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I.

The success of Verrian did not come early, and it did not come  easily.  He had been trying a long time to get

his work into the best  magazines,  and when he had won the favor of the editors, whose  interest he had

perhaps had from the beginning, it might be said that  they began to  accept his work from their consciences,

because in its  way it was so good  that they could not justly refuse it.  The  particular editor who took  Verrian's

serial, after it had come back to  the author from the editors  of the other leading periodicals, was in  fact moved

mainly by the belief  that the story would please the better  sort of his readers.  These, if  they were not so

numerous as the  worse, he felt had now and then the  right to have their pleasure  studied. 

It was a serious story, and it was somewhat bitter, as Verrian  himself  was, after his struggle to reach the

public with work which he  knew  merited recognition.  But the world which does not like people to  take

themselves too seriously also likes them to take themselves  seriously,  and the bitterness in Verrian's story

proved agreeable to a  number of  readers unexpectedly great.  It intimated a romantic  personality in the  author,

and the world still likes to imagine  romantic things of authors.  It likes especially to imagine them of

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novelists, now that there are no  longer poets; and when it began to  like Verrian's serial, it began to  write him

all sorts of letters,  directly, in care of the editor, and  indirectly to the editor, whom  they asked about Verrian

more than about  his story. 

It was a man's story rather than a woman's story, as these may be  distinguished; but quite for that reason

women seemed peculiarly taken  with it.  Perhaps the women had more leisure or more courage to write  to  the

author and the editor; at any rate, most of the letters were  from  women; some of the letters were silly and

fatuous enough, but  others were  of an intelligence which was none the less penetrating for  being  emotional

rather than critical.  These maids or matrons, whoever  or  whichever they were, knew wonderfully well what

the author would be  at,  and their interest in his story implied a constant if not a single  devotion.  Now and

then Verrian was tempted to answer one of them, and  under favor of his mother, who had been his confidant

at every point  of  his literary career, he yielded to the temptation; but one day  there came  a letter asking an

answer, which neither he nor his mother  felt competent  to deal with.  They both perceived that they must refer

it to the editor  of the magazine, and it seemed to them so important  that they decided  Verrian must go with it

in person to the editor.  Then he must be so far  ruled by him, if necessary, as to give him the  letter and put

himself, as  the author, beyond an appeal which he found  peculiarly poignant. 

The letter, which had overcome the tacit misgivings of his mother  as they  read it and read it again together,

was from a girl who had  perhaps no  need to confess herself young, or to own her inexperience  of the world

where stories were written and printed.  She excused  herself with a  delicacy which Verrian's correspondents

by no means  always showed for  intruding upon him, and then pleaded the power his  story had over her as  the

only shadow of right she had in addressing  him.  Its fascination,  she said, had begun with the first number, the

first chapter, almost the  first paragraph.  It was not for the plot  that she cared; she had read  too many stories to

care for the plot; it  was the problem involved.  It  was one which she had so often pondered  in her own mind

that she felt, in  a way she hoped he would not think  conceited, almost as if the story was  written for her.  She

had never  been able to solve the problem; how he  would solve it she did not see  how she could wait to know;

and here she  made him a confidence without  which, she said, she should not have the  courage to go on.  She

was an  invalid, and her doctor had told her that,  though she might live for  months, there were chances that

she might die  at any moment suddenly.  He would think it strange, and it was strange  that she should tell  him

this, and stranger still that she should dare to  ask him what she  was going to ask.  The story had yet four

months to run,  and she had  begun to have a morbid foreboding that she should not live to  read it  in the

ordinary course.  She was so ignorant about writers that  she  did not know whether such a thing was ever done,

or could be done;  but  if he could tell her how the story was to come out he would be doing  more for her than

anything else that could be done for her on earth.  She  had read that sometimes authors began to print their

serial  stories  before they had written them to the end, and he might not be  sure of the  end himself; but if he

had finished this story of his, and  could let her  see the last pages in print, she would owe him the  gratitude

she could  never express. 

The letter was written in an educated hand, and there were no  foibles of  form or excesses of fashion in the

stationery to mar the  character of  sincerity the simple wording conveyed.  The postal  address, with the  date,

was fully given, and the name signed at the  end was evidently  genuine. 

Verrian himself had no question of the genuineness of the letter in  any  respect; his mother, after her first

misgivings, which were  perhaps  sensations, thought as he did about it.  She said the story  dealt so  profoundly

with the deepest things that it was no wonder a  person,  standing like that girl between life and death, should

wish to  know how  the author solved its problem.  Then she read the letter  carefully over  again, and again

Verrian read it, with an effect not  different from that  which its first perusal had made with him.  His  faith in

his work was so  great, so entire, that the notion of any  other feeling about it was not  admissible. 

"Of course," he said, with a sigh of satisfaction, "I must show the  letter to Armiger at once." 


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"Of course," his mother replied.  "He is the editor, and you must  not do  anything without his approval." 

The faith in the writer of the letter, which was primary with him,  was  secondary with her, but perhaps for that

reason,she was all the  more  firmly grounded in it. 

II.

There was nothing to cloud the editor's judgment, when Verrian came  to  him, except the fact that he was a

poet as well as an editor.  He  read in  a silence as great as the author's the letter which Verrian  submitted.  Then

he remained pondering it for as long a space before he  said, "That  is very touching." 

Verrian jumped to his question.  "Do you mean that we ought to send  her  the proofs of the story?" 

"No," the editor faltered, but even in this decision he did not  deny the  author his sympathy.  "You've touched

bottom in that story,  Verrian.  You  may go higher, but you can never go deeper." 

Verrian flushed a little.  "Oh, thank you!" 

"I'm not surprised the girl wants to know how you manage your  problem  such a girl, standing in the

shadow of the other world,  which is always  eclipsing this, and seeing how you've caught its awful  outline." 

Verrian made a grateful murmur at the praise.  "That is what my  mother  felt.  Then you have no doubt of the

good faith" 

"No," the editor returned, with the same quantity, if not the same  quality, of reluctance as before.  "You see, it

would be too daring." 

"Then why not let her have the proofs?" 

"The thing is so unprecedented" 

"Our doing it needn't form a precedent." 

"No." 

"And if you've no doubt of its being a true case" 

"We must prove that it is, or, rather, we must make her prove it.  I  quite feel with you about it.  If I were to act

upon my own  impulse, my  own convictions, I should send her the rest of the story  and take the  chances.  But

she may be an enterprising journalist in  disguise it's  astonishing what women will do when they take to

newspaper workand we  have no right to risk anything, for the  magazine's sake, if not yours and  mine.  Will

you leave this letter  with me?" 

"I expected to leave the whole affair in your hands.  Do you mind  telling  me what you propose to do?  Of

course, it won't be  anythingabrupt" 

"Oh no; and I don't mind telling you what has occurred to me.  If  this is  a true case, as you say, and I've no

question but it is, the  writer will  be on confidential terms with her pastor as well as her  doctor and I  propose

asking her to get him to certify, in any sort of  general terms,  to her identity.  I will treat the matter

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"Oh no, it's much better for you to do it; you can do it  authoritatively." 

"Yes, and if she isn't the real thing, but merely a woman  journalist  trying to work us for a 'story' in her

Sunday edition, we  shall hear no  more from her." 

"I don't see anything to object to in your plan," Verrian said,  upon  reflection.  "She certainly can't complain of

our being  cautious." 

"No, and she won't.  I shall have to refer the matter to the  house" 

"Oh, will you?" 

"Why, certainly!  I couldn't take a step like that without the  approval  of the house." 

"No," Verrian assented, and he made a note of the writer's address  from  the letter.  Then, after a moment spent

in looking hard at the  letter, he  gave it back to the editor and went abruptly away. 

He had proof, the next morning, that the editor had acted promptly,  at  least so far as regarded the house.  The

house had approved his  plan, if  one could trust the romantic paragraph which Verrian found in  his paper  at

breakfast, exploiting the fact concerned as one of the  interesting  evidences of the hold his serial had got with

the magazine  readers.  He  recognized in the paragraph the touch of the good fellow  who prepared the  weekly

bulletins of the house, and offered the press  literary  intelligence in a form ready for immediate use.  The case

was  fairly  stated, but the privacy of the author's correspondent was  perfectly  guarded; it was not even made

known that she was a woman.  Yet Verrian  felt, in reading the paragraph, a shock of guilty dismay,  as if he

had  betrayed a confidence reposed in him, and he handed the  paper across the  table to his mother with rather

a sick look. 

After his return from the magazine office the day before, there had  been  a good deal of talk between them

about that girl.  Mrs. Verrian  had  agreed with him that no more interesting event could have happened  to an

author, but she had tried to keep him from taking it too  personally, and  from making himself mischievous

illusions from it.  She had since slept  upon her anxieties, with the effect of finding  them more vivid at waking,

and she had been casting about for an  opening to penetrate him with them,  when fortune put this paragraph in

her way. 

"Isn't it disgusting?" he asked.  "I don't see how Armiger could  let them  do it.  I hope to heaven she'll never see

it!" 

His mother looked up from the paragraph and asked, 

"Why?" 

"What would she think of me?" 

"I don't know.  She might have expected something of the kind." 

"How expect something of the kind?  Am I one of the  selfadvertisers?" 

"Well, she must have realized that she was doing rather a bold  thing." 

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"Venturesome," Mrs. Verrian compromised to the kindling anger in  her  son's eyes. 

"I don't understand you, mother.  I thought you agreed with me  about the  writer of that letterher sincerity,

simplicity." 

"Sincerity, yes.  But simplicity Philip, a thoroughly  singleminded  girl never wrote that letter.  You can't

feel such a  thing as I do.  A man couldn't.  You can paint the character of women,  and you do it

wonderfullybut, after all, you can't know them as a  woman does." 

"You talk," he answered, a little sulkily, "as if you knew some  harm of  the girl." 

"No, my son, I know nothing about her, except that she is not  single  minded, and there is no harm in not

being singleminded.  A  great many  singleminded women are fools, and some doubleminded women  are

good." 

"Well, singleminded or doubleminded, if she is what she says she  is,  what motive on earth could she have

in writing to me except the  motive  she gives?  You don't deny that she tells the truth about  herself?" 

"Don't I say that she is sincere?  But a girl doesn't always know  her own  motives, or all of them.  She may

have written to you because  she would  like to begin a correspondence with an author.  Or she may  have done

it  out of the love of excitement.  Or for the sake of  distraction, to get  away from herself and her gloomy

forebodings." 

"And should you blame her for that?" 

"No, I shouldn't.  I should pity her for it.  But, all the same, I  shouldn't want you to be taken in by her." 

"You think, then, she doesn't care anything about the story?" 

"I think, very probably, she cares a great deal about it.  She is a  serious person, intellectually at least, and it is

a serious story.  No  wonder she would like to know, at first hand, something about the  man who  wrote it." 

This flattered Verrian, but he would not allow its reasonableness.  He  took a gulp of coffee before saying,

uncandidly, "I can't make out  what  you're driving at, mother.  But, fortunately, there's no hurry  about your

meaning.  The thing's in the only shape we could possibly  give it, and I  am satisfied to leave it in Armiger's

hands.  I'm  certain he will deal  wisely with itand kindly." 

"Yes, I'm sure he'll deal kindly.  I should be very unhappy if he  didn't.  He could easily deal more wisely,

though, than she has." 

Verrian chose not to follow his mother in this.  "All is," he said,  with  finality, "I hope she'll never see that

loathsome paragraph." 

"Oh, very likely she won't," his mother consoled him. 

III.

Only four days after he had seen Armiger, Verrian received an  envelope  covering a brief note to himself from

the editor, a copy of  the letter he  had written to Verrian's unknown correspondent, and her  answer in the

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passion for method  by which he read its  contents in the order named; if his mother had  been by, she would

have  made him read the girl's reply first of all.  Armiger wrote: 

"MY DEAR VERRIAN,I enclose two exhibits which will possess you of all

the facts in the case of the young lady who feared she might die before

she read the end of your story, but who, you will be glad to find, is

likely to live through the year.  As the story ends in our October

number, she need not be supplied with advance sheets.  I am sorry the

house hurried out a paragraph concerning the matter, but it will not be

followed by another.  Perhaps you will feel, as I do, that the incident

is closed.  I have not replied to the writer, and you need not return her

letter.  Yours ever,

                                        "M. ARMIGER."

The editor's letter to the young lady read: 

"DEAR MADAM,Mr. P. S. Verrian has handed me your letter of the 4th, and

I need not tell you that it has interested us both.

"I am almost as much gratified as he by the testimony your request  bears  to the importance of his work, and if

I could have acted upon my  instant  feeling I should have had no hesitation in granting it, though  it is so  very

unusual as to be, in my experience as an editor,  unprecedented.  I  am sure that you would not have made it so

frankly  if you had not been  prepared to guard in return any confidence placed  in you; but you will  realize that

as you are quite unknown to us, we  should not be justified  in taking a step so unusual as you propose  without

having some guarantee  besides that which Mr. Verrian and I  both feel from the character of your  letter.

Simply, then, for  purposes of identification, as the phrase is,  I must beg you to ask  the pastor of your church,

or, better still, your  family physician, to  write you a line saying that he knows you, as a sort  of letter of

introduction to me.  Then I will send you the advance proofs  of Mr.  Verrian's story.  You may like to address

me personally in the  care of  the magazine, and not as the editor.  "Yours very respectfully,  "M.  ARMIGER."

The editor's letter was dated the 6th of the month; the answer,  dated the  8th, betrayed the anxious haste of the

writer in replying,  and it was not  her fault if what she wrote came to Verrian when he was  no longer able to

do justice to her confession.  Under the address  given in her first  letter she now began, in, a hand into which a

kindlier eye might have  read a pathetic perturbation: 

"DEAR SIR,I have something awful to tell you.  I might write pages

without making you think better of me, and I will let you think the worst

at once.  I am not what I pretended to be.  I wrote to Mr. Verrian saying

what I did, and asking to see the rest of his story on the impulse of the

moment.  I had been reading it, for I think it is perfectly fascinating;

and a friend of mine, another girl, and I got together trying to guess

how he would end it, and we began to dare each other to write to him and

ask.  At first we did not dream of doing such a thing, but we went on,

and just for the fun of it we drew lots to see which should write to him. 

The lot fell to me; but we composed that letter together, and we put in

about my dying for a joke.  We never intended to send it; but then one

thing led to another, and I signed it with my real name and we sent it. 

We did not really expect to hear anything from it, for we supposed he

must get lots of letters about his story and never paid any attention to

them.  We did not realize what we had done till I got your letter

yesterday.  Then we saw it all, and ever since we have been trying to

think what to do, and I do not believe either of us has slept a moment. 

We have come to the conclusion that there was only one thing we could do,

and that was to tell you just exactly how it happened and take the

consequences.  But there is no reason why more than one person should be

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me, but I will put my own name alone to it.  You may not think it is my

real name, but it is; you can find out by writing to the postmaster here. 

I do not know whether you will publish it as a fraud for the warning of

others, but I shall not blame you if you do.  I deserve anything.

                                   Yours truly,

                                        "JERUSHA PEREGRINE BROWN."

If Verrian had been an older man life might have supplied him with  the  means of judging the writer of this

letter.  But his experience as  an  author had not been very great, and such as it was it had hardened  and

sharpened him.  There was nothing wild or whirling in his mood,  but in  the deadly hurt which had been

inflicted upon his vanity he  coldly and  carefully studied what deadlier hurt he might inflict  again.  He was of

the crueller intent because he had not known how  much of personal vanity  there was in the seriousness with

which he  took himself and his work.  He  had supposed that he was respecting his  ethics and aesthetics, his

ideal  of conduct and of art, but now it was  brought home to him that he was  swollen with the conceit of his

own  performance, and that, however well  others thought of it, his own  thought of it far outran their will to

honor it.  He wished to revenge  himself for this consciousness as well as  the offence offered him; of  the two

the consciousness was the more  disagreeable. 

His mother, dressed for the street, came in where he sat quiet at  his  desk, with the editor's letters and the girl's

before him, and he  mutely  referred them to her with a hand lifted over his shoulder.  She  read  them, and then

she said, "This is hard to bear, Philip.  I wish I  could  bear it for you, or at least with you; but I'm late for my

engagement  with Mrs. Alfred, as it isNo, I will telephone her I'm  detained and  we'll talk it over" 

"No, no!  Not on any account!  I'd rather think it out for myself.  You  couldn't help me.  After all, it hasn't done

me any harm" 

"And you've had a great escape!  And I won't say a word more now,  but  I'll be back soon, and then weOh,

I'm so sorry I'm going." 

Verrian gave a laugh.  "You couldn't do anything if you stayed,  mother.  Do go!" 

"Well" She looked at him, smoothing her muff with her hand a  moment,  and then she dropped a fond kiss

on his cheek and obeyed him. 

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Verrian still sat at his desk, thinking, with his burning face in his  hands.  It was covered with shame for what

had happened to him, but  his  humiliation had no quality of pity in it.  He must write to that  girl,  and write at

once, and his sole hesitation was as to the form he  should  give his reply.  He could not address her as Dear

Miss Brown or  as Dear  Madam.  Even Madam was not sharp and forbidding enough;  besides, Madam,  alone

or with the senseless prefix, was archaic, and  Verrian wished to be  very modern with this most offensive

instance of  the latest girl.  He decided upon dealing with her in the third person,  and trusting to his  literary

skill to keep the form from clumsiness. 

He tried it in that form, and it was simply disgusting, the  attitude  stiff and swelling, and the diction affected

and unnatural.  With a quick  reversion to the impossible first type, he recast his  letter in what was  now the

only possible shape. 

     "MY DEAR MISS BROWN, The editor of the American Miscellany has

     sent me a copy of his recent letter to you and your own reply, and

     has remanded to me an affair which resulted from my going to him

     with your request to see the close of my story now publishing in his

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"After giving the matter my best thought, I have concluded that it

     will be well to enclose all the exhibits to you, and I now do this

     in the hope that a serious study of them will enable you to share my

     surprise at the moral and social conditions in which the business

     could originate.  I willingly leave with you the question which is

     the more trustworthy, your letter to me or your letter to him, or

     which the more truly represents the interesting diversity of your

     nature.  I confess that the first moved me more than the second,

     and I do not see why I should not tell you that as soon as I had

     your request I went with it to Mr. Armiger and did what I could to

     prompt his compliance with it.  In putting these papers out of my

     hands, I ought to acknowledge that they have formed a temptation to

     make literary use of the affair which I shall now be the better

     fitted to resist.  You will, of course, be amused by the ease with

     which you could abuse my reliance on your good faith, and I am sure

     you will not allow any shame for your trick to qualify your pleasure

     in its success.

     "It will not be necessary for you to acknowledge this letter and its

     enclosures.  I will register the package, so that it will not fail

     to reach you, and I will return any answer of yours unopened, or, if

     not recognizably addressed, then unread.

                              "Yours sincerely,

                                             "P. S. VERRIAN."

He read and read again these lines, with only the sense of their  insufficiency in doing the effect of the

bitterness in his heart.  If  the  letter was insulting, it was by no means as insulting as he would  have  liked to

make it.  Whether it would be wounding enough was  something that  depended upon the person whom he

wished to wound.  All  that was proud and  vain and cruel in him surged up at the thought of  the trick that had

been  played upon him, and all that was sweet and  kind and gentle in him, when  he believed the trick was a

genuine  appeal, turned to their counter  qualities.  Yet, feeble and inadequate  as his letter was, he knew that  he

could not do more or worse by  trying, and he so much feared that by  waiting he might do less and  better that

he hurried it into the post at  once.  If his mother had  been at hand he would have shown it her,  though he

might not have been  ruled by her judgment of it.  He was glad  that she was not with him,  for either she would

have had her opinion of  what would be more  telling, or she would have insisted upon his delaying  any sort of

reply, and he could not endure the thought of difference  or delay. 

He asked himself whether he should let her see the rough first  draft of  his letter or not, and he decided that he

would not.  But  when she came  into his study on her return he showed it her. 

She read it in silence, and then she seemed to temporize in asking,  "Where are her two letters?" 

"I've sent them back with the answer." 

His mother let the paper drop from her hands.  "Philip!  You  haven't sent  this!" 

"Yes, I have.  It wasn't what I wanted to make it, but I wished to  get  the detestable experience out of my mind,

and it was the best I  could do  at the moment.  Don't you like it?" 

"Oh" She seemed beginning to say something, but without saying  anything  she took the fallen leaf up and

read it again. 

"Well!" he demanded, with impatience. 


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"Oh, you may have been right.  I hope you've not been wrong." 

"Mother!" 

"She deserved the severest things you could say; and yet" 

"Well?" 

"Perhaps she was punished enough already." 

"What do you mean?" 

"I don't like your beingvindictive." 

"Vindictive?" 

"Being so terribly just, then."  She added, at his blank stare,  "This is  killing, Philip." 

He gave a bitter laugh.  "I don't think it will kill her.  She  isn't that  kind." 

"She's a girl,"  his mother said, with a kind of sad absence. 

