples, and
stayed me, but not with flagons. She went in her benevolence, and, taking a blue and white soda powder,
mingled the same in water, and encouraged me to drink the result. It might be a specific for seasickness, but it
was not for homesickness. The fiz was a mockery, and the saline refrigerant struck a colder chill to my
despondent heart. I did not disgrace myself, however, and a few days cured me, as a week on the water often
cures seasickness.
There was a soberfaced boy of minute dimensions in the house, who began to make some advances to me,
and who, in spite of all the conditions surrounding him, turned out, on better acquaintance, to be one of the
most amusing, freespoken, mocking little imps I ever met in my life. My roommate came later. He was the
son of a clergyman in a neighboring town,in fact I may remark that I knew a good many clergymen's sons
at Andover. He and I went in harness together as well as most boys do, I suspect; and I have no grudge
against him, except that once, when I was slightly indisposed, he administered to me,with the best
intentions, no doubt,a dose of Indian pills, which effectually knocked me out of time, as Mr. Morrissey
would say,not quite into eternity, but so near it that I perfectly remember one of the good ladies told me
(after I had come to my senses a little, and was just ready for a sip of cordial and a word of encouragement),
with that delightful plainness of speech which so brings realities home to the imagination, that "I never
should look any whiter when I was laid out as a corpse." After my roommate and I had been separated
twentyfive years, fate made us fellowtownsmen and acquaintances once more in Berkshire, and now again
we are close literary neighbors; for I have just read a very pleasant article, signed by him, in the last number
of the "Galaxy." Does it not sometimes seem as if we were all marching round and round in a circle, like the
supernumeraries who constitute the "army" of a theatre, and that each of us meets and is met by the same and
only the same people, or their doubles, twice, thrice, or a little oftener, before the curtain drops and the
"army" puts off its borrowed clothes?
The old Academy building had a dreary look, with its flat face, bare and uninteresting as our own "University
Building" at Cambridge, since the piazza which relieved its monotony was taken away, and, to balance the
ugliness thus produced, the hideous projection was added to "Harvard Hall." Two masters sat at the end of
the great room, the principal and his assistant. Two others presided in separate rooms, one of them the late
Rev. Samuel Horatio Stearns, an excellent and lovable man, who looked kindly on me, and for whom I
always cherished a sincere regard, a clergyman's son, too, which privilege I did not always find the warrant of
signal virtues; but no matter about that here, and I have promised myself to be amiable.
On the side of the long room was a large clockdial, bearing these words:
YOUTH IS THE SEEDTIME OF LIFE.
I had indulged in a prejudice, up to that hour, that youth was the budding time of life, and this clockdial,
perpetually twitting me with its seedy moral, always had a forbidding look to my vernal apprehension.
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I was put into a seat with an older and much bigger boy, or youth, with a fuliginous complexion, a dilating
and whitening nostril, and a singularly malignant scowl. Many years afterwards he committed an act of
murderous violence, and ended by going to finish his days in a madhouse. His delight was to kick my shins
with all his might, under the desk, not at all as an act of hostility, but as a gratifying and harmless pastime.
Finding this, so far as I was concerned, equally devoid of pleasure and profit, I managed to get a seat by
another boy, the son of a very distinguished divine. He was bright enough, and more select in his choice of
recreations, at least during school hours, than my late homicidal neighbor. But the principal called me up
presently, and cautioned me against him as a dangerous companion. Could it be so? If the son of that boy's
father could not be trusted, what boy in Christendom could? It seemed like the story of the youth doomed to
be slain by a lion before reaching a certain age, and whose fate found him out in the heart of the tower where
his father had shut him up for safety. Here was I, in the very dove's nest of Puritan faith, and out of one of its
eggs a serpent had been hatched and was trying to nestle in my bosom! I parted from him, however, none the
worse for his companionship so far as I can remember.
Of the boys who were at school with me at Andover one has acquired great distinction among the scholars of
the land. One day I observed a new boy in a seat not very far from my own. He was a little fellow, as I
recollect him, with black hair and very bright black eyes, when at length I got a chance to look at them. Of all
the new comers during my whole year he was the only one whom the first glance fixed in my memory, but
there he is now, at this moment, just as he caught my eye on the morning of his entrance. His head was
between his hands (I wonder if he does not sometimes study in that same posture nowadays!) and his eyes
were fastened to his book as if he had been reading a will that made him heir to a million. I feel sure that
Professor Horatio Balch Hackett will not find fault with me for writing his name under this inoffensive
portrait. Thousands of faces and forms that I have known more or less familiarly have faded from my
remembrance, but this presentment of the youthful student, sitting there entranced over the page of his
textbook,the childfather of the distinguished scholar that was to be,is not a picture framed and hung
up in my mind's gallery, but a fresco on its walls, there to remain so long as they hold together.
My especial intimate was a fine, rosyfaced boy, not quite so free of speech as myself, perhaps, but with
qualities that promised a noble manhood, and ripened into it in due season. His name was Phinehas Barnes,
and, if he is inquired after in Portland or anywhere in the State of Maine, something will be heard to his
advantage from any honest and intelligent citizen of that Commonwealth who answers the question. This was
one of two or three friendships that lasted. There were other friends and classmates, one of them a natural
humorist of the liveliest sort, who would have been quarantined in any Puritan port, his laugh was so potently
contagious.
Of the noted men of Andover the one whom I remember best was Professor Moses Stuart. His house was
nearly opposite the one in which I resided and I often met him and listened to him in the chapel of the
Seminary. I have seen few more striking figures in my life than his, as I remember it. Tall, lean, with strong,
bold features, a keen, scholarly, accipitrine nose, thin, expressive lips, great solemnity and impressiveness of
voice and manner, he was my early model of a classic orator. His air was Roman, his neck long and bare like
Cicero's, and his toga,that is his broadcloth cloak,was carried on his arm, whatever might have been the
weather, with such a statuelike rigid grace that he might have been turned into marble as he stood, and
looked noble by the side of the antiques of the Vatican.
Dr. Porter was an invalid, with the prophetic handkerchief bundling his throat, and his face "festooned"as I
heard Hillard say once, speaking of one of our College professorsin folds and wrinkles. Ill health gives a
certain common character to all faces, as Nature has a fixed course which she follows in dismantling a human
countenance: the noblest and the fairest is but a death'shead decently covered over for the transient
ceremony of life, and the drapery often falls half off before the procession has passed.
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Dr. Woods looked his creed more decidedly, perhaps, than any of the Professors. He had the firm fibre of a
theological athlete, and lived to be old without ever mellowing, I think, into a kind of half heterodoxy, as
old ministers of stern creed are said to do now and then,just as old doctors grow to be sparing of the more
exasperating drugs in their later days. He had manipulated the mysteries of the Infinite so long and so
exhaustively, that he would have seemed more at home among the mediaeval schoolmen than amidst the
working clergy of our own time.
All schools have their great men, for whose advent into life the world is waiting in dumb expectancy. In due
time the world seizes upon these wondrous youth, opens the shell of their possibilities like the valves of an
oyster, swallows them at a gulp, and they are for the most part heard of no more. We had two great men,
grown up both of them. Which was the more awful intellectual power to be launched upon society, we
debated. Time cut the knot in his rude fashion by taking one away early, and padding the other with
prosperity so that his course was comparatively noiseless and ineffective. We had our societies, too; one in
particular, "The Social Fraternity," the dread secrets of which I am under a lifelong obligation never to reveal.
The fate of William Morgan, which the community learned not long after this time, reminds me of the danger
of the ground upon which I am treading.
There were various distractions to make the time not passed in study a season of relief. One good lady, I was
told, was in the habit of asking students to her house on Saturday afternoons and praying with and for them.