"But not a singleminded girl, you warned me.  I wish I could have  taken  your warning.  It would have saved

me from playing the fool  before myself  and giving myself away to Armiger, and letting him give  himself

away.  I don't think Miss Brown will suffer much before she  dies.  She will 'get  together,' as she calls it, with

that other girl  and have 'a real good  time' over it.  You know the village type and  the village conditions,  where

the vulgar ignorance of any larger world  is so thick you could cut  it with a knife.  Don't be troubled by my

vindictiveness or my justice,  mother!  I begin to think I have done  justice and not fallen short of it,  as I was

afraid." 

Mrs. Verrian sighed, and again she gave his letter back to her son.  "Perhaps you are right, Philip.  She is

probably so tough as not to  feel  it very painfully." 

"She's not so tough but she'll be very glad to get out of it so  lightly.  She has had a useful scare, and I've done

her a favor in  making the scare  a sharp one.  I suppose," Verrian mused, "that she  thinks I've kept  copies of

her letters." 

"Yes.  Why didn't you?" his mother asked. 

Verrian laughed, only a little less bitterly than before.  "I shall  begin  to believe you're all alike, mother. 

I didn't keep copies of her letters because I wanted to get her and  her  letters out of my mind, finally and

forever.  Besides, I didn't  choose.  to emulate her duplicity by any sort of dissimulation. 

"I see what you mean," his mother said.  "And, of course, you have  taken  the only honorable way." 

Then they were both silent for a time, thinking their several  thoughts. 

Verrian broke the silence to say, "I wish I knew what sort of  'other  girl' it was that she 'got together with.'" 

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"Because she wrote a more cultivated letter than this magnanimous  creature who takes all the blame to

herself." 

"Then you don't believe they're both the same?" 

"They are both the same in stationery and chirography, but not in  literature." 

"I hope you won't get to thinking about her, then," his mother  entreated,  intelligibly but not definitely. 

"Not seriously," Verrian reassured her.  "I've had my medicine." 

V.

Continuity is so much the lesson of experience that in the course  of a  life by no means long it becomes the

instinctive expectation.  The event  that has happened will happen again; it will prolong itself  in a series  of

recurrences by which each one's episode shares in the  unending history  of all.  The sense of this is so

pervasive that  humanity refuses to  accept death itself as final.  In the agonized  affections, the shattered  hopes,

of those who remain, the severed life  keeps on unbrokenly, and  when time and reason prevail, at least as to

the life here, the defeated  faith appeals for fulfilment to another  world, and the belief of  immortality holds

against the myriad years in  which none of the  numberless dead have made an indisputable sign in  witness of

it.  The  lost limb still reports its sensations to the  brain; the fixed habit  mechanically attempts its repetition

when the  conditions render it  impossible. 

Verrian was aware how deeply and absorbingly he had brooded upon  the  incident which he had done his

utmost to close, when he found  himself  expecting an answer of some sort from his unknown  correspondent.

He  perceived, then, without owning the fact, that he  had really hoped for  some protest, some excuse, some

extenuation,  which in the end would  suffer him to be more merciful.  Though he had  wished to crush her into

silence, and to forbid her all hope of his  forgiveness, he had, in a  manner, not meant to do it.  He had kept a

secret place in his soul where  the sinner against him could find  refuge from his justice, and when this

sanctuary remained unattempted  he found himself with a regret that he had  barred the way to it so  effectually.

The regret was so vague, so  formless, however, that he  could tacitly deny it to himself at all times,  and

explicitly deny it  to his mother at such times as her touch taught  him that it was  tangible. 

One day, after ten or twelve days had gone by, she asked him, "You  haven't heard anything more from that

girl?" 

"What girl?" he returned, as if he did not know; and he frowned.  "You  mean the girl that wrote me about my

story?" 

He continued to frown rather more darkly.  "I don't see how you  could  expect me to hear from her, after what

I wrote.  But, to be  categorical,  I haven't, mother." 

"Oh, of course not.  Did you think she would be so easily  silenced?" 

"I did what I could to crush her into silence." 

"Yes, and you did quite right; I am more and more convinced of  that.  But  such a very tough young person

might have refused to stay  crushed.  She  might very naturally have got herself into shape again  and smoothed

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"It seems that she hasn't," Verrian said, still darkly, but not so  frowningly. 

"I should have fancied," his mother suggested, "that if she had  wanted to  open a correspondence with youif

that was her original  objectshe  would not have let it drop so easily." 

"Has she let it drop easily?  I thought I had left her no possible  chance  of resuming it." 

"That is true," his mother said, and for the time she said no more  about  the matter. 

Not long after this he came home from the magazine office and  reported to  her from Armiger that the story

was catching on more and  more with the  best class of readers.  The editor had shown Verrian  some references

to  it in newspapers of good standing and several  letters about it. 

"I thought you might like to look at the letters," Verrian said,  and he  took some letters from his pocket and

handed them to her across  the  lunchtable.  She did not immediately look at them, because he  went on to  add

something that they both felt to be more important.  "Armiger says  there has been some increase of the sales,

which I can  attribute to my  story if I have the cheek." 

"That is good." 

"And the house wants to publish the book.  They think, down there,  that  it will have a very pretty

successnot be a big seller, of  course, but  something comfortable." 

Mrs. Verrian's eyes were suffused with pride and fondness.  "And  you can  always think, Philip, that this has

come to you without the  least  lowering of your standard, without forsaking your ideal for a  moment." 

"That is certainly a satisfaction." 

She kept her proud and tender gaze upon him.  "No one will ever  know as I  do how faithful you have been to

your art.  Did any of the  newspapers  recognize thator surmise it, or suspect it?" 

"No, that isn't the turn they take.  They speak of the strong love  interest involved in the problem.  And the

abundance of incident.  I  looked out to keep something happening, you know.  I'm sorry I didn't  ask Armiger

to let me bring the notices home to you.  I'm not sure  that I  did wisely not to subscribe to that pressclippings

bureau." 

His mother smiled.  "You mustn't let prosperity corrupt you,  Philip.  Wouldn't seeing what the press is saying

of it distract you  from the real  aim you had in your story?" 

"We're all weak, of course.  It might, if the story were not  finished;  but as it is, I think I could be proof against

the stupidest  praise." 

"Well, for my part, I'm glad you didn't subscribe to the clippings  bureau.  It would have been a disturbing

element."  She now looked  down  at the letters as if she were going to take them up, and he  followed the

direction of her eyes.  As if reminded of the fact by  this, he said: 

"Armiger asked me if I had ever heard anything more from that  girl." 

"Has he?" his mother eagerly asked, transferring her glance from  the  letters to her son's face. 

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"Yes," his mother said.  "There could have been no good object in  prolonging the affair and letting her

confirm herself in the notion  that  she was of sufficient importance either to you or to him for you  to  continue

the correspondence with her.  She couldn't learn too  distinctly  that she had donea very wrong thing in

trying to play  such a trick on  you." 

"That was the way I looked at it," Verrian said, but he drew a  light  sigh, rather wearily. 

"I hope," his mother said, with a recurrent glance at the letters,  "that  there is nothing of that silly kind among

these." 

"No, these are blameless enough, unless they are to be blamed for  being  too flattering.  That girl seems to be

sole of her kind, unless  the girl  that she 'got together with' was really like her." 

"I don't believe there was any other girl.  I never thought there  was  more than one." 

"There seemed to be two styles and two grades of culture, such as  they  were." 

"Oh, she could easily imitate two manners.  She must have been a  clever  girl," Mrs. Verrian said, with that

admiration for any sort of  cleverness  in her sex which even very good women cannot help feeling. 

"Well, perhaps she was punished enough for both the characters she  assumed," Verrian said, with a smile that

was not gay. 

"Don't think about her!" his mother returned, with a perception of  his  mood.  "I'm only thankful that she's out

of our lives in every  sort of  way." 

VI.

Verrian said nothing, but he reflected with a sort of gloomy  amusement  how impossible it was for any

woman, even a woman so  wideminded and  highprincipled as his mother, to escape the personal  view of all

things  and all persons which women take.  He tacitly noted  the fact, as the  novelist notes whatever happens or

appears to him,  but he let the  occasion drop out of his mind as soon as he could after  it had dropped  out of his

talk. 

The night when the last number of his story came to them in the  magazine,  and was already announced as a

book, he sat up with his  mother  celebrating, as he said, and exulting in the future as well as  the past.  They had

a little supper, which she cooked for him in a  chafingdish, in  the diningroom of the tiny apartment where

they  lived together, and she  made some coffee afterwards, to carry off the  effect of the Newburg  lobster.

Perhaps because there was nothing to  carry off the effect of  the coffee, he heard her, through the  partition of

their rooms, stirring  restlessly after he had gone to  bed, and a little later she came to his  door, which she set

ajar, to  ask, "Are you awake, Philip?" 

"You seem to be, mother," he answered, with an amusement at her  question  which seemed not to have

imparted itself to her when she came  in and  stood beside his bed in her dressinggown. 

"You don't think we have judged her too harshly, Philip?" 

"Do you, mother?" 

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other storywriters; she  couldn't feel differences, shades.  She pretended to be taken with the  circumstances of

your work, but she had to do that if she wanted to  fool  you.  Well, she has got her comeuppings, as she

would probably  say." 

Verrian replied, thoughtfully, "She didn't strike me as a country  person  at least, in her first letter." 

"Then you still think she didn't write both?" 

"If she did, she was trying her hand in a personality she had  invented." 

"Girls are very strange," his mother sighed.  "They like  excitement,  adventure.  It's very dull in those little

places.  I  shouldn't wish you  to think any harm of the poor thing." 

"Poor thing?  Why this magnanimous compassion, mother?" 

"Oh, nothing.  But I know how I was myself when I was a girl.  I  used  almost to die of hunger for something to

happen.  Can you  remember just  what you said in your letter?" 

Verrian laughed.  "NO, I can't.  But I don't believe I said half  enough.  You're nervous, mother." 

"Yes, I am.  But don't you get to worrying.  I merely got to  thinking how  I should hate to have anybody's

unhappiness mixed up with  this happiness  of ours.  I do so want your pleasure in your success to  be pure, not

tainted with the pain of any human creature." 

Verrian answered with light cynicism: "It will be tainted with the  pain  of the fellows who don't like me, or

who haven't succeeded, and  they'll  take care to let me share their pain if ever they can.  But if  you mean  that

merry maiden up country, she's probably thinking, if she  thinks  about it at all, that she's the luckiest girl in the

United  States to  have got out of an awful scrape so easily.  At the worst, I  only had fun  with her in my letter.

Probably she sees that she has  nothing to grieve  for but her own break." 

"No, and you did just as you should have done; and I am glad you  don't  feel bitterly about it.  You don't, do

you?" 

"Not the least." 

His mother stooped over and kissed him where he lay smiling.  "Well,  that's good.  After all, it's you I cared

for.  Now I can say  good  night."  But she lingered to tuck him in a little, from the  persistence  of the mother

habit.  "I wish you may never do anything  that you will be  sorry for." 

"Well, I won'tif it's a good action." 

They laughed together, and she left the room, still looking back to  see  if there was anything more she could

do for him, while he lay  smiling,  intelligently for what she was thinking, and patiently for  what she was

doing. 

VII.

Even in the time which was then coming and which now is, when  successful  authors are almost as many as

millionaires, Verrian's book  brought him a  pretty celebrity; and this celebrity was in a way  specific.  It related

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uttered  on the surface.  He belonged  to the good school which is of no fashion  and of every time, far both

from actuality and unreality; and his  recognition came from people whose  recognition was worth having.

With  this came the wider notice which was  not worth having, like the notice  of Mrs. Westangle, since so well

known  to society reporters as a  society woman, which could not be called  recognition of him, because  it did

not involve any knowledge of his book,  not even its title.  She  did not read any sort of books, and she

assimilated him by a sort of  atmospheric sense.  She was sure of nothing  but the attention paid him  in a certain

very goodish house, by people  whom she heard talking in  unintelligible but unmistakable praise, when  she

said, casually, with  a liquid glitter of her sweet, small eyes,  "I wish you would come down  to my place, Mr.

Verrian.  I'm asking a few  young people for Christmas  week.  Will you?" 

"Why, thank youthank you very much," Verrian said, waiting to  hear more  in explanation of the hospitality

launched at him.  He had  never seen  Mrs. Westangle till then, or heard of her, and he had not  the least  notion

where she lived.  But she seemed to have social  authority, though  Verrian, in looking round at his hostess and

her  daughter, who stood  near, letting people take leave, learned nothing  from their common smile.  Mrs.

Westangle had glided close to him, in  the way she had of getting  very near without apparently having

advanced by steps, and she stood  gleaming and twittering up at him. 

"I shall send you a little note; I won't let you forget," she said.  Then  she suddenly shook hands with the ladies

of the house and was  flashingly  gone. 

Verrian thought he might ask the daughter of the house, "And if I  don't  forget, am I engaged to spend

Christmas week with her?" 

The girl laughed.  "If she doesn't forget, you are.  But you'll  have a  good time.  She'll know how to manage

that."  Other guests kept  coming up  to take leave, and Verrian, who did not want to go just yet,  was retired  to

the background, where the girl's voice, thrown over her  shoulder at  him, reached him in the words, as gay as

if they were the  best of the  joke, "It's on the Sound." 

The inference was that Mrs. Westangle's place was on the Sound; and  that  was all Verrian knew about it till

he got her little note.  Mrs.  Westangle knew how to write in a formless hand, but she did not know  how  to

spell, and she had thought it best to have a secretary who  could write  well and spell correctly.  Though, as far

as literacy was  concerned, she  was such an almost incomparably ignorant woman, she had  all the knowledge

the best society wants, or, if she found herself out  of any, she went and  bought some; she was able to buy

almost anything. 

Verrian thanked the secretary for remembering him, in the belief  that he  was directly thanking Mrs.

Westangle, whose widespread  consciousness his  happiness in accepting did not immediately reach;  and in the

very large  house party, which he duly joined under her  roof, he was aware of losing  distinctiveness almost to

the point of  losing identity.  This did not  quite happen on the way to Belford,  for, when he went to take his

seat in  the drawingroom car, a girl in  the chair fronting him put out her hand  with the laugh of Miss

Macroyd. 

"She did remember you!" she cried out.  "How delightful!  I don't  see how  she ever got onto you"she made

the slang her own"in the  first place,  and she must have worked hard to be sure of you since." 

Verrian hung up his coat and put his suitcase behind his chair,  the  porter having put it where he could not

wheel himself visavis  with the  girl.  "She took all the time there was," he answered.  "I  got my  invitation

only the day before yesterday, and if I had been in  more  demand, or had a worse conscience" 

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"I shouldn't have the pleasure of going to Seasands with you  now," he  concluded, and she gave her laugh.

"Do I understand that  simply my  growing fame wouldn't have prevailed with her?" 

Anything seemed to make Miss Macroyd laugh.  "She couldn't have  cared  about that, and she wouldn't have

known.  You may be sure that  it was a  social question with her after the personal question was  settled.  She

must have liked your looks!"  Again Miss Macroyd  laughed. 

"On that side I'm invulnerable.  It's only a literary vanity to be  soothed or to be wounded that I have," Verrian

said. 

"Oh, there wouldn't be anything personal in her liking your looks.  It  would be merely deciding that personally

you would do, "Miss  Macroyd  laughed, as always, and Verrian put on a mock seriousness in  asking: 

"Then I needn't be serious if there should happen to be anything so  Westangular as a Mr. Westangle?" 

"Not the least in the world." 

"But there is something?" 

"Oh, I believe so.  But not probably at Seasands." 

"Is that her house?" 

"Yes.  Every other name had been used, and she couldn't say  Soundsands." 

"Then where would the Mr. Westangular part more probably be found?" 

"Oh, in Montana or Mesopotamia, or any of those places.  Don't you  know  about him?  How ignorant literary

people can be!  Why, he was the  Amalgamated Clothespin.  You haven't heard of that?" 

She went on to tell him, with gay digressions, about the invention  which  enabled Westangle to buy up the

other clothespins and merge  them in his  ownto become a commercial octopus, clutching the throats  of

other  clothespin inventors in the tentacles of the Westangle pin.  "But he  isn't in clothespins now.  He's in

mines, and banks, and  steamboats, and  railroads, and I don't know what all; and Mrs.  Westangle, the second

of  her name, never was in clothespins." 

Miss Macroyd laughed all through her talk, and she was in a final  burst  of laughing when the train slowed

into Stamford.  There a girl  came into  the car trailing her skirts with a sort of vivid debility  and overturning

some minor pieces of handbaggage which her draperies  swept out of their  shelter beside the chairs.  She had

to take one of  the seats which back  against the wall of the stateroom, where she  must face the whole length

of the car.  She sat weakly fallen back in  the chair and motionless, as  if almost unconscious; but after the  train

had begun to stir she started  up, and with a quick flinging of  her veil aside turned to look out of the  window.

In the flying  instant Verrian saw a colorless face with pinched  and sunken eyes  under a wornlooking

forehead, and a withered mouth whose  lips parted  feebly. 

On her part, Miss Macroyd had doubtless already noted that the girl  was,  with no show of expensiveness,

authoritatively well gowned and  personally  hatted.  She stared at her, and said, "What a very hunted  and

escaping  effect." 

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"One might almost fancyan asylum." 

"Yes, or a hospital." 

They continued both to stare at her, helpless for what ever  different  reasons to take their eyes away, and they

were still  interested in her  when they heard her asking the conductor, "Must I  change and take another  train

before we get to Belford?  My friends  thought" 

"No, this train stops at Southfield," the conductor answered,  absently  biting several holes into her

drawingroom ticket. 

"Can she be one of us?" Miss Macroyd demanded, in a dramatic  whisper. 

"She might be anything," Verrian returned, trying instantly, with a  whir  of his inventive machinery, to phrase

her.  He made a sort of  luxurious  failure of it, and rested content with her face, which  showed itself now  in

profile and now fronted him in full, and now was  restless and now  subsided in a look of delicate exhaustion.

He would  have said, if he  would have said anything absolute, that she was a  person who had  something on

her mind; at instants she had that hunted  air, passing at  other instants into that air of escape.  He discussed

these appearances  with Miss Macroyd, but found her too frankly  disputatious; and she  laughed too much and

too loud. 

VIII.

At Southfield, where they all descended, Miss Macroyd promptly  possessed  herself of a groom, who came

forward tentatively, touching  his hat.  "Miss Macroyd ?" she suggested. 

"Yes, miss," the man said, and led the way round the station to the  victoria which, when Miss Macroyd's

maid had mounted to the place  beside  her, had no room; for any one else. 

Verrian accounted for her activity upon the theory of her quite  justifiable wish not to arrive at Seasands with

a young man whom she  might then have the effect of having voluntarily come all the way  with;  and after one

or two circuits of the station it was apparent to  him that  he was not to have been sent for from Mrs.

Westangle's, but  to have been  left to the chances of the local drivers and their  vehicles.  These were  reduced to

a single carryall and a frowsy horse  whose rough winter coat  recalled the aspect of his species in the  period

following the glacial  epoch.  The mud, as of a worldthaw,  encrusted the wheels and curtains of  the carryall. 

Verrian seized upon it and then went into the waitingroom, where  he had  left his suitcase.  He found the

stranger there in parley with  the young  woman in the ticketoffice about a conveyance to Mrs.  Westangle's.  It

proved that he had secured not only the only thing of  the sort, but the  only present hope of any other, and in

the hard case  he could not  hesitate with distress so interesting.  It would have  been brutal to  drive off and

leave that girl there, and it would have  been a vulgar  flourish to put the entire vehicle at her service.  Besides,

and perhaps  above all, Verrian had no idea of depriving  himself of such a chance as  heaven seemed to offer

him. 

He advanced with the delicacy of the highestbred hero he could  imagine,  and said, "I am going to Mrs.

Westangle's, and I'm afraid  I've got the  only conveyancesuch as it is.  If you would let me  offer you half of

it?  Mr. Verrian," he added, at the light of  acceptance instantly  kindling in her face, which flushed thinly, as

with an afterglow of  invalidism. 

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catch his name; the name of  Verrian  ought to have been unmistakable.  "The young lady in the  office says

there won't be another, and I'm expected promptly."  She  added, with a  little tremor of the lip, "I don't

understand why Mrs.  Westangle"  But then she stopped. 

Verrian interpreted for her: "The seahorses must have given out at  Seasands.  Or probably there's some

mistake," and he reflected  bitterly  upon the selfishness of Miss Macroyd in grabbing that  victoria for  herself

and her maid, not considering that she could not  know, and has no  business to ask, whether this girl was

going to Mrs.  Westangle's, too.  "Have you a check?" he asked.  "I think our driver  could find room for

something besides my valise.  Or I could have it  come" 

"Not at all," the girl said.  "I sent my trunk ahead by express." 

A frowsy man, to match the frowsy horse, looked in impatiently.  "Any  other baggage?" 

"No," Verrian answered, and he led the way out after the vanishing  driver.  "Our chariot is back here in

hiding, Miss" 

"Shirley," she said, and trailed before him through the door he  opened. 

He felt that he did not do it as a man of the world would have done  it,  and in putting her into the ramshackle

carryall he knew that he  had not  the grace of the sort of man who does nothing else.  But Miss  Shirley  seemed

to have grace enough, of a feeble and broken sort, for  both, and  he resolved to supply his own lack with

sincerity.  He  therefore set his  jaw firmly and made its upper angles jut sharply  through his cleanshaven

cheeks.  It was well that Miss Shirley had  some beauty to spare, too, for  Verrian had scarcely enough for

himself.  Such distinction as he had was  from a sort of intellectual  tenseness which showed rather in the gaunt

forms of his face than in  the gray eyes, heavily lashed above and below,  and looking serious but  dull with

their rank, black brows.  He was  chewing a cud of bitterness  in the accusal he made himself of having  forced

Miss Shirley to give  her name; but with that interesting  personality at his side, under the  same tattered and

illscented Japanese  goatskin, he could not refuse  to be glad, with all his selfblame. 

"I'm afraid it's rather a long drivefor you, Miss Shirley," he  ventured,  with a glance at her face, which

looked very little under  her hat.  "The  driver says it's five miles round through the marshes." 

"Oh, I shall not mind," she said, courageously, if not cheerfully,  and he  did not feel authorized further to

recognize the fact that she  was an  invalid, or at best a convalescent. 

"These wintry treeforms are fine, though," he found himself  obliged to  conclude his apology, rather

irrelevantly, as the wheels of  the rattling,  and tilting carry all crunched the surface of the road  in the

succession  of jerks responding to the alternate walk and gallop  of the horse. 

"Yes, they are," Miss Shirley answered, looking around with a  certain  surprise, as if seeing them now for the

first time.  "So much  variety of  color; and that burnished look that some of them have."  The trees, far  and

near, were giving their tones and lustres in the  low December sun. 

"Yes," he said, "it's decidedly more refined than the autumnal  coloring  we brag of." 

"It is," she approved, as with novel conviction.  "The landscape is  really beautiful.  So nice and flat," she

added. 

He took her intention, and he said, as he craned his neck out of  the  carryall to include the nearer roadside

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the sea, quite manage." 

"Oh yes," she sighed, with a kind of weariness which explained  itself in  what she added: "It's the kind of

thing you'd like to have  keep on and  on."  She seemed to say that more to herself than to him,  and his eyes

questioned her.  She smiled slightly in explaining: "I  suppose I find it  all the more beautiful because this is my

first real  look into the world  after six months indoors." 

"Oh!" he said, and there was no doubt a prompting in his tone. 

She smiled still.  "Sick people are terribly, egotistical, and I  suppose  it's my conceit of having been the centre

of the universe so  lately that  makes me mention it."  And here she laughed a little at  herself, showing  a

charming little peculiarity in the catch of her  upper lip on her teeth.  "But this is divinethis air and this

sight."  She put her head out of  her side of the carryall, and drank them in  with her lungs and eyes. 

When she leaned back again on the seat she said, "I can't get  enough of  it." 

"But isn't this old rattletrap rather too rough for you?" he asked. 

"Oh no," she said, visiting him with a furtive turn of her eyes.  "It's  quite ideally what invalids in easy

circumstances are advised  to take  carriage exercise." 

"Yes, it's certainly carriage exercise," Verrian admitted in the  same  spirit, if it was a drolling spirit.  He could

not help being  amused by  the situation in which they had been brought together,  through the  vigorous

promptitude of Miss Macroyd in making the  victoria her own, and  the easy indifference of Mrs. Westangle as

to  how they should get to her  house.  If he had been alone he might have  felt the indifference as a  slight, but as

it was he felt it rather a  favor.  If Miss Shirley was  feeling it a slight, she was too secret or  too sweet to let it

be known,  and he thought that was nice of her.  Still, he believed he might  recognize the fact without

deepening a  possible hurt of hers, and he  added, with no apparent relevance, "If  Mrs. Westangle was not

looking for  us on this train, she will find  that it is the unexpected which happens." 

"We are certainly going to happen," the girl said, with an  acceptance of  the plural which deepened the

intimacy of the situation,  and which was  not displeasing to Verrian when she added, "If our  friend's vehicle

holds  out."  Then she turned her face full upon him,  with what affected him as  austere resolution, in

continuing, "But I  can't let you suppose that  you're conveying a society person, or  something of that sort, to

Mrs.  Westangle's."  His own face expressed  his mystification, and she  concluded, "I'm simply going there to

begin  my work." 

He smiled provisionally in temporizing with the riddle.  "You women  are  wonderful, nowadays, for the work

you do." 

"Oh, but," she protested, nervously, anxiously, "it isn't good work  that  I'm going to doI understand what

you meanit's work for a  living.  I've no business to be arriving with an invited guest, but it  seemed to  be a

question of arriving or not at the time when I was  due." 

IX.

Verrian stared at her now from a visage that was an entire blank,  though  behind it conjecture was busy, and

he was asking himself  whether his  companion was some new kind of hairdresser, or uncommonly  cultivated

manicure, or a nursery governess obeying a hurry call to  take a place in  Mrs. Westangle's household, or some

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Miss Shirley said, with a distress which was genuine, though he  perceived  a trace of amusement in it, too, "I

see that I will have to  go on." 

"Oh, do!" he made out to utter. 

"I am going to Mrs. Westangle's as a sort of mistress of the  revels.  The  business is so new that it hasn't got its

name yet, but  if I fail it  won't need any.  I invented it on a hint I got from a  girl who undertakes  the floral

decorations for parties.  I didn't see  why some one shouldn't  furnish suggestions for amusements, as well as

flowers.  I was always  rather lucky at that in my own famat my  father's" She pulled herself  sharply up,

as if danger lay that way.  "I got an introduction to Mrs.  Westangle, and she's to let me try.  I  am going to her

simply as part of  the catering, and I'm not to have  any recognition in the hospitalities.  So it wasn't necessary

for her  to send for me at the station, except as a  means of having me on the  ground in good season.  I have to

thank you for  that, andI thank  you."  She ended in a sigh. 

"It's very interesting," Verrian said, and he hoped he was not  saying it  in any ignoble way. 

He was very presently to learn.  Round a turn of the road there  came a  lively clacking of horses' shoes on the

hard track, with the  muted rumble  of rubbertired wheels, and Mrs. Westangle's victoria  dashed into view.

The coachman had made a signal to Verrian's driver,  and the vehicles  stopped side by side.  The footman

instantly came to  the door of the  carryall, touching his hat to Verrian. 

"Going to Mrs. Westangle's, sir?" 

"Yes." 

"Mrs. Westangle's carriage.  Going to the station for you, sir." 

"Miss Shirley," Verrian said, " will you change?" 

"Oh no," she answered, quickly, "it's better for me to go on as I  am.  But the carriage was sent for you.  You

must" 

Verrian interrupted to ask the footman, "How far is it yet to Mrs.  Westangle's?" 

"About a mile, sir." 

"I think I won't change for such a short distance.  I'll keep on as  I  am," Verrian said, and he let the goatskin,

which he had half lifted  to  free Miss Shirley for dismounting, fall back again.  "Go ahead,  driver." 

She had been making several gasping efforts at speech, accompanied  with  entreating and protesting glances

at Verrian in the course of his  brief  colloquy with the footman.  Now, as the carryall lurched forward  again,

and the victoria wheeled and passed them on its way back, she  caught her  handkerchief to her face, and to

Verrian's dismay sobbed  into it.  He let  her cry, as he must, in the distressful silence which  he could not be the

first to break.  Besides, he did not know how she  was taking it all till  she suddenly with threw her

handkerchief and  pulled down her veil.  Then  she spoke three heartbroken words, "How  could you!" and he

divined that  he must have done wrong. 

"What ought I to have done?" he asked, with sullen humility. 

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"How could I?" 

"You ought to have done it." 

"I think you ought to have done it yourself, Miss Shirley," Verrian  said,  feeling like the worm that turns.  He

added, less resentfully,  "We ought  both to have taken it." 

"No, Mrs. Westangle might have felt, very properly, that it was  presumptuous in me, whether I came alone in

it or with you.  Now we  shall  arrive together in this thing, and she will be mortified for you  and  vexed with

me.  She will blame me for it, and she will be right,  for it  would have been very well for me to drive up in a

shabby  station  carryall; but an invited guest" 

" No, indeed, she shall not blame you, Miss Shirley.  I will make a  point  of taking the whole responsibility.  I

will tell her" 

"Mr. Merriam!" she cried, in anguish.  "Will you please do nothing  of the  kind?  Do you want to make bad

worse?  Leave the explaining  altogether to  me, please.  Will you promise that?" 

"I will promise thator anythingif you insist," Verrian sulked. 

She instantly relented a little.  "You mustn't think me  unreasonable.  But I was determined to carry my

undertaking through on  business  principles, and you have spoiled my chanceI know you meant  it kindly

or, if not spoiled, made it more difficult.  Don't think me  ungrateful.  Mr. Merriam" 

"My name isn't Merriam," he resented, at last, a misnomer which had  annoyed him from the first. 

"Oh, I am so glad!  Don't tell me what it is!" she said, giving a  laugh  which had to go on a little before he

recognized the hysterical  quality  in it.  When she could check it she explained: "Now we are not  even

acquainted, and I can thank a stranger for the kindness you have  shown  me.  I am truly grateful.  Will you do

me another favor?" 

"Yes," Verrian assented; but he thought he had a right to ask, as  though  he had not promised, "What is it?" 

"Not to speak of me to Mrs. Westangle unless she speaks of me  first." 

"That's simple.  I don't know that I should have any right to speak  of  you." 

"Oh yes, you would.  She will expect you, perhaps, to laugh about  the  little adventure, and I would rather she

began the laughing you  have been  so good." 

"All right.  But wouldn't my silence make it rather more awkward?" 

"I will take care of the awkwardness, thank you.  And you promise?" 

"Yes, I promise." 

"That is very good of you."  She put her hand impulsively across  the  goatskin, and gave his, with which he

took it in some surprise, a  quick  clasp.  Then they were both silent, and they got out of the  carryall  under Mrs.

Westangle's portecochere without having exchanged  another  word.  Miss Shirley did not bow to him or look

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X.

Verrian kept seeing before his inner eyes the thin face of the  girl,  dimmed rather than lighted with her sick

yes.  When she should  be  stronger, there might be a pale flush in it, like sunset on snow,  but  Verrian had to

imagine that.  He did not find it difficult to  imagine  many things about the girl, whom, in another mood, a

more  judicial mood,  he might have accused of provoking him to imagine them.  As it was, he  could not help

noting to that second self which we all  have about us,  that her confidences, such as they were, had perhaps

been too voluntary;  certainly they had not been quite obligatory, and  they could not be quite  accounted for,

except upon the theory of  nerves not yet perfectly under  her control.  To be sure, girls said  all sorts of things

to one,  ignorantly and innocently; but she did not  seem the kind of girl who, in  different circumstances,

would have said  anything that she did not choose  or that she did not mean to say.  She  had been surprisingly

frank, and  yet, at heart, Verrian would have  thought she was a very reticent person  or a secret personthat

is,  mentally frank and sentimentally secret;  possibly she was like most  women in that.  What he was sure of

was that  the visual impression of  her which he had received must have been very  vivid to last so long in  his

consciousness; all through his preparations  for going down to  afternoon tea her face remained subjectively

before  him, and when he  went down and found himself part of a laughing and  chattering company  in the

library he still found it, in his inner sense,  here, there, and  yonder. 

He was aware of suffering a little disappointment in Mrs.  Westangle's  entire failure to mention Miss Shirley,

though he was  aware that his  disappointment was altogether unreasonable, and he more  reasonably  decided

that if she knew anything of his arrival, or the  form of it, she  had too much of the making of a grande dame to

be  recognizant of it.  He  did not know from her whether she had meant to  send for him at the  station or not, or

whether she had sent her  carriage back for him when he  did not arrive in it at first.  Nothing  was left in her

manner of such  slight specialization as she had thrown  into it when, at the Macroyds',  she asked him down to

her house party;  she seemed, if there were any  difference, to have acquired an  additional ignorance of who

and what he  was, though she twittered and  flittered up close to his elbow, after his  impersonal welcome, and

asked him if she might introduce him to the young  lady who was pouring  tea for her, and who, after the brief

drama  necessary for possessing  him of a cup of it, appeared to have no more use  for him than Mrs.  Westangle

herself had.  There were more young men than  young women in  the room, but he imagined the usual

superabundance of  girlhood  temporarily absent for repair of the fatigues of the journey.  Every  girl in the

room had at least one man talking to her, and the girl  who  was pouring tea had one on each side of her and

was trying to fix  them  both with an eye lifted towards each, while she struggled to keep  her  united gaze

watchfully upon the teaurn and those who came up with  cups to be filled or refilled. 

Verrian thought his fellowguests were all amiable enough looking,  though  he made his reflection that they

did not look, any of them, as  if they  would set the Sound on fire; and again he missed the companion  of his

arrival. 

After he had got his cup of tea, he stood sipping it with a  homeless air  which he tried to conceal, and cast a

furtive eye round  the room till it  rested upon the laughing face of Miss Macroyd.  A  young man was taking

away her teacup, and Verrian at once went up and  seized his place. 

"How did you get here?" she asked, rather shamelessly, since she  had kept  him from coming in the victoria,

but amusingly, since she  seemed to see  it as a joke, if she saw it at all. 

"I walked," he answered. 

"Truly?" 

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"But, truly, how did you?  Because I sent the carriage back for  you." 

"That was very thoughtful of you.  But I found a delightful public  vehicle behind the station, and I came in

that.  I'm so glad to know  that  it wasn't Mrs. Westangle who had the trouble of sending the  carriage back  for

me." 

Miss Macroyd laughed and laughed at his resentment.  "But surely  you met  it on the way?  I gave the man a

description of you.  Didn't  he stop for  you?" 

"Oh yes, but I was too proud to change by that time.  Or perhaps I  hated  the trouble." 

Miss Macroyd laughed the more; then she purposely darkened her  countenance so as to suit it to her

lugubrious whisper, "How did she  get  here?" 

"What she?" 

"The mysterious fugitive.  Wasn't she coming here, after all?" 

"After all your trouble in supposing so?"  Verrian reflected a  moment,  and then he said, deliberately, " I don't

know." 

Miss Macroyd was not going to let him off like that.  "You don't  know how  she came, or you don't know

whether she was coming?" 

"I didn't say." 

Her laugh resounded again.  "Now you are trying to be wicked, and  that is  very wrong for a novelist." 

"But what object could I have in concealing the fact from you, Miss  Macroyd?" he entreated, with mock

earnestness. 

"That is what I want to find out." 

"What are you two laughing so about?" the voice of Mrs. Westangle  twittered at Verrian's elbow, and,

looking down, he found her almost  touching it.  She had a very long, narrow neck, and, since it was long  and

narrow, she had the good sense not to palliate the fact or try to  dress the effect of it out of sight.  She took her

neck in both hands,  as  it were, and put it more on show, so that you had really to like  it.  Now  it lifted her

face, though she was not a tall person, well  towards the  level of his; to be sure, he was himself only of the

middle height of  men, though an aquiline profile helped him up. 

He stirred the tea which he had ceased to drink, and said, "I  wasn't  'laughing so about,' Mrs. Westangle.  It

was Miss Macroyd." 

"And I was laughing so about a mysterious stranger that came up on  the  train with us and got out at your

station." 

"And I was trying to make out what was so funny in a mysterious  stranger,  or even in her getting out at your

station." 

Mrs. Westangle was not interested in the case, or else she failed  to  seize the joke.  At any rate, she turned from

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like manner to another couple, and again left it  for  still another.  This was possibly her idea of looking after

her  guests;  but when she had looked after them a little longer in that way  she left  the room and let them look

after themselves till dinner. 

"Come, Mr. Verrian," Miss Macroyd resumed, "what is the secret?  I'll  never tell if you tell me." 

"You won't if I don't." 

"Now you are becoming merely trivial.  You are ceasing even to be  provoking."  Miss Macroyd, in token of

her displeasure, laughed no  longer. 

"Am I?" he questioned; thoughtfully.  "Well, then, I am tempted to  act  upon impulse." 

"Oh, do act upon impulse for once," she urged.  I'm sure you'll  enjoy  it." 

"Do you mean that I'm never impulsive?" 

"I don't think you look it." 

"If you had seen me an hour ago you would have said I was very  impulsive.  I think I may have exhausted

myself in that direction,  however.  I feel  the impulse failing me now." 

XI.

His impulse really had failed him.  It had been to tell Miss  Macroyd  about his adventure and frankly trust her

with it.  He had  liked her at  several former meetings rather increasingly, because she  had seemed open  and

honest beyond the most of women, but her piggish  behavior at the  station had been rather too open and

honest, and the  sense of this now  opportunely intervened between him and the folly he  was about to commit.

Besides, he had no right to give Miss Shirley's  part in his adventure  away, and, since the affair was more

vitally  hers than his, to take it at  all out of her hands.  The earlyfalling  dusk had favored an unnoticed  advent

for them, and there were other  chances that had helped keep  unknown their arrival together at Mrs.

Westangle's in that squalid  carryall, such as Miss Shirley's having  managed instantly to slip indoors  before

the man came out for  Verrian's suitcase, and of her having got to  her own appointed place  long before there

was any descent of the company  to the afternoon tea. 

It was not for him now to undo all that and begin the laughing at  the  affair, which she had pathetically

intimated that she would rather  some  one else should begin.  He recoiled from his imprudence with a  shock,

but  he had the pleasure of having mystified Miss Macroyd.  He  felt dismissal  in the roving eye which she cast

from him round the  room, and he  willingly let another young man replace him at her side. 

Yet he was not altogether satisfied.  A certain meaner self that  there  was in him was not pleased with his

relegation even merely in  his own  consciousness to the championship of a girl who was going to  make her

living in a sort of menial way.  It had better be owned for  him that, in  his visions of literary glory, he had

figured in social  triumphs which,  though vague, were resplendent with the glitter of  smart circles.  He had

been so ignorant of such circles as to suppose  they would have some use  for him as a brilliant young author;

and  though he was outwearing this  illusion, he still would not have liked  a girl like Julia Macroyd, whose

family, if not smart, was at least  chic, to know that he had come to the  house with a professional  mistress of

the revels, until Miss Shirley  should have approved  herself chic, too.  The notion of such an employment  as

hers was in  itself chic, but the girl was merely a paid part of the  entertainment,  as yet, and had not risen above

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evidence that she had ever been smart.  Verrian would,  therefore,  rather not be mixed up with herat any

rate, in the  imagination of a  girl like Julia Macroyd; and as he left her side he drew  a long breath  of relief and

went and put down his teacup where he had got  it. 

By this time the girl who was "pouring" had exhausted one of the  two  original guards on whom she had been

dividing her vision, and  Verrian  made a pretence, which she favored, that he had come up to  push the man

away.  The man gracefully submitted to be dislodged, and  Verrian remained  in the enjoyment of one of the

girl's distorted eyes  till, yet another  man coming up, she abruptly got rid of Verrian by  presenting him to yet

another girl.  In such manoeuvres the hour of  afternoon tea will pass;  and the time really wore on till it was

time  to dress for dinner. 

By the time that the guests came down to dinner they were all able  to  participate in the exchange of the

discovery which each had made,  that it  was snowing outdoors, and they kept this going till one girl  had the

goodluck to say, "I don't see anything so astonishing in that  at this  time of year.  Now, if it was snowing

indoors, it would be  different." 

This relieved the tension in a general laugh, and a young man tried  to  contribute further to the gayety by

declaring that it would not be  surprising to have it snow indoors.  He had once seen the thing done  in  a

crowded hall, one night, when somebody put up a window, and the  freezing current of air congealed the

respiration of the crowd, which  came down in a light fall of snowflakes.  He owned that it was in  Boston. 

"Oh, that excuses it, then," Miss Macroyd said.  But she lost the  laugh  which was her due in the rush which

some of the others made to  open a  window and see whether it could be made to snow indoors there. 

"Oh, it isn't crowded enough here," the young man explained who had  alleged the scientific marvel. 

"And it isn't Boston," Miss Macroyd tried again on the same string,  and  this time she got her laugh. 

The girl who had first spoken remained, at the risk of pneumonia,  with  her arm prettily lifted against the open

sash, for a moment  peering out,  and then reported, in dashing it down with a shiver, "It  seems to be a  very

soft snow." 

"Then it will be rain by morning," another predicted, and the girl  tried  hard to think of something to say in

support of the hit she had  made  already.  But she could not, and was silent almost through the  whole  first

course at dinner. 

In spite of its being a soft snow, it continued to fall as snow and  not  as rain.  It lent the charm of stormy cold

without to the  brightness and  warmth within.  Much later, when between waltzes some  of the dancers went  out

on the verandas for a breath of air, they came  back reporting that  the wind was rising and the snow was

drifting. 

Upon the whole, the snow was a great success, and her guests  congratulated Mrs. Westangle on having

thought to have it.  The  felicitations included recognition of the originality of her whole  scheme.  She had

downed the hoary superstition that people had too  much  of a good time on Christmas to want any good time

at all in the  week  following; and in acting upon the wellknown fact that you never  wanted a  holiday so

much as the day after you had one, she had made a  movement of  the highest social importance.  These were

the ideas which  Verrian and  the young man of the indoors snowstorm urged upon her;  his name was

Bushwick, and he and Verrian found that they were very  goodfellows after  they had rather supposed the

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Mrs. Westangle received their ideas with the twittering reticence  that  deceived so many people when they

supposed she knew what they  were  talking about. 

XII.