Bodily exercise was not, however, entirely superseded by spiritual exercises, and a rudimentary form of
baseball and the heroic sport of football were followed with some spirit.
A slight immature boy finds his materials of though and enjoyment in very shallow and simple sources. Yet a
kind of romance gilds for me the sober tableland of that cold New England hill where I came in contact with
a world so strange to me, and destined to leave such mingled and lasting impressions. I looked across the
valley to the hillside where Methuen hung suspended, and dreamed of its wooded seclusion as a village
paradise. I tripped lightly down the long northern slope with facilis descensus on my lips, and toiled up again,
repeating sed revocare gradum. I wandered' in the autumnal woods that crown the "Indian Ridge," much
wondering at that vast embankment, which we young philosophers believed with the vulgar to be of
aboriginal workmanship, not less curious, perhaps, since we call it an escar, and refer it to alluvial agencies.
The little Shawshine was our swimmingschool, and the great Merrimack, the right arm of four toiling cities,
was within reach of a morning stroll. At home we had the small imp to make us laugh at his enormities, for
he spared nothing in his talk, and was the drollest little living protest against the prevailing solemnities of the
locality. It did not take much to please us, I suspect, and it is a blessing that this is apt to be so with young
people. What else could have made us think it great sport to leave our warm beds in the middle of winter and
"camp out,"on the floor of our room,with blankets disposed tentwise, except the fact that to a boy a
new discomfort in place of an old comfort is often a luxury.
More exciting occupation than any of these was to watch one of the preceptors to see if he would not drop
dead while he was praying. He had a dream one night that he should, and looked upon it as a warning, and
told it round very seriously, and asked the boys to come and visit him in turn, as one whom they were soon to
lose. More than one boy kept his eye on him during his public devotions, possessed by the same feeling the
man had who followed Van Amburgh about with the expectation, let us not say the hope, of seeing the lion
bite his head off sooner or later.
Let me not forget to recall the interesting visit to Haverhill with my roommate, and how he led me to the
mighty bridge over the Merrimack which defied the icerafts of the river; and to the old meetinghouse,
where, in its porch, I saw the door of the ancient parsonage, with the bullethole in it through which
Benjamin Rolfe, the minister, was shot by the Indians on the 29th of August, 1708. What a vision it was
when I awoke in the morning to see the fog on the river seeming as if it wrapped the towers and spires of a
great city!for such was my fancy, and whether it was a mirage of youth or a fantastic natural effect I hate
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to inquire too nicely.
My literary performances at Andover, if any reader who may have survived so far cares to know, included a
translation from Virgil, out of which I remember this couplet, which had the inevitable cockney rhyme of
beginners:
"Thus by the power of Jove's imperial arm
The boiling ocean trembled into calm."
Also a discussion with Master Phinehas Barnes on the case of Mary, Queen of Scots, which he treated
argumentatively and I rhetorically and sentimentally. My sentences were praised and his conclusions adopted.
Also an Essay, spoken at the great final exhibition, held in the large hall upstairs, which hangs oddly enough
from the roof, suspended by iron rods. Subject, Fancy. Treatment, brief but comprehensive, illustrating the
magic power of that brilliant faculty in charming life into forgetfulness of all the ills that flesh is heir to,the
gift of Heaven to every condition and every clime, from the captive in his dungeon to the monarch on his
throne; from the burning sands of the desert to the frozen icebergs of the poles, frombut I forget myself.
This was the last of my coruscations at Andover. I went from the Academy to Harvard College, and did not
visit the sacred hill again for a long time.
On the last day of August, 1867, not having been at Andover , for many years, I took the cars at noon, and in
an hour or a little more found myself at the station,just at the foot of the hill. My first pilgrimage was to the
old elm, which I remembered so well as standing by the tavern, and of which they used to tell the story that it
held, buried in it by growth, the iron rings put round it in the old time to keep the Indians from chopping it
with their tomahawks. I then began the once familiar toil of ascending the long declivity. Academic villages
seem to change very slowly. Once in a hundred years the library burns down with all its books. A new edifice
or two may be put up, and a new library begun in the course of the same century; but these places are poor,
for the most part, and cannot afford to pull down their old barracks.
These sentimental journeys to old haunts must be made alone. The story of them must be told succinctly. It is
like the opiumsmoker's showing you the pipe from which he has just inhaled elysian bliss, empty of the
precious extract which has given him his dream.
I did not care much for the new Academy building on my right, nor for the new library building on my left.
But for these it was surprising to see how little the scene I remembered in my boyhood had changed. The
Professors' houses looked just as they used to, and the stage coach landed its passengers at the Mansion
House as of old. The pale brick seminary buildings were behind me on the left, looking as if "Hollis" and
"Stoughton" had been transplanted from Cambridge, carried there in the night by orthodox angels, perhaps,
like the Santa Casa. Away to my left again, but abreast of me, was the bleak, bare old Academy building; and
in front of me stood unchanged the shallow oblong white house where I lived a year in the days of James
Monroe and of John Quincy Adams.
The ghost of a boy was at my side as I wandered among the places he knew so well. I went to the front of the
house. There was the great rock showing its broad back in the front yard. I used to crack nuts on that,
whispered the small ghost. I looked in at the upper window in the farther part of the house. I looked out of
that on four long changing seasons, said the ghost. I should have liked to explore farther, but, while I was
looking, one came into the small garden, or what used to be the garden, in front of the house, and I desisted
from my investigation and went on my way. The apparition that put me and my little ghost to flight had a
dressinggown on its person and a gun in its hand. I think it was the dressinggown, and not the gun, which
drove me off.
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And now here is the shop, or store, that used to be Shipman's, after passing what I think used to be Jonathan
Leavitt's bookbindery, and here is the back road that will lead me round by the old Academy building.
Could I believe my senses when I found that it was turned into a gymnasium, and heard the low thunder of
ninepin balls, and the crash of tumbling pins from those precincts? The little ghost said, Never! It cannot be.
But it was. " Have they a billiardroom in the upper story?" I asked myself. "Do the theological professors
take a hand at allfours or poker on weekdays, now and then, and read the secular columns of the 'Boston
Recorder' on Sundays?" I was demoralized for the moment, it is plain; but now that I have recovered from the
shock, I must say that the fact mentioned seems to show a great advance in common sense from the notions
prevailing in my time.
I sauntered,we, rather, my ghost and I,until we came to a broken field where there was quarrying and
digging going on,our old base ball ground, hard by the burialplace. There I paused; and if any
thoughtful boy who loves to tread in the footsteps that another has sown with memories of the time when he
was young shall follow my footsteps, I need not ask him to rest here awhile, for he will be enchained by the
noble view before him. Far to the north and west the mountains of New Hampshire lifted their summits in
along encircling ridge of pale blue waves. The day was clear, and every mound and peak traced its outline
with perfect definition against the sky. This was a sight which had more virtue and refreshment in it than any
aspect of nature that I had looked upon, I am afraid I must say for years. I have been by the seaside now and
then, but the sea is constantly busy with its own affairs, running here and there, listening to what the winds
have to say and getting angry with them, always indifferent, often insolent, and ready to do a mischief to
those who seek its companionship. But these still, serene, unchanging mountains,Monadnock,
Kearsarge,what memories that name recalls!and the others, the dateless Pyramids of New England, the
eternal monuments of her ancient race, around which cluster the homes of so many of her bravest and
hardiest children,I can never look at them without feeling that, vast and remote and awful as they are, there
is a kind of inward heat and muffled throb in their stony cores, that brings them into a vague sort of sympathy
with human hearts. It is more than a year since I have looked on those blue mountains, and they "are to me as
a feeling " now, and have been ever since.
I had only to pass a wall and I was in the burialground. It was thinly tenanted as I remember it, but now
populous with the silent immigrants of more than a whole generation. There lay the dead I had left, the two or
three students of the Seminary; the son of the worthy pair in whose house I lived, for whom in those days
hearts were still aching, and by whose memory the house still seemed haunted. A few upright stones were all
that I recollect. But now, around them were the monuments of many of the dead whom I remembered as
living. I doubt if there has been a more faithful reader of these graven stones than myself for many a long
day. I listened to more than one brief sermon from preachers whom I had often heard as they thundered their
doctrines down upon me from the thronelike desk. Now they spoke humbly out of the dust, from a narrower
pulpit, from an older text than any they ever found in Cruden's Concordance, but there was an eloquence in
their voices the listening chapel had never known. There were stately monuments and studied inscriptions,
but none so beautiful, none so touching, as that which hallows the restingplace of one of the children of the
very learned Professor Robinson: "Is it well with the child? And she answered, It is well."
While I was musing amidst these scenes in the mood of Hamlet, two old men, as my little ghost called them,
appeared on the scene to answer to the gravedigger and his companion. They christened a mountain or two
for me, "Kearnsarge" among the rest, and revived some old recollections, of which the most curious was
"Basil's Cave." The story was recent, when I was there, of one Basil, or Bezill, or Buzzell, or whatever his
name might have been, a member of the Academy, fabulously rich, Orientally extravagant, and of more or
less lawless habits. He had commanded a cave to be secretly dug, and furnished it sumptuously, and there
with his companions indulged in revelries such as the daylight of that consecrated locality had never looked
upon. How much truth there was in it all I will not pretend to say, but I seem to remember stamping over
every rock that sounded hollow, to question if it were not the roof of what was once Basil's Cave.
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The sun was getting far past the meridian, and I sought a shelter under which to partake of the hermit fare I
had brought with me. Following the slope of the hill northward behind the cemetery, I found a pleasant clump
of trees grouped about some rocks, disposed so as to give a seat, a table, and a shade. I left my benediction on
this pretty little natural caravansera, and a brief record on one of its white birches, hoping to visit it again on
some sweet summer or autumn day.
Two scenes remained to look upon,the Shawshine River and the Indian Ridge. The streamlet proved to
have about the width with which it flowed through my memory. The young men and the boys were bathing in
its shallow current, or dressing and undressing upon its banks as in the days of old; the same river, only the
water changed; "The same boys, only the names and the accidents of local memory different," I whispered to
my little ghost.
The Indian Ridge more than equalled what I expected of it. It is well worth a long ride to visit. The lofty
wooded bank is a mile and a half in extent, with other ridges in its neighborhood, in general running nearly
parallel with it, one of them still longer. These singular formations are supposed to have been built up by the
eddies of conflicting currents scattering sand and gravel and stones as they swept over the continent. But I
think they pleased me better when I was taught that the Indians built them; and while I thank Professor
Hitchcock, I sometimes feel as if I should like to found a chair to teach the ignorance of what people do not
want to know.
"Two tickets to Boston." I said to the man at the station.
But the little ghost whispered, "When you leave this place you leave me behind you."
"One ticket to Boston, if you please. Good by, little ghost."
I believe the boyshadow still lingers around the wellremembered scenes I traversed on that day, and that,
whenever I revisit them, I shall find him again as my companion.
THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.
The priest is dead for the Protestant world. Luther's inkstand did not kill the devil, but it killed the priest, at
least for us: He is a loss in many respects to be regretted. He kept alive the spirit of reverence. He was looked
up to as possessing qualities superhuman in their nature, and so was competent to be the stay of the weak and
their defence against the strong. If one end of religion is to make men happier in this world as well as in the
next, mankind lost a great source of happiness when the priest was reduced to the common level of humanity,
and became only a minister. Priest, which was presbyter, corresponded to senator, and was a title to respect
and honor. Minister is but the diminutive of magister, and implies an obligation to render service.
It was promised to the first preachers that in proof of their divine mission they should have the power of
casting out devils and talking in strange tongues; that they should handle serpents and drink poisons with
impunity; that they should lay hands on the sick and they should recover. The Roman Church claims some of
these powers for its clergy and its sacred objects to this day. Miracles, it is professed, are wrought by them, or
through them, as in the days of the apostles. Protestantism proclaims that the age of such occurrences as the
apostles witnessed is past. What does it know about miracles? It knows a great many records of miracles, but
this is a different kind of knowledge.
The minister may be revered for his character, followed for his eloquence, admired for his learning, loved for
his amiable qualities, but he can never be what the priest was in past ages, and is still, in the Roman Church.
Dr. Arnold's definition may be found fault with, but it has a very real meaning. "The essential point in the
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notion of a priest is this: that he is a person made necessary to our intercourse with God, without being
necessary or beneficial to us morally,an unreasonable, immoral, spiritual necessity." He did not mean, of
course, that the priest might not have all the qualities which would recommend him as a teacher or as a man,
but that he had a special power, quite independent of his personal character, which could act, as it were,
mechanically; that out of him went a virtue, as from the hem of his Master's raiment, to those with whom his
sacred office brought him in contact.
It was a great comfort to poor helpless human beings to have a tangible personality of like nature with
themselves as a mediator between them and the heavenly powers. Sympathy can do much for the sorrowing,
the suffering, the dying, but to hear God himself speaking directly through human lips, to feel the touch of a
hand which is the channel of communication with the unseen Omnipotent, this was and is the privilege of
those who looked and those who still look up to a priesthood. It has been said, and many who have walked
the hospitals or served in the dispensaries can bear witness to the truth of the assertion, that the Roman
Catholics know how to die. The same thing is less confidently to be said of Protestants. How frequently is the
story told of the most exemplary Protestant Christians, nay, how common is it to read in the lives of the most
exemplary Protestant ministers, that they were beset with doubts and terrors in their last days! The blessing of
the viaticum is unknown to them. Man is essentially an idolater,that is, in bondage to his imagination,
for there is no more harm in the Greek word eidolon than in the Latin word imago. He wants a visible image
to fix his thought, a scarabee or a crux ansata, or the modern symbols which are to our own time what these
were to the ancient Egyptians. He wants a vicegerent of the Almighty to take his dying hand and bid him
godspeed on his last journey. Who but such an immediate representative of the Divinity would have dared to
say to the monarch just laying his head on the block, "Fils de Saint Louis, monte au ciel"?
It has been a long and gradual process to thoroughly republicanize the American Protestant descendant of the
ancient priesthood. The history of the Congregationalists in New England would show us how this change
has gone on, until we have seen the church become a hall open to all sorts of purposes, the pulpit come down
to the level of the rostrum, and the clergyman take on the character of a popular lecturer who deals with every
kind of subject, including religion.
Whatever fault we may find with many of their beliefs, we have a right to be proud of our Pilgrim and Puritan
fathers among the clergy. They were ready to do and to suffer anything for their faith, and a faith which
breeds heroes is better than an unbelief which leaves nothing worth being a hero for. Only let us be fair, and
not defend the creed of Mohammed because it nurtured brave men and enlightened scholars, or refrain from
condemning polygamy in our admiration of the indomitable spirit and perseverance of the Pilgrim Fathers of
Mormonism, or justify an inhuman belief, or a cruel or foolish superstition, because it was once held or
acquiesced in by men whose nobility of character we heartily recognize. The New England clergy can look
back to a noble record, but the pulpit has sometimes required a homily from the pew, and may sometimes
find it worth its while to listen to one even in our own days.