At breakfast, where the guests were reasonably punctual, they were  all  able to observe, in the rapid

succession in which they descended  from  their rooms, that it had stopped snowing and the sun was shining

brilliantly. 

"There isn't enough for sleighing," Mrs. Westangle proclaimed from  the  head of the table in her high twitter,

"and there isn't any  coasting here  in this flat country for miles." 

"Then what are we going to do with it?" one of the young ladies  humorously pouted. 

"That's what I was going to suggest," Mrs. Westangle replied.  She  pronounced it 'sujjest', but no one felt that

it mattered.  "And, of  course," she continued, "you needn't any of you do it if you don't  like." 

"We'll all do it, Mrs. Westangle," Bushwick said.  "We are  unanimous in  that." 

"Perhaps you'll think it rather funnyodd," she said. 

"The odder the better, I think," Verrian ventured, and another man  declared that nothing Mrs. Westangle

would do was odd, though  everything  was original. 

"Well, there is such a thing as being too original," she returned.  Then  she turned her head aside and looked

down at something beside  her plate  and said, without lifting her eyes, "You know that in the  Middle Ages

there used to be flowerfights among the young nobility in  Italy.  The  women held a tower, and the men

attacked it with roses and  flowers  generally." 

"Why, is this a speech?" Miss Macroyd interrupted. 

"A speech from the throne, yes," Bushwick solemnly corrected her.  "And  she's got it written down, like a

queenhaven't you, Mrs.  Westangle?" 

"Yes, I thought it would be more respectful." 

"She coming out," Bushwick said to Verrian across the table. 

"And if I got mixed up I could go back and straighten it," the  hostess  declared, with a goodhumored candor

that took the general  fancy, "and  you could understand without so much explaining.  We  haven't got flowers

enough at this season," she went on, looking down  again at the paper  beside her plate, "but we happen to have

plenty of  snowballs, and the  notion is to have the women occupy a snow tower and  the men attack them  with

snowballs." 

"Why," Bushwick said, "this is the snowfort business of our  boyhood!  Let's go out and fortify the ladies at

once."  He appealed to  Verrian and  made a feint of pushing his chair back.  "May we use  watersoaked

snowballs, or must they all be soft and harmless?" he  asked of Mrs.  Westangle, who was now the centre of a

storm of applause  and question  from the whole table. 

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snowballs, hardly more than mere  clots, so  that nobody can be hurt in the assault, but the defenders  may repel

the  assailants with harder snowballs." 

"Oh," Miss Macroyd protested, "this is consulting the weakness of  our  sex." 

"In the fury of the onset we'll forget it," Verrian reassured her. 

"Do you think you really will, Mr. Verrian?" she asked.  "What is  all our  athletic training to go for if you do?" 

Mrs. Westangle read on: 

"The terms of capitulation can be arranged on the ground, whether  the  castle is carried or the assailing party

are made prisoners by its  defenders." 

"Hopeless captivity in either case!" Bushwick lamented. 

"Isn't it rather academic?" Miss Macroyd asked of Verrian, in a low  voice. 

"I'm afraid, rather," he owned. 

"But why are you so serious?" she pursued. 

"Am I serious?" he retorted, with a trace of exasperation; and she  laughed. 

Their parley was quite lost in the clamor which raged up and down  the  table till Mrs. Westangle ended it by

saying, "There's no  obligation on  any one to take part in the hostilities.  There won't be  any  conscription; it's a

free fight that will be open to everybody."  She  folded the paper she had been reading from and put it in her

lap,  in  default of a pocket.  She went on impromptu: 

"You needn't trouble about building the fort, Mr. Bushwick.  I've  had the  farmer and his men working at the

castle since daybreak, and  the ladies  will find it all ready for them, when they're ready to  defend it, down in

the meadow beyond the edge of the birchlot.  The  battle won't begin till  eleven o'clock." 

She rose, and the clamor rose again with her, and her guests  crushed  about her, demanding to be allowed at

least to go and look at  the castle  immediately. 

One of the men's voices asked, "May I be one of the defenders, Mrs.  Westangle?  I want to be on the winning

side, sure." 

"Oh, is this going to be a circus chariotrace?" another lamented. 

"No, indeed," a girl cried, "it's to be the real thing." 

It fell to Verrian, in the assortment of couples in which Mrs.  Westangle's guests sallied out to view the

proposed scene of action,  to  find himself, not too willingly, at Miss Macroyd's side.  In his  heart  and in his

mind he was defending the amusement which he  instantly divined  as no invention of Mrs. Westangle's, and

both his  heart and his mind  misgave him about this first essay of Miss Shirley  in her new enterprise.  It was,

as Miss Macroyd had suggested,  academic, and at the same time it  had a danger in it of being  tomboyish.

Golf, tennis, riding, boating,  swimmingall the vigorous  sports in which women now excelwere boldly

athletic, and yet you  could not feel quite that they were tomboyish.  Was  it because the  bent of Miss Shirley

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hers?  Inwardly he resented the word academic, although outwardly he had  assented to it when Miss Macroyd

proposed it.  To be academic would be  even more fatal to Miss Shirley's ambition than to be tomboyish, and

he  thought with pathos of that touch about the Italian nobility in the  Middle Ages, and how little it could have

moved the tough fancies of  that  crowd of wellgroomed young people at the breakfasttable when  Mrs.

Westangle brought it out with her ignorant acceptance of it as a  social  force.  After all, Miss Macroyd was

about the only one who  could have  felt it in the way it was meant, and she had chosen to  smile at it.  He

wondered if possibly she could feel the secondary  pathos of it as he did.  But to make talk with her he merely

asked: 

"Do you intend to take part in the fray?" 

"Not unless I can be one of the reserve corps that won't need to be  brought up till it's all over.  I've no idea of

getting my hair down." 

"Ah," he sighed, "you think it's going to be rude:" 

"That is one of the chances.  But you seem to be suffering about  it, Mr.  Verrian!" she said, and, of course, she

laughed. 

"Who?  I?" he returned, in the temptation to deny it.  But he  resisted.  "I always suffer when there's anything

silly happening, as  if I were  doing it myself.  Don't you?" 

"No, thank you, I believe not.  But perhaps you are doing this?  One  can't suppose Mrs. Westangle imagined

it." 

"No, I can't plead guilty.  But why isn't it predicable of Mrs.  Westangle?" 

"You mustn't ask too much of me, Mr. Verrian.  Somehow, I won't say  how,  it's been imagined for her.  She's

heard of its being done  somewhere.  It  can't be supposed she's read of it, anywhere." 

"No, I dare say not." 

Miss Macroyd came out with her laugh.  "I should like to know what  she  makes of you, Mr. Verrian, when

she is alone with herself.  She  must have  looked you up and authenticated you in her own way, but it  would be

as  far from your way aswell, saythe Milky Way." 

"You don't think she asked me because she met me at your house?" 

"No, that wouldn't be enough, from her point of view.  She means to  go  much further than we've ever got." 

"Then a year from now she wouldn't ask me?" 

"It depends upon who asks you in the mean time. 

You might get to be a fad, and then she would feel that she would  have to  have you." 

"You're not flattering me?" 

"Do you find it flattering?" 

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"Well, rather degrading stunts, if you mean in the smart set.  Jump  about  on all fours and pick up a woman's

umbrella with your teeth, and  bark.  Anything else would be easier for you among chic people, where  your

brilliancy would count." 

"Brilliancy?  Oh, thank you!  Go on." 

"Now, a girlif you were a girl" 

"Oh yes, if I were a girl!  That will be so much more interesting." 

"A girl," Miss Macroyd continued, "might do it by posing  effectively for  amateur photography.  Or doing

something original in  dramatics or  pantomimics or recitationbut very original, because  chic people are

critical.  Or if she had a gift for getting up things  that would show  other girls off; or suggesting amusements;

but that  would be rather in  the line of swell people, who are not good at  getting up things and are  glad of

help." 

"I see, I see!" Verrian said, eagerly.  But he walked along looking  down  at the snow, and not meeting the

laughing glance that Miss  Macroyd cast  at his face.  "Well?" 

"I believe that's all," she said, sharply.  She added, less  sharply:  "She couldn't afford to fail, though, at any

point.  The fad  that fails  is extinguished forever.  Will these simple facts do for  fiction?  Or is  it for somebody

in real life you're asking, Mr.  Verrian?" 

"Oh, for fiction.  And thank you very much.  Oh, that's rather  pretty!" 

XIII.

They had come into the meadow where the snow battle was to be, and  on its  slope, against the dark weft of

the young birchtrees, there  was a mimic  castle outlined in the masonry of white blocks quarried  from the

drifts  and built up in courses like rough blocks of marble.  A decoration of  green from the pines that mixed

with the birches had  been suggested  rather than executed, and was perhaps the more  effective for its

sketchiness. 

"Yes, it's really beautiful," Miss Macroyd owned, and though she  did not  join her cries to those of the other

girls, who stood  scattered about  admiring it, and laughing and chattering with the men  whose applause,  of

course, took the jocose form, there was no doubt  but she admired it.  "What I can't understand is how Mrs.

Westangle got  the notion of this.  There's the soprano note in it, and some woman  must have given it to  her." 

"Not contralto, possibly?" Verrian asked. 

"I insist upon the soprano," she said. 

But he did not notice what she said.  His eyes were following a  figure  which seemed to be escaping up

through the birches behind the  snow castle  and ploughing its way through the drifts; in front of the  structure

they  had been levelled to make an easier battlefield.  He  knew that it was  Miss Shirley, and he inferred that

she had been in  the castle directing  the farmhands building it, and now, being  caught by the premature

arrival of the contesting forces, had fled  before them and left her  subordinates to finish the work.  He felt,  with

a throe of helpless  sympathy, that she was undertaking too much.  It was hazardous enough to  attempt the

practice of her novel  profession under the best of  circumstances, but to keep herself in  abeyance so far as not

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with her infirmly established health, into that  wintry weather, and  superintending the preparations for the first

folly  she had planned,  was a risk altogether too great for her. 

Who in the world, "Miss Macroyd suddenly demanded, "is the person  floundering about in the birch woods?" 

"Perhaps the soprano," Verrian returned, hardily. 

Bushwick detached himself from a group of girls near by and  intercepted  any response from Miss Macroyd to

Verrian by calling to  her before he  came up, "Are you going to be one of the enemy, Miss  Macroyd?" 

"No, I think I will be neutral."  She added, "Is there going to be  any  such thing as an umpire?" 

"We hadn't thought of that.  There could be.  The office could be  created; but, you know, it's the post of

danger." 

Verrian joined the group that Bushwick has left.  He found a great  scepticism as to the combat, mixed with

some admiration for the  castle,  and he set himself to contest the prevalent feeling.  What was  the matter  with a

snowfight? he demanded.  It would be great fun.  Decidedly he was  going in for it.  He revived the drooping

sentiment  in its favor, and  then, flown with his success, he went from group to  group and couple to  couple,

and animated all with his zeal, which  came, he hardly knew  whence; what he pretended to the others was that

they were rather bound  not to let Mrs. Westangle's scheme fall  through.  Their doubts vanished  before him,

and the terms of the  battle were quickly arranged.  He said  he had read of one of those  mediaeval

flowerfights, and he could tell  them how that was done.  Where it would not fit into the snowfight, they

could trust to  inspiration; every real battle was the effect of  inspiration. 

He came out, and some of the young women and most of the young men,  who  had dimly known of him as a

sort of celebrity, and suspected him  of being  a prig, were reconciled, and accepted him for a nice fellow,  and

became  of his opinion as to the details of the amusement before  them. 

It was not very Homeric, when it came off, or very mediaeval, but  it was  really lots of fun, or far more fun

than one would have  thought.  The  storming of the castle was very sincere, and the  fortress was honestly

defended.  Miss Macroyd was made umpire, as she  wished, and provided with  a large snowball to sit on at a

safe  distance; as she was chosen by the  men, the girls wanted to have an  umpire of their own, who would be

really  fair, and they voted Verrian  into the office.  But he refused, partly  because he did not care about  being

paired off with Miss Macroyd so  conspicuously, and partly  because he wished to help the fight along. 

Attacks were made and repelled, and there were feats of individual  and  collective daring on the side of the

defenders which were none the  less  daring because the assailants stopped to cheer them, and to  disable

themselves by laughing at the fury of the foe.  A detachment  of the young  men at last stormed the castle and

so weakened its walls  that they  toppled inward; then the defenders, to save themselves from  being buried

under the avalanche, swarmed out into the open and made  the entire force  of the enemy prisoners. 

The men pretended that this was what might have been expected from  the  beginning, but by this time the

Berserker madness had possessed  Miss  Macroyd, too; she left her throne of snow and came forward  shouting

that  it had been perfectly fair, and that the men had been  really beaten, and  they had no right to pretend that

they had given  themselves up purposely.  The sexpartisanship, which is such a droll  fact in women when

there is  any question of their general opposition  to men, possessed them all, and  they stood as, one girl for the

reality of their triumph.  This did not  prevent them from declaring  that the men had behaved with outrageous

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Neither their unity of conviction concerning the general fact nor  the  surprising deduction from it in Verrian's

case operated to make  them  refuse the help of their captives in getting home.  When they had  bound  up their

tumbled hair, in some cases, and repaired the ravages  of war  among their feathers and furs and draperies, in

other cases,  they  accepted the hands of the late enemy  at difficult points of the  path.  But they ran forward

when they neared the house, and they were  prompt to  scream upon Mrs. Westangle that there never had been

such a  success or  such fun, and that they were almost dead, and soon as they  had something  to eat they were

going to bed and never going to get up  again. 

In the details which they were able to give at luncheon, they did  justice to Verrian's noble part in the whole

affair, which had saved  the  day, not only in keeping them up to the work when they had got  thinking  it

couldn't be carried through, but in giving the combat a  validity which  it would not have had without him.

They had to thank  him, next to Mrs.  Westangle herself, whom they praised beyond any  articulate expression,

for thinking up such a delightful thing.  They  wondered how she could  ever have thought of itsuch a simple

thing  too; and they were sure that  when people heard of it they would all be  wanting to have snow battles. 

Mrs. Westangle took her praises as passively, if not as modestly,  as  Verrian received his.  She made no show

of disclaiming them, but  she had  the art, invaluable in a woman who meant to go far in the line  she had

chosen, of not seeming to have done anything, or of not caring  whether  people liked it or not.  Verrian asked

himself, as he watched  her  twittering back at those girls, and shedding equally their thanks  and  praises from

her impermeable plumage, how she would have behaved  if Miss  Shirley's attempt had been an entire failure.

He decided that  she would  have ignored the failure with the same impersonality as that  with which  she now

ignored the success.  It appeared that in one point  he did her  injustice, for when he went up to dress for dinner

after  the long stroll  he took towards night he found a note under his door,  by which he must  infer that Mrs.

Westangle had not kept the real facts  of her triumph from  the mistress of the revels. 

          "DEAR MR. VERRIAN, I am not likely to see you, but I must

          thank you.

                                        M. SHIRLEY.

          "P. S.  Don't try to answer, please."

Verrian liked, the note, he even liked the impulse which had  dictated it,  and he understood the impulse; but

he did not like  getting the note.  If  Miss Shirley meant business in taking up the  line of life she had  professed

to have entered upon seriously, she had  better, in the case of  a young man whose acquaintance she had

chanced  to make, let her gratitude  wait.  But when did a woman ever mean  business, except in the one great

business? 

XIV.

To have got that sillily superfluous note to Verrian without any  one's  knowing besides, Miss Shirley must

have stolen to his door  herself and  slipped it under.  In order to do this unsuspected and  unseen, she must  have

found out in some sort that would not give her  away which his room  was, and then watched her chance.  It all

argued a  pervasiveness in her,  after such a brief sojourn in the house, and a  mastery of finesse that he  did not

like, though, he reflected, he was  not authorized to like or  dislike anything about her.  He was  thirtyseven

years old, and he had  not lived through that time, with  his mother at his elbow to suggest  inferences from

facts, without  being versed in wiles which, even when  they were honest, were always  wiles, and in lures

which, when they were  of the most gossamer  tenuity, were yet of texture close enough to make  the man who

blundered through them aware that they had been thrown across  his  path.  He understood, of course, that they

were sometimes helplessly  thrown across it, and were mere expressions of abstract woman with  relation to

abstract man, but that did not change their nature.  He  did  not abhor them, but he believed he knew them, and

he believed now  that he  detected one of them in Miss Shirley's note.  Of course, one  could take  another view

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accident to bring them  together in a place where she was merely a part  of the catering, as she  said, and he was

a guest, and that she was  excusable, or at least  mercifully explicable, in her wish to have him  know that she

appreciated  his goodness.  Verrian had been very good,  he knew that; he had saved the  day for the poor thing

when it was in  danger of the dreariest kind of  slump.  She was a poor thing, as any  woman was who had to

make her own  way, and she had been sick and was  charming.  Besides, she had found out  his name and had

probably  recognized a quality of celebrity in it,  unknown to the other young  people with whom he found

himself so strangely  assorted under Mrs.  Westangle's roof. 

In the end, and upon the whole, Verrian would rather have liked, if  the  thing could have been made to

happen, meeting Miss Shirley long  enough to  disclaim meriting her thanks, and to ascribe to the  intrinsic

value of  her scheme the brilliant success it had achieved.  This would not have  been true, but it would have

been encouraging to  her; and in the revery  which followed upon his conditional desire he  had a long

imaginary  conversation with her, and discussed all her  other plans for the revels  of the week.  These had not

the trouble of  defining themselves very  distinctly in the conversation in order to  win his applause, and their

consideration did not carry him with Miss  Shirley beyond the strictly  professional ground on which they met. 

She had apparently invented nothing for that evening, and the house  party  was left to its own resources in

dancing and sitting out dances,  which  apparently fully sufficed it.  They were all tired, and broke up  early.

The women took their candles and went off to bed, and the men  went to the  billiardroom to smoke.  On the

way down from his room,  where he had gone  to put on his smokingjacket, Verrian met Miss  Macroyd

coming up, candle  in hand, and received from her a tacit  intimation that he might stop her  for a joking

goodnight. 

"I hope you'll sleep well on your laurels as umpire," he said. 

"Oh, thank you," she returned, "and I hope your laurels won't keep  you  awake.  It must seem to you as if it

was blowing a perfect gale in  them." 

"What do you mean?  I did nothing." 

"Oh, I don't mean your promotion of the snow battle.  But haven't  you  heard?" He stared.  "You've been found

out!" 

"Found out?"  Verrian's soul was filled with the joy of literary  fame. 

"Yes.  You can't conceal yourself now.  You're Verrian the actor." 

"The actor?"  Verrian frowned blackly in his disgust, so blackly  that  Miss Macroyd laughed aloud. 

"Yes, the coming matinee idol.  One of the girls recognized you as  soon  as you came into the house, and the

name settled it, though, of  course,  you're supposed to be here incognito." 

The mention of that name which he enjoyed in common with the actor  made  Verrian furious, for when the

actor first appeared with it in New  York  Verrian had been at the pains to find out that it was not his  real

name,  and that he had merely taken it because of the weak quality  of romance in  it, which Verrian himself

had always disliked.  But, of  course, he could  not vent his fury on Miss Macroyd.  All he could do  was to ask,

"Then  they have got my photograph on their  dressingtables, with candles  burning before it?" 

"No, I don't believe I can give you that comfort.  The fact is,  your  acting is not much admired among the girls

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"That's something.  And does Mrs. Westangle think I'm the actor,  too?" 

"How should Mrs. Westangle know what she thinks?  And if she  doesn't, how  should I?" 

"That's true.  And are you going to give me away?" 

"I haven't done it yet.  But isn't it best to be honest?" 

"It mightn't be a success." 

"The honesty?" 

"My literary celebrity." 

"There's that," Miss Macroyd rejoiced.  "Well, so far I've merely  said I  was sure you were not Verrian the

actor.  I'll think the other  part  over."  She went on upstairs, with the sound of her laugh  following her,  and

Verrian went gloomily back to the billiardroom,  where he found most  of the smokers conspicuously

yawning.  He lighted  a fresh cigar, and  while he smoked they dropped away one by one till  only Bushwick

was left. 

"Some of the fellows are going Thursday," he said.  "Are you going  to  stick it out to the bitter end?" 

Till then it had not occurred to Verrian that he was not going to  stay  through the week, but now he said, "I

don't know but I may go  Thursday.  Shall you?" 

"I might as well stay on.  I don't find much doing in real estate  at  Christmas.  Do you?" 

This was fishing, but it was better than openly taking him for that  actor, and Verrian answered, unresentfully,

"I don't know.  I'm not in  that line exactly." 

"Oh, I beg your pardon," Bushwick said.  "I thought I had seen your  name  with that of a West Side concern." 

"No, I have a sort of outside connection with the publishing  business." 

"Oh," Bushwick returned, politely, and it would have been  reassuringly if  Verrian had wished not to be

known as an author.  The  secret in which he  lived in that regard was apparently safe from that  young, amiable,

good  looking realestate broker.  He inferred, from  the absence of any  allusion to the superstition of the

women as to his  profession, that it  had not spread to Bushwick at least, and this  inclined him the more to  like

him.  They sat up talking pleasantly  together about impersonal  affairs till Bushwick finished his cigar.  Then

he started for bed,  saying, "Well, goodnight.  I hope Mrs.  Westangle won't have anything so  active on the

tapis for tomorrow." 

"Try and sleep it off.  Goodnight." 

XV.

Verrian remained to finish his cigar, but at the end he was not yet  sleepy, and he thought he would get a book

from the library, if that  part  of the house were still lighted, and he looked out to see.  Apparently it  was as

brilliantly illuminated as when the company had  separated there  for the night, and he pushed across the foyer

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in the depths of the library,  relieved against the rows of  books in their glass cases, he startled  Miss Shirley

from a pose which  she seemed to be taking there alone. 

At the instant of their mutual recognition she gave a little muted  shriek, and then gasped out, "I beg your

pardon," while he was saying,  too, "I beg your pardon." 

After a tacit exchange of forgiveness, he said, "I am afraid I  startled  you.  I was just coming for a book to read

myself asleep  with.  I" 

"Not at all," she returned.  "I was just"  Then she did not say  what,  and he asked: 

"Making some studies?" 

"Yes," she owned, with reluctant promptness. 

"I mustn't ask what," he suggested, and he made an effort to smile  away  what seemed a painful perturbation

in her as he went forward to  look at  the bookshelves, from which, till then, she had not slipped  aside. 

"I'm in your way," she said, and he answered, "Not at all."  He  added to  the other sentence he had spoken, "If

it's going to be as  good as what  you gave us today" 

"You are very kind."  She hesitated, and then she said, abruptly:  "What I  did today owed everything to you,

Mr. Verrian," and while he  desisted  from searching the bookshelves, she stood looking anxiously  at him,

with  the pulse in her neck visibly throbbing.  Her agitation  was really  painful, but Verrian did not attribute it

to her finding  herself there  alone with him at midnight; for though the other guests  had all gone to  bed, the

house was awake in some of the servants, and  an elderly woman  came in presently bringing a breadth of

silvery  gauze, which she held up,  asking if it was that. 

"Not exactly, but it will do nicely, Mrs. Stager.  Would you mind  getting  me the very paleblue piece that

electric blue?" 

"I'm looking for something good and dull," Verrian said, when the  woman  was gone. 

"Travels are good, or narratives, for sleeping on," she said, with  a  breathless effort for calm.  "I found," she

panted, "in my own  insomnia,  that merely the brokenup look of a page of dialogue in a  novel racked my

nerves so that I couldn't sleep.  But narratives were  beautifully  soothing." 

"Thank you," he responded; "that's a good idea."  And stooping,  with his  hands on his knees, he ranged back

and forth along the  shelves.  "But  Mrs. Westangle's library doesn't seem to be very rich  in narrative." 

He had not his mind on the search perhaps, and perhaps she knew it.  She  presently said, "I wish I dared ask

you a favorI mean your  advice, Mr.  Verrian." 

He lifted himself from his stooping posture and looked at her,  smiling.  "Would that take much courage?" His

smile was a little  mocking; he was  thinking that a girl who would hurry that note to him,  and would

personally see that it did not fail to reach him, would have  the courage  for much more. 

She did not reply directly.  "I should have to explain, but I know  you  won't tell.  This is going to be my piece

de resistance, my grand  stunt.  I'm going to bring it off the last night."  She stopped long  enough for  Verrian to

revise his resolution of going away with the  fellows who were  leaving the middle of the week, and to decide

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"That's good," Verrian said, provisionally. 

"Yes, I might say I was surprised at my thinking it up." 

"That would be one form of modesty." 

"Yes," she said, with a wan smile she had, "and then again it  mightn't be  another."  She went on, abruptly, "As

many as like can  take part in the  performance.  It's to be given out, and distinctly  understood beforehand,  that

the ghost isn't a veridical phantom, but  just an honest, madeup,  everyday spook.  It may change its pose

from  time to time, or its  drapery, but the setting is to be always the  same, and the people who  take their turns

in seeing it are to be  explicitly reassured, one after  another, that there's nothing in it,  you know.  The fun will

be in seeing  how each one takes it, after they  know what it really is." 

"Then you're going to give us a study of temperaments." 

"Yes," she assented.  And after a moment, given to letting the  notion get  quite home with her, she asked,

vividly, "Would you let me  use it?" 

"The phrase?  Why, certainly.  But wouldn't it be rather too  psychological?  I think just Seeing Ghosts would be

better." 

"Better than Seeing Ghosts: A Study of Temperaments?  Perhaps it  would.  It would be simpler." 

"And in this house you need all the simplicity you can get," he  suggested. 

She smiled, intelligently but reticently.  "My idea is that every  one  somehow really believes in ghostsI

know I doand so fully  expects to  see one that any sort of makeup will affect them for the  moment just as

if they did see one.  I thoughtthat perhapsI don't  know how to say it  without seeming to make use of

you" 

"Oh, do make use of me, Miss Shirley!" 

"That you could give me some hints about the setting, with your  knowledge  of the stage" She stopped,

having rushed forward to that  point, while  he continued to look steadily at her without answering  her.  She

faced  him courageously, but not convincingly. 

"Did you think that I was an actor?" he asked, finally. 

"Mrs. Westangle seemed to think you were." 

"But did you?" 

"I'm sure I didn't meanI beg your pardon" 

"It's all right.  If I were an actor I shouldn't be ashamed of it.  But I  was merely curious to know whether you

shared the prevalent  superstition.  I'm afraid I can't help you from a knowledge of the  stage, but if I can  be of

use, from a sort of amateur interest in  psychology, with an affair  like this I shall be only too glad." 

"Thank you," she said, somewhat faintly, with an effect of dismay  disproportionate to the occasion. 

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He started towards her with an alarmed "Miss Shirley. 

She put out a hand weakly to stay him.  "Don't!" she entreated.  "I'm a littleI shall be all right in a moment." 

"Can't I get you somethingcall some one?" 

"Not for the world!" she commanded, and she pulled herself together  and  stood up.  "But I think I'll stop for

tonight.  I'm glad my idea  strikes  you favorably.  It's merely Oh, you found it, Mrs. Stager!"  She broke  off

to address the woman who had now come back and was  holding up the  trailing breadths of the electricblue

gauze.  "Isn't  it lovely?"  She gave herself time to adore the drapery, with its  changes of meteoric  lucence,

before she rose and took it.  She went  with it to the background  in the library, where, against the glass  door of

the cases, she involved  herself in it and stood shimmering.  A  thrill pierced to Verrian's heart;  she was indeed

wraithlike, so that  he hated to have her call, "How will  that do ?" 

Mrs. Stager modestly referred the question to him by her silence.  "I will answer for its doing, if it does for the

others as it's done  for  me." 

She laughed.  "And you doubly knew what it was.  Yes, I think it  will  go."  She took another pose, and then

another.  "What do you  think of it,  Mrs. Stager?" she called to the woman standing  respectfully abeyant at  one

side. 

"It's awful.  I don't know but I'll be afraid to go to my room." 

"Sit down, and I'll go to your room with you when I'm through.  I  won't  be long, now." 

She tried different gauzes, which she had lying on one of the  chairs, and  crowned herself with triumph in the

applauses of her two  spectators,  rejoicing with a glee that Verrian found childlike and  winning.  "If they're all

like you, it will be the greatest success!" 

"They'll all be like me, and more," he said, "I'm really very  severe." 

"Are you a severe person?" she asked, coming forward to him.  "Ought  people to be afraid of you?" 

"Yes, people with bad consciences.  I'm rattier afraid of myself  for that  reason." 

"Have you got a bad conscience?" she asked, letting her eyes rest  on his. 

"Yes.  I can't make my conduct square with my ideal of conduct." 

"I know what that is!" she sighed.  "Do you expect to be punished  for  it?" 

"I expect to be got even with." 

"Yes, one is.  I've noticed that myself.  But I didn't suppose that  actors Oh, I forgot!  I beg your pardon

again, Mr. Verrian.  Oh  Goodnight!"  She faced him evanescently in going out, with the woman  after her,

but, whether she did so more in fear or more in defiance,  she  left him standing motionless in his doubt, and

she did nothing to  solve  his doubt when she came quickly back alone, before he was aware  of having  moved,

to say, "Mr. Verrian, I want toI have totell you  that  I didn't think you were the actor."  Then she was

finally gone,  and  Verrian had nothing for it but to go up to his room with the book  he  found he had in his

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If he had read it, the book would not have eased him off to sleep,  but he  did not even try, to read it.  He had no

wish to sleep.  The  waking dream  in which he lost himself was more interesting than any  vision of slumber

could have been, and he had no desire to end it.  In  that he could still  be talking with the girl whose mystery

appealed to  him so pleasingly.  It was none the less pleasing because, at what  might be called her first  blushes,

she did not strike him as  altogether ingenuous, but only able to  discipline herself into a final  sincerity from a

consciousness which had  been taught wisdom by  experience. 

She was still a scarcely recovered invalid, and it was pathetic  that she  should be commencing the struggle of

life with strength so  little  proportioned to the demand upon it; and the calling she had  taken up was  of a

fantasticality in some aspects which was equally  pathetic.  But all  the undertakings of women, he mused, were

piteous,  not only because women  were unequal to the struggle at the best, but  because they were hampered

always with themselves, with their sex,  their femininity, and the  necessity of getting it out of the way  before

they could really begin to  fight.  Whatever they attempted it  must be in relation to the man's world  in which

livings were made; but  the immemorial conditions were almost  wholly unchanged.  A woman  approached this

world as a woman, with the  inborn instinct of tempting  it as a woman, to win it to love her and make  her a

wife and mother;  and although she might stoically overcome the  temptation at last, it  might recur at any

moment and overcome her.  This  was perpetually  weakening and imperilling her, and she must feel it at  the

encounter  with each man she met.  She must feel the tacit and even  unconscious  irony of his attitude towards

her in her enterprise, and the  finer her  make the crueller and the more humiliating and disheartening  this must

be. 

Of course, this Miss Shirley felt Verrian's irony, which he had  guarded  from any expression with genuine

compassion for her.  She must  feel that  to his knowledge of life she and her experiment had an  absurdity

which  would not pass, whatever their success might be.  If  she meant business,  and business only, they ought

to have met as two  men would have met, but  he knew that they had not done so, and she  must have known it.

All that  was plain sailing enough, but beyond  this lay a sea of conjecture in  which he found himself without

helm or  compass.  Why, should she have  acted a fib about his being an actor,  and why, after the end, should

she  have added an end, in which she  returned to own that she had been  fibbing?  For that was what it came  to;

and though Verrian tasted a  delicious pleasure in the womanish  feat by which she overcame her

womanishness, he could not puzzle out  her motive.  He was not sure that  he wished to puzzle it out.  To  remain

with illimitable guesses at his  choice was more agreeable, for  the present at least, and he was not aware  of

having lapsed from them  when he woke so late as to be one of the  breakfasters whose plates  were kept for

them after the others were gone. 

XVI.

It was the first time that Verrian had come down late, and it was  his  novel experience to find himself in

charge of Mrs. Stager at  breakfast,  instead of the butler and the butler's man, who had  hitherto served him  at

the earlier hour.  There were others, somewhat  remote from him, at  table, who were ending when he was

beginning, and  when they had joked  themselves out of the room and away from Mrs.  Stager's ministrations

he  was left alone to her.  He had instantly  appreciated a quality of  motherliness in her attitude towards him,

and  now he was sensible of a  kindly intimacy to which he rather helplessly  addressed himself. 

"Well, Mrs. Stager, did you see a ghost on your way to bed?" 

"I don't know as I really expected to," she said.  "Won't you have  a few  more of the buckwheats?" 

"Do you think I'd better?  I believe I won't.  They're very  tempting.  Miss Shirley makes a very good ghost," he

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Mrs. Stager would not at first commit herself further than to say  in  bringing him the butter, "She's just up

from a long fit of  sickness."  She impulsively added, "She ain't hardly strong enough to  be doing what  she is, I

tell her." 

"I understood she had been ill," Verrian said.  "We drove over from  the  station together, the other day." 

"Yes," Mrs. Stager admitted.  "Kind of a nervous breakdown, I  believe.  But she's got an awful spirit.  Mrs.

Westangle don't want her  to do all  she is doing." 

Verrian looked at her in surprise.  He had not expected that of the  Indiarubber nature he had attributed to

Mrs. Westangle.  In view of  Mrs.  Stager's privity to the unimagined kindliness of his hostess, he  relaxed

himself in a further interest in Miss Shirley, as if it would  now be  safe.  "She's done splendidly, so far," he

said, meaning the  girl.  "I'm glad Mrs. Westangle appreciates her work." 

"I guess," Mrs. Stager said, "that if it hadn't been for you at the  snow  fight She got back from getting

ready for it, that morning,  almost down  sick, she was afraid so it was going to fail." 

"I didn't do anything," Verrian said, putting the praise from him. 

Mrs. Stager lowered her voice in an octave of deeper  confidentiability.  "You got the note?  I put it under, and

I didn't  know." 

"Oh yes, I got it," Verrian said, sensible of a relief, which he  would  not assign to any definite reason, in

knowing that Miss Shirley  had not  herself put it under his door.  But he now had to take up  another burden  in

the question whether Miss Shirley were of an origin  so much above that  of her confidant that she could have

a patrician  fearlessness in making  use of her, or were so near Mrs. Stager's level  of life that she would

naturally turn to her for counsel and help.  Miss Shirley had the accent,  the manners, and the frank courage of

a  lady; but those things could be  learned; they were got up for the  stage every day. 

Verrian was roused from the muse he found he had fallen into by  hearing  Mrs. Stager ask, "Won't you have

some more coffee?" 

"No, thank you," he said.  And now he rose from the table, on which  he  dreamily dropped his napkin, and got

his hat and coat and went out  for a  walk.  He had not studied the art of fiction so long, in the  many private

failures that had preceded his one public success,  without being made to  observe that life sometimes dealt in

the  accidents and coincidences which  his criticism condemned as too  habitually the resource of the novelist.

Hitherto he had disdained  them for this reason; but since his serial  story was off his hands,  and he was

beginning to look about him for fresh  material, he had  doubted more than once whether his severity was not

the  effect of an  unjustifiable prejudice. 

It struck him now, in turning the corner of the woodlot above the  meadow  where the snowbattle had taken

place, and suddenly finding  himself face  to face with Miss Shirley, that nature was in one of her  uninventive

moods and was helping herself out from the old  stockintrade of fiction.  All the same, he felt a glow of

pleasure,  which was also a glow of pity;  for while Miss Shirley looked, as  always, interesting, she look tired,

too, with a sort of desperate air  which did not otherwise account for  itself.  She had given, at sight  of him, a

little start, and a little  "Oh!" dropped from her lips, as  if it had been jostled from them.  She  made haste to go

on, with  something like the voluntary hardiness of the  courage that plucks  itself from the primary emotion of

fear, "You are  going down to try  the skating?" 

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"You may be going to try the sliding," she returned.  "I'm afraid  there  won't be much of either for long.  This

soft air is going to  make havoc  of my plans for tomorrow." 

"That's too bad of it.  Why not hope for a hard freeze tonight?  You  might as well.  The weather has been

known to change its mind.  You might  even change your plans." 

"No, I can't do that.  I can't think of anything else.  It's to  bridge  over the day that's left before Seeing Ghosts.  If

it does  freeze, you'll  come to Mrs. Westangle's afternoon tea on the pond?" 

"I certainly shall.  How is it to be worked?" 

"She's to have her table on a platform, with runners, in a bower of  evergreen boughs, and be pushed about,

and the people are to skate up  for  the tea.  There are to be tea and chocolate, and two girls to  pour, just  as in

real life.  It isn't a very dazzling idea, but I  thought it might  do; and Mrs. Westangle is so goodnatured.  Now,

if  the thermometer will  do its part!" 

"I am sure it will," Verrian said, but a glance at the gray sky did  not  confirm him in his prophetic venture.

The snow was sodden under  foot; a  breath from the south stirred the pines to an Aeolian response  and moved

the stiff, dry leaves of the scruboaks.  A sapsucker was  marking an  accurate circle of dots round the throat of

a tall young  maple, and  enjoying his work in a low, guttural soliloquy, seemingly,  yet,  dismayingly,

suggestive of spring. 

"It's lovely, anyway," she said, following his glance with an  upward turn  of her face. 

"Yes, it's beautiful.  I think this sort of winter day is about the  best  the whole year can do.  But I will sacrifice

the chance of  another like  it to your skatingtea, Miss Shirley." 

He did not know why he should have made this speech to her, but  apparently she did, and she said, "You're

always coming to my help,  Mr.  Verrian." 

"Don't mention it!" 

"I won't, then," she said, with a smile that showed her thin face  at its  thinnest and left her lip caught on her

teeth till she brought  it down  voluntarily.  It was a small but full lip and pretty, and this  trick of  it had a

fascination.  She added, gravely, "I don't believe  you will like  my icetea." 

"I haven't any active hostility to it.  You can't always be  striking  twelvetwelve midnightas you will be in

Seeing Ghosts.  But your ice  tea will do very well for striking five.  I'm rather  elaborate!" 

"Not too elaborate to hide your real opinion.  I wonder what you do  think  of my own elaborationI mean of

my scheme." 

"Yes?" 

They had moved on, at his turning to walk with her, so as not to  keep her  standing in the snow, and now she

said, looking over her  shoulder at him,  "I've decided that it won't do to let the ghost have  all the glory.  I  don't

think it will be fair to let the people merely  be scared, even when  they've been warned that they're to see a

ghost  and told it isn't real." 

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"They can ask questions.  I'm going to let each person speak to the  ghost, if not scared dumb, and ask it just

what they please; and I'm  going to answer their questions if I can." 

"Won't it be something of an intellectual strain?" 

"Yes, it will.  But it will be fun, too, a little, and it will help  the  thing to go off.  What do you think?" 

"I think it's fine.  Are you going to give it out, so that they can  be  studying up their questions?" 

"No, their questions have got to be impromptu.  Or, at least, the  first  one has.  Of course, after the scheme has

once been given away,  the  ghostseers will be more or less prepared, and the ghost will have  to  stand it." 

"I think it's great.  Are you going to let me have a chance with a  question?" 

"Are you going to see a ghost?" 

"To be sure I am.  May I really ask it what I please?" 

"If you're honest." 

"Oh, I shall be honest" 

He stopped breathlessly, but she did not seem called upon to supply  any  meaning for his abruptness.  "I'm

awfully glad you like the idea,"  she  said, "I have had to think the whole thing out for myself, and I  haven't

been quite certain that the questionasking wasn't rather  silly, or, at  least, sillier than the rest.  Thank you so

much, Mr.  Verrian." 

"I've thought of my question," he began again, as abruptly as he  had  stopped before.  "May I ask it now?" 

Cries of laughter came up from the meadow below, and the voices  seemed  coming nearer. 

"Oh, I mustn't be seen!" Miss Shirley lamented.  "Oh, dear!  If I'm  seen  the whole thing is given away.  What

shall I do?" She whirled  about and  ran down the road towards a path that entered the wood. 

He ran after her.  "My question is, May I come to see you when you  get  back to town?" 

"Yes, certainly.  But don't come now!  You mustn't be seen with me!  I'm  not supposed to be in the house at

all." 

If Verrian's present mood had been more analytic, it might have  occurred  to him that the element of mystery

which Miss Shirley seemed  to cherish  in regard to herself personally was something that she  could

dramatically  apply with peculiar advantage to the phantasmal  part she was to take in  her projected

entertainment.  But he was  reduced from the exercise of his  analytic powers to a passivity in  which he was

chiefly conscious of her  pathetic fascination.  This  seemed to emanate from her frail prettiness  no less than

from the sort  of fearful daring with which she was pushing  her whole enterprise  through; it came as much

from her undecided  blondnessfrom her  dustcolored hair, for instanceas from the  entreating look of her

pinched eyes, only just lighting their  convalescent fires, and from  the weakness that showed, with the grace,

in her run through the  wintry woods, where he watched her till the  underbrush thickened  behind her and hid

her from him.  Altogether his  impression was very  complex, but he did not get so far even as the  realization of

this, in  his mental turmoil, as he turned with a deep sigh  and walked  meditatively homeward through the

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It did not rain at night, as it seemed so likely to do, and by  morning  the cloudiness of the sky had so far

thinned that the sun  looked mildly  through it without more than softening the frozen  surface of the pond,  so

that Mrs. Westangle's icetea (as everybody  called it, by a common  inspiration, or by whatever circuitous

adoption  of Verrian's phrase) came  off with great success.  People from other  houses were there, and they  all

said that they wondered how she came  to have such a brilliant idea,  and they kept her there till nearly  dark.

Then the retarded rain began,  in a fine drizzle, and her house  guests were forced homeward, but not too  soon

to get a good, long rest  before dressing for dinner.  She was  praised for her understanding  with the weather,

and for her  meteorological forecast as much as for  her invention in imagining such a  delightful and original

thing as an  icetea, which no one else had ever  thought of.  Some of the women  appealed to Verrian to say if

he had ever  heard of anything like it;  and they felt that Mrs. Westangle was  certainly arriving, and by no

beaten track. 

None of the others put it in these terms, of course; it was merely  a  consensus of feeling with them, and what

was more articulate was  dropped  among the ironies with which Miss Macroyd more confidentially  celebrated

the event.  Out of hearing of the others, in slowly  following them with  Verrian, she recurred to their talk.