>From the settlement of the country to the present time, the ministers have furnished the highest type of
character to the people among whom they have lived. They have lost to a considerable extent the position of
leaders, but if they are in our times rather to be looked upon as representatives of their congregations, they
represent what is best among those of whom they are the speaking organs. We have a right to expect them to
be models as well as teachers of all that makes the best citizens for this world and the next, and they have not
been, and are not in these later days unworthy of their high calling. They have worked hard for small earthly
compensation. They have been the most learned men the country had to show, when learning was a scarce
commodity. Called by their consciences to selfdenying labors, living simply, often halfsupported by the
toil of their own hands, they have let the light, such light as shone for them, into the minds of our
communities as the settler's axe let the sunshine into their loghuts and farmhouses.
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Their work has not been confined to their professional duties, as a few instances will illustrate. Often, as was
just said, they toiled like daylaborers, teasing lean harvests out of their small inclosures of land, for the New
England soil is not one that "laughs when tickled with a hoe," but rather one that sulks when appealed to with
that persuasive implement. The father of the eminent Boston physician whose recent loss is so deeply
regretted, the Reverend Pitt Clarke, fortytwo years pastor of the small fold in the town of Norton,
Massachusetts, was a typical example of this union of the two callings, and it would be hard to find a story of
a more wholesome and useful life, within a limited and isolated circle, than that which the pious care of one
of his children commemorated. Sometimes the New England minister, like worthy Mr. Ward of
StratfordonAvon, in old England, joined the practice of medicine to the offices of his holy profession.
Michael Wigglesworth, the poet of "The Day of Doom," and Charles Chauncy, the second president of
Harvard College, were instances of this twofold service. In politics their influence has always been felt, and
in many cases their drums ecclesiastic have beaten the reveille as vigorously, and to as good purpose, as it
ever sounded in the slumbering camp. Samuel Cooper sat in council with the leaders of the Revolution in
Boston. The three Northamptonborn brothers Allen, Thomas, Moses, and Solomon, lifted their voices, and,
when needed, their armed hands, in the cause of liberty. In later days, Elijah Parish and David Osgood carried
politics into their pulpits as boldly as their antislavery successors have done in times still more recent.
The learning, the personal character, the sacredness of their office, tended, to give the New England clergy of
past generations a kind of aristocratic dignity, a personal grandeur, much more felt in the days when class
distinctions were recognized less unwillingly than at present. Their costume added to the effect of their bodily
presence, as the old portraits illustrate for us, as those of us who remember the last of the "fair, white, curly"
wigs, as it graced the imposing figure of the Reverend Dr. Marsh of Wethersfield, Connecticut, can testify.
They were not only learned in the history of the past, but they were the interpreters of the prophecy, and
announced coming events with a confidence equal to that with which the weatherbureau warns us of a
coming storm. The numbers of the book of Daniel and the visions of the Revelation were not too hard for
them. In the commonplace book of the Reverend Joel Benedict is to be found the following record, made, as
it appears, about the year 1773: "Conversing with Dr. Bellamy upon the downfall of Antichrist, after many
things had been said upon the subject, the Doctor began to warm, and uttered himself after this manner: 'Tell
your children to tell their children that in the year 1866 something notable will happen in the church; tell
them the old man says so.'"
The "old man" came pretty near hitting the mark, as we shall see if we consider what took place in the decade
from 1860 to 1870. In 1864 the Pope issued the "Syllabus of Errors," which "must be considered by
Romanistsas an infallible official document, and which arrays the papacy in open war against modern
civilization and civil and religious freedom." The Vatican Council in 1870 declared the Pope to be the bishop
of bishops, and immediately after this began the decisive movement of the party known as the "Old
Catholics." In the exact year looked forward to by the New England prophet, 1866, the evacuation of Rome
by the French and the publication of "Ecce Homo" appear to be the most remarkable events having Special
relation to the religious world. Perhaps the National Council of the Congregationalists, held at Boston in
1865, may be reckoned as one of the occurrences which the oracle just missed.
The confidence, if not the spirit of prophecy, lasted down to a later period. "In half a century," said the
venerable Dr. Porter of Conway, New Hampshire, in 1822, "there will be no Pagans, Jews, Mohammedans,
Unitarians, or Methodists." The halfcentury has more than elapsed, and the prediction seems to stand in
need of an extension, like many other prophetic utterances.
The story is told of David Osgood, the shaggybrowed old minister of Medford, that he had expressed his
belief that not more than one soul in two thousand would be saved. Seeing a knot of his parishioners in
debate, he asked them what they were discussing, and was told that they were questioning which of the
Medford people was the elected one, the population being just two thousand, and that opinion was divided
whether it would be the minister or one of his deacons. The story may or may not be literally true, but it
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illustrates the popular belief of those days, that the clergyman saw a good deal farther into the councils of the
Almighty than his successors could claim the power of doing.
The objects about me, as I am writing, call to mind the varied accomplishments of some of the New England
clergy. The face of the Revolutionary preacher, Samuel Cooper, as Copley painted it, looks upon me with the
pleasantest of smiles and a liveliness of expression which makes him seem a contemporary after a hundred
years' experience of eternity. The Plato on this lower shelf bears the inscription:" Ezroe Stiles, 1766. Olim e
libris Rev. Jaredis Eliot de Killingworth." Both were noted scholars and philosophers. The hand lens before
me was imported, with other philosophical instruments, by the Reverend John Prince of Salem, an earlier
student of science in the town since distinguished by the labors of the Essex Institute. Jeremy Belknap holds
an honored place in that unpretending row of local historians. And in the pages of his "History of New
Hampshire" may be found a chapter contributed in part by the most remarkable man, in many respects,
among all the older clergymen preacher, lawyer, physician, astronomer, botanist, entomologist, explorer,
colonist, legislator in state and national governments, and only not seated on the bench of the Supreme Court
of a Territory because he declined the office when Washington offered it to him. This manifold individual
was the minister of Hamilton, a pleasant little town in Essex County, Massachusetts,the Reverend
Manasseh Cutler. These reminiscences from surrounding objects came up unexpectedly, of themselves: and
have a right here, as showing how wide is the range of intelligence in the clerical body thus accidentally
represented in a single library making no special pretensions.
It is not so exalted a claim to make for them, but it may be added that they were often the wits and humorists
of their localities. Mather Byles's facetie are among the colonial classic reminiscences. But these were, for the
most part, verbal quips and quibbles. True humor is an outgrowth of character. It is never found in greater
perfection than in old clergymen and old college professors. Dr. Sprague's "Annals of the American Pulpit"
tells many stories of our old ministers as good as Dean Ramsay's "Scottish Reminiscences." He has not
recorded the following, which is to be found in Miss Larned's excellent and most interesting History of
Windham County, Connecticut. The Reverend Josiah Dwight was the minister of Woodstock, Connecticut,
about the year 1700. He was not old, it is true, but he must have caught the ways of the old ministers. The
"sensational" pulpit of our own time could hardly surpass him in the drollery of its expressions. A specimen
or two may dispose the reader to turn over the pages which follow in a goodnatured frame of mind. "If
unconverted men ever got to heaven," he said, "they would feel as uneasy as a shad up the crotch of a
whiteoak." Some of his ministerial associates took offence at his eccentricities, and called on a visit of
admonition to the offending clergyman. " Mr. Dwight received their reproofs with great meekness, frankly
acknowledged his faults, and promised amendment, but, in prayer at parting, after returning thanks for the
brotherly visit and admonition, 'hoped that they might so hitch their horses on earth that they should never
kick in the stables of everlasting salvation.'"
It is a good thing to have some of the blood of one of these old ministers in one's veins. An English bishop
proclaimed the fact before an assembly of physicians the other day that he was not ashamed to say that he had
a son who was a doctor. Very kind that was in the bishop, and very proud his medical audience must have
felt. Perhaps he was not ashamed of the Gospel of Luke, "the beloved physician," or even of the teachings
which came from the lips of one who was a carpenter, and the son of a carpenter. So a NewEnglander, even
if he were a bishop, need not be ashamed to say that he consented to have an ancestor who was a minister. On
the contrary, he has a right to be grateful for a probable inheritance of good instincts, a good name, and a
bringing up in a library where he bumped about among books from the time when he was hardly taller than
one of his father's or grandfather's folios. What are the names of ministers' sons which most readily occur to
our memory as illustrating these advantages? Edward Everett, Joseph Stevens Buckminster, Ralph Waldo
Emerson, George Bancroft, Richard Hildreth, James Russell Lowell, Francis Parkman, Charles Eliot Norton,
were all ministers' boys. John Lothrop Motley was the grandson of the clergyman after whom he was named.
George Ticknor was next door to such a descent, for his father was a deacon. This is a group which it did not
take a long or a wide search to bring together.
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Men such as the ministers who have been described could not fail to exercise a good deal of authority in the
communities to which they belonged. The effect of the Revolution must have been to create a tendency to
rebel against spiritual dictation. Republicanism levels in religion as in everything. It might have been
expected, therefore, that soon after civil liberty had been established there would be conflicts between the
traditional, authority of the minister and the claims of the now free and independent congregation. So it was,
in fact, as for instance in the case which follows, for which the reader is indebted to Miss Lamed's book,
before cited.
The ministerial veto allowed by the Saybrook Platform gave rise, in the year 1792, to a fierce conflict in the
town of Pomfret, Connecticut. Zephaniah Swift, a lawyer of Windham, came out in the Windham "Herald,"
in all the vehemence of partisan phraseology, with all the emphasis of italics and small capitals. Was it not
time, he said, for people to look about them and see whether "such despotism was founded in Scripture, in
reason, in policy, or on the rights of man! A minister, by his vote, by his single voice, may negative the
unanimous vote of the church! Are ministers composed of finer clay than the rest of mankind, that entitles
them to this preeminence? Does a license to preach transform a man into a higher order of beings and endow
him with a natural quality to govern? Are the laity an inferior order of beings, fit only to be slaves and to be
governed? Is it good policy for mankind to subject themselves to such degrading vassalage and abject
submission? Reason, common sense, and the Bible, with united voice, proclaim to all mankind that they are
all born free and equal; that every member of a church or Christian congregation must be on the same footing
in respect of church government, and that the CONSTITUTION, which delegates to one the power to
negative the vote of all the rest, is SUBVERSIVE OF THE NATURAL RIGHT OF MANKIND AND
REPUGNANT TO THE WORD OF GOD."
The Reverend Mr. Welch replied to the lawyer's attack, pronouncing him to be "destitute of delicacy,
decency, good manners, sound judgment, honesty, manhood, and humanity; a poltroon, a cat'spaw, the
infamous tool of a party, a partisan, a political weathercock, and a ragamuffin."
No FourthofJuly orator would in our day rant like the lawyer, and no clergyman would use such language
as that of the Reverend Moses Welch. The clergy have been pretty well republicanized within that last two or
three generations, and are not likely to provoke quarrels by assertion of their special dignities or privileges.
The public is better bred than to carry on an ecclesiastical controversy in terms which political brawlers
would hardly think admissible. The minister of religion is generally treated with something more than
respect; he is allowed to say undisputed what would be sharply controverted in anybody else. Bishop Gilbert
Haven, of happy memory, had been discussing a religious subject with a friend who was not convinced by his
arguments. "Wait till you hear me from the pulpit," he said; "there you cannot answer me." The preacherif
I may use an image which would hardly have suggested itself to himhas his hearer's head in chancery, and
can administer punishment ad libitum. False facts, false reasoning, bad rhetoric, bad grammar, stale images,
borrowed passages, if not borrowed sermons, are listened to without a word of comment or a look of
disapprobation.
One of the ablest and most conscientiously laborious of our clergymen has lately ventured to question
whether all his professional brethren invariably give utterance to their sincerest beliefs, and has been sharply
criticised for so doing. The layman, who sits silent in his pew, has his rights when out of it, and among them
is the right of questioning that which has been addressed to him from the privileged eminence of the pulpit, or
in any way sanctioned by his religious teacher. It is nearly two hundred years since a Boston layman wrote
these words: "I am not ignorant that the pious frauds of the ancient, and the inbred fire (I do not call it pride)
of many of our modern divines, have precipitated them to propagate and maintain truth as well as falsehoods,
in such an unfair manner as has given advantage to the enemy to suspect the whole doctrine these men have
profest to be nothing but a mere trick."
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So wrote Robert Calef, the Boston merchant, whose book the Reverend Increase Mather, president of
Harvard College, burned publicly in the college yard. But the pity of it is that the layman had not cried out
earlier and louder, and saved the community from the horror of those judicial murders for witchcraft, the
blame of which was so largely attributable to the clergy.
Perhaps no, laymen have given the clergy more trouble than the doctors. The old reproach against physicians,
that where there were three of them together there were two atheists, had a real significance, but not that
which was intended by the sharptongued ecclesiastic who first uttered it. Undoubtedly there is a strong
tendency in the pursuits of the medical profession to produce disbelief in that figment of tradition and
diseased human imagination which has been installed in the seat of divinity by the priesthood of cruel and
ignorant ages. It is impossible, or at least very difficult, for a physician who has seen the perpetual efforts of
Naturewhose diary is the book he reads oftenestto heal wounds, to expel poisons, to do the best that can
be done under the given conditions,it is very difficult for him to believe in a world where wounds cannot
heal, where opiates cannot give a respite from pain, where sleep never comes with its sweet oblivion of
suffering, where the art of torture is the only science cultivated, and the capacity for being tormented is the
only faculty which remains to the children of that same Father who cares for the falling sparrow. The Deity
has often been pictured as Moloch, and the physician has, no doubt, frequently repudiated him as a
monstrosity.
On the other hand, the physician has often been renowned for piety as well as for his peculiarly professional
virtue of charity,led upward by what he sees to the source of all the daily marvels wrought before his own
eyes. So it was that Galen gave utterance to that psalm of praise which the sweet singer of Israel need not
have been ashamed of; and if this "heathen" could be lifted into such a strain of devotion, we need not be
surprised to find so many devout Christian worshippers among the crowd of medical "atheists."
No two professions should come into such intimate and cordial relations as those to which belong the healers
of the body and the headers of the mind. There can be no more fatal mistake than that which brings them into
hostile attitudes with reference to each other, both having in view the welfare of their fellowcreatures. But
there is a territory always liable to be differed about between them. There are patients who never tell their
physician the grief which lies at the bottom of their ailments. He goes through his accustomed routine with
them, and thinks he has all the elements needed for his diagnosis. But he has seen no deeper into the breast
than the tongue, and got no nearer the heart than the wrist. A wise and experienced clergyman, coming to the
patient's bedside,not with the professional look on his face which suggests the undertaker and the sexton,
but with a serene countenance and a sympathetic voice, with tact, with patience, waiting for the right
moment,will surprise the shy spirit into a confession of the doubt, the sorrow, the shame, the remorse, the
terror which underlies all the bodily symptoms, and the unburdening of which into a loving and pitying soul
is a more potent anodyne than all the drowsy sirups of the world. And, on the other hand, there are many
nervous and oversensitive natures which have been wrought up by selftorturing spiritual exercises until
their best confessor would be a sagacious and wholesomeminded physician.