"Yes, it's  only a question of money  enough for Newport, after this.  She's chic  now, and after a season there

she will be smart.  But oh, dear!  How  came she to be chic?  Can you  imagine?" 

Verrian did not feel bound to a categorical answer, and in his  private  reflections he dealt with another

question.  This was how far  Miss  Shirley was culpable in the fraud she was letting Mrs. Westangle  practise  on

her innocent guests.  It was a distasteful question, and  he did not  find it much more agreeable when it

subdivided itself into  the question  of necessity on her part, and of a not very clearly  realized situation on  Mrs.

Westangle's.  The girl had a right to sell  her ideas, and perhaps  the woman thought they were her own when

she  had paid for them.  There  could be that view of it all.  The furtive  nature of Miss Shirley's  presence in the

house might very well be a  condition of that grand event  she was preparing.  It was all very  mysterious. 

XVII.

It rained throughout the evening, with a wailing of the wind in the  gables, and a weeping and a sobbing of the

water from the eaves that  Mrs.  Westangle's guests, securely housed from the storm, made the most  of for

weirdness.  There had been a little dancing, which gave way to  so much  sittingout that the volunteer music

abruptly ceased as if in  dudgeon,  and there was nothing left but weirdness to bring young  hearts together.

Weirdness can do a good deal with girls lounging in  low chairs, and young  men on rugs round a glowing

hearth at their  feet; and every one told some  strange thing that had happened at first  hand, or second or third

hand,  either to himself or herself, or to  their fathers or brothers or  grandmothers or old servants.  They were

stimulated in eking out these  experiences not only by the wildness of  the rain without, but by the  mystery of

being shut off from the  library into the drawingroom and hall  while the preparations for the  following night

were beginning.  But  weirdness is not inexhaustible,  even when shared on such propitious terms  between a

group of young  people rapidly advanced in intimacy by a week's  stay under the same  roof, and at the first

yawn a gay dispersion of the  votaries ended it  all. 

The yawn came from Bushwick, who boldly owned, when his guilt was  brought  home to him, that he was

sleepy, and then as he expected to be  scared out  of a year's growth the next night, and not be able to sleep  for

a week  afterwards, he was now going to bed.  He shook hands with  Mrs. Westangle  for goodnight.  The latest

to follow him was Verrian,  who, strangely  alert, and as far from drowsiness as he had ever known  himself,

was yet  more roused by realizing that Mrs. Westangle was not  letting his hand go  at once, but, unless it was

mere  absentmindedness, was conveying through  it the wish to keep him.  She  fluttered a little more closely

up to him,  and twittered out, "Miss  Shirley wants me to let you know that she has  told me about your  coming

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"Oh, I'm very glad," Verrian said, not sure that it was the right  thing. 

"I don't know why she feels so, but she has a right to do as she  pleases  about it.  She's not a guest." 

"No," Verrian assented. 

"It happens very well, though, for the ghostseeing that people  don't  know she's here.  After that I shall tell

them.  In fact, she  wants me  to, for she must be on the lookout for other engagements.  I  am going to  do

everything I can for her, and if you hear of  anything" 

Verrian bowed, with a sense of something offensive in her words  which he  could not logically feel, since it

was a matter of business  and was put  squarely on a business basis.  "I should be very glad," he  said,

noncommittally. 

"She was sure from the first," Mrs. Westangle went on, as if there  were  some relation between the fact and

her request, "that you were  not the  actor.  She knew you were a writer." 

"Oh, indeed!" Verrian said. 

"I thought that if you were writing for the newspapers you might  know how  to help her" 

"I'm not a newspaper writer," Verrian answered, with a resentment  which  she seemed to feel, for she said,

with a sort of apology in her  tone: 

"Oh!  Well, I don't suppose it matters.  She doesn't know I'm  speaking to  you about that; it just came into my

head.  I like to help  in a worthy  object, you know.  I hope you'll have a good night's  rest." 

She turned and looked round with the air of distraction which she  had  after speaking to any one, and which

Verrian fancied came as much  from a  paucity as from a multiplicity of suggestion in her brain, and  so left

him standing.  But she came back to say, "Of course, it's all  between  ourselves till after tomorrow night, Mr.

Verrian." 

"Oh, certainly," he replied, and went vaguely off in the direction  of the  billiardroom.  It was light and warm

there, though the place  was empty,  and he decided upon a cigar as a proximate or immediate  solution.  He sat

smoking before the fire till the tobacco's substance  had half turned into  a wraith of ash, and not really

thinking of  anything very definitely,  except the question whether he should be  able to sleep after he went to

bed, when he heard a creeping step on  the floor.  He turned quickly, with  a certain expectance in his  nerves,

and saw nothing more ghostly than  Bushwick standing at the  corner of the table and apparently hesitating

how to speak to him. 

He said, "Hello!" and at this Bushwick said: 

"Look here!" 

"Well?" Verrian asked, looking at him. 

"How does it happen you're up so late, after everybody else is  wrapped in  slumber?" 

"I might ask the same of you." 

"Well, I found I wasn't making it a case of sleep, exactly, and so  I got  up." 


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"Well, I hadn't gone to bed for much the same reason.  Why couldn't  you  sleep?  A realestate broker ought to

have a clean conscience." 

"So ought a publisher, for that matter.  What do you think of this  ghost  dance, anyway?" 

"It might be amusingif it fails."  Verrian was tempted to add the  condition by the opportunity for a

cynicism which he did not feel.  It  is  one of the privileges of youth to be cynical, whether or no. 

Bushwick sat down before the fire and rubbed his shins with his two  hands  unrestfully, drawing in a long

breath between his teeth.  "These  things  get on to my nerves sometimes.  I shouldn't want the  ghostdance to

fail." 

"On Mrs. Westangle's account?" 

"I guess Mrs. Westangle could stand it.  Look here!" It was rather  a  customary phrase of his, Verrian noted.

As he now used it he looked  alertly round at Verrian, with his hands still on his shins.  "What's  the  use of our

beating round the bush?" 

Verrian delayed his answer long enough to decide against the  aimless pun  of asking, "What Bushwick?" and

merely asked, "What bush?" 

"The bush where the milk in the cocoanut grows.  You don't pretend  that  you believe Mrs. Westangle has

been getting up all these fairy  stunts?" 

Verrian returned to his cigar, from which the ashen wraith dropped  into  his lap.  "I guess you'll have to be a

little clearer."  But as  Bushwick  continued silently looking at him, the thing could not be  left at this  point, and

he was obliged to ask of his own initiative,  "How much do you  know?" 

Bushwick leaned back in his chair, with his eyes still on Verrian's  profile.  "As much as Miss Macroyd could

tell me." 

"Ah, I'm still in the dark," Verrian politely regretted, but not  with a  tacit wish to wring Miss Macroyd's neck,

which he would not  have known  how to account for. 

"Well, she says that Mrs. Westangle has a professional assistant  who's  doing the whole job for her, and that

she came down on the same  train  with herself and you." 

"Did she say that she grabbed the whole victoria for herself and  maid at  the station?" Verrian demanded, in a

burst of rage, "and left  us to get  here the best way we could?" 

Bushwick grinned.  "She supposed there were other carriages, and  when she  found there weren't she hurried

the victoria back for you." 

"You think she believes all that?  I'm glad she has the decency to  be  ashamed of her behavior." 

"I'm not defending her.  Miss Macroyd knows how to take care of  herself." 

The matter rather dropped for the moment, in which Bushwick filled  a pipe  he took from his pocket and

lighted it.  After the first few  whiffs he  took it from his mouth, and, with a droll look across at  Verrian, said,

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If Verrian was going to talk of this thing, he was not going to do  it  with the burden of any sort of reserve or

contrivance on his soul.  "This  afternoon?"  Bushwick nodded; and Verrian added, "That was  she."  Then he

went on, wrathfully: "She's a girl who has to make her  living, and she's  doing it in a new way that she's

invented for  herself.  She has supposed  that the stupid rich, or the lazy rich, who  want to entertain people may

be willing to pay for ideas, and she  proposes to supply the ideas for a  money consideration.  She's not a  guest

in the house, and she won't take  herself on a society basis at  all.  I don't know what her history is, and  I don't

care.  She's a  lady by training, and, if she had the accent, I  should say she was  from the South, for she has the

enterprise of the  South that comes  North and tries to make its living.  It's all  inexpressibly none of my

business, but I happen to be knowing to so much  of the case, and if  you're knowing to anything else, Mr.

Bushwick, I want  you to get it  straight.  That's why I'm talking of it, and not because I  think  you've any right

to know anything about it." 

"Thank you," Bushwick returned, unruffled.  "It's about what Miss  Macroyd  told me.  That's the reason I don't

want the ghostdance to  fail." 

Verrian did not notice him.  He found it more important to say:  "She's  so loyal to Mrs. Westangle that she

wouldn't have wished, in  Mrs.  Westangle's interest, to have her presence, or her agency in what  is  going on,

known; but, of course, if Mrs. Westangle chooses to, tell  it,  that's her affair." 

"She would have had to tell it, sooner or later, Mrs. Westangle  would;  and she only told it to Miss Macroyd

this afternoon on  compulsion, after  Miss Macroyd and I had seen you in the woodroad,  and Mrs. Westangle

had  to account for the young lady's presence there  in your company.  Then  Miss Macroyd had to tell me; but I

assure you,  my dear fellow, the matter  hasn't gone any further." 

"Oh, it's quite indifferent to me," Verrian retorted.  "I'm nothing  but  a dispassionate witness of the situation." 

"Of course," Bushwick assented, and then he added, with a bonhomie  really  so amiable that a man with even

an unreasonable grudge could  hardly  resist it, "If you call it dispassionate." 

Verrian could not help laughing.  "Well, passionate, then.  I don't  know  why it should be so confoundedly

vexatious.  But somehow I would  have  chosen Miss Macroyd Is shy specially dear to you?" 

"Not the least!" 

"I would have chosen her as the last person to have the business,  which  is so inexpressibly none of my

business" 

"Or mine, as I think you remarked," Bushwick interposed. 

"Come out through," Verrian concluded, accepting his interposition  with a  bow. 

"I see what you mean," Bushwick said, after a moment's thought.  "But,  really, I don't think it's likely to go

further.  If you want  to know,  I believe Miss Macroyd feels the distinction of being in the  secret so  much that

she'll prefer to hint round till Mrs. Westangle  gives the thing  away.  She had to tell me, because I was there

with  her when she saw you  with the young lady, to keep me from going with  my curiosity to you.  Come, I do

think she's honest about it." 

"Don't you think they're rather more dangerous when they're  honest?" 

"Well, only when they're obliged to be.  Cheer up!  I don't believe  Miss  Macroyd is one to spoil sport." 


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"Oh, I think I shall live through it," Verrian said, rather  stiffening  again.  But he relaxed, in rising from his

chair, and said,  "Well, good  night, old fellow.  I believe I shall go to bed now." 

"You won't wait for me till my pipe's out?" 

"No, I think not.  I seem to be just making it, and if I waited I  might  lose my grip."  He offered Bushwick a

friendly hand. 

"Do you suppose it's been my soothing conversation?  I'm like the  actor  that the doctor advised to go and see

himself act.  I can't talk  myself  sleepy." 

"You might try it," Verrian said, going out. 

XVIII.

The men who had talked of going away on Thursday seemed to have  found it  practicable to stay.  At any rate,

they were all there on the  Saturday  night for the ghostseeing, and, of course, none of the women  had gone.

What was more remarkable, in a house rather full of girls,  nobody was  sick; or, at least, everybody was well

enough to be at  dinner, and, after  dinner, at the dance, which impatiently, if a  little ironically, preceded  the

supernatural part of the evening's  amusement.  It was the decorum of  a woman who might have been expected

not to have it that Mrs. Westangle  had arranged that the evening's  amusement should not pass the bound

between Saturday night and Sunday  morning.  The supper was to be later,  but that was like other eating  and

drinking on the Sabbath; and it was to  be a cold supper. 

At halfpast ten the dancing stopped in the foyer and the  drawingroom,  and by eleven the guests were all

seated fronting the  closed doors of the  library.  There were not so many of them but that  in the handsome

space  there was interval enough to lend a desired  distance to the apparitions;  and when the doors were slid

aside it was  applausively found that there  was a veil of gauze falling from the  roof to the floor, which

promised  its aid in heightening the coming  mystery.  This was again heightened by  the universal ignorance as

to  how the apparitions were to make their  advents and on what terms. 

It was with an access of a certain nervous anxiety that Verrian  found  himself next Miss Macroyd, whose

frank goodfellowship first  expressed  itself in a pleasure at the chance which he did not share,  and then

extended to a confidential sympathy for the success of the  enterprise  which he did not believe she felt.  She

laughed, but 'sotto  voce', in  bending her head close to his and whispering, "I hope she'll  be equal to  her 'mise

en scene'.  It's really very nice.  So simple."  Besides the  gauze veil, there was no preparation except in the

stretch of black  drapery which hid the bookshelves at the farther  wall of the library. 

"Mrs. Westangle's note is always simplicity," Verrian returned. 

"Oh yes, indeed!  And you wish to keep up the Westangle  convention?" 

"I don't see any reason for dropping it." 

"Oh, none in the world," she mocked. 

He determined to push her, since she had tried to push him, and he  asked,  "What reason could there be?" 

"Now, Mr. Verrian, asking a woman for a reason!  I shall begin to  think  some one else wrote your book, too!

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Verrian wished he had not tried to push Miss Macroyd, and he was  still  grinding his teeth in a vain endeavor

to get out some fit retort  between  them, when he saw Bushwick shuffling to his feet, in the front  row of the

spectators, and heard him beginning a sort of speech. 

"Ladies and gentlemen: Mrs. Westangle has chosen me, because a  real  estate broker is sometimes an

auctioneer, and may be supposed to  have the  gift of oratory, to make known the conditions on which you  may

interview  the ghosts which you are going to see.  Anybody may do  it who will comply  with the conditions.  In

the first place, you have  got to be serious, and  to think up something that you would really  like to know about

your past,  present, or future.  Remember, this is  no joking matter, and the only  difference between the ghost

that you  will see here and a real  materialization under professional auspices  is that the ghost won't  charge you

anything.  Of course, if any lady  or gentlemanespecially  ladywishes to contribute to any charitable

object, after a satisfactory  interview with the ghost, a hat will be  found at the halldoor for the  purpose, and

Mrs. Westangle will choose  the object: I have put in a  special plea for my own firm, at a season  when the

realestate business  is not at its best."  By this time  Bushwick had his audience laughing,  perhaps the more

easily because  they were all more or less in a  hysterical mood, which, whether we own  it or not, is always

induced by an  approximation to the supernatural.  He frowned and said, "NO laughing!"  and then they

laughed the more.  When he had waited for them to be quiet  he went on gravely, "The  conditions are simply

these: Each person who  chooses may interview the  ghost, keeping a respectful distance, but not  so far off but

that the  ghost can distinctly hear a stage whisper.  The  question put must be  seriously meant, and it must be

the question which  the questioner  would prefer to have answered above everything else at the  time being.

Certain questions will be absolutely ruled out, such as,  'Does Maria  love me?' or, 'Has Reuben ever been

engaged before?'  The  laughter  interrupted the speaker again, and Verrian hung his head in rage  and  shame;

this stupid ass was spoiling the hope of anything beautiful in  the spectacle and turning it into a gross

burlesque.  Somehow he felt  that the girl who had invented it had meant, in the last analysis,  something

serious, and it was in her behalf that he would have liked  to  choke Bushwick.  All the time he believed that

Miss Macroyd, whose  laugh  sounded above the others, was somehow enjoying his indignation  and  divining

its reason. 

"Other questions, touching intemperance or divorce, the questioner  will  feel must not be asked; though it isn't

necessary to more than  suggest  this, I hope; it will be left entirely to the good taste and  good feeling  of

theparty.  We all know what the temptations of South  Dakota and the  rum fiend are, and that to err is

human, and forgive  divine."  He paused,  having failed to get a laugh, but got it by  asking, confidentially,

"Where was I?  Oh!"he caught himself up" I  remember.  Those of you  who are in the habit of seeing

ghosts need not  be told that a ghost never  speaks first; and those who have never met  an apparition before,

but are  in the habit of going to the theatre,  will recall the fact that in W.  Shakespeare's beautiful play of

'Hamlet' the play could not have gone on  after the first scene if  Horatio had not spoken to the ghost of

Hamlet's  father and taken the  chances of being snubbed.  Here there are no chances  of that kind; the  chances

are that you'll wish the ghost had not been  entreated: I think  that is the phrase." 

In the laugh that followed a girl on Miss Macroyd's other hand  audibly  asked her, "Oh, isn't he too funny?" 

"Delicious!" Miss Macroyd agreed.  Verrian felt she said it to vex  him,. 

"Now, there's just one other point," Bushwick resumed, "and then I  have  done.  Only one question can be

allowed to each person, but if  the  questioner is a lady she can ask a question and a half, provided  she is  not

satisfied with the answer.  In this case, however, she will  only get  half an answer.  Now I have done, and if my

arguments have  convinced any  one within the sound of my voice that our ghost really  means business,  I shall

feel fully repaid for the pains and expense of  getting up these  few impromptu remarks, to which I have

endeavored to  give a humorous  character, in order that you may all laugh your laugh  out, and no  unseemly

mirth may interrupt the subsequent proceedings.  We will now  have a little music, and those who can recall

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In the giggling and chatter which ensued the chords softly played  passed  into ears that might as well have

been deaf; but at last there  was a  general quiescence of expectation, in which every one's eyes  were  strained

to pierce through the gauze curtain to the sombre  drapery  beyond.  The wait was so long that the tension

relaxed and a  whispering  began, and Verrian felt a sickness of pity for the girl who  was probably  going to

make a failure of it.  He asked himself what  could have happened  to her.  Had she lost courage?  Or had her

physical strength, not yet  fully renewed, given way under the stress?  Or had she, in sheer disgust  for the turn

the affair had been given  by that brute Bushwick, thrown up  the whole business?  He looked round  for Mrs.

Westangle; she was not  there; he conjecturedhe could only  conjecturethat she was absent  conferring

with Miss Shirley and  trying to save the day. 

A long, deeply sighed "Ohhhh!" shuddering from many lips made  him turn  abruptly, and he saw,

glimmering against the pall at the  bottom of the  darkened library, a figure vaguely white, in which he

recognized a pose,  a gesture familiar to him.  For the others the  figure was It, but for him  it was preciously

She.  It was she, and she  was going to carry it  through; she was going to triumph, and not fail.  A lump came

into his 96  throat, and a mist blurred his eyes, which,  when it cleared again, left  him staring at nothing. 

A girl's young voice uttered the common feeling, "Why, is that  all?" 

"It is, till some one asks the ghost a question; then it will  reappear,"  Bushwick rose to say.  "Will Miss

Andrews kindly step  forward and ask the  question nearest her heart?" 

"Oh no!" the girl answered, with a sincerity that left no one quite  free  to laugh. 

"Some other lady, then?" Bushwick suggested.  No one moved, and he  added,  "This is a difficulty which had

been foreseen.  Some gentleman  will step  forward and put the question next his heart."  Again no one  offered

to go  forward, and there was some muted laughter, which  Bushwick checked.  "This difficulty had been

foreseen, too.  I see that  I shall have to make  the first move, and all that I shall require of  the audience is that I

shall not be supposed to be in collusion with  the illusion.  I hope that  after my experience, whatever it is, some

young woman of courage will  follow." 

He passed into the foyer, and from that came into the library,  where he  showed against the dark background

in an attitude of entreaty  slightly  burlesqued.  The ghost reappeared. 

"Shall I marry the woman I am thinking of?" he asked. 

The phantom seemed to hesitate; it wavered like a pale reflection  cast  against the pall.  Then, in the tones

which Verrian knew, the  answer  came: 

"Ask her.  She will tell you." 

The phantom had scored a hit, and the applause was silenced with  difficulty; but Verrian felt that Miss

Shirley had lost ground.  It  could  not have been for the easy cleverness of such a retort that she  had  planned

the affair.  Yet, why not?  He was taking it too  seriously.  It  was merely business with her. 

"And I haven't even the right to half a question more!" Bushwick  lamented, in a dramatized dejection, and

crossed slowly back from the  library to his place. 

"Why, haven't you got enough?" one of the men asked, amidst the gay  clamor of the women. 

The ghost was gone again, and its evanescence was discussed with  ready  wonder.  Another of the men went

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dismay.  "I forgot what I was going to ask, he faltered. 

"I know what it was," the apparition answered.  "You had better  sell." 

"But they say it will go to a hundred!" the man protested. 

"No backtalk, Rogers!"  Bushwick interposed.  "That was the  understanding. 

"But we didn't understand," one of the girls said, coming to the  rescue,  "that the ghost was going to answer

questions that were not  asked.  That  would give us all away." 

"Then the only thing is for you to go and ask before it gets a  chance to  answer," Bushwick said. 

"Well, I will," the girl returned.  And she swept round into the  library,  where she encountered the phantom

with a little whoop as it  started into  sight before her.  "I'm not going to be scared out of  it!" she said,  defiantly.

"It's simply this: Did the person I suspect  really take the  ring." 