Suppose a person to have become so excited by religious stimulants that he is subject to what are known to
the records of insanity as hallucinations: that he hears voices whispering blasphemy in his ears, and sees
devils coming to meet him, and thinks he is going to be torn in pieces, or trodden into the mire. Suppose that
his mental conflicts, after plunging him into the depths of despondency, at last reduce him to a state of
despair, so that he now contemplates taking his own life, and debates with himself whether it shall be by
knife, halter, or poison, and after much questioning is apparently making up his mind to commit suicide. Is
not this a manifest case of insanity, in the form known as melancholia? Would not any prudent physician
keep such a person under the eye of constant watchers, as in a dangerous state of, at least, partial mental
alienation? Yet this is an exact transcript of the mental condition of Christian in "Pilgrim's Progress," and its
counterpart has been found in thousands of wretched lives terminated by the act of selfdestruction, which
came so near taking place in the hero of the allegory. Now the wonderful book from which this example is
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taken is, next to the Bible and the Treatise of "De Imitatione Christi," the bestknown religious work of
Christendom. If Bunyan and his contemporary, Sydenham, had met in consultation over the case of Christian
at the time when be was meditating selfmurder, it is very possible that there might have been a difference of
judgment. The physician would have one advantage in such a consultation. He would pretty certainly have
received a Christian education, while the clergyman would probably know next to nothing of the laws or
manifestations of mental or bodily disease. It does not seem as if any theological student was really prepared
for his practical duties until he had learned something of the effects of bodily derangements, and, above all,
had become familiar with the gamut of mental discord in the wards of an insane asylum.
It is a very thoughtless thing to say that the physician stands to the divine in the same light as the divine
stands to the physician, so far as each may attempt to handle subjects belonging especially to the other's
profession. Many physicians know a great deal more about religious matters than they do about medicine.
They have read the Bible ten times as much as they ever read any medical author. They have heard scores of
sermons for one medical lecture to which they have listened. They often hear much better preaching than the
average minister, for he hears himself chiefly, and they hear abler men and a variety of them. They have now
and then been distinguished in theology as well as in their own profession. The name of Servetus might call
up unpleasant recollections, but that of another medical practitioner may be safely mentioned. "It was not till
the middle of the last century that the question as to the authorship of the Pentateuch was handled with
anything like a discerning criticism. The first attempt was made by a layman, whose studies we might have
supposed would scarcely have led him to such an investigation." This layman was "Astruc, doctor and
professor of medicine in the Royal College at Paris, and court physician to Louis XIV." The quotation is from
the article "Pentateuch" in Smith's "Dictionary of the Bible," which, of course, lies on the table of the least
instructed clergyman. The sacred profession has, it is true, returned the favor by giving the practitioner of
medicine Bishop Berkeley's "Treatise on Tarwater," and the invaluable prescription of that "aged clergyman
whose sands of life"but let us be fair, if not generous, and remember that Cotton Mather shares with
Zabdiel Boylston the credit of introducing the practice of inoculation into America. The professions should
be cordial allies, but the churchgoing, Bible reading physician ought to know a great deal more of the
subjects included under the general name of theology than the clergyman can be expected to know of
medicine. To say, as has been said not long since, that a young divinity student is as competent to deal with
the latter as an old physician is to meddle with the former, suggests the idea that wisdom is not an heirloom in
the family of the one who says it. What a set of idiots our clerical teachers must have been and be, if, after a
quarter or half a century of their instruction, a person of fair intelligence is utterly incompetent to form any
opinion about the subjects which they have been teaching, or trying to teach him, so long!
A minister must find it very hard work to preach to hearers who do not believe, or only half believe, what he
preaches. But pews without heads in them are a still more depressing spectacle. He may convince the doubter
and reform the profligate. But he cannot produce any change on pine and mahogany by his discourses, and
the more wood he sees as he looks along his floor and galleries, the less his chance of being useful. It is
natural that in times like the present changes of faith and of place of worship should be far from infrequent. It
is not less natural that there should be regrets on one side and gratification on the other, when such changes
occur. It even happens occasionally that the regrets become aggravated into reproaches, rarely from the side
which receives the new accessions, less rarely from the one which is left. It is quite conceivable that the
Roman Church, which considers itself the only true one, should look on those who leave its communion as
guilty of a great offence. It is equally natural that a church which considers Pope and Pagan a pair of
murderous giants, sitting at the mouths of their caves, alike in their hatred to true Christians, should regard
any of its members who go over to Romanism as lost in fatal error. But within the Protestant fold there are
many compartments, and it would seem that it is not a deadly defection to pass from one to another.
So far from such exchanges between sects being wrong, they ought to happen a great deal oftener than they
do. All the larger bodies of Christians should be constantly exchanging members. All men are born with
conservative or aggressive tendencies: they belong naturally with the idolworshippers or the idolbreakers.
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Some wear their fathers' old clothes, and some will have a new suit. One class of men must have their faith
hammered in like a nail, by authority; another class must have it worked in like a screw, by argument.
Members of one of these classes often find themselves fixed by circumstances in the other. The late Orestes
A. Brownson used to preach at one time to a little handful of persons, in a small upper room, where some of
them got from him their first lesson about the substitution of reverence for idolatry, in dealing with the books
they hold sacred. But after a time Mr. Brownson found he had mistaken his church, and went over to the
Roman Catholic establishment, of which he became and remained to his dying day one of the most stalwart
champions. Nature is prolific and ambidextrous. While this strong convert was trying to carry us back to the
ancient faith, another of her sturdy children, Theodore Parker, was trying just as hard to provide a new church
for the future. One was driving the sheep into the ancient fold, while the other was taking down the bars that
kept them out of the new pasture. Neither of these powerful men could do the other's work, and each had to
find the task for which he was destined.
The "old gospel ship," as the Methodist song calls it, carries many who would steer by the wake of their
vessel. But there are many others who do not trouble themselves to look over the stern, having their eyes
fixed on the lighthouse in the distance before them. In less figurative language, there are multitudes of
persons who are perfectly contented with the old formulae of the church with which they and their fathers
before them have been and are connected, for the simple reason that they fit, like old shoes, because they
have been worn so long, and mingled with these, in the most conservative religious body, are here and there
those who are restless in the fetters of a confession of faith to which they have pledged themselves without
believing in it. This has been true of the Athanasian creed, in the Anglican Church, for two centuries more or
less, unless the Archbishop of Canterbury, Tillotson, stood alone in wishing the church were well rid of it. In
fact, it has happened to the present writer to hear the Thirtynine Articles summarily disposed of by one of
the most zealous members of the American branch of that communion, in a verb of one syllable, more
familiar to the ears of the forecastle than to those of the vestry.
But on the other hand, it is far from uncommon to meet with persons among the socalled "liberal"
denominations who are uneasy for want of a more definite ritual and a more formal organization than they
find in their own body. Now, the rector or the minister must be well aware that there are such cases, and each
of them must be aware that there are individuals under his guidance whom he cannot satisfy by argument, and
who really belong by all their instincts to another communion. It seems as if a thoroughly honest,
straightcollared clergyman would say frankly to his restless parishioner: "You do not believe the central
doctrines of the church which you are in the habit of attending. You belong properly to Brother A.'s or
Brother B.'s fold, and it will be more manly and probably more profitable for you to go there than to stay with
us." And, again, the rolling collared clergyman might be expected to say to this or that uneasy listener: "You
are longing for a church which will settle your beliefs for you, and relieve you to a great extent from the task,
to which you seem to be unequal, of working out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Go over the
way to Brother C.'s or Brother D.'s; your spine is weak, and they will furnish you a backboard which will
keep you straight and make you comfortable." Patients are not the property of their physicians, nor
parishioners of their ministers.
As for the children of clergymen, the presumption is that they will adhere to the general belief professed by
their fathers. But they do not lose their birthright or their individuality, and have the world all before them to
choose their creed from, like other persons. They are sometimes called to account for attacking the dogmas
they are supposed to have heard preached from their childhood. They cannot defend themselves, for various
good reasons. If they did, one would have to say he got more preaching than was good for him, and came at
last to feel about sermons and their doctrines as confectioners' children do about candy. Another would have
to own that he got his religious belief, not from his father, but from his mother. That would account for a
great deal, for the milk in a woman's veins sweetens, or at least, dilutes an acrid doctrine, as the blood of the
motherly cow softens the virulence of smallpox, so that its mark survives only as the seal of immunity.
Another would plead atavism, and say he got his religious instincts from his greatgrandfather, as some do
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their complexion or their temper. Others would be compelled to confess that the belief of a wife or a sister
had displaced that which they naturally inherited. No man can be expected to go thus into the details of his
family history, and, therefore, it is an ill bred and indecent thing to fling a man's father's creed in his face, as
if he had broken the fifth commandment in thinking for himself in the light of a new generation. Common
delicacy would prevent him from saying that he did not get his faith from his father, but from somebody else,
perhaps from his grandmother Lois and his mother Eunice, like the young man whom the Apostle cautioned
against total abstinence.
It is always the right, and may sometimes be the duty, of the layman to call the attention of the clergy to the
shortcomings and errors, not only of their own time, but also of the preceding generations, of which they are
the intellectual and moral product. This is especially true when the authority of great names is fallen back
upon as a defence of opinions not in themselves deserving to be upheld. It may be very important to show
that the champions of this or that set of dogmas, some of which are extinct or obsolete as beliefs, while others
retain their vitality, held certain general notions which vitiated their conclusions. And in proportion to the
eminence of such champions, and the frequency with which their names are appealed to as a bulwark of any
particular creed or set of doctrines, is it urgent to show into what obliquities or extravagances or
contradictions of thought they have been betrayed.
In summing up the religious history of New England, it would be just and proper to show the agency of the
Mathers, father and son, in the witchcraft delusion. It would be quite fair to plead in their behalf the common
beliefs of their time. It would be an extenuation of their acts that, not many years before, the great and good
magistrate, Sir Matthew Hale, had sanctioned the conviction of prisoners accused of witchcraft. To fall back
on the errors of the time is very proper when we are trying our predecessors in foro conscientace: The houses
they dwelt in may have had some weak or decayed beams and rafters, but they served for their shelter, at any
rate. It is quite another matter when those rotten timbers are used in holding up the roofs over our own heads.
Still more, if one of our ancestors built on an unsafe or an unwholesome foundation, the best thing we can do
is to leave it and persuade others to leave it if we can. And if we refer to him as a precedent, it must be as a
warning and not as a guide.
Such was the reason of the present writer's taking up the writings of Jonathan Edwards for examination in a
recent essay. The "Edwardsian" theology is still recognized as a power in and beyond the denomination to
which he belonged. One or more churches bear his name, and it is thrown into the scale of theological belief
as if it added great strength to the party which claims him. That he was a man of extraordinary endowments
and deep spiritual nature was not questioned, nor that be was a most acute reasoner, who could unfold a
proposition into its consequences as patiently, as convincingly, as a palaeontologist extorts its confession
from a fossil fragment. But it was maintained that so many dehumanizing ideas were mixed up with his
conceptions of man, and so many diabolizing attributes embodied in his imagination of the Deity, that his
system of beliefs was tainted throughout by them, and that the fact of his being so remarkable a logician
recoiled on the premises which pointed his inexorable syllogisms to such revolting conclusions. When he
presents us a God, in whose sight children, with certain not too frequent exceptions, "are young vipers, and
are infinitely more hateful than vipers;" when he gives the most frightful detailed description of infinite and
endless tortures which it drives men and women mad to think of prepared for "the bulk of mankind;" when he
cruelly pictures a future in which parents are to sing hallelujahs of praise as they see their children driven into
the furnace, where they are to lie "roasting" forever,we have a right to say that the man who held such
beliefs and indulged in such imaginations and expressions is a burden and not a support in reference to the
creed with which his name is associated. What heathenism has ever approached the horrors of this conception
of human destiny? It is not an abuse of language to apply to such a system of beliefs the name of Christian
pessimism.
If these and similar doctrines are so generally discredited as some appear to think, we might expect to see the
change showing itself in catechisms and confessions of faith, to hear the joyful news of relief from its horrors
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in all our churches, and no longer to read in the newspapers of ministers rejected or put on trial for heresy
because they could not accept the most dreadful of these doctrines. Whether this be so or not, it must be
owned that the name of Jonathan Edwards does at this day carry a certain authority with it for many persons,
so that anything he believed gains for them some degree of probability from that circumstance. It would,
therefore, be of much interest to know whether he was trustworthy in his theological speculations, and
whether he ever changed his belief with reference to any of the great questions above alluded to.
Some of our readers may remember a story which got abroad many years ago that a certain M. Babinet, a
scientific Frenchman of note, had predicted a serious accident soon to occur to the planet on which we live by
the collision with it of a great comet then approaching us, or some such occurrence. There is no doubt that
this prediction produced anxiety and alarm in many timid persons. It became a very interesting question with
them who this M. Babinet might be. Was he a sound observer, who had made other observations and
predictions which had proved accurate? Or was he one of those men who are always making blunders for
other people to correct? Is he known to have changed his opinion as to the approaching disastrous event?
So long as there were any persons made anxious by this prediction, so long as there was even one who
believed that he, and his family, and his nation, and his race, and the home of mankind, with all its
monuments, were very soon to be smitten in midheaven and instantly shivered into fragments, it was very
desirable to find any evidence that this prophet of evil was a man who held many extravagant and even
monstrous opinions. Still more satisfactory would it be if it could be shown that he had reconsidered his
predictions, and declared that he could not abide by his former alarming conclusions. And we should think
very ill of any astronomer who would not rejoice for the sake of his fellowcreatures, if not for his own, to
find the threatening presage invalidated in either or both of the ways just mentioned, even though he had
committed himself to M. Babinet's dire belief.
But what is the trivial, temporal accident of the wiping out of a planet and its inhabitants to the infinite
catastrophe which shall establish a mighty world of eternal despair? And which is it most desirable for
mankind to have disproved or weakened, the grounds of the threat of M. Babinet, or those of the other
infinitely more terrible comminations, so far as they rest on the authority of Jonathan Edwards?
The writer of this paper had been long engaged in the study of the writings of Edwards, with reference to the
essay he had in contemplation, when, on speaking of the subject to a very distinguished orthodox divine, this
gentleman mentioned the existence of a manuscript of Edwards which had been held back from the public on
account of some opinions or tendencies it contained, or was suspected of containing "High Arianism" was the
exact expression he used with reference to it. On relating this fact to an illustrious man of science, whose
name is best known to botanists, but is justly held in great honor by the orthodox body to which he belongs, it
appeared that he, too, had heard of such a manuscript, and the questionable doctrine associated with it in his
memory was Sabellianism. It was of course proper in the writer of an essay on Jonathan Edwards to mention
the alleged existence of such a manuscript, with reference to which the same caution seemed to have been
exercised as that which led, the editor of his collected works to suppress the language Edwards had used
about children.
This mention led to a friendly correspondence between the writer and one of the professors in the theological
school at Andover, and finally to the publication of a brief essay, which, for some reason, had been withheld
from publication for more than a century. Its title is "Observations concerning the Scripture OEconomy of the
Trinity and Covenant of Redemption. By Jonathan Edwards." It contains thirtysix pages and a half, each
small page having about two hundred words. The pages before the reader will be found to average about three
hundred and twentyfive words. An introduction and an appendix by the editor, Professor Egbert C. Smyth,
swell the contents to nearly a hundred pages, but these additions, and the circumstance that it is bound in
boards, must not lead us to overlook the fact that the little volume is nothing more than a pamphlet in book's
clothing.