The answer came, "Look on the floor under your dressingtable!" 

"Well, if I find it there," the girl addressed the company, "I'm a  spiritualist from this time forth."  And she

came back to her place,  where she remained for some time explaining to those near how she had  lately lost

her ring and suspected her maid, whom she had dismissed. 

Upon the whole, the effect was serious.  The women, having once  started,  needed no more urging.  One after

another they confronted and  questioned  the oracle with increasing sincerity. 

Miss Macroyd asked Verrian, "Hadn't you better take your chance and  stop  this flow of fatuity, Mr. Verrian?" 

"I'm afraid I should be fatuous, too," he said.  "But you?" 

"Oh, thank you, I don't believe in ghosts, though this seems to be  a very  pretty onevery graceful, I mean.  I

suppose a graceful woman  would be  graceful even when a disembodied spirit.  I should think she  would be

getting a little tried with all this questioning; but perhaps  we're only  reading the fatigue into her.  The ghost

may be merely  overdone." 

"It might easily be that," Verrian assented. 

"Oh, may I ask it something now?" a girl's voice appealed to  Bushwick.  It was the voice of that Miss

Andrews who had spoken first,  and first  refused to question the ghost.  She was the youngest of Mrs.

Westangle's  guests, and Verrian had liked her, with a sense of  something precious in  the prolongation of a

child's unconsciousness  into the consciousness of  girlhood which he found in her.  She was  always likelier

than not to say  the thing she thought and felt,  whether it was silly and absurd, or  whether, as also happened,

there  was a touch of inspired significance in  it, as there is apt to be in  the talk of children.  She was laughed at,

but she was liked, and the  freshness of her soul was pleasant to the  girls who were putting on  the world as

hard as they could.  She could be  trusted to do and say  the unexpected.  But she was considered a little  morbid,

and certainly  she had an exaltation of the nerves that was at  times almost beyond  her control. 

"Oh, dear!" Miss Macroyd whispered.  "What is that strange  simpleton  going to do, I wonder?" 

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The girl, having got her courage together, fluttered with it from  her  place round to the ghost's in a haste that

expressed a fear that  it might  escape her if she delayed to put it to the test.  The phantom  was already  there, as

if it had waited her in the curiosity that  followed her.  They  were taking each other seriously, the girl and the

ghost, and if the  ghost had been a veridical phantom, in which she  could have believed with  her whole soul,

the girl could not have  entreated it more earnestly, more  simply. 

She bent forward, in her slim, tall figure, with her hands  outstretched,  and with her tender voice breaking at

times in her  entreaty.  "Oh, I  don't know how to begin," she said, quite as if she  and the phantom were  alone

together, and she had forgotten its  supernatural awfulness in a  sense of its human quality.  "But you will

understand, won't you!  You'll  think it very strange, and it is very  unlike the others; but if I'm going  to be

serious" 

The white figure stood motionless; but Verrian interpreted its  quiet as a  kindly intelligence, and the girl made

a fresh start in a  note a little  more piteous than before.  "It's about thethe truth.  Do you think if  sometimes

we don't tell it exactly, but we wish we  had very, very much,  it will come round somehow the same as if we

had  told it?" 

"I don't understand," the phantom answered.  "Say it againor  differently." 

"Can our repentance undo it, or make the falsehood over into the  truth?" 

"Never!" the ghost answered, with a passion that thrilled to  Verrian's  heart. 

"Oh, dear!" the girl said; and then, as if she had been going to  continue, she stopped. 

"You've still got your halfquestion, Miss Andrews," Bushwick  interposed. 

"Even if we didn't mean it to deceive harmfully?" the girl pursued.  "If it was just on impulse, something we

couldn't seem to help, and we  didn't see it in its true light at the time" 

The ghost made no answer.  It stood motionless. 

"It is offended," Bushwick said, without knowing the Shakespearian  words.  "You've asked it three times half

a question, Miss Andrews.  Now, Mr.  Verrian, it's your turn.  You can ask it just onequarter of  a question.

Miss Andrews has used up the rest of your share." 

Verrian rose awkwardly and stood a long moment before his chair.  Then he  dropped back again, saying,

dryly, "I don't think I want to  ask it  anything." 

The phantom sank straight down as if sinking through the floor, but  lay  there like a white shawl trailed along

the bottom of the dark  curtain. 

"And is that all?" Miss Macroyd asked Verrian.  "I was just getting  up my  courage to go forward.  But now, I

suppose" 

"Oh, dear!" Miss Andrews called out.  "Perhaps it's fainted.  Hadn't we  better" 

There were formless cries from the women, and the men made a  crooked rush  forward, in which Verrian did

not join.  He remained  where he had risen,  with Miss Macroyd beside him. 

"Perhaps it's only a coup de theatre!" she said, with her laugh.  "Better  wait." 


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Bushwick was gathering the prostrate figure up.  "She has fainted!"  he  called.  "Get some water, somebody!" 

XIX.

The early Monday morning train which brought Verrian up to town was  so  very early that he could sit down

to breakfast with his mother only  a  little later than their usual hour. 

She had called joyfully to him from her room, when she heard the  rattling  of his key as he let himself into the

apartment, and, after  an exchange  of greetings, shouted back and forth before they saw each  other, they  could

come at once to the history of his absence over  their coffee.  "You must have had a very good time, to stay so

long.  After you wrote  that you would not be back Thursday, I expected it  would be Saturday till  I got your

telegram.  But I'm glad you stayed.  You certainly needed the  rest." 

"Yes, if those things are ever a rest."  He looked down at his cup  while  he stirred the coffee in it, and she

studied his attitude, since  she  could not see his face fully, for the secret of any vital change  that  might have

come upon him.  It could be that in the interval since  she had  seen him he had seen the woman who was to

take him from her.  She was  always preparing herself for that, knowing that it must come  almost as  certainly

as death, and knowing that with all her  preparation she should  not be ready for it.  "I've got rather a long  story

to tell you and  rather a strange story," he said, lifting his  head and looking round, but  not so impersonally that

his mother did  not know well enough to say to  the Swedish servingwoman: 

"You needn't stay, Margit.  I'll give Mr. Philip his breakfast.  Well!"  she added, when they were alone. 

"Well," he returned, with a smile that she knew he was forcing, "I  have  seen the girl that wrote that letter." 

"Not Jerusha Brown?" 

"Not Jerusha Brown, but the girl all the same." 

"Now go on, Philip, and don't miss a single word!" she commanded  him,  with an imperious breathlessness.

"You know I won't hurry you or  interrupt you, but you mustyou really musttell me everything.  Don't

leave out the slightest detail." 

"I won't," he said.  But she was aware, from time to time, that she  was  keeping her word better than he was

keeping his, in his account of  meeting Miss Shirley and all the following events. 

"You can imagine," he said, "what a sensation the swooning made,  and the  commotion that followed it." 

"Yes, I can imagine that," she answered.  But she was yet so  faithful  that she would not ask him to go on. 

He continued, unasked, "I don't know just how, now, to account for  its  coming into my head that it was Miss

Andrews who was my unknown  correspondent.  I suppose I've always unconsciously expected to meet  that

girl, and Miss Andrews's hypothetical case was psychologically so  parallel" 

"Yes, yes!" 

"And I've sometimes been afraid that I judged it too harshlythat  it was  a mere girlish freak without any sort

of serious import." 

"I was sometimes afraid so, Philip.  But" 


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"And I don't believe now that the hypothetical case brought any  intolerable stress of conscience upon Miss

Shirley, or that she  fainted  from any cause but exhaustion from the general ordeal.  She  was still  weak from

the sickness she had been throughtoo weak to  bear the strain  of the work she had taken up.  Of course, the

catastrophe gave the whole  surface situation away, and I must say that  those rather banal young  people

behaved very humanely about it.  There  was nothing but interest of  the nicest kind, and, if she is going on

with her career, it will be easy  enough for her to find engagements  after this." 

"Why shouldn't she go on?" his mother asked, with a suspicion which  she  kept well out of sight. 

"Well, as well as she could explain afterwards, the catastrophe  took her  work out of the category of business

and made her acceptance  in it a  matter of sentiment." 

"She explained it to you herself?" 

"Yes, the general sympathy had penetrated to Mrs. Westangle, though  I  don't say that she had been more than

negatively indifferent to Miss  Shirley's claim on her before.  As it was, she sent for me to her room  the next

morning, and I found Miss Shirley alone there.  She said Mrs.  Westangle would be down in a moment." 

Now, indeed, Mrs. Verrian could not govern herself from saying, "I  don't  like it, Philip." 

"I knew you wouldn't.  It was what I said to myself at the time.  You  were so present with me that I seemed to

have you there  chaperoning the  interview."  His mother shrugged, and he went on: "She  said she wished to  tell

me something first, and then she said, "I want  to do it while I have  the courage, if it's courage; perhaps it's

just  desperation.  I am  Jerusha Brown." 

His mother began, "But you said" and then stopped herself. 

"I know that I said she wasn't, but she explained, while I sat  there  rather mum, that there was really another

girl, and that the  other girl's  name was really Jerusha Brown.  She was the daughter of  the postmaster in  the

village where Miss Shirley was passing the  summer.  In fact, Miss  Shirley was boarding in the postmaster's

family, and the girls had become  very friendly.  They were reading my  story together, and talking about  it,

and trying to guess how it would  come out, just as the letter said,  and they simultaneously hit upon  the notion

of writing to me.  It seemed  to them that it would be a  good jokeI'm not defending it, mother, and I  must

say Miss Shirley  didn't defend it, eitherto work upon my feelings  in the way they  tried, and they didn't

realize what they had done till  Armiger's  letter came.  It almost drove them wild, she said; but they had  a  lucid

interval, and they took the letter to the girl's father and told  him what they had done.  He was awfully severe

with them for their  foolishness, and said they must write to Armiger at once and confess  the  fact.  Then they

said they had written already, and showed him the  second  letter, and explained they had decided to let Miss

Brawn write  it in her  person alone for the reason she gave in it.  But Miss  Shirley told him  she was ready to

take her full share of the blame,  and, if anything came  of it, she authorized him to put the whole blame  on

her." 

Verrian made a pause which his mother took for invitation or  permission  to ask, "And was he satisfied with

that?" 

"I don't know.  I wasn't, and it's only just to Miss Shirley to say  that  she wasn't, either.  She didn't try to justify

it to me; she  merely said  she was so frightened that she couldn't have done  anything.  She may have  realized

more than the Brown girl what they  had done." 

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"I don't believe he did.  At any rate, he was satisfied with what  his  daughter had done in owning up." 

"Well, I always liked that girl's letter.  And did they show him  your  letter?" 

"It seems that they did." 

"And what did he say about that?" 

"I suppose, what I deserved.  Miss Shirley wouldn't say,  explicitly.  He  wanted to answer it, but they wouldn't

let him.  I  don't know but I  should feel better if he had.  I haven't been proud  of that letter of  mine as time has

gone on, mother; I think I behaved  very narrowmindedly,  very personally in it." 

"You behaved justly." 

"Justly?  I thought you had your doubts of that.  At any rate, I  had when  it came to hearing the girl accusing

herself as if she had  been guilty of  some monstrous wickedness, and I realized that I had  made her feel so." 

"She threw herself on your pity!" 

"No, she didn't, mother.  Don't make it impossible for me to tell  you  just how it was." 

"I won't.  Go on." 

"I don't say she was manly about it; that couldn't be, but she was  certainly not throwing herself on my pity,

unlessunless" 

"What?" 

"Unless you call it so for her to say that she wanted to own up to  me,  because she could have no rest till she

had done so; she couldn't  put it  behind her till she had acknowledged it; she couldn't work; she  couldn't  get

well." 

He saw his mother trying to consider it fairly, and in response he  renewed his own resolution not to make

himself the girl's advocate  with  her, but to continue the dispassionate historian of the case.  At  the  same time

his memory was filled with the vision of how she had  done and  said the things he was telling, with what

pathos, with what  grace, with  what beauty in her appeal.  He saw the tears that came  into her eyes at  times and

that she indignantly repressed as she  hurried on in the  confession which she was voluntarily making, for  there

was no outward  stress upon her to say anything.  He felt again  the charm of the  situation, the sort of warmth

and intimacy, but he  resolved not to let  that feeling offset the impartiality of his story. 

"No, I don't say she threw herself on your mercy," his mother said,  finally.  "She needn't have told you

anything." 

"Except for the reason she gavethat she couldn't make a start for  herself till she had done so.  And she has

got her own way to make;  she  is poor.  Of course, you may say her motive was an obsession, and  not a

reason." 

"There's reality in it, whatever it is; it's a genuine motive,"  Mrs.  Verrian conceded. 

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Apparently his mother did not find it so.  She asked, "What had  been the  matter with her, did she say?" 

"In her long sickness?  Oh!  A nervous fever of some sort." 

"From worrying about that experience?" 

Verrian reluctantly admitted, "She said it made her want to die.  I  don't  suppose we can quite realize" 

"We needn't believe everything she said to realize that she  suffered.  But girls exaggerate their sufferings.  I

suppose you told  her not to  think of it any more?" 

Verrian gave an odd laugh.  "Well, not unconditionally.  I tried to  give  her my point of view.  And I stipulated

that she should tell  Jerusha  Brown all about it, and keep her from having a nervous fever,  too." 

"That was right.  You must see that even cowardice couldn't excuse  her  selfishness in letting that girl take all

the chances." 

"And I'm afraid I was not very unselfish myself in my  stipulations,"  Verrian said, with another laugh.  "I think

that I  wanted to stand well  with the postmaster." 

There was a note of cynical ease in this which Mrs. Verrian found  morally  some octaves lower than the pitch

of her son's habitual  seriousness in  what concerned himself, but she could not make it a  censure to him.  "And

you were able to reassure her, so that she  needn't think of it any more?" 

"What would you have wished me to do?" he returned, dryly.  "Don't  you  think she had suffered enough?" 

"Oh, in this sort of thing it doesn't seem the question of  suffering.  If there's wrong done the penalty doesn't

right it." 

The notion struck Verrian's artistic sense.  "That's true.  That  would  make the 'donnee' of a strong story.  Or a

play.  It's a drama  of fate.  It's Greek.  But I thought we lived under another  dispensation." 

"Will she try to get more of the kind of thing she was doing for  Mrs.  Westangle at once?  Or has she some

people?" 

"No; only friends, as I understand." 

"Where is she from?  Up country?" 

"No, she's from the South." 

"I don't like Southerners!" 

"I know you don't, mother.  But you must honor the way they work  and get  on when they come North and

begin doing for themselves.  Besides, Miss  Shirley's family went South after the war" 

"Oh, not even a REAL Southerner!" 

"Mother!" 

"I know!  I'm not fair.  I ought to beg her pardon.  And I ought to  be  glad it's all over.  Shall you see her again?" 


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"It might happen.  But I don't know how or when.  We parted  friends, but  we parted strangers, so far as any

prevision of the  future is concerned,"  Verrian said. 

His mother drew a long breath, which she tried to render inaudible.  "And the girl that asked her the strange

questions, did you see her  again?" 

"Oh yes.  She had a curious fascination.  I should like to tell you  about  her.  Do you think there's such a thing as

a girl's being too  innocent?" 

"It isn't so common as not being innocent enough." 

"But it's more difficult?" 

"I hope you'll never find it so, my son," Mrs. Verrian said.  And  for the  first time she was intentionally

personal.  "Go on." 

"About Miss Andrews?" 

"Whichever you please." 

"She waylaid me in the afternoon, as I was coming home from a walk,  and  wanted to talk with me about Miss

Shirley." 

"I suppose Miss Shirley was the day's heroine after what had  happened?" 

"The halfday's, or quarterday's heroine, perhaps.  She left on  the  church train for town yesterday morning

soon after I saw her.  Miss  Andrews seemed to think I was an authority on the subject, and  she  approached me

with a largeeyed awe that was very amusing, though  it was  affecting, too.  I suppose that girls must have

many worships  for other  girls before they have any worship for a man.  This girl  couldn't  separate Miss

Shirley, on the lookout for another engagement,  from the  psychical part she had played.  She raved about her;

she  thought she was  beautiful, and she wanted to know all about her and  how she could help  her.  Miss

Andrews's parents are rich but  respectable, I understand, and  she's an only child.  I came in for a  share of her

awe; she had found out  that I was not only not Verrian  the actor, but an author of the same  name, and she had

read my story  with passionate interest, but apparently  in that unliterary way of  many people without noticing

who wrote it; she  seemed to have thought  it was Harding Davis or Henry James; she wasn't  clear which.  But

it  was a good deal to have had her read it at all in  that house; I don't  believe anybody else had, except Miss

Shirley and  Miss Macroyd." 

Mrs. Verrian deferred a matter that would ordinarily have  interested her  supremely to an immediate curiosity.

"And how came she  to think you  would know so much about Miss Shirley?" 

Verrian frowned.  "I think from Miss Macroyd.  Miss Macroyd seems  to have  taken a grandmotherly concern

in my affairs through the whole  week.  Perhaps she resented having behaved so piggishly at the station  the day

we came, and meant to take it out of Miss Shirley and myself.  She had  seen us together in the woods, one

day, and she must have  told it about.  Mrs. Westangle wouldn't have spoken of us together,  because she never

speaks of anything unless it is going to count; and  there was no one else  who knew of our acquaintance." 

"Why, my son, if you went walking in the woods with the girl, any  one  might have seen you." 

"I didn't.  It was quite by accident that we met there.  Miss  Shirley was  anxious to keep her presence in the

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Mrs. Verrian would not take any but the open way, with this.  She  would  not deal indirectly, with it, or in any

wise covertly or  surreptitiously.  "It seems to me that Miss Shirley has rather a  fondness for secrecy," she  said. 

"I think she has," Verrian admitted.  "Though, in this case, it was  essential to the success of her final scheme.

But she is a curious  study.  I suppose that timidity is at the bottom of all fondness for  secrecy, isn't it?" 

"I don't know.  She doesn't seem to be timid in everything." 

"Say it out, mother!" Verrian challenged her with a smile.  "You're  not  timid, anyway!" 

"She had the courage to join in that letter, but not the courage to  own  her part in it.  She was brave enough to

confess that she had been  sick  of a nervous fever from the answer you wrote to the Brown girl,  but she

wouldn't have been brave enough to confess anything at all if  she had  believed she would be physically or

morally strong enough to  keep it." 

"Perhaps nobodynobody but you, motheris brave in the right time  and  place." 

She knew that this was not meant in irony.  "I am glad you say  that,  Philip." 

"It's only your due.  But aren't you a little too hard upon  cowards, at  times?  For the sort of person she is, if you

infer the  sort from the  worst appearance she has made in the whole business, I  think she has done  pretty

well." 

"Why had she left the Brown girl to take all your resentment alone  for  the last six or eight months?" 

"She may have thought that she was getting her share of the  punishment in  the fever my resentment brought

on?" 

"Philip, do you really believe that her fever, if she had one, came  from  that?" 

"I think she believes it, and there's no doubt but she was badly  scared." 

"Oh, there's no doubt of that!" 

"But come, mother, why should we take her at the worst?  Of course,  she  has a complex nature.  I see that as

clearly as you do.  I don't  believe  we look at her diversely, in the smallest particular.  But why  shouldn't  a

complex nature be credited with the same impulses towards  the truth as  a single nature?  Why shouldn't we

allow that Miss  Shirley had the same  wish to set herself right with me as Miss Andrews  would have had in

her  place?" 

"I dare say she wished to set herself right with you, but not from  the  same wish that Miss Andrews would

have had.  Miss Andrews would  not have  wished you to know the truth for her own sake.  Her motive  would

have  been directstraight." 

"Yes; and we will describe her as a straight line, and Miss Shirley  as a  waving line.  Why shouldn't the

waving line, at its highest  points, touch  the same altitude as the straight line?" 

"It wouldn't touch it all the time, and in character, or nature, as  you  call it, that is the great thing.  It's at the

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"Well, I don't deny that.  But I'm anxious to be just to a person  who  hasn't experienced a great deal of mercy

for what, after all,  wasn't such  a very heinous thing as I used to think it.  You must  allow that she  wasn't

obliged to tell me anything about herself." 

"Yes, she was, Philip.  As I said before, she hadn't the physical  or  moral strength to keep it from you when she

was brought face to  face with  you.  Besides" Mrs. Verrian hesitated. 

"Out with it, mother!  We, at least, won't have any concealments." 

"She may have thought, she could clinch it in that way." 

"Clinch what?" 

"You know.  Is she pretty?" 

"She'sinteresting." 

"That can always be managed.  Is she tall?" 

"NO, I think she's rather out of style there; she's rather petite." 

"And what's her face like?" 

"Well, she has no particular complexion, but it's not thick.  Her  eyes  are the best of her, though there isn't

much of them.  They're  the  'waters on a starry night' sort, very sweet and glimmering.  She  has a  kind of

groundcolored hair and a nice little chin.  Her mouth  helps her  eyes out; it looks best when she speaks; it's

pathetic in  the play of the  lips." 

"I see," Mrs. Verrian said. 

XX.

The following week Verrian and his mother were at a show of  paintings, in  the gallery at the rear of a dealer's

shop, and while  they were bending  together to look at a picture he heard himself  called to in a girlish  voice,

"Oh, Mr. Verrian!" as if his being there  was the greatest wonder  in the world. 