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A most extraordinary performance it certainly is, dealing with the arrangements entered into by the three
persons of the Trinity, in as bald and matteroffact language and as commercial a spirit as if the author had
been handling the adjustment of a limited partnership between three retail tradesmen. But, lest a layman's
judgment might be considered insufficient, the treatise was submitted by the writer to one of the most learned
of our theological experts,the same who once informed a church dignitary, who had been attempting to
define his theological position, that he was a Eutychian,a fact which he seems to have been no more aware
of than M. Jourdain was conscious that he had been speaking prose all his life. The treatise appeared to this
professor antitrinitarian, not in the direction of Unitarianism, however, but of Tritheism. Its
anthropomorphism affected him like blasphemy, and the paper produced in him the sense of "great disgust,"
which its whole character might well excite in the unlearned reader.
All this is, however, of little importance, for this is not the work of Edwards referred to by the present writer
in his previous essay. The tract recently printed as a volume may be the one referred to by Dr. Bushnell, in
1851, but of this reference by him the writer never heard until after his own essay was already printed. The
manuscript of the "Observations" was received by Professor Smyth, as he tells us in his introduction, about
fifteen years ago, from the late Reverend William T. Dwight, D. D., to whom it was bequeathed by his
brother, the Reverend Dr. Sereno E. Dwight.
But the reference of the present writer was to another production of the great logician, thus spoken of in a
quotation from "the accomplished editor of the Hartford 'Courant,'" to be found in Professor Smyth's
introduction :
"It has long been a matter of private information that Professor Edwards A. Park, of Andover, had in his
possession an published manuscript of Edwards of considerable extent, perhaps two thirds as long as his
treatise on the will. As few have ever seen the manuscript, its contents are only known by vague reports.... It
is said that it contains a departure from his published views on the Trinity and a modification of the view of
original sin. One account of it says that the manuscript leans toward Sabellianism, and that it even approaches
Pelagianism."
It was to this "suppressed" manuscript the present writer referred, and not to the slender brochure recently
given to the public. He is bound, therefore, to say plainly that to satisfy inquirers who may be still in doubt
with reference to Edwards's theological views, it would be necessary to submit this manuscript, and all
manuscripts of his which have been kept private, to their inspection, in print, if possible, so that all could
form their own opinion about it or them.
The whole matter may be briefly stated thus: Edwards believed in an eternity of unimaginable horrors for
"the bulk of mankind." His authority counts with many in favor of that belief, which affects great numbers as
the idea of ghosts affected Madame de Stall: "Je n'y crois pas, mais je les crains." This belief is one which it
is infinitely desirable to the human race should be shown to be possibly, probably, or certainly erroneous. It
is, therefore, desirable in the interest of humanity that any force the argument in its favor may derive from
Edwards's authority should be weakened by showing that he was capable of writing most unwisely, and if it
should be proved that he changed his opinions, or ran into any "heretical" vagaries, by using these facts
against the validity of his judgment. That he was capable of writing most unwisely has been sufficiently
shown by the recent publication of his "Observations." Whether he, anywhere contradicted what were
generally accepted as his theological opinions, or how far he may have lapsed into heresies, the public will
never rest satisfied until it sees and interprets for itself everything that is open to question which may be
contained in his yet unpublished manuscripts. All this is not in the least a personal affair with the writer, who,
in the course of his studies of Edwards's works, accidentally heard, from the unimpeachable sources
sufficiently indicated, the reports, which it seems must have been familiar to many, that there was
unpublished matter bearing on the opinions of the author through whose voluminous works he had been
toiling. And if he rejoiced even to hope that so wise a man as Edwards has been considered, so good a man as
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he is recognized to have been, had, possibly in his changes of opinion, ceased to think of children as vipers,
and of parents as shouting hallelujahs while their lost darlings were being driven into the flames, where is the
theologian who would not rejoice to hope so with him or who would be willing to tell his wife or his daughter
that he did not?
The real, vital division of the religious part of our Protestant communities is into Christian optimists and
Christian pessimists. The Christian optimist in his fullest development is characterized by a cheerful
countenance, a voice in the major key, an undisguised enjoyment of earthly comforts, and a short confession
of faith. His theory of the universe is progress; his idea of God is that he is a Father with all the true paternal
attributes, of man that he is destined to come into harmony with the keynote of divine order, of this earth
that it is a training school for a better sphere of existence. The Christian pessimist in his most typical
manifestation is apt to wear a solemn aspect, to speak, especially from the pulpit, in the minor key, to
undervalue the lesser enjoyments of life, to insist on a more extended list of articles of belief. His theory of
the universe recognizes this corner of it as a moral ruin; his idea of the Creator is that of a ruler whose
pardoning power is subject to the veto of what is called "justice;" his notion of man is that he is born a natural
hater of God and goodness, and that his natural destiny is eternal misery. The line dividing these two great
classes zigzags its way through the religious community, sometimes following denominational layers and
cleavages, sometimes going, like a geological fracture, through many different strata. The natural antagonists
of the religious pessimists are the men of science, especially the evolutionists, and the poets. It was but a
conditioned prophecy, yet we cannot doubt what was in Milton's mind when he sang, in one of the divinest of
his strains, that
"Hell itself will pass away,
And leave her dolorous mansions to the peering day."
And Nature, always fair if we will allow her time enough, after giving mankind the inspired tinker who
painted the Christian's life as that of a hunted animal, "never long at ease," desponding, despairing, on the
verge of selfmurder,painted it with an originality, a vividness, a power and a sweetness, too, that rank
him with the great authors of all time,kind Nature, after this gift, sent as his counterpoise the inspired
ploughman, whose songs have done more to humanize the hard theology of Scotland than all the rationalistic
sermons that were ever preached. Our own Whittier has done and is doing the same thing, in a far holier spirit
than Burns, for the inherited beliefs of New England and the country to which New England belongs. Let me
sweeten these closing paragraphs of an essay not meaning to hold a word of bitterness with a passage or two
from the laypreacher who is listened to by a larger congregation than any man who speaks from the pulpit.
Who will not hear his words with comfort and rejoicing when he speaks of "that larger hope which, secretly
cherished from the times of Origen and Duns Scotus to those of Foster and Maurice, has found its fitting
utterance in the noblest poem of the age?"
It is Tennyson's "In Memoriam" to which he refers, and from which he quotes four verses, of which this is the
last:
"Behold! we know not anything
I can but trust that good shall fall
At last,far off,at last, to all,
And every winter change to spring."
If some are disposed to think that the progress of civilization and the rapidly growing change of opinion
renders unnecessary any further effort to humanize "the Gospel of dread tidings;" if any believe the doctrines
of the Longer and Shorter Catechism of the Westminster divines are so far obsolete as to require no further
handling; if there are any who thank these subjects have lost their interest for living souls ever since they
themselves have learned to stay at home on Sundays, with their cakes and ale instead of going to meeting,
not such is Mr. Whittier's opinion, as we may infer from his recent beautiful poem, "The Minister's
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Daughter." It is not science alone that the old Christian pessimism has got to struggle with, but the instincts of
childhood, the affections of maternity, the intuitions of poets, the contagious humanity of the philanthropist,
in short, human nature and the advance of civilization. The pulpit has long helped the world, and is still
one of the chief defences against the dangers that threaten society, and it is worthy now, as it always has been
in its best representation, of all love and honor. But many of its professed creeds imperatively demand
revision, and the pews which call for it must be listened to, or the preacher will by and by find himself
speaking to a congregation of bodiless echoes.
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