His mother and he lifted themselves to encounter a tall, slim girl,  who  was stretching her hand towards him,

and who now cried out,  joyously,  "Oh, Mr. Verrian, I thought it must be you, but I was afraid  it wasn't as

soon as I spoke.  Oh, I'm so glad to see you; I want so  much to have you  know my motherMr. Verrian," she

said, presenting  him. 

"And I you mine," Verrian responded, in a violent ellipse, and  introduced  his own mother, who took in the

fact of Miss Andrews's tall  thinness,  topped with a wide, white hat and waving white plumes, and  her little

face, irregular and somewhat gaunt, but with a charm in the  lips and eyes  which took the elder woman's heart

with pathos.  She  made talk with Mrs.  Andrews, who affected one as having the materials  of social severity in

her costume and manner. 

"Oh, I didn't believe I should ever see you again," the girl broke  out  impulsively upon Verrian.  "Oh, I wanted

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"No," Verrian said, "I haven't seen her." 

"Oh, I thought perhaps you had.  I've been to the address that Mrs.  Westangle gave me, but she isn't there any

more; she's gone up into  Harlem somewhere, and I haven't been able to call again.  Oh, I do  feel  so anxious

about her.  Oh, I do hope she isn't ill.  Do you think  she  is?" 

"I don't believe so," Verrian began.  But she swept over his  prostrate  remark. 

"Oh, Mr. Verrian, don't you think she's wonderful?  I've been  telling  mother about it, and I don't feel at all the

way she does.  Do  you?" 

"How does she feel?  I must know that before I say." 

"Why, of course!  I hadn't told you!  She thinks it was a makeup  between  Miss Shirley and that Mr.

Bushwick.  But I say it couldn't  have been.  Do  you think it could?" 

Verrian found the suggestion so distasteful, for a reason which he  did  not quite seize himself, that he

answered, resentfully, "It could  have  been, but I don't think it was." 

"I will tell her what you say.  Oh, may I tell her what you say?" 

"I don't see why you shouldn't.  It isn't very important, either  way, is  it?" 

"Oh, don't you think so?  Not if it involved pretending what wasn't  true?" 

She bent towards him in such anxious demand that he could not help  smiling. 

"The whole thing was a pretence, wasn't it?" he suggested. 

"Yes, but that would have been a pretence that we didn't know of." 

"It would be incriminating to that extent, certainly," Verrian  owned,  ironically.  He found the question of Miss

Shirley's blame for  the  collusion as distasteful as the supposition of the collusion, but  there  was a fascination

in the innocence before him, and he could not  help  playing with it. 

Sometimes Miss Andrews apparently knew that he was playing with her  innocence, and sometimes she did

not.  But in either case she seemed  to  like being his jest, from which she snatched a fearful joy.  She  was

willing to prolong the experience, and she drifted with him from  picture  to picture, and kept the talk

recurrently to Miss Shirley and  the  phenomena of Seeing Ghosts. 

Her mother and Mrs. Verrian evidently got on together better than  either  of them at first expected.  When it

came to their parting,  through Mrs.  Andrews's saying that she must be going, she shook hands  with Mrs.

Verrian and said to Philip, "I am so glad to have met you,  Mr. Verrian.  Will you come and see us?" 

"Yes, thank you," he answered, taking the hand she now offered him,  and  then taking Miss Andrews's hand,

while the girl's eyes glowed with  pleasure.  "I shall be very glad." 

"Oh, shall you?" she said, with her transparent sincerity.  "And  you  won't forget Thursdays!  But any day at

five we have tea." 

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Miss Andrews laughed and blushed at once.  "Then we shall expect  you  every day." 

"Well, every day but Thursday," he promised. 

When the mother and daughter had gone Mrs. Verrian said, "She is a  great  admirer of yours, Philip.  She's

read your story, and I suspect  she wants  an opportunity to talk with you about it." 

"You mean Mrs. Andrews?" 

"Yes.  I suppose the daughter hasn't waited for an opportunity.  The  mother had read that publisher's paragraph

about your invalid,  and wanted  to know if you had ever heard from her again.  Women are  personal in  their

literary interests." 

Philip asked, in dismay, "You didn't give it away did you, mother?" 

"Certainly not, my dear.  You have brought me up too carefully." 

"Of course.  I didn't imagine you had." 

Then, as they could not pretend to look at the pictures any longer,  they  went away, too.  Their issue into the

open air seemed fraught  with novel  emotion for Mrs. Verrian.  "Well, now," she said, "I have  seen the woman

I would be willing my son should marry." 

"Child, you mean," Philip said, not pretending that he did not know  she  meant Miss Andrews. 

"That girl," his mother returned, "is innocence itself.  Oh,  Philip,  dear, do marry her!" 

"Well, I don't know.  If her mother is behaving as sagely with her  as you  are with me the chances are that she

won't let me.  Besides, I  don't know  that I want to marry quite so much innocence." 

"She is conscience incarnate," his mother uttered, perfervidly.  "You could put your very soul in her keeping." 

"Then you would be out of a job, mother." 

"Oh, I am not worthy of the job, my dear.  I have always felt that.  I am  too complex, and sometimes I can't see

the right alone, as she  could." 

Philip was silent a moment while he lost the personal point of  view.  "I suspect we don't see the right when we

see it alone.  We  ought to see  the wrong, too." 

"Ah, Philip, don't let your fancy go after that girl!" 

"Miss Andrews?  I thought" 

"Don't you be complex, my dear.  You know I mean Miss Shirley.  What has  become of her, I wonder.  I heard

Miss Andrews asking you." 

"I wasn't able to tell her.  Do you want me to try telling you?" 

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Philip laughed sardonically.  "Now, I shall forget Thursdays and  all the  other days, too.  You are a very unwise

parent, mother." 

They laughed with each other at each other, and treated her  enthusiasm  for Miss Andrews as the joke it partly

was.  Mrs. Verrian  did not follow  him up about her idol, and a week or so later she was  able to affect a  decent

surprise when he came in at the end of an  afternoon and declined  the cup of tea she proposed on the ground

that  he had been taking a cup  of tea with the Andrewses.  "You have really  been there?" 

"Didn't you expect me to keep my promise?" 

"But I was afraid I had put a stumblingblock in the way." 

"Oh, I found I could turn the consciousness you created in me into  literary material, and so I was rather eager

to go.  I have got a  point  for my new story out of it.  I shall have my fellow suffer all I  didn't  suffer in meeting

the girl he knows his mother wants him to  marry.  I got  on very well with those ladies.  Mrs. Andrews is the

mother of innocence,  but she isn't innocence.  She managed to talk of  my story without asking  about the

person who wanted to anticipate the  conclusion.  That was what  you call complex.  She was insincere; it  was

the only thing she wanted to  talk about." 

"I don't believe it, Philip.  But what did Miss Andrews talk  about?" 

"Well, she is rather an optimistic conscience.  She talked about  books  and plays that some people do not think

are quite proper.  I  have a  notion that, where the point involved isn't a fact of her own  experience,  she is not

very severe about it.  You think that would be  quite safe for  me?" 

"Philip, I don't like your making fun of her!" 

"Oh, she wasn't insipid; she was only limpid.  I really like her,  and,  as for reverencing her, of course I feel that

in a way she is  sacred."  He added, after a breath, " Too sacred.  We none of us can  expect to  marry Eve before

the Fall now; perhaps we have got over  wanting to." 

"You are very perverse, my dear.  But you will get over that." 

"Don't take away my last defence, mother." 

Verrian began to go rather regularly to the Andrews house, or, at  least,  he was accused of doing it by Miss

Macroyd when, very  irregularly, he  went one day to see her.  "How did you know it?" he  asked. 

"I didn't say I knew it.  I only wished to know it.  Now I am  satisfied.  I met another friend of yours on

Sunday."  She paused for  him to ask who;  but he did not ask.  "I see you are dying to know what  friend: Mr.

Bushwick." 

"Oh, he's a goodfellow.  I wonder I don't run across him." 

"Perhaps that's because you never call on Miss Shirley."  Miss  Macroyd  waited for this to take effect, but he

kept a glacial surface  towards  her, and she went on: 

"They were walking together in the park at noon.  I suppose they  had been  to church together." 

Verrian manifested no more than a polite interest in the fact.  He  managed so well that he confirmed Miss

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he, for that matter.  Why don't you ask if they inquired for  you?" 

"I thought you would tell me without." 

"I will tell you if he did.  He was very cordial in his inquiries;  and I  had to pretend, to gratify him, that you

were very well.  I  implied that  you came here every Tuesday, but your Thursdays were  dedicated to Miss

Andrews." 

"You are a clever woman, Miss Macroyd.  I should never have thought  of so  much to say on such an

uninteresting subject.  And Miss Shirley  showed no  curiosity?" 

"Ah, she is a clever woman, too.  She showed the prettiest kind of  curiosityso perfectly managed.  She has a

studioI don't know just  how  she puts it to usewith a painter girl in one of those studio  apartment  houses

on the West Side: The Veronese, I believe.  You must  go and see  her; I'll let you have next Tuesday off;

Tuesday's her day,  too." 

"You are generosity itself, Miss Macroyd." 

"Yes, there's nothing mean about me," she returned, in slang rather  older  than she ordinarily used.  "If you're

not here next Tuesday I  shall know  where you are." 

"Then I must take a good many Tuesdays off, unless I want to give  myself  away." 

"Oh, don't do that, Mr. Verrian!  Please!  Or else I can't let you  have  any Tuesday off." 

XXI.

Upon the whole, Verrian thought he would go to see Miss Shirley the  next  Tuesday, but he did not say so to

Miss Macroyd.  Now that he knew  where  the girl was, all the peculiar interest she had inspired in him

renewed  itself.  It was so vivid that he could not pay his usual  Thursday call at  Miss Andrews's, and it filled

his mind to the  exclusion of the new story  he had begun to write.  He loafed his  mornings away at his club,

and he  lunched there, leaving his mother to  lunch alone, and was dreamily  preoccupied in the evenings which

he  spent at home, sitting at his desk,  with the paper before him, unable  to coax the thoughts from his brain to

its alluring blank, but restive  under any attempts of hers to talk with  him. 

In his desperation he would have gone to the theatre, but the fact  that  the ass who rightfully called himself

Verrian was playing at one  of them  blocked his way, through his indignation, to all of them.  By  Saturday

afternoon the tedious time had to be done something with, and  he decided  to go and see what the ass was like. 

He went early, and found himself in the end seat of a long row of  many  rows of women, who were

prolonging the time of keeping their hats  on till  custom obliged them to take them off.  He gave so much

notice  to the  woman next him as to see that she was deeply veiled as well as  widely  hatted, and then he lapsed

into a dreary muse, which was broken  by the  first strains of the overture.  Then he diverted himself by  looking

round  at all those ranks of women lifting their arms to take  out them hatpins  and dropping them to pin their

hats to the  seatbacks in front of them,  or to secure them somehow in their laps.  Upon the whole, he thought

the  manoeuvre graceful and pleasing; he  imagined a consolation in it for the  women, who, if they were forced

by public opinion to put off their  charming hats, would know how  charmingly they did it.  Each turned a  little,

either her body or her  head, and looked in any case out of the  corner of her eyes; and he was  phrasing it all

for a scene in his story,  when he looked round at his  neighbor to see how she had managed, or was  managing,

with her veil.  At the same moment she looked at him, and their  eyes met. 


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"Mr. Verrian!" 

"Miss Shirley!" 

The stress of their voices fell upon different parts of the  sentences  they uttered, but did not commit either of

them to a special  role. 

"How very strange we should meet here!" she said, with pleasure in  her  voice.  "Do you know, I have been

wanting to come all winter to  see this  man, on account of his name?  And to think that I should meet  the other

Mr. Verrian as soon as I yielded to the temptation." 

"I have just yielded myself," Verrian said.  "I hope you don't feel  punished for yielding." 

"Oh, dear, no!  It seems a reward." 

She did not say why it seemed so, and he suggested, "The privilege  of  comparing the histrionic and the

literary Verrian?" 

"Could there be any comparison?" she came back, gayly. 

"I don't know.  I haven't seen the histrionic Verrian yet." 

They were laughing when the curtain rose, and the histrionic  Verrian had  his innings for a long, long first act.

When the curtain  fell she turned  to the literary Verrian and said, "Well?" 

"He lasted a good while," Verrian returned. 

"Yes.  Didn't he?"  She looked at the little watch in her wristlet.  "A whole hour!  Do you know, Mr. Verrian, I

am going to seem very  rude.  I am going to leave you to settle this question of superiority;  I know  you'll be

impartial.  I have an appointmentwith the  dressmaker, to be  specificat halfpast four, and it's halfpast

three now, and I couldn't  well leave in the middle of the next act.  So I will say goodbye now" 

"Don't!" he entreated.  "I couldn't bear to be left alone with this  dreadful double of mine.  Let me go out with

you." 

"Can I accept such selfsacrifice?  Well!" 

She had put on her hat and risen, and he now stepped out of his  place to  let her pass and then followed her.  At

the street entrance  he suggested,  "A hansom, or a simple trolley?" 

"I don't know," she murmured, meditatively, looking up the street  as if  that would settle it.  "If it's only

halfpast three now, I  should have  time to get home more naturally." 

"Oh!  And will you let me walk with you?" 

"Why, if you're going that way." 

"I will say when I know which way it is." 

They started on their walk so blithely that they did not sadden in  the  retrospect of their joint experiences at

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the end of their retrospect that she made an offer of  letting him  leave her, a very tacit offer, but unmistakable,

if he  chose to take it.  He interpreted her hesitation as he chose.  "No," he  said, "it won't be  any longer if we go

up through the park." 

She drew in her breath softly, smoothing down her muff with her  right  hand while she kept her left in it.  "And

it will certainly be  pleasanter."  When they were well up the path, in that part of it  where  it deflects from the

drive without approaching the street too  closely,  and achieves something of seclusion, she said: 

"Your speaking of him just now makes me want to tell you something,  Mr.  Verrian.  You would hear of it

very soon, anyway, and I feel that  it is  always best to be very frank with you; but you'll regard it as a  secret

till it comes out." 

The currents that had been playing so warmly in and out of  Verrian's  heart turned suddenly cold.  He said,

with joyless mocking,  "You know,  I'm used to keeping your secrets.  Ishall feel honored,  I'm sure, if  you

trust me with another." 

"Yes," she returned, pathetically, "you have always been  faithfuleven  in your wounds."  It was their joint

tribute to the  painful past, and  they had paid no other.  She was looking away from  him, but he knew she  was

aware of his hanging his head.  "That's all  over now," she uttered,  passionately.  "What I wanted to sayto

tell  youis that I am engaged  to Mr. Bushwick." 

He could have answered that she had no need to tell him.  The cold  currents in and out of his heart stiffened

frozenly and ceased to  flow;  his heart itself stood still for an eternal instant.  It was in  this  instant that he said,

"He is a fine fellow."  Afterwards, amid  the wild  bounding of his recovered pulse, he could add, "I

congratulate him; I  congratulate you both." 

"Thank you," she said.  "No one knows as I do how good he ishas  been,  all through."  Probably she had not

meant to convey any reproach  to  Verrian by Bushwick's praise, but he felt reproach in it.  "It only  happened

last week.  You do wish me happy, don't you?  No one knows  what  a winter I have had till now.  Everything

seeming to fail" 

She choked, and did not say more.  He said, aimlessly, "I am  sorry" 

"Let me sit down a moment," she begged.  And she dropped upon the  bench  at which she faltered, and rested

there, as if from the  exhaustion of  running.  When she could get her breath she began again:  "There is

something else I want to tell you." 

She stopped.  And he asked, to prompt her, "Yes?" 

"Thank you," she answered, piteously.  And she added, with  superficial  inconsequence, "I shall always think

you were very cruel." 

He did not pretend not to know what she meant, and he said, "I  shall  always think so, too.  I tried to revenge

myself for the hurt  your  harmless hoax did my vanity.  Of course, I made believe at the  time that  I was doing

an act of justice, but I never was able to brave  it out  afterwards." 

"But you wereyou were doing an act of justice.  I deserved what  you  said, but I didn't deserve what has

followed.  I meant no harmit  was a  silly prank, and I have suffered for it as if it were a crime,  and the

consequences are not ended yet.  I should think that, if there  is a moral  government of the universe, the Judge

of all the earth  would know when to  hold his hand.  And now the worst of it is to come  yet."  She caught

Verrian's arm, as if for help. 


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"Don'tdon't!" he besought her.  "What will people think?" 

"Yes, Yes!" she owned, releasing him and withdrawing to the other  end of  the seat. 

"But it almost drives me wild.  What shall I do?  You ought to  know.  It  is your fault.  You have frightened me

out of daring to tell  the truth." 

Had he, indeed, done that?  Verrian asked himself, and it seemed to  him  that he had done something like it.  If

it was so, he must help  her over  her fear now.  He answered, bluntly, harshly: "You must tell  him all  about

it" 

"But if he won't believe me?  Do you think he will believe me?  Would you  believe me?" 

"You have nothing to do with that.  There is nothing for you but to  tell  him the whole story.  You mustn't share

such a secret with any  one but  your husband.  When you tell him it will cease to be my  secret." 

"Yes, yes." 

"Well, then, you must tell him, unless" 

"Yes," she prompted. 

Then they were both silent, looking intensely into each other's  eyes.  In  that moment all else of life seemed to

melt and swim away  from Verrian  and leave him stranded upon an awful eminence confronting  her. 

"Hello, hello!" a gay voice called, as if calling to them both.  "What  are you two conspiring?" Bushwick, as

suddenly as if he had  fallen from  the sky or started up from the earth, stood before them,  and gave a hand  to

eachhis right to Verrian, his left to Miss  Shirley.  "How are you,  Verrian ?  How are you, Miss Shirley?"  He

mocked her in the formality of  his address.  "I've been shadowing you  ever since you came into the park,  but I

thought I wouldn't interrupt  till you seemed to have got through  your conversation.  May I ask what  it was all

about?  It seemed very  absorbing, from a respectful  distance." 

"Very absorbing, indeed," Miss Shirley said, making room for him  between  them.  "Sit down and let me tell

you.  You're to be a partner  in the  secret." 

"Silent partner," Bushwick suggested. 

"I hope you'll always be silent," the girl shared in his drolling.  She began and told the whole story to the last

detail, sparing neither  herself nor Verrian, who listened as if he were some one else not  concerned, and kept

saying to himself, "what courage!"  Bushwick  listened  as mutely, with a face that, to Verrian's eye, seemed to

harden from its  light jocosity into a severity he had not seen in it  before.  "It was  something," she ended

towards Bushwick, with a catch  in her breath,  "that you had to know." 

"Yes," he answered, tonelessly. 

"And nowshe attempted a little forlorn playfulness"don't you  think he  gave me what I deserved?" 

Bushwick rose up and took her hand under his arm, keeping his left  hand  upon hers. 

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"Mr. Verrian." 

"I don't know any Mr. Verrian.  Come, you'll take cold here." 

He turned his back on Verrian, who fancied a tremor in her hat, as  if she  would look round at him; but then,

as if she divined Bushwick's  intention, she did not look round, and together they left him. 

It was days before Verrian could confess himself of the fact to his  mother, who listened with the justice

instinctive in her.  She still  had  not spoken when he ended, and he said, "I have thought it all  over, and I  feel

that he did right.  He did the only thing that a man  in love with  her could do.  And I don't wonder he's in love

with her.  Yes"he stayed  his mother, imperatively"and such a man as he,  though he ground me in  the dirt

and stamped on me, I will say, it, is  worthy of any woman.  He  can believe in a woman, and that's the first

thing that's needed to make  a woman like her, true.  I don't envy his  job."  He was speaking self

contradictorily, irrelevantly,  illogically, as a man thinks.  He went on  in that way, getting himself  all out.  "She

isn't singlehearted, but  she's faithful.  She'll never  betray him now.  She's never given him any  reason to

distrust her.  She's the kind that can keep on straight with  any one she's begun.  straight with.  She told him all

that before me be  cause she wanted me  to knowto realizethat she had told him.  It took  courage." 

Mrs. Verrian had thought of generalizing, but she seized a single  point.  "Perhaps not so much courage as you

think.  You mustn't let  such bravado  impose upon you, Philip.  I've no doubt she knew her  ground." 

"She took the chance of his casting her off." 

"She knew he wouldn't.  She knew him, and she knew you.  She knew  that if  he cast her off" 

"Mother!  Don't say it!  I can't bear it!" 

His mother did not say it, or anything more, then.  Late at night  she  came to him.  "Are you asleep, Philip?" 

"Asleep?  I!" 

"I didn't suppose you were.  But I have had a note today which I  must  answer.  Mrs. Andrews has asked us to

dinner on Saturday.  Philip, if you  could see that sweet girl as I do, in all her goodness  and sincerity" 

"I think I do, mother.  And I wouldn't be guilty of her unhappiness  for  the world.  You must decline." 

Well, perhaps you are right."  Mrs. Verrian went away, softly,  sighing.  As she sealed her reply to Mrs.

Andrews, she sighed again,  and made the  reflection which a mother seldom makes with regard to her  son,

before his  marriage, that men do not love women for their  goodness. 


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